Brian Moore2
Active Member
93 messages
joined Jan 2003
outoftheblue, could you tell me a bit about your experience with Risperdal? I honestly can't gauge how it’s affecting me, mostly because my memory of what I was actually being given is a total blur. Back in '99, I spent a month in the hospital, and while I know they gave me occasional injections when things got intense, everything else is hazy. After I was discharged, I was on Lexapro for a year—which basically meant I slept through the entire year—then I moved on to medications like Modane and Artane for a few years. For the last four years, I've been tapering back onto Risperdal. I remember feeling absolutely wretched when I stopped taking Artane; I was dealing with nausea, vomiting, diarrhea, and total physical exhaustion. Because of that, I didn't take anything for about a week before sticking with the Risperdal. I used to take 3mg, then 2mg, and for the last five months, I've been on 1mg. To be honest, at 1mg, I feel like I'm taking nothing at all. Meanwhile, a friend of mine told me he nearly passed out on the sidewalk walking home because the dose hit him so hard! Maybe those years of Lexapro, Modane, and Artane just left me permanently dazed, because I truly have no idea if this Risperdal is doing anything for me. These days, I'm on VA disability and don't work. I spend almost all my time online, sleep constantly—though I struggle to fall asleep initially—and once I do go under, I'm out for 12 hours straight. I usually don't roll out of bed until 2 PM, and I'm useless until I've had a couple of coffees and a few cigarettes. I tend to feel best in the evening, which makes going to bed a real chore. As for the future? I don't have any plans or ambitions. I'm basically just waiting for the VA to process my retirement. It’s ridiculous: I’ve had three different psychiatrists write that I am completely unfit for any kind of employment, yet the disability board somehow ruled that I’m capable of working full-time as an advisor. On top of that, this new private psychiatrist I saw claimed that using Risperdal is "weak" therapy and warned that if I were actually schizophrenic rather than just having had one psychotic episode seven years ago, this medication wouldn't even hold me together.
Happy New Year 🙂