What is happening to me?

I’m literally crying my eyes out every single day and I am just so incredibly depressed about it. I honestly have no clue what to do anymore. Does anyone here actually know how to deal with this?

We honestly have no idea what you're going through right now, Casey Clark29. If you could share a few more details, it might help us understand.

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Casey Clark29 said:I’m literally crying my eyes out every single day and I am just so incredibly depressed about it. I honestly have no clue what to do anymore. Does anyone here actually know how to deal with this?

But, if you don't mind me asking—what's actually causing all this sadness? 😘

A bit of melancholy hitting you? Honestly, I can't help but think that this gloomy, rainy weather might be playing tricks on your mood.

It’ll pass, just hang in there!

So, here’s the deal... I’ve been dealing with a speech impediment since I was six years old because of some intense anxiety, and honestly, I'm still struggling with it now at 22. I’ve tried seeing speech therapists and psychologists, but nothing really stuck because I lacked the patience—I just wanted everything to be fixed *right now*. As far as my family goes, I’m on the same page as my mom, but I have this deep-seated fear of my dad that I can’t even explain. That’s one big reason why I pull away from therapy; whenever that fear kicks in, I just shut down completely. It’s spiraled into being terrified of meeting new people, answering the phone, and a million other things. I feel terrible so often for pushing people away, but it’s an impulse I just can’t control. And lately, it feels like I’m constantly on the verge of tears every single day. There’s this heavy pressure building up inside me that just forces it out. I find myself hiding from everyone just so they won't see me crying. I can’t relax anywhere, period. Whether I’m just walking through downtown or hanging out somewhere, I always feel like I'm about to break down. It’s exhausting, and I have no idea how to get a handle on it. That’s basically the long and short of it. I’m usually pretty quiet because of my speech issues, but I’m hoping you guys get where I'm coming from. I’d love to hear what you think, and if anyone has actual advice on how to stop these constant tears... Thanks.

Honestly, it sounds like a textbook case of depression to me. I just highly doubt you're going to find any real professional medical advice floating around on a forum like this. Your best bet is to go ahead and schedule an appointment with your primary care physician; they'll be able to walk you through the next steps and get you pointed in the right direction.

I feel like it’s some kind of anxiety thing... and then all you're left with is this crushing loneliness, which just ends up in tears. Have you ever tried, I don't know, just sitting in the quiet for a bit? Just being alone with your thoughts and really trying to dig into what those fears actually are? Like, what's the real deal behind what you're afraid of?

I’m not sure what specific shock triggered your speech issues, but maybe there's a connection to your dad that's making you feel fearful.
Or perhaps it's just his presence—if he's the type of father who rules the house with an iron fist, it could be shaking you to your core...
Regardless, you’ve got a hurdle in front of you that needs addressing right now, because if you wait, it’s only going to get harder to deal with.
As for therapy, I honestly think you need to lean into it more. The beginning phase is always the hardest part...
And about the crying? It feels like you just need a little more courage to push through it.
Locking yourself away at home isn't the answer. You actually have to force yourself to face the things that make you uncomfortable, otherwise, you're just going to end up hiding under the covers or stuck in bed indefinitely.
The sadness you're feeling probably comes from all these problems piling up until you feel too drained to even fight back, leaving you with nothing but tears. But I have to be blunt: that's not how you survive in this life.
You have to find your fighter spirit, or people are just going to walk all over you.
And you need to learn how to do that starting today.
Take a look around you.
There has to be something out there that brings you joy or people whose company you actually enjoy.
Focus on those things instead; they'll help pull you through.
I’m speaking from experience here.
We all have those moments where we just want to crawl under a blanket and wish the whole world would disappear.
But it won't. Not ever. It’s all on you to step up and be brave. Try talking to your mom or a close friend—just find some support. I'm rooting for you.
Life is way too beautiful to spend it all in tears, so keep that in mind. Sending love...

Casey Clark29, those tears you're shedding... they are simply reflections of the internal struggles you haven't quite conquered yet, a way for all that pent-up emotion to finally find an exit... You’ve reached an age where you really have to face these things head-on, because the days of leaning on excuses like "I'm just a kid" or waiting for someone else to fix everything for you are long gone.
You truly need to confront this speech impediment by intentionally stepping into uncomfortable situations—it's the only way to build that muscle memory. Pick up the phone and actually practice; call a local business just to ask a question or verify some information. Walk into a Target or a Starbucks and strike up a brief conversation with the cashier. You just have to summon that courage and dive in. Try to focus entirely on your small victories, and when things don't go perfectly, just let those setbacks slide right off you... Eventually, the stumbles will become less frequent, but you absolutely have to take that very first step. Are you working right now, or perhaps pursuing a degree somewhere? Honestly, if you can redirect that energy toward achieving tangible goals in your life, it might be the most effective way to overcome this obstacle. So many incredibly successful people in America deal with speech impediments, too... Let their journeys serve as your inspiration rather than letting your own struggle hold you back... 😉

I’d honestly suggest you just let yourself feel everything—really lean into it, no matter how long it takes—but while you're doing that, try to pay close attention to what's actually drifting through your mind. You know those thoughts that just loop over and over? The ones that make your stomach knot up or leave you feeling totally unsettled? Just track them. Let them lead the way, because honestly, that’s where all your answers are hiding. Whenever I’ve gone through heavy stuff like this, following that trail is usually the only thing that finally makes everything click for me. And please, don't go looking for some quick fix or a "magic pill" solution—those things are just distractions that stall your progress rather than actually fixing anything. Whatever you end up realizing, it’s going to take some actual time to shift your habits and how you react, but I promise you, every little bit of progress feels like such a massive weight off your shoulders. Don't be scared of what you might find when you start digging deep into yourself; there isn't anything buried in there that can hurt you, except for the habit of putting things off, which is clearly doing more damage than the truth ever could. If there’s something from your past that’s been weighing you down for years, just face it head-on, figure out what it was, and realize that it’s over now. You’re free to do whatever you want today. Don't let 🙂
win.
...just look your fear right in the eye and it’ll lose its power over you. Trust me on this, I really do. I’ve been there, and I tried 🙂

There’s an old proverb that says, "Go directly into the heart of the danger, for that is where you will find safety!"
I really think you need to face those problems head-on instead of letting them weigh you down... honestly, the worst thing you can do is just surrender to a sense of "unlucky fate" by sitting around the house and letting the tears fall. You might be dealing with some heavy stuff right now, but you also have the opportunity and the genuine hope that things will turn around eventually... you just have to get moving and take that very first step. Maybe try scheduling another appointment with that speech therapist again... I truly believe you'll see that with every little bit of progress, everything will start feeling brighter, you'll feel so much happier, and those tears won't be necessary anymore.
Best of luck 😘

I see you—sort of like one of those tiny sea anemones that pulls its tentacles in the second you touch it! 🙂

They gave you good advice: that "unexplained" crying is really just a backlog of unprocessed baggage.

And they were right about this too: you have to face it.

But what’s the catch? How is someone feeling as timid and shy as you are supposed to actually confront all that? It’s tough.

But—there’s hope.

Where does it come from?

Let's try flipping the script: instead of trying to tackle problems through pure logic, try moving through your emotions first.

Just sit with the pain, the shame, and the fear.

Then, hit that realization: you are JUST LIKE THE REST OF US. Everyone is "messed up" in their own way. The point isn't being perfect—it's accepting yourself exactly as you are right now.

Next time you're home alone, stand in front of the mirror and say everything you think about yourself out loud. Even the ugly stuff—doesn't matter!

Repeat it all, then take those harsh thoughts and "embrace" them as uniquely yours. That's part of who you are! You're worthy of love precisely because of it. Smile at yourself and everything you just said—learn to LOVE it.

That practice of self-love and acceptance is where joy starts to grow.

And once that joy shows up, you actually start changing—you finally have the "extra" energy needed to make those shifts.

WHY IS SELF-ACCEPTANCE SO HARD FOR PEOPLE?

Look—I’m asking you to find joy in yourself, no matter how messed up you feel. Once you do that, you'll be able to look anyone in the eye. There's no overthinking it or using "logic" here! You have to realize you are worthy simply because you exist.

Only after that will you have enough joy and fuel to change the things you don't like about yourself. NOT by fighting yourself with brute force, but specifically through joy and self-love. 🙂

Does that help?

silverfalcon7 said:There’s an old proverb that says, "Go directly into the heart of the danger, for that is where you will find safety!"
I really think you need to face those problems head-on instead of letting them weigh you down... honestly, the worst thing you can do is just surrender to a sense of "unlucky fate" by sitting around the house and letting the tears fall. You might be dealing with some heavy stuff right now, but you also have the opportunity and the genuine hope that things will turn around eventually... you just have to get moving and take that very first step. Maybe try scheduling another appointment with that speech therapist again... I truly believe you'll see that with every little bit of progress, everything will start feeling brighter, you'll feel so much happier, and those tears won't be necessary anymore.
Best of luck 😘

Honestly, I fail to see why anyone would bother with psychologists or psychiatrists when we have silverfalcon7 and her collection of ancient proverbs... 🙄

Casey Clark29 said:So, here’s the deal... I’ve been dealing with a speech impediment since I was six years old because of some intense anxiety, and honestly, I'm still struggling with it now at 22. I’ve tried seeing speech therapists and psychologists, but nothing really stuck because I lacked the patience—I just wanted everything to be fixed *right now*. As far as my family goes, I’m on the same page as my mom, but I have this deep-seated fear of my dad that I can’t even explain. That’s one big reason why I pull away from therapy; whenever that fear kicks in, I just shut down completely. It’s spiraled into being terrified of meeting new people, answering the phone, and a million other things. I feel terrible so often for pushing people away, but it’s an impulse I just can’t control. And lately, it feels like I’m constantly on the verge of tears every single day. There’s this heavy pressure building up inside me that just forces it out. I find myself hiding from everyone just so they won't see me crying. I can’t relax anywhere, period. Whether I’m just walking through downtown or hanging out somewhere, I always feel like I'm about to break down. It’s exhausting, and I have no idea how to get a handle on it. That’s basically the long and short of it. I’m usually pretty quiet because of my speech issues, but I’m hoping you guys get where I'm coming from. I’d love to hear what you think, and if anyone has actual advice on how to stop these constant tears... Thanks.

If everything you described is accurate, you really need to see a psychiatrist. They can prescribe a course of long-term psychotherapy paired with mild sedatives and/or antidepressants; without that chemical support, finding any sense of ease or relaxation in daily life will be an uphill battle. You should seek out the best specialist available, because your case is exceptionally complex given that you've been struggling with these psychological hurdles practically your entire life. If you don't take action, things will likely spiral, and the window for recovery will start to close. Having honest, open, and unburdened social contact with someone you truly trust would also be a massive help.

What Rachel Martinez11 is saying makes total sense. You’re burning through way too much energy just trying to stay afloat—it leaves you with zero gas in the tank to actually grow into a functional adult.

If it comes down to medication—just take it (meaning, follow whatever prescription a doctor gives you). It sounds like you’re dealing with depression.

Whichever route you pick, the goal is the same: break out of that negative spiral. Lean on someone who actually cares and knows their stuff—whether that’s a solid friend, a partner, or a therapist...

That said, don't just take everything at face value. At the end of the day, nobody understands your internal wiring better than you do. Real people can help guide you toward those realizations, but they can only do so much. And honestly? That’s exactly how it should be. 🙂 👍

Thanks for sticking by me, seriously. It means a lot.

Look, I’m definitely not some kind of expert, so I can’t give you any professional advice or a medical diagnosis or anything like that. This is just my two cents—and honestly, you’re mostly here just to have someone to talk to anyway.
Everything you’ve been sharing... you really need to open up to those people closest to you—your inner circle—because they actually know you and are in the best position to help. Plus, you’ve gotta want this for yourself, too. You have to be able to picture that perfect future you want and then actually fight for it! Whether it’s finishing school, finding a job, or just taking things one tiny step at a time. A lot of us are out here carrying around baggage from our own pasts—old battles we didn't win or random fears that stick with us—but you just have to push back against them. If you throw in the towel now, you won't be able to actually enjoy all the amazing stuff waiting for you down the road.
You aren't a kid anymore, and seriously, nobody is going to laugh at you for having a speech impediment. Just let people see who you really are—how unique and interesting you are—and eventually, the way you talk won't even matter!
Good luck! 🙂

darkwolf28 said:Look, I’m definitely not some kind of expert, so I can’t give you any professional advice or a medical diagnosis or anything like that. This is just my two cents—and honestly, you’re mostly here just to have someone to talk to anyway.
Everything you’ve been sharing... you really need to open up to those people closest to you—your inner circle—because they actually know you and are in the best position to help. Plus, you’ve gotta want this for yourself, too. You have to be able to picture that perfect future you want and then actually fight for it! Whether it’s finishing school, finding a job, or just taking things one tiny step at a time. A lot of us are out here carrying around baggage from our own pasts—old battles we didn't win or random fears that stick with us—but you just have to push back against them. If you throw in the towel now, you won't be able to actually enjoy all the amazing stuff waiting for you down the road.
You aren't a kid anymore, and seriously, nobody is going to laugh at you for having a speech impediment. Just let people see who you really are—how unique and interesting you are—and eventually, the way you talk won't even matter!
Good luck! 🙂

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