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Harold Anderson3 said:That whole experience you described with derealization... honestly, it could very well be schizophrenia, except for one major detail: the fact that your condition improved without any medication.
Regarding the genetic side of things...
The general prevalence of schizophrenia in the US population is about 1%. However, I suspect there are actually twice as many people carrying the gene, perhaps closer to 2%. I arrived at that conclusion based on two points: first, if one identical twin develops schizophrenia, there’s only a 50% chance the other will, despite them having identical DNA. Similarly, if both parents have it—which would mean their child almost certainly carries the gene—the actual chance of the child developing the disorder is still only around 50%. So, beyond just having the genes, you need some kind of trigger to activate them, and I'm convinced that comes down to environmental stressors, especially during early childhood. My own upbringing was pretty traumatic (much like my mother's), which, combined with our genetics, led to this diagnosis. My half-brother also had a really difficult childhood, but he stayed healthy because he doesn't carry "that gene."
I honestly feel like so many symptoms get slapped with a schizophrenia diagnosis just because people don't know any better. Depersonalization and derealization are everywhere these days, especially among young people, usually triggered by intense trauma, chronic stress, or various drug use—but those specific symptoms haven't ever actually caused schizophrenia, no matter how long they persist. In my opinion, it’s physically impossible for those sensations to evolve into schizophrenia on their own.
And that’s exactly what I find most infuriating—this trend where people who clearly don't know what they're talking about love to spread this absolute nonsense that you can actually develop schizophrenia from depersonalization or derealization. From everything I've gathered by reading hundreds of firsthand accounts on international DP/DR forums, that's just flat-out wrong; you can't "develop" a psychotic disorder from these sensations, because derealization is simply the brain's way of reacting to stress, regardless of what triggered it in the first place.
Of course, if you tell someone experiencing derealization that they're actually developing schizophrenia, you're just going to make things a hundred times worse for them.
It turns out the whole thing boils down to this irrational fear of developing schizophrenia just because of a few overlapping symptoms—which, honestly, is completely idiotic.
Depersonalization and derealization exist as distinct symptoms far more often than they do as part of schizophrenia, and honestly, they don't lead anywhere else besides the symptoms themselves. Without an actual underlying foundation for schizophrenia, you aren't going to spiral into it. At least, that’s how I see it. If that weren't the case, I would have been diagnosed by now, or maybe I eventually would have developed it if I actually carried the gene—but since I don't, all this derealization stuff is just a dead end.
That’s exactly why I think that tiny 1% of the population supposedly lacking any genetic predisposition for schizophrenia is just being misdiagnosed. They’re likely presenting with symptoms that look similar on the surface but actually have absolutely nothing to do with schizophrenia itself.
I’ve been hearing all this chatter lately about people getting slapped with a schizophrenia diagnosis, only to turn around a year later acting completely normal, as if the whole thing was just some massive mistake.
To be honest, I was fully aware of my situation at the time. I knew exactly where I stood and who I was, but there was this massive disconnect on a purely experiential level—my perception of myself and the world around me was just completely warped. It was like I couldn't recognize the world anymore, and there were plenty of moments where I wasn't even sure if I still knew who I actually was. In other words, I KNEW the facts, but I didn't FEEL them.
I used to get hit by these waves where just staring at a plain house facade or watching people pass by outside my window would completely drain me. It was like looking at anything ordinary sucked me straight into another dimension, and honestly, it felt like pure hell.
Schizophrenia? Please. It’s not that, it's something else entirely.
Medication hasn't done a damn thing for me, and honestly, I don't have much faith in it anyway—not for what I'm dealing with. Now that I'm finally seeing some light at the end of the tunnel, I’ve realized just how much certain mental health professionals love to spread misinformation and stir up drama about needing these pills. It feels like they're just pushing sketchy formulas to line the pockets of Big Pharma. From my own experience, nothing worked except for the heavy-duty anti-anxiety meds that basically just knocked me out.
In the end, I had to take matters into my own hands by cutting ties with everyone—the psychiatrists, the doctors, the medication, all of it.