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Schizophrenia - General Discussion in Psychology & Therapy ·
Giving up isn't really an option. If we can keep her principles intact while she's home, we can make this work... It’s just that I have this nagging dread about seeing or hearing from her right now. In the past, when she went through these episodes, things would usually settle down by the next day and things would feel relatively "okay." But after this latest incident, she hasn't snapped out of it. She isn't acting wild like she was that night, but from what I can tell, she's still stuck in a very negative headspace. Her sister stopped by to check on her, but her mother quickly told her to leave. She still doesn't want anyone near her or touching her... and that's what worries me. These states used to pass much more quickly. I just really hope this isn't becoming her new permanent reality. 😢
Schizophrenia - General Discussion in Psychology & Therapy ·
It’s honestly overwhelming—sad, terrifying, and surreal all at once. Sometimes it feels like I'm watching a movie; one part of me is fully present, while the other feels like I'm just drifting through a dream. I'll admit, I'm a little scared that this might become her permanent reality. It’s not even just about schizophrenia; seeing how deeply this illness can tear someone apart is eye-opening. The mind is such a fragile thing, especially when everything descends into chaos. It’s hard on us, sure, but I can't help but wonder what she's actually going through. It feels strange that she's experiencing this now. We never imagined things would reach this point. We thought maybe Alzheimer's, since she had those brief lapses in memory before, but this is different. Her whole life has been an uphill battle, even just being at peace with herself. I find myself wondering why things didn't break like this sooner, especially since these issues don't typically surface so heavily after age 30 or 40. Honestly, I think I might need to find a therapist myself; I can't just sit here typing forever xD, but I really feel the need to talk things through.
Schizophrenia - General Discussion in Psychology & Therapy ·
Honestly, I can still see her face so clearly in my mind... it was haunting. She was a completely different person. That look in her eyes—it was pure aggression, just raw and feral. Between the cursing, the sheer audacity, the paranoia, and that heavy, tragic tension in the air, it was intense. But looking back at that awful situation, I actually had to stifle a laugh when my dad grabbed her by the hands. She started screaming at him to let go, but the second he did, she switched gears and started whimpering about how much pain he was causing her. From where I was standing, he was being as gentle as possible. Once he finally released her, she kept up this "victim" act, but for a split second, I caught her staring at him with such malice, like she wanted to tear him apart, before snapping right back to that pathetic, sorrowful expression. When I called her out on the nonsense, the bitterness flashed across her face again—not directed at me, though; she was mostly just rude to my dad and my sister. It was pure hatred. Anyway, on the way to the local diner, she either dropped her wallet or tossed it somewhere. We might actually head over to the facility today to check on her regarding her medication. Since everything has been handed over to the state, I figure it’s fine even if they have to sedate her a bit. As much as it sucks, maybe that's the only way to help her right now. I am glad there are other people in similar situations there, which might be good for her, but the staff concerns me. They can be so tactless sometimes. :/ Does anyone know if there are any private clinics or specialized facilities in the area where she could stay instead?
Schizophrenia - General Discussion in Psychology & Therapy ·
She... honestly, it’s like she was possessed by some kind of demon...
Schizophrenia - General Discussion in Psychology & Therapy ·
We’re calling 911 right now because she’s completely lost it. Paramedics and the police are on their way... honestly, I'm shaking like a leaf.
Schizophrenia - General Discussion in Psychology & Therapy ·
The old order from the psychic finally arrived on October 14th. I won't get into the specifics of how that went down. My dad is really struggling with it; honestly, it seems to be weighing heavily on him. I think the hardest part for him is feeling like his mother views him as the enemy, even if there’s some logic behind her attitude. He gets incredibly frustrated when she just won't listen to him. She’s still living in her own world—walking barefoot through the grass, throwing spoons into the yard because she got annoyed, tossing the blood pressure monitor in the trash... you never know what else she might do. Sometimes it makes me sad, sometimes it scares me, and occasionally, it’s actually just plain funny. She makes these incredibly cunning statements, almost acting as if the doctors haven't figured anything out yet. I've noticed she tends to slip into certain "roles" sometimes. Is it typical with schizophrenia for someone to feel like they can't move their arm, or believe they can't speak? That happens to her occasionally. Her recent interests are pretty wild, too; she's obsessed with local urban legends, spends all her time studying atlases, and goes on about things like the harp, frequencies, and whatnot. I suspect it’s just everything she’s ever read or heard bubbling up to the surface of her conscious mind all at once. Does that sound right? Oh, and the most fascinating part: the other day, she wrote something in Arabic. Just three letters that were supposedly someone's name. It's surreal, especially since she doesn't have any affinity for the Middle East or their alphabet. I don't know how to explain it, nezz, but it's as baffling as watching someone suddenly start speaking a language they've never studied.
Schizophrenia - General Discussion in Psychology & Therapy ·
David Vaughn75 said:Look, stress and all the general crap life throws at you definitely bump up the odds of someone breaking, but it’s not a guarantee. You could be carrying a gene for psychosis your whole life and never experience a single episode because, hey, maybe your life is actually going smoothly for once.
Hmm... so you guys are basically functioning normally once you're on meds? What's it like when you aren't taking them—when the hallucinations start kicking in and all that? Are you even aware that what you're seeing isn't actually real?

The whole debate over what's "real" versus "unreal" isn't really the business of psychiatric science. I mean, seriously—try telling a devout Muslim that Muhammad didn't receive the Quran from an angel, or go tell some Christians that Jesus didn't walk on water or turn water into wine, or tell Buddhists that reincarnation is total bunk. It doesn't work like that.

The core issue with psychosis is that people experiencing it simply *cannot* stop obsessing over their delusions. They can't just pivot their focus or redirect their thoughts to something else—it’s physically impossible. That's why antipsychotics are actually about mental freedom. They give a patient the ability to finally occupy themselves with normal, everyday activities again, and honestly, it would be a massive win if they also started questioning the absolute nonsense their brain is feeding them.

I truly believe stress plays a part. She's been under constant pressure her whole life, and going through menopause right now definitely adds another heavy layer to it all...

How do you all deal with this, or how have you handled family members facing this? When they start with the delusions and paranoia, I understand intellectually that it's just her mind misfiring, but sometimes her comments genuinely shake me or leave me feeling confused and even a bit scared. Like yesterday, I was scrolling through YouTube and the video skipped ahead when I wasn't even touching the playlist. She gave me this intense look and asked, "Huh? Why do you think that happened?" Honestly, I didn't know how else to react besides using sarcasm—it's basically my defense mechanism. xD But in all seriousness, I found myself wondering if the video actually did skip on its own. I know it's not what she claims, but then again, what if it was? I feel like I should be the stable one, but instead, I end up spiraling right along with her.
Schizophrenia - General Discussion in Psychology & Therapy ·
Michelle Evans said:Solomon, please, let's move past the old wives' tales and neighborhood gossip. Even science doesn't have all the answers yet. Schizophrenia doesn't necessarily have to come from a parent who has it; it can appear in someone where it hasn't been seen in the family for generations. It isn't just about genetics; there are many different factors at play. Honestly, it’s complicated, and it might not be worth stressing yourself out over, IMO.

Focus instead on supporting your mother in a practical way. If she's experiencing psychosis, then she isn't receiving the right treatment. They told you she was just anxious, but therapy for anxiety is nothing like therapy for psychosis. Until she gets the correct treatment, she won't get better—in fact, things could actually worsen, and it's important you realize that so you don't waste energy. She won't understand if you tell her she's ill, because that's the nature of psychosis; the person loses touch with reality and can't see it any other way until the medication starts working. The right medication...

She needs to see a doctor again (specifically a psychiatrist, not just a general practitioner), and whoever goes with her should provide the medical history. That's standard practice here.

You were telling people they shouldn't try to force others into mental hospitals, yet now you've diagnosed your own mother with sch and are fixated on it. Where is the logic in that? 🤷
Not every psychotic episode means schizophrenia. Psychosis can occur within several different disorders, and as for your mother, she could experience one single episode and never deal with it again.

I'll be spending this week looking after my mother. To be honest, my sister hasn't been much help; she refuses to admit that Mom isn't acting like herself. She insists there’s something else going on—some kind of negative energy or something, I can't quite put my finger on it. Anyway, Dad is going to sit down with her doctor and lay everything out plainly.

So, what does it matter if I’ve diagnosed her? It’s all pretty general anyway. To me, the specifics only matter because I need to get some kind of baseline understanding—honestly, I'm just trying to keep my head above water right now. I started connecting the dots to schizophrenia because so many of the symptoms seem to align perfectly.

Auditory hallucinations—specifically hearing voices—are among the most common symptoms of schizophrenia. These aren't just background noises; they are distinct voices that only the individual can hear. Often, these voices engage in their own conversations, comment on what the person is doing, offer unsolicited advice, or direct criticism toward them.I’ve actually found myself getting into heated arguments with them too, even resorting to some choice words once in a while. Voices don't just whisper; sometimes they give orders. This brings us to what clinicians call imperative hallucinations. They wouldn't even let her walk all the way to the edge of the yard yesterday. On top of that, they had the nerve to tell her she was being messy and needs to do more cleaning. -.-
Hallucinations aren't actually that common. When they do happen, people start seeing things that simply aren't there—anything from strange, flickering lights to more intense visions like monsters or demons. She claims she saw these dark silhouettes, though that doesn't necessarily mean anything was actually there. I know plenty of people who have experienced similar visual distortions or hallucinations. In her case, she’s convinced she saw and heard extraterrestrials arriving for us, even flying right over her house. I sometimes experience somatic hallucinations, which means I feel physical sensations that aren't actually triggered by any real stimulus. For instance, I’ll get this unsettling feeling like my internal organs are shifting around or even disintegrating inside me. Other times, it feels like an electric current is surging through my legs. I often find myself linking these sensations to darker thoughts—like the idea that some unseen force is physically attacking or destroying me. She’s connected it to all sorts of things—claiming people from all over the world are sending her love, or on the flip side, that someone is actively draining her energy. She even mentioned feeling these little "energy vampires" crawling around her legs, trying to suck the life out of her. Honestly, she wouldn't say who sent them... I haven't the slightest clue.
Delusional ideas are essentially false beliefs that lack any basis in reality. They aren't just simple mistakes; they are deep-seated misconceptions built on an irrational foundation. One defining characteristic of a delusion is that it remains stubbornly resistant to logic—you can't simply reason someone out of them. Furthermore, these beliefs usually clash directly with the individual's actual education and their cultural background here in America. When someone is struggling with this level of paranoia, they truly believe they’re being followed, plotted against, or even wiretapped. It reaches a point where they feel like people can read their minds, force unwanted thoughts upon them, or exert total control over their physical movements and emotions. They start believing that invisible forces are pulling the strings or that microchips have been implanted to manipulate them. There's also the tendency to believe they are actually someone else—usually a famous historical figure or a celebrity—or that they possess supernatural abilities. They might even think they're receiving coded messages through the TV, radio, or newspapers. I saw this firsthand recently. She was convinced someone was reading her mind and controlling her every move. At one point, she even tried to use a SIM card she found at work, believing it contained some kind of tracking device. About a week after this behavior started, she became convinced she had the power to heal negative energy just by waving her hands around her body. She claimed this "gift" was left to her by her spirit guide, who she believed had to leave because certain outside forces were destroying their connection. On top of all that, she kept talking about the love of her life, and she's convinced that songs are being used as secret messages sent to her—that people are actually manipulating her movements just to force her to play a specific song meant for her or someone else in our family. One specific type of delusion involves ideas of reference—this is when a patient becomes convinced that other people's actions are directed specifically at them, or that random events and strangers hold some strange, often negative, significance tailored just for them.(For instance, she once claimed that a city bus suddenly swerved toward certain buildings before turning sharply, interpreting the maneuver as a direct warning meant only for her. She insisted everyone on the bus looked bewildered and that even the driver seemed confused by his own driving... then there was the time she pulled into what she called a "positive spot" in a parking lot, claiming voices in her head compelled a driver to charge straight at her and that specific location, though she managed to dodge him. To her, even the driver appeared disoriented, as if he didn't understand why he had driven that way.) It’s similar to how someone might believe that people on a TV show or a radio broadcast are actually talking about them.

And honestly, how can I not suspect schizophrenia? Maybe it's something similar to... well, that time she was thrashing around on the floor like something out of a horror movie. She couldn't even speak back then; she just completely blanked out. The next day, she started falling into these trance-like states where her eyes would roll or squint, her head would drop, and her hands would go numb. That was the hardest part for me to witness, and thankfully, it hasn't happened since, but she still has these paranoid outbursts. She talks to herself, scribbles constantly in notebooks, draws...
Schizophrenia - General Discussion in Psychology & Therapy ·
Larry Lewis said:Don't go spiraling into unnecessary anxiety over this—honestly. I have a genetic predisposition for schizophrenia, yet my younger sister is completely clear, and neither my mom nor my dad shows any signs at all... looks like I hit the jackpot, didn't I?🙂

Though, if God were to ask me who should carry the family burden of this condition, I’d tell Him to just let me take it. I’ve already adjusted to the chaos of it all, and frankly, it's a weight I'm used to carrying.

A friend of mine suggested that I should say an entire generation is being skipped over. What do you all think about that? O.o
Schizophrenia - General Discussion in Psychology & Therapy ·
Larry Lewis said:The illness itself—and the medication, too—makes functioning such an uphill battle because schizophrenia rarely travels alone; you've got depression, OCD, and all sorts of other baggage tagging along. So, even when you aren't in the middle of a full-blown psychotic break, life can still be incredibly difficult.

Man, this is tough... there’s really no easy way to handle this, is there? She’s currently on medical leave, which lasts for another week. She seems convinced she'll be able to head back to work, but I honestly wonder if she can—or if we even should explain to her just how bad things actually are. During a conversation the other day, she casually mentioned that she doesn't have any genetic predisposition for mental health issues like, say, bipolar disorder or schizophrenia. That gave me the impression she's actually been thinking about it... but she just won't admit it.
Schizophrenia - General Discussion in Psychology & Therapy ·
Hmm... so you’re saying you function normally while on medication? What does it feel like when you aren't taking them—when the hallucinations start kicking in and all that? Do you realize at that point that what's happening isn't real? I'm trying to wrap my head around what my mother is going through. She's convinced she's perfectly fine and just happens to have telepathy, allowing her to communicate with people from another dimension who can also read minds... which is one thing, but once the paranoia sets in, things get really freaky. That's when she starts talking to her "team" in her head about everything—her life, our lives, history, politics, even sensitive political topics. She spends hours sketching and scribbling in notebooks; seeing her like that actually reminds me a bit of Da Vinci working on his complex diagrams...
Schizophrenia - General Discussion in Psychology & Therapy ·
David Vaughn75 said:That's a new one for me... I mean, mental illnesses aren't contagious, after all. 🤷

It probably just means schizophrenia has a genetic component, so people living in the same house might carry the gene (which might stay dormant, but then gets triggered by extreme stress)

If we're talking about genetics... does that mean schizophrenia is triggered by high levels of stress?
Schizophrenia - General Discussion in Psychology & Therapy ·
My mom was recently diagnosed with schizophrenia. Based on everything she’s been experiencing, it seems pretty definitive. She’s only seen a psychiatrist once so far, so I need to check when her next appointment is scheduled. Looking back at the diagnosis, it’s clear she wasn't being entirely truthful about her symptoms during that first visit—she was essentially lying about parts of it. Now that I'm researching the symptoms online, it all lines up perfectly. My dad is planning to take her to see the specialist again soon to give them the full story so they can get her started on the right medication. Honestly, this is hitting me incredibly hard. I’ve been reading that these issues typically surface in people between the ages of 15 and 25. My mom is 46, which is older than the typical onset, but I also read that if you have a family member with schizophrenia, your own risk increases. I’m 23 right now, which puts me right in that window. It’s terrifying. I have a young son, and more than anything, I just want to be a stable mother for him. I mean, who wouldn't want that? xD Mom is at home right now, and my sister is mostly staying by her side because this whole situation feels so overwhelming to me. It's frustrating not knowing exactly why this happens or how we're supposed to navigate this new reality. Has anyone else here dealt with a situation where someone else in the family ended up developing the condition too?
Nickname change (read first post!) in Forum Help! ·
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Nickname change (read first post!) in Forum Help! ·
Man, why is it impossible to fully update a profile? I meant for this one to have a completely different vibe, but everyone keeps insisting on linking it back to the sisters... Can I at least swap out "soror" for Lunar? Or maybe Solis? I really don't want to deal with the hassle of building a whole new profile from scratch >__<

Sent via Tapatalk... you feel me?... over.

So what's the end goal here, LunarMystica? Or are we going with Solis?
Dizziness and nausea while smoking in Health ·
Joseph King6 said:Well then, maybe just quit smoking altogether 😉 I mean, what’s even the point if it isn't doing anything for you? 🤷

I know how that feels. When I first started, I felt dizzy and nauseous too. It was mostly because of the crowd I was hanging out with at the time, but eventually, things settled down. I picked up the habit, though I never really developed a heavy addiction, so I actually quit for a while. Nowadays, I only light up occasionally when the mood strikes—and honestly, it’s mostly just because everyone in my house smokes. If it weren't for them, I wouldn't bother; I can't wrap my head around wasting money on a pack of crappy cigarettes when I could just buy myself a decent sandwich instead. ^^