Posts by quietwalker97

Seriously though, why are we even getting so worked up about this topic? Is there actually a licensed psychologist or a doctor in the house? And all these claims about mental illness... what are you guys even trying to prove here???
Has anyone here ever actually sat down with a psychotherapist? Or maybe even gone through therapy yourself?
Most of the time, the whole experience just ends with them prescribing some heavy meds meant to "calm you down." Honestly, one of those prescriptions made me feel so incredibly sick I legit thought I was going to die. It didn't help at all—instead of fixing your head, they just drug you into oblivion.

I honestly don't know if there's even a team out there in the States that could actually help. Taylor Brown61 you make a great point—first off, you have to own up to the fact that the problem exists and that you actually want to fix it. But man, that's just the tip of the iceberg... I don't know, it’s so hard to explain what it feels like when a "period" hits to someone who hasn't lived through it themselves. Like, I'm fully aware that what I'm doing to myself isn't healthy, but I just can't seem to stop. My brain just shuts down...

Look, I just embraced it this way because it made living with everything a little easier. Trust me, people, it’s not as simple as just saying, "Okay, I'm done with that!" I am fighting this battle with myself every single day. To make things a bit more manageable, I started looking at it like a bad habit I needed to kick. But honestly? It feels way more like an addiction. No doctor, no matter how great they are, can just reach into your head and flick a switch to make it go away. It's all in the brain, right there in your head. You can go through endless psychotherapy sessions or visit specialists, but at the end of the day, those people aren't *you*. To them, it's just a job. Isn't the most important thing finding someone who actually gets you, someone who can truly empathize and genuinely wants to help? You just don't get that kind of connection from our doctors. Maybe a therapeutic group would actually be more helpful—somewhere you could be around people who have actually made it out on the other side. But as far as I know, Libella isn't even around anymore, and I'm not sure about any others. There are so many disorders out there, but nobody wants to face them or even admit they exist. I've decided to try and break out of this vicious cycle on my own as best as I can. But hey, change is slow, and it takes time...

It's me again! Honestly, it’s pretty wild seeing how many "normal" people have jumped into this discussion. Like, what is it about Eating Disorders that fascinates everyone so much?
As I mentioned before, I’ve been dealing with bulimia for a long time now, and I’m pushing 30. I know the whole Little Red Riding Hood story by heart—I could probably tell it myself! But here’s the thing: I was never actually overweight, and I didn't start struggling with bulimia just to look like some skinny supermodel. Let's be real here, though—it's almost impossible to stay thin with bulimia. When you have an episode, you eat, you purge, then comes the hunger pangs, the bingeing, and more purging until you're totally exhausted or there's simply no food left. And let's face it, you can't completely empty your stomach; some of that food stays behind and nourishes your body. That’s just an extreme example of bulimic behavior. For me, I usually eat normally during the day. In fact, I actually try to eat healthy—good quality meat, fish, salads, yogurt, fruit. But sometimes, once evening hits, I give in to certain foods that I just *have* to throw up. Also, when I'm dealing with PMS, I totally lose it; I just can't control myself. During those times, I don't even eat "normally"—it's just sweets, bread, chocolate, you name it. So, I wouldn't say I'm obsessed with my looks; I'm not trying to look like some model on TV or in a magazine, and it isn't even a priority in my life. I am slim, sure, but mostly because I stay pretty active—that's actually one of the ways I started finding some psychophysical balance (which is huge if you're trying to kick bulimia). I'm actually in great shape; I go jogging regularly, about 5.0 miles every other day, plus swimming, biking, trekking... If I only did bulimic episodes, I’d probably look totally haggard and drained, or maybe I'd even be heavy.
I think I probably use bulimia to "solve" psychological or emotional problems. Maybe that's exactly the issue, because I love it when things in my life feel "put together." I'm a big fan of order and routine. So, when I start feeling like I'm losing control over life's events, I just swing to the complete opposite extreme—total chaos—which shows up as these episodes.
Eating Disorders like this are such complex messes because, over time, they become part of who you are and part of your life, to the point where it feels impossible to imagine living any other way. That’s why I’m telling you, Dr. Škoro isn't going to help. Seriously, if you have even a shred of intelligence or basic nutritional knowledge, you'll see through her immediately, or at least very quickly. And honestly, that might just discourage you even more, because you'll think, "If a self-proclaimed 'expert' like this can't actually help me, what hope do I have?" I felt so pathetic when I realized she was just conning people. It made me so angry! What was she thinking? Did she really think she could just sell smoke to anyone? I might even go as far as to say the people from Herbalife sound more convincing. At least for the same price, they actually give you some meal replacements.

Yeah, look, everyone’s got their own take on things—people can claim whatever they want, right? I'm really not trying to badmouth anyone or be a hater here, honestly! I'm just speaking from my own personal experience dealing with that doctor. But hey, if someone actually wants to throw away their precious time and hard-earned cash, go ahead... be my guest!

So, Little Red Riding Hood—I see you're planning on paying a visit to that "super doctor" lady!
Listen, before you actually go through with it, why don't you just ask me anything you want? I can give you her whole "program" if you want, and then you can decide for yourself.
Trust me, there is zero point in paying for something that isn't actually worth a dime. With that old lady, it really just comes down to one thing: how much cash she can squeeze out of you. Like, seriously, she's out here promising you a meal plan that'll magically solve all your problems forever. It actually just reminded me of one of her little tricks—along with the diet, she handed me this list of vitamins and minerals that were supposed to "strengthen" my system. She was especially pushy about getting me on Twinlab Diet fuel, spinning this whole tale about how they're these incredible American vitamins with timed-release technology. Since you can't just find them at any local drugstore, I went looking in a specialty shop, and the pharmacist looked at me like I had two heads when I asked for them! She couldn't believe I thought they were vitamins when they're actually just weight loss pills. And honestly? That's just one of her little gems. Once you see what she looks like, her whole theory about "non-fattening" diets will make total sense—the woman looks like Miss Piggy about to have a heart attack.
She charges $100/h, and that's just for selling you pure smoke and mirrors. For that kind of money, you could go to the dentist and get something tangible—like, I don't know, a new filling or something.

After reading through this whole discussion above, I just couldn't help myself—I had to jump in! I've been "fighting" Eating Disorders for years now. Actually, calling it a fight feels a bit off; it’s more like I just live with it. It’s been thirteen years at this point. So, if anyone out there thinks they can just tackle this solo, honestly? You're mistaken. Also, speaking from my own experience, finding a doctor here in the States—like a real psychiatrist, a nutritionist, or anyone who actually knows how to help—is nearly impossible. Someone mentioned Dr. Škoro earlier? Whatever you do, don't fall for her bait. I actually went to therapy with her, and let me tell you, the only thing she successfully helped with was lightening my wallet! I wasn't even mad about the money, but man, was I disappointed. She was the one person I truly opened up to, the one I gave all my trust to. But it turns out the only thing that "expert" is good at is taking advantage of poor souls who, out of fear and shame, see her as their last shot at recovery. I really think she charges way too much just to sell you basic theories about insulin levels or how food affects hormones and all that. When it comes to nutrition, I’m basically a walking encyclopedia. Someone mentioned how people with bulimia get obsessed with food? Well, in my attempt to help myself, I've read mountains of literature; I know almost everything there is to know about food. But none of that matters when you hit a "crisis." There are certain triggers that just force these episodes on you, making it a constant cycle. It's probably super hard for "normal" people to understand—I don't know, it’s been a long time since I felt truly normal and healthy. But despite this illness—which is absolutely exhausting, both mentally and physically—I've managed to succeed in everything I've started in my real life. I’m going to finish college, land a great job, maintain a steady relationship, prove myself professionally, and I'll be starting my own business soon! Yet, the bulimia is still there. As the years go by, maybe just to make life easier on myself, I've started accepting it as part of who I am, part of my character. Because despairing over what I secretly do sometimes only pushed me toward the edge of depression... that horrible sense of guilt is just too much. I have so much more to share with you guys, but I'm running low on time right now. Anyway, Little Red Riding Hood, don't lose hope! Dr. Škoro did tell me that bulimia is way more common than any of us realize; she says that out of every 10 girls you pass on the street, 3 are definitely dealing with some kind of disorder—whether it's bulimia, anorexia, or binge eating. And, yeah, one more thing—I started this because I wanted to control my weight, but eventually, you end up using bulimia to deal with emotional problems.