vividfalcon14 said:I don't have a Facebook account.
Either way, thanks. 🙂
A guy who once did a reading for me—covering this life, the past, the future, even previous incarnations—once mentioned that in a former existence, I was someone of immense power, a figure no one could overshadow, someone who traveled extensively and left behind written records (and he actually got quite a few details about my current life right). It’s fine, I suppose, but he also noted that in that lifetime, I lived entirely alone. He suggested that even in this life, I seem to gravitate toward solitude...
A few nights ago, I had a dream about a "priest" figure who told me I would spend this entire life alone. Lately, I've also been having these recurring dreams where I'm jumping from buildings or hospitals.
To be fair, that reader didn't mention anything about suicide; he just predicted that later in life, I would reach a very high station in society... part of me wishes that were true, though I don't really believe it.
You know what I think, everyone? I think I was simply born to suffer, as if it were some divine punishment, and as if God finds satisfaction in watching me struggle... Well, if that's the deal, then since my role is to be a damn martyr, I might as well grab a canister of gasoline, stand on the edge of a skyscraper, set myself on fire, and jump! THERE YOU GO, GOD! 🙂
It probably would have been better if I had never been born at all; damn the day I entered this world! 🙂
God doesn't exist anyway.🙂
So, the only person who assigned you the role of the victim is YOU.
Maybe try becoming an atheist; you'll be a lot happier, trust me. 🙂 I walked away from Catholicism about a year and a half ago and finally feel free 🙂. I realized that I'm the one in control of my destiny, and the only "role" I have in this life is the one I choose for myself.
Falling down is human, but I think it's time for you to get back up.🙂 Sitting there wallowing in self-pity and crowning yourself the king of victims won't accomplish ANYTHING (I know, from experience). No one is going to knock on your door to save you.
Try to find that inner fighter and show those problems that you're bigger than them—because at the end of the day, they're
just in your head.
You created them, so you can destroy them too. 🙏