Vent Thread: Let it all out (Negative Energy Dump)

@Maria Cox64/">@@Maria Cox64, who's actually looking out for you? 🙂

I am here to make some quick cash because, frankly, I’m fed up with the entire world. I just stepped off a high from my latest fix, and I really need to brag about it—if I can just hold out until the end of the year, I will get the last laugh against everyone who predicted I’d end up dead from an overdose in some gutter or a public park. Though, let’s be honest, I’ll probably die anyway once ovarian cancer sets in. 😁DDD. At the very least, I have proven to myself that I can achieve anything when I set my mind to it, and that people are essentially garbage who thrive on discrimination and possess very little actual value. I am deeply infuriated by the complete lack of law and order in this backwater country and the way people exploit the uneducated and the disenfranchised.

So, how is it that people like you can be completely morally bankrupt and yet somehow still find themselves being cheered on by the masses? It’s a fascinating contradiction. Are you actually someone worth celebrating based on any standard set of human values, or am I simply the one with a broken moral compass here? Who can really say.

Hold your horses.

What’s the point of all this drama? 🍿

A forum should be a place for some lighthearted banter—maybe even a little teasing—but it shouldn't be a dumping ground for everyone's frustrations 🙂
What do you actually gain from that? 🤷

And for the record, I haven't gone out of my way to step on anyone's toes 🤣
For some reason, it seems like only the total losers want to talk behind my back 🤣

I suppose I’ll have to find someone else to deal with this. Besides, it seems you’re quite content staying right where you are, so there is no need for concern—I certainly won't be bothering you.

If Maria Cox64 decides to walk, I’m walking right out that door too...

Maria Cox64 said:I really need to find someone—honestly—but even if I do, it doesn't matter much. Don't sweat it; I won't be bothering you.

Look, don't worry about it—life is far too short for that kind of nonsense.😉

I’m just so tired of this dissociation stripping away my memories and everything that used to make me feel like a real person.
It feels like dysphoria is constantly stealing the chance for me to experience life the way any other girl does.
Why can't I just be a woman?
Why did I end up being trans?
And why am I not allowed to just be happy, too?
Why does it feel like nothing I try actually works?
Who would ever want someone as lost and useless as I feel right now?
Honestly, I don't even want a relationship; it's probably better if I stay on my own.
Maybe I'm just meant to be alone.
Nothing really seems to matter anymore anyway...

Besides, by tomorrow, I won't even remember writing this...

I honestly wasn't even looking for a BDD right now...
No way, definitely not

Is there any realistic chance for someone living with IBM and dysphoria to land a steady, normal job?

Mark Cruz15 said:If Maria Cox64 leaves, I'm heading out right behind her.

The feeling is mutual.🙂🙂😍

briskfox3 said:I am exhausted by this dissociation stripping away my memories and everything that once defined who I was.
I am tired of dysphoria robbing me of the experiences every other girl gets to have.
Why can't I just be a woman?
Why do I have to be trans?
Why am I denied the chance at happiness?
And why does nothing I try ever seem to work?
Who could ever want someone as useless as me?
Besides, I don't even want a relationship; I'm better off on my own.
It’s better if I just stay alone.
Nothing makes sense anymore anyway...

By tomorrow, I won't even remember writing any of this...

briskfox3, I would really love to meet you... send me a DM first so we can get to know each other online, and if you're up for it, maybe we could meet up in person sometime...

Vuić is finally back on Discord, and apparently Nordungić decided to unblock me too. My two greatest loves, reunited at last...

Maria Cox64 said:briskfox3, I'd really love to get to know you... send me a DM first so we can chat virtually if you're up for it, and then maybe we could even meet up in person if you want...

Just so you know, I'm not actually a real person.

briskfox3 said:I'm not even a real person.

Well, we all have imaginary friends too...

I’ve got zero negative vibes coming from my direction☕

Mark Cruz15 said:I mean, we all have imaginary friends sometimes too.

Oh, don't even get me started on that topic...

I honestly don't get how some people can't grasp this: if I'm not answering my phone, it’s because I'm busy. Period. I have work, I have other commitments, and I just don't have the bandwidth. Leave me alone and find someone else to bother.😠

Where on earth has Darla disappeared to? I was actually planning on catching up with her over cocktails tonight.