Vent Thread: Let it all out (Negative Energy Dump)

I have some new stories in the works; expect more updates shortly...

It is quite a shame that I no longer find myself composing poetry.

I basically nuked my own Maria Cox64 account because you incompetent moderators kept hitting me with those partial bans. I even asked you guys to wipe my Facebook traces from the inbox, but it was like talking to a brick wall... If you want a foolproof way to self-destruct a profile, just mash a few keys really fast. You'll forget it happened in ten minutes or less

Tell that psychology dummy and the rest of those idiot moderators handing out half-baked bans...

Maria Cox64 said:God, thank you for the signs... just thank you.

Rest in peace. 🤣

Can someone please explain what's actually going on with me? I'm tired of them just swapping out my medications every single time instead of giving me real answers.

briskfox3 said:Can someone please just tell me what's actually going on with me? I'm tired of them just swapping my meds every single time without any explanation...

???? Just give it to me straight...

Nicole Moore9 said:Go ahead, tell me everything...

Dissociation, switching, mood swings, gender dysphoria, memory gaps, feeling totally drained and unmotivated, plus those intense flashbacks...

briskfox3 said:Dissociation, switching, mood swings, gender dysphoria, memory loss, zero energy or motivation, flashbacks.....

Come over here and we'll TALK, I once passed out at a bar because I mixed Xanax with alcohol to deal with depression. I took two whole boxes of pills and washed them down with whiskey... the bartender called 911 and they had to pump my stomach.

So, what's the actual diagnosis here?

I write poetry, short stories, and novels... it’s basically my own version of psychotherapy.

Nicole Moore9 said:So, what’s the official diagnosis?

I actually still don't have an official diagnosis yet, even though I've been in therapy for almost a year now.
I mostly write poetry, though I do have one story I'm working on too.
And I try to keep a journal whenever it comes to mind, though I really should do it more often!

Come on, start dropping your poems and stories here... let's turn this thread into our own little psychotherapy session

I only really post over on AllPoetry. Things feel a little too public here for my liking, since anyone can just wander in and read everything.

briskfox3 said:I stick to posting on AllPoetry. This place feels way too public... anyone can just wander in and read everything.

Yeah, definitely gotta be careful. I always forget...

We can just chat in private messages if you'd like!

Jane, I was just sitting here reflecting on how you told me that Microsoft, in coordination with everyone else who signed that petition, would basically push aside my private lawsuit and try to have me declared unfit for court—like, mentally unstable or having some kind of psychological disorder, which is absolutely wild! It feels like there’s been this constant stream of subtle traps being set for me lately, all designed to look like my own actions. For instance, when M. wrote about how Ms. Solomon had been harassed by a certain woman, you guys intentionally misled me by saying Zoe had chased her off because she was unhappy with her work, just so you could frame me as the culprit; you’d claim I was the one responsible because of something I mentioned back in March 2015. Then Zoe would tell me that M. had called multiple times to meet but never actually showed up, just to smear my reputation and lead me astray, or how she claimed she requested specific files that were never released and that termination papers were never sent. Even the NBA was calling her out, asking why she wasn't showing up for meetings, while the CIA was making statements claiming M. keeps changing her contact numbers and isn't responding, or failing to fix issues regarding the bathroom situation, and constantly tagging Zillow. Meanwhile, Microsoft kept nagging about how there was no one to turn to and how she was in danger because of the wiring issues that Natalie didn't fix until after M.'s shift. And then Natalie, she only took photos of my meeting documents just to make it look like I was "chasing the truth," rather than showing your actual involvement, just so she could frame me for accusing her of stealing money—because if she uses my messages, it'll look like I'm the one accusing her instead of you! She sends me these texts about money being taken and theft as if I have any idea what's going on, even though I never once said anyone stole anything; I simply stated that we've been asking for account specifications for two years now without receiving them. On top of that, she pretended to post a notice just so it would look like I was the one who took it down and violated someone's rights, giving her grounds to sue me, even though she herself told me to "hurry up and take the notice down." At the end of the day, the only truth is that I was the one calling M. for over six months, and they only finally showed up once I reached out to PNC, because she was ignoring me and I eventually stopped communicating with her and started dealing with him directly, all while you kept her fully informed.
And Jane, you seem to be forgetting that you actually told PNC, "And feel free to tell her she doesn't need to hold the meeting since we don't want to see her anymore (nobody wants to see her)" on behalf of everyone, and the CIA backed you up on that, though I stayed quiet—mostly because I would never say something like that, nor would I ever take down someone else's notice or restrict a right they are entitled to, even if you were trying to pin that on me! And honestly, the accusations you leveled against her and how you practically attacked a man because of her—essentially acting out a role just to target me... Why? After all, she's the one who got everything fixed in the house through insurance much faster than she originally wanted to because you kept insisting she had no right to do so.
Furthermore, the way you, the CIA, AR, RR, Microsoft, TJ, the NBA, ZP, and yourself deliberately led me into a trap—using intermediaries to nudge me toward committing a criminal act, like forging signatures—is just staggering. You gave false statements about Ms. M. and G., constantly criticizing and insulting them, filling my head with lies and deceptions just so I would tell Natalie to hold a meeting based on those falsehoods. Then, you turn around and say that everything said at that meeting will be used against me to make it look like I'm threatening everyone, claiming that *I* was the one who said there wouldn't be a reprogramming, when in reality, you all agreed and didn't want a reprogramming or Ms. Solomon either.
My dear friends, since you were actively encouraging me to engage in actions that constitute criminal behavior through these collective decisions, that makes you accomplices in the very crime you are trying to pin on me and portray me as some lunatic who doesn't know what she's doing. Since you willfully misled me, I genuinely believed under the circumstances that my actions were permitted; at the time, I had no way of knowing the act was unlawful, and it wasn't something I was responsible for or could have possibly known. In this situation, you are all co-conspirators and participants in the very acts you are trying to charge me with. Bravo!!

I just ran into Dennis and Susan while they were out driving, and get this—he actually had the nerve to tell her how glad he is that things are finally moving forward, clearly making a jab at me and the whole legal process you all have going on against me. He even added, with that smug little grin, "Christmas really is a season of miracles," as if he’s some kind of saint.
It honestly feels like there is this massive, coordinated effort to just wipe us out entirely, to push us to the fringes and finish those endless schemes you've been spinning against us for years now! You're all just desperately trying to manufacture some kind of mistake on my part, hoping the SEC will come down on me just because your own external operations have completely fallen apart. Honestly, can we just have a little bit of integrity for once? Stop with the backstabbing and the dirty little tricks, and please, stop trying to paint me as some paranoid lunatic or someone losing their grip on reality... I know exactly what's happening.