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Hey everyone.
Long before I ever stepped foot onto a college campus, I was already messing around with this stuff—starting back at the tail end of middle school, taking a little breather during high school, and then it became a constant thing from my junior year all the way through graduation. It wasn't like I was sitting around grinding all day or anything; it was more of a weekend thing, just hitting it hard with the crew.
After high school, I worked for about a year and kept things pretty clean during that stretch. But then college happened. From the very first day I showed up on campus until right now—and I'm finishing up my sophomore year—there hasn't been a single day where I haven't been high for most of the day. I ended up falling in with a crowd that smokes, and I just drifted right into it; honestly, it kind of swallowed me whole.
Lately, though, I’ve started getting a little anxious about my lifestyle and my daily rhythm, especially when it comes to the weed situation.
I can see changes in how I act, and I definitely notice myself acting... well, "dim." Just yesterday, I was talking to this girl I'd only just met, and I decided to be brutally honest with her. I asked, "Do you think I look stoned?" And she didn't hold back—she said yeah, I definitely did.
That thought has been looping in my head all day today, and I have to say, I'm genuinely worried. I'm just done with it; I really want to jump off this runaway train.
So, here's my question: how bad are the consequences of being constantly high like this? What really scares me is whether any of this damage is actually reversible.
Long before I ever stepped foot onto a college campus, I was already messing around with this stuff—starting back at the tail end of middle school, taking a little breather during high school, and then it became a constant thing from my junior year all the way through graduation. It wasn't like I was sitting around grinding all day or anything; it was more of a weekend thing, just hitting it hard with the crew.
After high school, I worked for about a year and kept things pretty clean during that stretch. But then college happened. From the very first day I showed up on campus until right now—and I'm finishing up my sophomore year—there hasn't been a single day where I haven't been high for most of the day. I ended up falling in with a crowd that smokes, and I just drifted right into it; honestly, it kind of swallowed me whole.
Lately, though, I’ve started getting a little anxious about my lifestyle and my daily rhythm, especially when it comes to the weed situation.
I can see changes in how I act, and I definitely notice myself acting... well, "dim." Just yesterday, I was talking to this girl I'd only just met, and I decided to be brutally honest with her. I asked, "Do you think I look stoned?" And she didn't hold back—she said yeah, I definitely did.
That thought has been looping in my head all day today, and I have to say, I'm genuinely worried. I'm just done with it; I really want to jump off this runaway train.
So, here's my question: how bad are the consequences of being constantly high like this? What really scares me is whether any of this damage is actually reversible.