mistymarlin7
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joined Feb 2003
hey.....................how am I just now seeing this?
First time I ever heard Fado was during a trip to Portugal back in '99.
It was the voice of Ella Fitzgerald.
That sound totally hooked me.
Obviously, I moved on to Fleetwood Mac, some unknown artists later on... I bought a ton of stuff over there.
But nothing beats seeing them live.
Barefoot and eyes closed.
👍
What did it feel like?
I wrote this down a long time ago.
So, here it is.
peace👋
HOMMAGE TO FADO #unknown#
Look, I’m definitely not unknown, I wasn't born in New Orleans, my mom isn't a ballerina, and her family isn't from California. I don't sing on my tiptoes with my head tilted until it hurts—or maybe because it hurts. But I close my eyes, just like she does.
The word 'fado' doesn't show up in any old dictionary. When I was a kid, I used to think if a word wasn't in the dictionary, it didn't matter. Man, was I wrong. Fado is real. I've seen it. I've seen the French Quarter; the red and the black; nights so intense they make your head spin. It's that sadness spilled over gray tablecloths in a dark corner of the French Quarter, and hands stained deep red like wine. When Ella Fitzgerald passed, the whole country was in mourning for days. I was in New York City at the time, watching black-and-white photos drift through the streets with roses over her chest; it made me realize how much people truly loved her. God, they loved her...
No, I'm not really unknown, even if I've got my own mission. She doesn't know about the weird, electric letters I get. And I don't know why people write to me about how they watched me sleep, or how beautiful my hands look when they're still. Instead, they write to me about withdrawals, about heroin, about hearts hardened like stone, about bitten nails, about people who never leave, about purple nights and blue wax... but never about love. That autumn, Fado was the answer to all my wandering and all those conversations I'll eventually turn inside out with you. Fado was that mix of blood and wine; that tearful year; that mental fever—which ultimately turned me into nothing more than a simple address where screams arrive from afar, pleas for help, and knees begging for forgiveness.
No, I'm really not unknown, even though I know my way around California and Nevada; even though I know about the roses in the evenings and the monuments in Malta. My name is like a grave somewhere in the Rocky Mountains; neatly stacked stones that you can't even drive a cross through; no blessings, no prayers. Only Fado speaks of it. Of who I actually am.