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despR8 said:@Karen Long44 - thanks for being honest; at least now I know I'm not the only 'freak' on this forum. Could you just tell me which one of you two started it?
Well, she was the one who initiated things. 😁
I was younger than her back then, so I hadn't really thought about girls much. Well, I had, but I was shy—I never would have thought to approach someone—and she was more experienced and open compared to me. It started with her questioning me, asking if I’d ever been with a girl or if I wanted to be. I got the feeling she found my innocence somewhat interesting. She spent about a week teasing me before we finally ended up kissing. At the time, it seemed harmless, and I didn't think much of it until the moment she actually tried to use tongue. 😁 I panicked quite a bit and basically ran for the hills. But, as I sat with it over time, the idea of trying again started bothering me less and less. 😬 The second time, I was the one who took the lead, and we got carried away to the point where we almost ended up in bed. We didn't go that far because she had to leave, but honestly, even if we had, I don't think I would have regretted it. She eventually married and has kids now. We still stay in touch and talk often, so this hasn't affected our relationship at all—if anything, it made it better. 🙂
I don't want anyone to get the wrong idea—I don't support incest. 🙂 I think generally it isn't right, but these kinds of "experiments" can happen to anyone, I guess. Still, I can't really speak to your specific situation because I never viewed my cousin as family. She lived in a different state, and we only saw each other every few years. Truthfully, I knew what we were doing could end badly and wasn't socially acceptable, but the curiosity toward the opposite sex was just stronger. Now, after having several girlfriends, she doesn't interest me at all. That's why your brother's behavior seems strange to me, and I'd suggest that—if you aren't already considering seeing a therapist together—you definitely keep an eye on him or go see one yourself to get some perspective. Just because he acts "normal" doesn't mean everything is fine. Also, maybe it would be wise to tell someone you trust about all this, just in case something unpredictable happens. If you catch my drift.
Monolith 1, man, if only I had known she was my peak. 😬 Take care. It might be legal in some countries, but I still don't think you should risk it unless it's absolutely necessary.