ruggedscout91
Active Member
63 messages
joined Feb 2010
I’ve been looking for these threads again. When a topic is fresh, there's a slim chance someone might actually see it and respond.
On other forums, people discuss these things more often, and women find strength in one another. I never dreamed I would end up needing this surgery. My gynecologist in Miami missed a 20x20x18 fibroid, and suddenly, overnight, I lost my ovaries, uterus, part of my bowel, and survived a massive operation.
Setting all that aside, nobody warned me about the hormonal fallout. Honestly, I was too foolish to even consider it. Now, nothing feels right—except for sex. People tell me how "great" it is that my drive is still there, but that isn't the point. What bothers me is that my husband, our home, the pets, the garden, nature... none of it attracts me anymore. Sex has become a chore I perform just because my husband has become a mere instrument, devoid of any personality or connection. It’s as if I’ve become a man.
The only change is that I buy higher-end creams. I feel a need to groom myself more, to look polished, to buy better clothes. Suddenly, I want expensive perfumes; my old favorites no longer suffice. I am different now. Dissatisfied. Trapped in this situation. I wonder, how did I manage in my marriage? It’s likely psychological. I try to find something that truly interests me, but circumstances force you into a monotonous existence.
Please, reach out and tell me how you are coping. Surely I’m not the only one on this forum facing this. As for the rage I feel toward the doctor who failed me, I won't go there now. I fear losing control, so I avoid that clinic entirely out of dread that I might... I suspect I am not alone in that fear either.