granitetiger69
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24 messages
joined Jan 2009
I guess I finally see I'm not alone.
Back in elementary school, things were pretty straightforward. High school was kind of the same—I just did what I had to do, though I could usually wing it since improvisation comes naturally to me. I’d take whatever little bits I remembered from class and just fill in the gaps with logic and general knowledge. It worked out fine; I passed my grades with straight A's without ever really sitting down to study much.
But when I actually did put in the work, I remember feeling so good about it. Like, genuinely happy and fulfilled once I finished.
Now I'm in my second year of college. Last year I finished with a B average because I didn't push myself, but this year... this year everything is different. I have exams coming up that I actually have to study for if I want to pass on the first try. And it's the stuff I hate most—morphology (grammar; I'm majoring in German).
I don't know how to move forward. I can't concentrate, and I just have zero motivation. I can spend hours glued to my computer, unless I head out for coffee or something. Then I come home and the very first thing I do is turn the PC back on and just scroll through MSN or forums for hours.
I honestly don't know how to dig myself out of this rut. How am I supposed to learn these two hardest subjects? Especially when I'm trying to learn things I don't even understand. I never really grasped basic grammar definitions back in the day... so trying to tackle German grammar now feels impossible.
I love the literature, though. But the grammar and phonetics... they drive me crazy. 😲
How do you find the will to do something you hate? Something you feel like you won't master anyway? Something you know you'll probably just have to cram, only to end up having to teach it to kids one day? 😕
On top of that, because of my GPA last year, I don't have to pay tuition, so my parents are still pushing me. This year is just tough, and I'm doing nothing.
I have reasons to be motivated—not paying for school, not wanting to let down my parents who work so hard... but still. I'm just stuck.
What should I do?