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Look, I’m twenty years old, and I still haven’t even stepped foot into a driver's ed classroom. I’m scheduled to finally start my theory lectures this February, but I am struggling with a complete lack of internal motivation. Don't get me wrong—I am fully aware of the necessity. I’ve spent my entire life being chauffeured around by my parents and grandparents, and frankly, I’m tired of being a passenger. I realize I can't rely on them to be my personal Uber drivers forever, which is why I’m finally committing to getting my license. But the reality is, I’m doing this out of pure obligation rather than any genuine drive. I don't have that spark of enthusiasm; I don't have the proactive energy my mother had when she knocked out her license at seventeen. I suspect my lack of drive stems from the fact that I’ve lived a sheltered life where transportation was always provided for free. Now that the safety net is thinning, I need to tackle these theory classes, but I’m terrified that if I don't find a way to actually care about the material, the exam is going to be an absolute nightmare. How does one cultivate interest in something so tedious? How do I make this matter to me the way it seemingly matters to every other motivated person my age, so that this process isn't just a miserable chore?