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Jose Ward4 said:It’s not that. You just radiate this incredible energy and suddenly you have enough confidence to take on the world. I actually almost got into a scrap with some tough guys at my local dive bar—I was basically daring them to step up. Of course, there were three of them out front and another one waiting in the trunk of their car, so... yeah, it wasn't like some movie scene where you're just acting crazy; it was this overwhelming, unshakable self-assurance. I honestly believed I could charm any woman I met just by being in her presence. You realize something is off, you notice you aren't quite the person you used to be, but you haven't the slightest clue why.
I think "confidence" is really the magic word here. Just believing in yourself, thinking, *I can do this.* If I was able to be that fearless, high-energy version of myself—radiating all that "something special" when I was going through it—then surely I can find even a tiny bit of that unexplainable spark now that I'm feeling more stable. I just need to figure out how to get myself back there. Before, it was the illness that forced that state on me. Maybe we should all be constantly telling ourselves: I can, I will, I believe. I want to soak up every single moment. I want to see the beauty in creating things. I want to trust myself more. I want a little slice of who I used to be, and I definitely don't want to feel dull... I know I can do it if I put in the work and truly believe that my own strength and willpower can bring back "that" feeling. Maybe I should just be a little reckless on purpose? Like, let myself be a bit crazy once in a while. Who cares, anyway? I've already got the diagnosis. ☕
After repeating a thousand affirmations like *I will, I can, I believe*, maybe we'll finally be able to enjoy the beauty of nature again—to actually feel the sun, the rain, and the wind, and feel full of life, just like we did when we were truly alive. Sounds a bit cliché, doesn't it?