Reallocating my life energy...!!

Zachary Cook2 said:Just practice. You have to start right now without all the "fuck it" excuses—no "not today," no "I'll do it tomorrow," none of that shit. 😉

If you’re struggling to make a call, there are tensegrity exercises in the series specifically designed to sharpen your decision-making and intention.

So, yeah. Start there, but do it right this second.

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Thanks! 🙂

This really hits home for me, because I've fallen into this rut in my life where everything feels heavy, and moving forward feels impossible—mostly due to indecision and a weakened power of intention, I suppose... I find myself wondering if there is a simpler way to get moving when you're stuck at a complete standstill (the gap between theory and practice is huge; I've gathered so much knowledge, but it's cost me a certain level of passivity in my actual life, and now I want to finally bring it to life)...).
How can I break this curse of passivity and just move, SIMPLY?

I need to be able to just start, RIGHT NOW...
Good grief, I have questions coming out of my ears along with the answers... 🤣

This part regarding decisiveness and intention is 👍

I truly value your words and the sheer amount of time and energy you pour into these posts just to share your lived experience with the rest of us. It’s invaluable, and I’m deeply grateful... I assume you’re well aware of the weight your contributions carry.
I understand what it means to talk about time and energy. It is the most precious thing we possess, alongside awareness. Once it's gone, it's gone... it's everything.

A few questions have been weighing on my mind lately.

First, how can one best utilize time through a Toltec lens? What would be the actual definition of time/energy in terms of its maximum utility? Just a few guiding principles—the absolute essentials every human being ought to know regarding this... Specifically, I’m curious about the characteristics of a lifestyle optimized for the rational use of time and energy, based on your teachings.

You mentioned conserving energy by listening to an inner voice... is that the core of it?

Secondly, how does one dispel or transform a sense of light, constant tension? It isn't quite stress, but more like a restlessness, an internal fidgeting... almost like an inner call toward awareness or alertness. If I calm down, I stop searching, I stop acting the way I act, and I effectively break my own path. It feels like playing a role that shouldn't be fully revealed for some reason, like a preordained fate or a soul's mission... I'm not sure how else to describe this tension. Is it even possible to rise above such a heavy feeling? Part of me thinks it isn't, and that perhaps everything is fine as it is, and I should just accept it with a sense of nonchalance.

I imagine that tensegrity exercises might help ease this, and I'm fairly certain I'll start looking into them.

I am also wondering how to distinguish a genuine feeling from a false one. For instance, when the mind says one thing and the soul says another, leaving me lost as to which is which. One insists that I want or must do something, while the other resists—whether out of laziness or some other reason. Both are so intense that I can't tell what I am truly feeling... I'm just confused.

Is the solution here to silence the mind and persist in silence, allowing thoughts and feelings to crystallize so they become easy to understand?

I am asking you because you understand energy, and feelings are nothing if not energy.
I'm interested in an energetic perspective on feelings, rather than a psychological or "scientific" one...
My main focus is on feelings—that inner voice, intuition, guidance—and how to sharpen and amplify them, as I believe there is immense power contained within them. How does one break free from the shackles... find their wings? 🙂

Please, do write back. I intend to step away from the forum for a while, but I will certainly be following along.
Thank you. 🙂

Nancy Harris6 said:I truly value your words and the sheer amount of time and energy you pour into these posts just to share your lived experience with the rest of us. It’s invaluable, and I’m deeply grateful... I assume you’re well aware of the weight your contributions carry.
I understand what it means to talk about time and energy. It is the most precious thing we possess, alongside awareness. Once it's gone, it's gone... it's everything.

A few questions have been weighing on my mind lately.

First, how can one best utilize time through a Toltec lens? What would be the actual definition of time/energy in terms of its maximum utility? Just a few guiding principles—the absolute essentials every human being ought to know regarding this... Specifically, I’m curious about the characteristics of a lifestyle optimized for the rational use of time and energy, based on your teachings.

You mentioned conserving energy by listening to an inner voice... is that the core of it?

Secondly, how does one dispel or transform a sense of light, constant tension? It isn't quite stress, but more like a restlessness, an internal fidgeting... almost like an inner call toward awareness or alertness. If I calm down, I stop searching, I stop acting the way I act, and I effectively break my own path. It feels like playing a role that shouldn't be fully revealed for some reason, like a preordained fate or a soul's mission... I'm not sure how else to describe this tension. Is it even possible to rise above such a heavy feeling? Part of me thinks it isn't, and that perhaps everything is fine as it is, and I should just accept it with a sense of nonchalance.

I imagine that tensegrity exercises might help ease this, and I'm fairly certain I'll start looking into them.

I am also wondering how to distinguish a genuine feeling from a false one. For instance, when the mind says one thing and the soul says another, leaving me lost as to which is which. One insists that I want or must do something, while the other resists—whether out of laziness or some other reason. Both are so intense that I can't tell what I am truly feeling... I'm just confused.

Is the solution here to silence the mind and persist in silence, allowing thoughts and feelings to crystallize so they become easy to understand?

I am asking you because you understand energy, and feelings are nothing if not energy.
I'm interested in an energetic perspective on feelings, rather than a psychological or "scientific" one...
My main focus is on feelings—that inner voice, intuition, guidance—and how to sharpen and amplify them, as I believe there is immense power contained within them. How does one break free from the shackles... find their wings? 🙂

Please, do write back. I intend to step away from the forum for a while, but I will certainly be following along.
Thank you. 🙂

I called you potential because I can feel your intention is laser-focused on becoming a Toltec warrior. When you talk about the mind, you have to realize we all carry two: your actual mind, which has been buried deep and shows up as that inner voice, and the practical mind—which isn't even yours. It's just an installation, a program that runs the show. That cheap little setup forces us into obsession, arrogance, and self-importance... it keeps us in a constant loop of conflict with everyone else, fueled by the energy we create through our actions—energy that serves whoever installed that programming in the first place. That's why you can't trust the mind; you need techniques to quiet it and practice internal silence to drive that "installed" ego crazy until it finally leaves, making room for your real mind to emerge. That transition is brutal because our true mind has been suppressed our entire lives and needs to be reactivated... but once it happens, you're finally free, and the whole universe opens up exactly as it is.

Does anyone happen to know if there's a video out there covering those exercises—ideally one where it isn't some girls who ended up taking their own lives demonstrating them? To put it another way... is there any other reliable source of information regarding these practices, or were the followers of Castaneda truly the only ones with any real insight into them?

Donna Moore32 said:Does anyone happen to know if there's a video out there covering those exercises—ideally one where it isn't some girls who ended up taking their own lives demonstrating them? To put it another way... is there any other reliable source of information regarding these practices, or were the followers of Castaneda truly the only ones with any real insight into them?

Suicide? As far as I know, the people teaching you these drills are still very much alive. http://www.cleargreen.com

Everything you need is on YouTube.

Oh yeah—since we're talking about suicides, why don't you tell me how many "true believers" kill themselves? You know, the ones praying every single day and hitting up every holy site they can find?

If you need a calculator for that, I think they probably undersold them at the dollar store.

http://http://www.slobodnadalmacija....7/Default.aspx

Zachary Cook2 said:Suicide? As far as I know, the people teaching you these drills are still very much alive. http://www.cleargreen.com

Everything you need is on YouTube.

Oh yeah—since we're talking about suicides, why don't you tell me how many "true believers" kill themselves? You know, the ones praying every single day and hitting up every holy site they can find?

If you need a calculator for that, I think they probably undersold them at the dollar store.

http://http://www.slobodnadalmacija....7/Default.aspx

If we're specifically talking about the women demonstrating the techniques in this video... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UWZMzcwIBJA

then, by all accounts, some of them aren't with us anymore... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9KTaykipHWw

Donna Moore32 said:If we're specifically talking about the women demonstrating the techniques in this video... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UWZMzcwIBJA

then, by all accounts, some of them aren't with us anymore... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9KTaykipHWw

I could edit a crappy little video like that whenever you want and just toss it on YouTube...😂
suicide cult,... 😂
who knows—I’ll have plenty of time until I hit my 80s, or whatever year that is, to actually learn all this stuff instead of killing myself..😂 man, you actually made me laugh—the only way I'm killing myself is from laughing too hard... 😂 😂 😂

Check this out, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xFAJ0...eature=related Carol Tiggs does tensegrity...😂

You can find as much fake garbage like that on YouTube as you want... ;-)

Look, if you just type "suicide" and "Castaneda" into Google, you’ll stumble upon a million different articles floating around the web... yet you won't find a single one that actually addresses the blatant falsehoods contained within those pieces. 😉

Donna Moore32 said:Look, if you just type "suicide" and "Castaneda" into Google, you’ll stumble upon a million different articles floating around the web... yet you won't find a single one that actually addresses the blatant falsehoods contained within those pieces. 😉

First off, let’s be clear: Castaneda basically just transcribed Toltec wisdom onto paper. He and his crew didn't actually manage to live it—the last true Toltec to actually grasp it was Juan and his group. Anyone who’s actually read the books knows Juan said his lineage ended with him because Castaneda wasn't the right kind of nagual to carry the torch. It's pretty well known now that even though Juan gave him directions suited for his type of nagual, he failed—and that failure dragged a few of his followers down with him. Whatever happened later with CC and his followers has zero to do with the Toltec way; being CC-married is a completely different path that hasn't been published, and it's obvious CC didn't follow it. The subsequent deaths of some of his followers made for great sensationalist headlines globally, but it was all lightyears away from actual Toltec practice—which, by the way, is one of the most widely published teachings in the world...!!

Now, about people demanding hard evidence and facts from everyone else while their own backyard is a total mess. If you're calling yourself a real servant of God, then please, go ahead and start a thread about the Bible. I'll gladly flood you with a million questions that neither you nor the Bible can actually answer—since the Bible doesn't give precise or verifiable answers to anything. As a servant of God, I'd just have to ask you one key question: when exactly was the Bible written in its current form and who actually wrote it...?
Go ahead, start a thread on that topic—I guarantee you won't be able to answer a single question correctly...!!

Donna Moore32 said:Look, if you just type "suicide" and "Castaneda" into Google, you’ll stumble upon a million different articles floating around the web... yet you won't find a single one that actually addresses the blatant falsehoods contained within those pieces. 😉

Articles aren't evidence. When you search Google, you get speculation, not proof—we're all just guessing here. Try searching "suicide in the church" on Google and you'll see how much info is out there on religious sites, and none of it deals with false statements, contrary to what you're claiming.

Personally, I’ve helped two people move past those kinds of thoughts when they didn't know the first thing about Castaneda's books. Before they met me, they were at church constantly and were suicidal. Today, they’re living life to the fullest and are actually grateful to me for it—they tell me all the time they can't believe how blind they used to be.

Don't get me wrong—I have massive respect for Jesus, and I find that Castaneda aligns with a lot of quotes in the Bible. The only difference is that Juan's teachings are built on practice, whereas the Bible is built on faith.

I've seen plenty of practical stuff for myself in what Juan talks about, so I'm not just talking nonsense or preaching straight from a book.

Now, if someone from their group committed suicide—I don't know—if it's true, I think they made a incredibly stupid move out of pure ignorance. We need to survive our lives and learn everything we can, period. So, frankly, I don't care, and I'm certainly not a fan of that kind of suicidal crap. I don't see why anyone would think that's okay or spiritual. It's just pathetic.🙄.

Check this out:
There are seven suicides mentioned in the Bible, mainly in Matthew 27:3-5 regarding Judas Iscariot, who betrayed Jesus.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Religious_views_on_suicide

And I totally agree with this:
According to Catholic Church theology, suicide is considered a grave or serious sin. The main Christian Catholic argument is that a single life is a property of God and a gift to the world, and destroying that life is an attempt to claim authority over what belongs to God, which is also a tragic loss of hope.

Zachary Cook2 said:Articles aren't evidence. When you search Google, you get speculation, not proof—we're all just guessing here. Try searching "suicide in the church" on Google and you'll see how much info is out there on religious sites, and none of it deals with false statements, contrary to what you're claiming.

Personally, I’ve helped two people move past those kinds of thoughts when they didn't know the first thing about Castaneda's books. Before they met me, they were at church constantly and were suicidal. Today, they’re living life to the fullest and are actually grateful to me for it—they tell me all the time they can't believe how blind they used to be.

Don't get me wrong—I have massive respect for Jesus, and I find that Castaneda aligns with a lot of quotes in the Bible. The only difference is that Juan's teachings are built on practice, whereas the Bible is built on faith.

I've seen plenty of practical stuff for myself in what Juan talks about, so I'm not just talking nonsense or preaching straight from a book.

Now, if someone from their group committed suicide—I don't know—if it's true, I think they made a incredibly stupid move out of pure ignorance. We need to survive our lives and learn everything we can, period. So, frankly, I don't care, and I'm certainly not a fan of that kind of suicidal crap. I don't see why anyone would think that's okay or spiritual. It's just pathetic.🙄.

Check this out:
There are seven suicides mentioned in the Bible, mainly in Matthew 27:3-5 regarding Judas Iscariot, who betrayed Jesus.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Religious_views_on_suicide

And I totally agree with this:
According to Catholic Church theology, suicide is considered a grave or serious sin. The main Christian Catholic argument is that a single life is a property of God and a gift to the world, and destroying that life is an attempt to claim authority over what belongs to God, which is also a tragic loss of hope.

Anyway, let's not dive into Christianity right now—otherwise, you'll end up bringing up all those scandals involving priests, and we'll completely lose the thread of the conversation. Basically, I agree with the idea that if we are exploring new perspectives, exercises, or techniques, it should be to improve our current lives here and now. That's why it's vital to maintain a healthy sense of detachment from everything... including this Mexican Nagual philosophy.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aLdL0URjVF8

Donna Moore32 said:Anyway, let's not dive into Christianity right now—otherwise, you'll end up bringing up all those scandals involving priests, and we'll completely lose the thread of the conversation. Basically, I agree with the idea that if we are exploring new perspectives, exercises, or techniques, it should be to improve our current lives here and now. That's why it's vital to maintain a healthy sense of detachment from everything... including this Mexican Nagual philosophy.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aLdL0URjVF8

Heh, the thing is, it isn't even really a "philosophy"—it's pure practice. If you had actually tried it, you'd get what I mean.

But look, I don't have an issue with people doing whatever works for them, so I respect your take.

At the end of the day, you need total clarity and common sense with anything you tackle, including this stuff.

Then again, creeps exist everywhere—and unfortunately, they're usually the ones lacking any semblance of clarity or common sense.

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Donna Moore32 said:Does anyone happen to know if there's a video out there covering those exercises—ideally one where it isn't some girls who ended up taking their own lives demonstrating them? To put it another way... is there any other reliable source of information regarding these practices, or were the followers of Castaneda truly the only ones with any real insight into them?

Look, this is just one of those things that was never meant to be written down—it was passed down orally from one generation to the next. That whole lineage actually stopped with Castaneda, since his last nagual told him the line was ending and he should just publish the knowledge for anyone interested. You can read about the Toltec way all you want, but most people will just end up arguing about it or denying it exists—very few actually find their own path within it...

Since a lot of people still don't seem to get the point of this PDF, let me clear things up—those magic moves used to shift energy aren't just some intellectual theory cooked up in a lab. They actually come from watching folks hit that "altered state of consciousness" and seeing them go through these wild, uncontrolled movements while they're out of it. Once they snap back to reality, most feel way more energized and balanced than before. After watching this play out for a long time, the Tolteci figured that the better headspace isn't even caused by the high itself, but by those weird little movements made during the trance. Since the Tolteci weren't really the type to brag about their wins, the only student who ever put any of this down on paper—and unfortunately didn't quite make it himself—was the one who wrote these books. Given how taboo this stuff still is in America today, who knows if there are other generations of Tolteci keeping things under wraps? We might just be stuck relying on this one single source...

Donna Moore32 said:Look, if you just type "suicide" and "Castaneda" into Google, you’ll stumble upon a million different articles floating around the web... yet you won't find a single one that actually addresses the blatant falsehoods contained within those pieces. 😉

It's pretty weird that you're obsessing over a non-religious topic when you already started a thread asking "Does God exist?"—which you haven't even bothered to participate in, despite being a "real servant of God"... maybe you just picked the wrong sub? This isn't the place for those debates...!!🙂

Joseph Cook7 said:It's pretty weird that you're obsessing over a non-religious topic when you already started a thread asking "Does God exist?"—which you haven't even bothered to participate in, despite being a "real servant of God"... maybe you just picked the wrong sub? This isn't the place for those debates...!!🙂

Honestly, we should probably just get back to discussing energy redistribution. As for these posts that have nothing to do with the main subject—maybe the moderators could just move them to a new thread titled "Is Carlos Castaneda real or fake?"

🙂

Most people don't even realize they're working with a finite energy budget—they just leak it everywhere like a broken faucet. Since our internal energy centers can't just magically tap into a new supply, we end up feeling that drain as physical aging and general bodily decay over time. One way to refill those storage tanks is through specific movement patterns—which is basically what this PDF covers—but there are other tricks too, like "solar yoga," where you basically soak up energy through your eyes. Just a heads-up though: you'll always lose more energy than you can redistribute, so you really need a lifestyle designed to conserve what little you have. Wise people have always pointed out these draining daily habits we all fall into; if you want to fix this, you have to cut those out. If you actually manage to throttle your energy waste and master redistribution, you'll see massive shifts in perception and a total transformation toward wholeness. At the end of the day, it’s all about energy and how you move it around...!!🙂

Joseph Cook7 said:Most people don't even realize they're working with a finite energy budget—they just leak it everywhere like a broken faucet. Since our internal energy centers can't just magically tap into a new supply, we end up feeling that drain as physical aging and general bodily decay over time. One way to refill those storage tanks is through specific movement patterns—which is basically what this PDF covers—but there are other tricks too, like "solar yoga," where you basically soak up energy through your eyes. Just a heads-up though: you'll always lose more energy than you can redistribute, so you really need a lifestyle designed to conserve what little you have. Wise people have always pointed out these draining daily habits we all fall into; if you want to fix this, you have to cut those out. If you actually manage to throttle your energy waste and master redistribution, you'll see massive shifts in perception and a total transformation toward wholeness. At the end of the day, it’s all about energy and how you move it around...!!🙂

Even if everything is just different expressions of the same energy, I still think it’s kind of stupid to label one thing as "sexual" and another as "life force"—but hey, maybe I need to wrap my head around it better. Maybe.

What’s the deal with sexual energy—is that also something you "spend" or leak away?
Let’s be real—we all know exactly how this works. Everything is built around it now. Between the constant barrage of ads and the way the internet is wired, everything is being pushed toward one thing: sex. It’s everywhere.

Where exactly does that energy go, or who is it actually going to? What's your take?

So, does anyone actually need to bother with celibacy, or is biology just going to take over and handle everything once the time comes?

Zachary Cook2 said:Even if everything is just different expressions of the same energy, I still think it’s kind of stupid to label one thing as "sexual" and another as "life force"—but hey, maybe I need to wrap my head around it better. Maybe.

What’s the deal with sexual energy—is that also something you "spend" or leak away?
Let’s be real—we all know exactly how this works. Everything is built around it now. Between the constant barrage of ads and the way the internet is wired, everything is being pushed toward one thing: sex. It’s everywhere.

Where exactly does that energy go, or who is it actually going to? What's your take?

So, does anyone actually need to bother with celibacy, or is biology just going to take over and handle everything once the time comes?

Life force and sexual energy don't vibrate at the same frequency, so you can't really swap them out. The only energy we actually have conscious control over is sexual energy, and according to the old Tolteci, you really ought to preserve it when practicing lucid dreaming techniques—it plays a massive role there. Generally speaking, wasting sexual energy just for the sake of pleasure isn't great because it's a vital resource. But then again, having kids is also a way of losing that individual wholeness of consciousness. So, it's just another one of those Toltec riddles where you kind of lose either way...!!

Joseph Cook7 said:Life force and sexual energy don't vibrate at the same frequency, so you can't really swap them out. The only energy we actually have conscious control over is sexual energy, and according to the old Tolteci, you really ought to preserve it when practicing lucid dreaming techniques—it plays a massive role there. Generally speaking, wasting sexual energy just for the sake of pleasure isn't great because it's a vital resource. But then again, having kids is also a way of losing that individual wholeness of consciousness. So, it's just another one of those Toltec riddles where you kind of lose either way...!!

Honestly, we could just call it a "spending frequency." Frequencies are really just different ways of directing the exact same energy.

If we’re basically energetic light eggs, we only have one single pool of energy inside us.

So, what's happening is the same energy is being spent, it's just being channeled through the frequency of sex this time around—that's just its way of discharging.

From what I gather, it's actually hardest to control if you actually *have* energy. Usually, the people burning through it are the ones who actually have plenty to spare.

The people who generally lack energy don't even deal with "performance issues"—😁 they don't even have much to suppress in terms of sexual frequency because they barely have enough juice for anything else.

I personally dealt with this—and it was a huge mess—but I managed to get it under control using tensegrity exercises. I tried everything, but tensegrity was the only thing that actually worked to properly harness it, spreading it out through the shell without letting it leak out.

After doing that, even in the short term—maybe 7 or 8 days—my dream awareness noticeably improved.

In my opinion, this isn't even much of a mystery for people who know how to master that spending frequency within their whole being; the real mystery is for the people who don't have any energy to begin with.

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