Harold Anderson3 said:Most people hang out by grabbing a beer, catching a game, or getting lost in video games... but none of that really appeals to me. If you’ve ever dealt with depression, you probably understand what I mean.😉
I’m also dealing with another issue that I didn't even realize was a recognized thing in psychology until recently. I can't quite put a clinical name to it, but it feels like this constant, intrusive thought that just takes over, making it impossible to focus on anything else or even think straight. It’s like half of your brain is being held hostage. It’s honestly pretty awful.
All of this—including the depression—just makes things difficult, whether I'm trying to hold a conversation or just focusing on my studies.
Yeah, I get it. Classic textbook depression symptoms. I’m usually a total social butterfly—always grabbing coffee with huge groups of different people—but when the depression first hit? I didn't want to talk to anyone. Coffee dates? Forget it. I just went to class, headed straight home, and hid behind my computer or a book. Not sure if it was the therapy or the meds that finally pulled me out of it, but things felt pretty off for a while. Still on the antidepressants and seeing my psychiatrist, though.
Honestly, I totally get it. I know exactly what it’s like living with someone who’s just cold and shut off. Actually, living with a *person* like that. For years now, my talks with the old man have boiled down to the same three things: "You're a terrible student," "You picked the wrong major" (which isn't exactly fair since I only failed one exam in four years at a super intense university), and "You and your mom spend way too much money." And then there's Mom—to make up for it, she's just overprotective and tries to keep me under a literal glass dome.
Whoa, hold up... I totally spiraled into a pity party there for a second. Anyway, my advice? Go see a therapist. Seriously. Maybe get some antidepressants to help boost that serotonin levels at first, then talk things out so you can realize—and I’m sure of this—that you’re actually a solid person with your whole life ahead of you. These older folks? They're just bitter people with way bigger problems who are unfortunately taking it out on you. Honestly, once you realized there was an issue and likely even found the root cause, that's already a huge step forward.
Getting out of a depression slump by yourself? Hard. All that "just think positive" nonsense doesn't really cut it. You need help just to get that first step moving. Once you're over that hump, things get easier... like signing up for a gym membership or finding a hobby, hanging out with people... suddenly, you actually care again. 🙂 Good luck! 👍