Paul Rogers94 said:I don't think you're crazy, but honestly? What you're looking for doesn't fit into any space, any dimension, or even a mathematical concept.
Put me in a Zen circle and we'll be speaking the same language perfectly... but if you try to throw some basic math formula at me, it's useless. I'm completely hopeless when it comes to numbers.
Everyone on a spiritual path has their own thing—their own specific gift or siddhi. You have yours. If your intuition tells you to follow it, then go for it—whether it's through math or sound frequencies, there's barely a difference. Even Bach composed his music based on mathematical principles.
As for trying to study spirituality using the scientific method, I love quoting that old provocateur Crowley, who once quipped something along these lines:
Attempting to analyze spirituality through a scientific lens would be like a professional geographer trying to provide a technical analysis of Gulliver's travels.
I think you're making one fundamental logical error here. You seem to believe that if you haven't had a personal experience with something, then it isn't real and doesn't exist.
The truth is, you haven't personally experienced the merging of science and spirituality, nor have you explored spirituality through experimental scientific methods. That’s fine, I guess, but that doesn't mean such a thing doesn't exist. 😉
Actually, even someone like Stephen Hawking fell into that same basic logical trap. In his final book, he wrote about his belief that God does not exist. It seems to me that simply because he lacked a personal experience of knowing God, he concluded that God wasn't there. It’s quite fascinating, really, how one of the greatest intellects in physics could make such a foundational error in logical reasoning.
What I find even more compelling is how essentially the entire scientific community decided to just ignore Ramanujan (
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Srinivasa_Ramanujan)—not in terms of his actual theorems, but in terms of his methodology. Without any formal education, this man simply prayed to God (well, his own version of God, regardless), and hundreds or even thousands of mathematical formulas and theorems were revealed to him. He received completed solutions—these theorems—but without the proofs, which was unacceptable to the scientific establishment (and still is). He passed away a century ago, and over the last hundred years, as much of the scientific community has worked to prove his theorems, it turns out that practically everything God showed him through those formulas was correct.
And I wonder, did no one in that scientific community ever stop to ask themselves—could it be that this is actually a valid way for people to engage with science in a methodological sense? Should we perhaps formalize this in our curricula and subjects—not just memorizing formulas from old textbooks (though I suppose that has its place), but actively seeking inspiration for future formulas? You pray to God and seek inspiration (the arrival of the Holy Spirit) and you receive finished solutions. Okay, after that, you would then need to verify that solution and confirm it experimentally, assuming it falls within the natural sciences. But, if one man who prayed (Ramanujan), through divine inspiration, produced more theorems than practically the entire scientific establishment that didn't pray, isn't that a pretty clear indication?