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I'm a 26-year-old woman.
It’s about this pulse I can feel in a spot where you "shouldn't" be able to feel one—the suprasternal notch, that little dip right above the collarbone. My mind immediately goes to an aortic pulse. If you look anything up online, it tells you that usually means there's an aortic aneurysm. So, I feel this pulsing there, and when I get worked up or exhausted, I can actually see it—that area just jumps up and down. I first noticed it last week during a massive panic attack while I was staring at myself in the mirror. Honestly, I don't know if it's always been like this; maybe I just never paid attention. All I know is that I've always felt my heart "harder," especially when I'm pushing myself or under stress (and let's face it, my anxiety levels are through the roof). The thing is, I was waiting on a cardiac ultrasound because there’s some suspicion that I might have Marfan syndrome or some other connective tissue disorder (which could lead to early aneurysm formation). I’m actually the one who brought those suspicions up to my primary care physician, though I think they're legitimate. I was incredibly anxious. The ultrasound came back clear, and the EKG was fine too. I thought, okay, that's it, everything is clean. Unfortunately, I didn't push my internist hard enough to actually palpate the pulse and tell me if it's normal for the aorta to throb like that. I just mentioned feeling the pulsation, and she brushed it off, saying it might be stress or maybe something with my thyroid... My blood work is perfect, including iron, and my thyroid looked fine on the ultrasound, though I haven't had the hormone levels checked yet.
Once the initial relief wore off, it hit me: an ultrasound only sees a specific part of the aorta, so it doesn't mean I'm totally out of the woods. And of course, the panic is back. I feel this constant throbbing in that spot, and when I check the mirror, I see it happening. I'm constantly on edge, feeling the pulse all the way down to my gut; I can't sleep, I can't eat. I am just convinced something is wrong.
Regarding aneurysms and other symptoms (yeah, I read all the horror stories, obviously), sometimes it feels like it's hard to swallow, depending on what I eat. It gets worse when I'm nervous, but I also deal with GERD and esophageal issues. On top of that, I've had this lingering cough for ages; I had a nasty bout of sinusitis a few months ago that turned into bronchitis, and now I have constant post-nasal drip and mucus in my throat, so maybe that's why. I also wake up hoarse in the morning until things "clear out."
My doctor felt the pulse and told me it's normal (even though she couldn't feel it herself on that spot—though I do have a very thin neck). She insists I'm healthy, says my cardiac ultrasound is clear, and told me that for something to be suspicious there, it would show up; she basically said not everything you read on the internet is true. Then she gave me a referral to a psychiatrist for panic disorder and anxiety.
So, am I actually losing my mind? Can an obvious pulse really be "normal"? Could it just be palpitations? Because ever since my anxiety spiked, I feel my heart working so intensely, especially when I lie down; it feels like my whole chest is pulsing. My resting heart rate has always been a bit high, and it ramps up significantly when I'm active. It’s also driven by the sheer amount of anxiety I carry. My resting EKG was fine, but that's only when I'm sitting still.
Does anyone else feel a pulse in that spot? Mine is so pronounced that I'm terrified I actually have an aneurysm. 😢 I don't know what to do. My doctor isn't taking me seriously at all, even after I mentioned these other symptoms. Am I truly crazy? Does anyone else experience this? What should I do? I feel lost. I thought I could breathe easy after the ultrasound, but clearly, I can't. 😢
Sorry for the long, rambling post.
Right now, I'm getting some tests done for joint issues I've been having. Eventually, when I see a specialist, they might order genetic testing to check for a connective tissue disorder, but that could take months, and I'm terrified I'll die before then.
I just want to know if this can truly be normal and linked to panic disorder and anxiety.
TLDR: I can feel and see a pulse in the hollow above my collarbone. I'm anxious. Does anyone else feel this? Can it be normal?
Please, someone just talk me down because I’m spiraling here. The anxiety is actually becoming physical—I don't even know how I'm supposed to show up for my shift at Starbucks tomorrow.
It’s about this pulse I can feel in a spot where you "shouldn't" be able to feel one—the suprasternal notch, that little dip right above the collarbone. My mind immediately goes to an aortic pulse. If you look anything up online, it tells you that usually means there's an aortic aneurysm. So, I feel this pulsing there, and when I get worked up or exhausted, I can actually see it—that area just jumps up and down. I first noticed it last week during a massive panic attack while I was staring at myself in the mirror. Honestly, I don't know if it's always been like this; maybe I just never paid attention. All I know is that I've always felt my heart "harder," especially when I'm pushing myself or under stress (and let's face it, my anxiety levels are through the roof). The thing is, I was waiting on a cardiac ultrasound because there’s some suspicion that I might have Marfan syndrome or some other connective tissue disorder (which could lead to early aneurysm formation). I’m actually the one who brought those suspicions up to my primary care physician, though I think they're legitimate. I was incredibly anxious. The ultrasound came back clear, and the EKG was fine too. I thought, okay, that's it, everything is clean. Unfortunately, I didn't push my internist hard enough to actually palpate the pulse and tell me if it's normal for the aorta to throb like that. I just mentioned feeling the pulsation, and she brushed it off, saying it might be stress or maybe something with my thyroid... My blood work is perfect, including iron, and my thyroid looked fine on the ultrasound, though I haven't had the hormone levels checked yet.
Once the initial relief wore off, it hit me: an ultrasound only sees a specific part of the aorta, so it doesn't mean I'm totally out of the woods. And of course, the panic is back. I feel this constant throbbing in that spot, and when I check the mirror, I see it happening. I'm constantly on edge, feeling the pulse all the way down to my gut; I can't sleep, I can't eat. I am just convinced something is wrong.
Regarding aneurysms and other symptoms (yeah, I read all the horror stories, obviously), sometimes it feels like it's hard to swallow, depending on what I eat. It gets worse when I'm nervous, but I also deal with GERD and esophageal issues. On top of that, I've had this lingering cough for ages; I had a nasty bout of sinusitis a few months ago that turned into bronchitis, and now I have constant post-nasal drip and mucus in my throat, so maybe that's why. I also wake up hoarse in the morning until things "clear out."
My doctor felt the pulse and told me it's normal (even though she couldn't feel it herself on that spot—though I do have a very thin neck). She insists I'm healthy, says my cardiac ultrasound is clear, and told me that for something to be suspicious there, it would show up; she basically said not everything you read on the internet is true. Then she gave me a referral to a psychiatrist for panic disorder and anxiety.
So, am I actually losing my mind? Can an obvious pulse really be "normal"? Could it just be palpitations? Because ever since my anxiety spiked, I feel my heart working so intensely, especially when I lie down; it feels like my whole chest is pulsing. My resting heart rate has always been a bit high, and it ramps up significantly when I'm active. It’s also driven by the sheer amount of anxiety I carry. My resting EKG was fine, but that's only when I'm sitting still.
Does anyone else feel a pulse in that spot? Mine is so pronounced that I'm terrified I actually have an aneurysm. 😢 I don't know what to do. My doctor isn't taking me seriously at all, even after I mentioned these other symptoms. Am I truly crazy? Does anyone else experience this? What should I do? I feel lost. I thought I could breathe easy after the ultrasound, but clearly, I can't. 😢
Sorry for the long, rambling post.
Right now, I'm getting some tests done for joint issues I've been having. Eventually, when I see a specialist, they might order genetic testing to check for a connective tissue disorder, but that could take months, and I'm terrified I'll die before then.
I just want to know if this can truly be normal and linked to panic disorder and anxiety.
TLDR: I can feel and see a pulse in the hollow above my collarbone. I'm anxious. Does anyone else feel this? Can it be normal?
Please, someone just talk me down because I’m spiraling here. The anxiety is actually becoming physical—I don't even know how I'm supposed to show up for my shift at Starbucks tomorrow.