Reallocating my life energy...!!

Look, we aren't even talking about the same definition of energy here—this is the kind of stuff that just doesn't make sense to a rational mind. The Toltec perspective basically argues that humans have only ever mastered two power centers: intellect and speech. We always fall into this trap of trying to express the other six points through those two channels, which is just impossible. At its core, the energy within a person's energetic egg defies any kind of description, let alone a deep analysis of what it actually is. You can't see it with your normal senses; you only catch glimpses of it during specific states using a technique called "seeing."

Bradley Myers63 said:It all comes down to God's plan—and whatever He expects from the body you're currently inhabiting

Oh, if only He would drop me a few more details regarding His master plan... that would be just wonderful...

This thread is a goldmine of insight, thanks 🙏

I consider myself a pretty level-headed person. People might call me phlegmatic, though I wouldn't use that term. I don't know if this aligns with what you all are discussing, but it takes almost nothing to rattle me. People say I just don't seem to care. I wasn't always like this; for about a year now, I've been trying to quiet something inside me so I don't react to people's nonsense. I simply feel better when I don't respond to an attack—and honestly, there’s rarely enough substance in those attacks to trigger anything in me anyway. A lot of people have noticed this. Those who try to provoke me often end up even more irrational because they don't get the reaction they expected. But that expectation is perhaps the most foolish thing of all; people constantly disappoint themselves by clinging to illusions. Back in high school, I'd come home for lunch and my parents would ask how school was. Most of the time, my answer was "nothing," and the conversation ended there. It wasn't that we had a bad relationship, I just didn't want to waste breath on questions that felt meaningless. Giving an extensive answer felt like I was being asked to run a marathon 62 miles. Is this a redistribution of energy?

Someone mentioned feeling the superficiality of human existence through this sort of detachment, or what I'd call energy conservation. I wonder if, as someone who lives without much worry, I am actually interesting to others. I don't care much for public opinion, but I do care about those close to me. Is it selfish to hold back, or can energy be distributed there too? Just analyzing myself 🙂

There are things I want to work on. First, my vanity and the tendency to perform. I'm no actor, but sometimes I'll do something and then glance sideways just to watch the other person's reaction. I don't want to be that person. It's that foolish "second mind" that needs to be discarded, though I haven't figured out how yet. Clearly, I still have much to learn...

I also struggle with anticipating others. When someone is nervous or agitated, I find myself checking to see if they are satisfied. If they aren't, I'm not happy either. If they are, I feel better. Why do I do that? I don't understand...

I'm curious about how people utilize their energy—meaning, how they avoid wasting it on things that don't matter. I don't think I waste mine, yet I often feel like I'm running on empty. How can I test this? Through some kind of creative outlet?

Can this energy be stimulated through diet, or is it strictly through physical movement?

I'm interested in why people speak of multiple worlds. When talking about perceiving or entering a new sphere, why call it a different world instead of just the same one? Is it just colorful language? Someone suggested two distinct places within the same world; would that be more accurate?

Does everyone possess the same energetic capacity?

A few too many questions, perhaps, but I hope to find answers. (In hope lies salvation, not in expectation 😁)

Zachary Cook2 said:Controlled madness isn't actually playing the idiot—it's just masking who you really are. It’s a defense mechanism because, honestly, what would happen if you actually opened up to people and started talking about all this stuff we discuss here? They wouldn't get it.

With controlled madness, you aren't being fake; you're just performing the role everyone expects you to play.

😉

Isn't that just a form of hypocrisy?

Why not just be yourself? Just be who you are.

Is that really the right way to live? Isn't it more valuable to open someone's eyes than to keep it all to yourself, even if it means being laughed at? In the end, if you have inner peace, their mockery shouldn't matter much. I try to talk about these things in modern society, even if people don't understand me or don't want to listen. I don't care if they laugh. Honestly, I feel better when they try to look down on me...

restlessmaker91 said:Isn't that just a form of hypocrisy?

Why not just be yourself? Just be who you are.

Is that really the right way to live? Isn't it more valuable to open someone's eyes than to keep it all to yourself, even if it means being laughed at? In the end, if you have inner peace, their mockery shouldn't matter much. I try to talk about these things in modern society, even if people don't understand me or don't want to listen. I don't care if they laugh. Honestly, I feel better when they try to look down on me...

Hypocrisy? Call it whatever you want.😉

Look, what do I gain by going to someone and explaining all of this, only for them to be completely unable to wrap their head around it? Then, out of pure misunderstanding, they go tell a friend what I said, who tells a third person, and suddenly there’s a game of telephone happening where half the city is gossiping about me based on some twisted version of their own perception. That process just sucks up a huge chunk of my energy—energy that stays trapped in those endless, pointless conversations for years. What do I get out of that? Nothing, just a damn waste of time. So instead, I just give them the performance they expect so nobody drags me into their drama, and I slip by unnoticed. That’s the whole point—being here, being invisible.

As far as I'm concerned, let them laugh; it doesn't bother me one bit. But I have people in my life I truly care about, and I don't know how that mockery would affect them. I don't think they could handle it, so I don't allow that ridicule to happen. For their sake, I'd rather choose to stay under the radar and far away from the petty gossip.

Basically, with someone who actually understands what's being discussed, you don't need to perform; that "madness" is only used around "😁normal
people.
👍

Adam Castillo8 said:Oh, if only He would drop me a few more details regarding His master plan... that would be just wonderful...

He’ll send it your way through Messiah—provided you actually know how to listen. Or watch.

restlessmaker91 said:This thread is a goldmine of insight, thanks 🙏

I consider myself a pretty level-headed person. People might call me phlegmatic, though I wouldn't use that term. I don't know if this aligns with what you all are discussing, but it takes almost nothing to rattle me. People say I just don't seem to care. I wasn't always like this; for about a year now, I've been trying to quiet something inside me so I don't react to people's nonsense. I simply feel better when I don't respond to an attack—and honestly, there’s rarely enough substance in those attacks to trigger anything in me anyway. A lot of people have noticed this. Those who try to provoke me often end up even more irrational because they don't get the reaction they expected. But that expectation is perhaps the most foolish thing of all; people constantly disappoint themselves by clinging to illusions. Back in high school, I'd come home for lunch and my parents would ask how school was. Most of the time, my answer was "nothing," and the conversation ended there. It wasn't that we had a bad relationship, I just didn't want to waste breath on questions that felt meaningless. Giving an extensive answer felt like I was being asked to run a marathon 62 miles. Is this a redistribution of energy?

Someone mentioned feeling the superficiality of human existence through this sort of detachment, or what I'd call energy conservation. I wonder if, as someone who lives without much worry, I am actually interesting to others. I don't care much for public opinion, but I do care about those close to me. Is it selfish to hold back, or can energy be distributed there too? Just analyzing myself 🙂

There are things I want to work on. First, my vanity and the tendency to perform. I'm no actor, but sometimes I'll do something and then glance sideways just to watch the other person's reaction. I don't want to be that person. It's that foolish "second mind" that needs to be discarded, though I haven't figured out how yet. Clearly, I still have much to learn...

I also struggle with anticipating others. When someone is nervous or agitated, I find myself checking to see if they are satisfied. If they aren't, I'm not happy either. If they are, I feel better. Why do I do that? I don't understand...

I'm curious about how people utilize their energy—meaning, how they avoid wasting it on things that don't matter. I don't think I waste mine, yet I often feel like I'm running on empty. How can I test this? Through some kind of creative outlet?

Can this energy be stimulated through diet, or is it strictly through physical movement?

I'm interested in why people speak of multiple worlds. When talking about perceiving or entering a new sphere, why call it a different world instead of just the same one? Is it just colorful language? Someone suggested two distinct places within the same world; would that be more accurate?

Does everyone possess the same energetic capacity?

A few too many questions, perhaps, but I hope to find answers. (In hope lies salvation, not in expectation 😁)

All these questions are expected and very human. Most people would agree with you simply because we all share the same fundamental starting point... if you weren't like this, you'd be a total freak, or at least considered crazy by those around you. This topic is about stepping away from the programmed behavior and expectations of the average person—it's about changing the very syntax of how humans naturally behave. It's like if you've listened to nothing but one single radio station your whole life because you didn't even know others existed, and now you decide to switch channels... obviously, you won't immediately know what the other stations sound like, because nobody ever told you they were an option. So now you, having tuned into one station for your entire life, are asking me to explain what the other stations sound like. That's like asking me to explain the color blue using only red... mission impossible. You need a massive internal shift in perception and direction before we can even start talking about redirecting energy within a human being. There's also a fundamental impossibility in discussing this with someone who is firmly rooted in a conventional worldview; it becomes a game of telephone because our "syntax" for understanding the world is completely different...