I'm completely burnt out
in Psychology ·
driftingtiger2 said:Thanks for the support. I know plenty of people have dealt with much worse than this, and I’m not some kind of magnet for bad luck—it’s just life happening.
The issue is that I can't control my own fears, and I've become the rock for everyone—my parents, my husband, my colleagues. At work, I'm responsible for other people's livelihoods, and this month's recession has hit us hard. Everyone expects me to have all the answers when I don't, and I'm terrified we're all going to end up on the street. I can't afford to break because so much depends on me, or so it feels, but I can feel myself fading. I'm starting to get numb. Yesterday, I found myself looking for a sturdy spot in my apartment to hang myself. I remembered someone I knew who used a window latch, and I actually wondered how they managed it... I really don't like these thoughts. 😢
Hey drag Ivy, I guess you just have way too much on your plate right now. You're carrying everything and feeling responsible for everything. I get that losing a friend or a dog is devastating, but you can't carry the weight of the entire recession on your shoulders too. Trying to single-handedly save everyone's jobs is honestly asking too much of one person, and I think you're pretty strong. Maybe try to let go of some of it. The world isn't going to end. 😉 Instead of spiraling over these things, maybe just take a walk, listen to an album, or try whatever else people here have suggested.