Posts by Peter Murphy6

Creating—at least in my case—is a need. Sure, it gets mixed up with desire sometimes, but at its core? It’s a necessity.
Is every single "need" actually necessary, though?
The only way I can figure that out is by asking why—like, what's the actual point behind a specific urge?

We create because we need to vent information. Humans are basically just receptors—we process info internally and then spit it back out, almost like brand-new data. It’s always unique because everything we make carries a bit of the "creator's" spirit.
If we didn't create—whether it's meaningful art or just mindless stuff—we'd burn out. How fast that happens depends on the individual (how much info they can actually absorb and if they even realize they're doing it).

The same logic applies to destroying things—we tear stuff down just to clear space and let go.

Or maybe that’s just my deal. Why do I create?
And why do I destroy?
Deep down, I think I'm just a recycler.

Technically, the truly free people would be those who don't feel the urge to create at all. Or those who just... don't care.
But honestly? I don't think those people exist—that's probably just our consciousness playing tricks on us, giving us this feeling of what freedom might look like.

That’s just me getting psychological and messy. Philosophically speaking—what’s the whole point of creating? Is there one single purpose? To transcend being human? To level up society? To beautify the world? To send a message?
For me, the purpose of creating is just to quiet the urge. Nothing more, nothing less. Man is just a machine.
Or maybe that’s just how I see it. 🤔

Then again, the magic is actually inside that very urge—the exact thing I've been trying to shake off for years. That's where the answer is hiding.
As a "rational" person, I tend to look down on magic because I don't get it—or rather, I can't accept the fact that I don't understand it, which prevents me from actually opening the door to the answers I'm looking for.
I'm just hoping that by reading everyone else's thoughts, I might catch a glimpse of something that actually matters to me.

I haven't had a chance to sit down and really dig through all the replies yet—and honestly? I definitely didn't want to just vote blindly or just go with whatever the rest of you guys were feeling.

Man, I am seriously curious about this next question 👍

Living a good life really just boils down to being at peace with yourself—both internally and with how you spend your days—regardless of what kind of chaos you're feeling on the surface.
Doesn't matter what era you're living in; that's just a universal truth.

Sean Mitchell said:Is it worth it? Or is it just a waste of time?

I can't help but wonder what's actually hiding "behind the curtain."

Personally? No way.
You know that feeling when you finally stumble onto something new—something you've been obsessing over forever? That rush of pure joy, excitement, energy... and that instant urge to just shout it from the rooftops?
The catch is, once you actually find out, there's a good chance nothing else will ever grab you again. And even if it does... who are you even gonna tell?
If I were you, I’d sit down and write out this massive, endless bucket list of everything I want to uncover. Make it huge. Try to imagine every single thing that could possibly spark my curiosity—as long as it doesn't drive me insane.
Only after I've checked off every single thing on that list would I stop, take a breath, and seriously ask myself if there's anything left in this world worth finding out.

neonmarlin39 said:It just came out of nowhere. I was just pointing out how impossible it is for anyone to basically know everything—even if you lived a million lives and lived a million years in each one, let alone just one single lifetime. And that’s just talking about the info we have right here, right now... imagine trying to wrap your brain around the entire universe.

Yup, makes perfect sense.
Cca:
mahunarka to the OP who's thinking about suicide:
Don't do it—not until you've seen everything there is to see.
Nonterrible mahunarka to mahunarka:
Do you even realize how massive the universe actually is?

And what’s quoted there is just a two-page response after someone spent forever trying to figure out what neonmarlin39 was actually asking and what the context even was.

neonmarlin39 said:Honestly, just go back and read the thread. I don't really feel like repeating myself if the answer's already sitting right there.

My posts?
Did you actually find an answer to what you were trying to ask mahunarka somewhere in my old stuff? Because I don't see it.
😵

Peter Murphy6 said:Can you explain what you were actually trying to get at here? Like, what was even the point of that question you asked mahunarka?

neonmarlin39 said:Still way less than if you added up all your trolling on this board. Out of 22,009 posts, I bet there aren't even 10 where you aren't being a troll or picking at people. What do you think?

errrm...
🕺
Repeating my question.

neonmarlin39 said:So if I actually called someone an idiot, would that suddenly make me "polite" in your book? That was a rhetorical question—don't bother answering, because we both know what you'd say. Or better yet, Joseph Bailey41, no matter what I say or what anyone else says, I already know whose side you're gonna jump on. You just can't wait to start poking at me, right? It's not even the first time you've come for me like this, picking fights that have nothing to do with the actual topic and everything to do with just targeting whoever you've decided to mess with in the moment. 🙄

Can you explain what you were actually trying to get at here? Like, what was even the point of that question you asked mahunarka?

We don't have bodies.
Up there, in paradise, we’re still ourselves—just without the physical baggage.
We just watch. We observe. No need to actually jump in and participate because there’s zero necessity.
That’s what paradise is—the total absence of need. Pure peace. Total freedom to desire whatever you want.

It looks like this massive, endless green meadow, absolutely crawling with white and slightly pink bunnies hopping all over the place. Or maybe they're kittens, I can't quite tell.
That's why we can't have bodies—don't want to accidentally stomp on a bunny. Or a kitten.
But we can definitely feel them, though. The softness of their fur, that little vibration from their tiny, constant movement.
Right in the middle, there's this tree, and at its base—where the roots meet the lush green ground—there's this spot where all the bunnies come from. Kittens. Maybe even dogs. 🤔
The tree is there so we can climb it. Using nothing but sensation, experience, and touch, even without a body. From up there, you can see the whole of paradise, the entire meadow of bunnies.
And from the tree, we see ourselves.

The sun is always shining in paradise. Unless, of course, you're one of those people who loves rain—then it rains. It all depends on who's looking, and everything happens in that one, eternal, non-existent moment: now.

It’s never cold, unless you decide you want it to be.
Paradise runs on our desires; that's basically its fuel. This material world we're stuck in right now? That's driven by necessity.
The need for food, water, the basics.
In paradise, there's no hunger, no thirst, no needs at all—like I said before.
If you want something, you just get it.
You crave states of being, feelings, perspectives—not stuff, not power, because there's just no point in having those in paradise.

In paradise, anyone can be whoever they are and see whatever they want without triggering any cause-and-effect chains.

Actually, paradise doesn't exist. Or, as long as time exists, paradise doesn't. Paradise is outside of time, like I explained.
Human imagination is pretty powerful, though, so hey, who knows? Maybe humans will invent paradise one day.

(though I kind of doubt it's tied to anything outside of us, or even to life and death... human constructs tend to seem magical, so it's hard to link them back to the actual human experience)

This is such a killer topic. Right off the bat, I was thinking about movies like marketplace, hair, and life is beautiful.
Back in my teens, White Oleander really hit me hard—though it kind of lost its edge for me later on.

There are a few others where the titles have totally slipped my mind, so let me dig a little deeper. Honestly, those kinds of films just wrecked my brain—they strip away everything and force you into some seriously deep self-reflection.
Oh, wait, one just popped up—Panov's Labyrinth.

swiftdrifter4 said:If by "perception" you mean the meaning our minds manufacture from an emotion based on past experiences, then anyone can reshape their own interpretation—which means you could technically pull something positive out of a negative emotion.
Emotions don't have any inherent meaning on their own... we're the ones assigning them value through our thought processes. Once you realize that, control starts to slip away.🙂
Let me be more precise—it's not about a "more positive" view of reality, but rather a "clearer" one.

I’m talking about perception involving all the senses here.
Why even bother trying to find the silver lining in something negative?
Meaning... now that's an interesting rabbit hole.
Control, though—that's even better.
Control over what, by whom, and from what exactly is slipping away?

Is a "positive" perspective automatically a "clearer" one? Or maybe the better question is—what does a "clearer" perspective even look like?

swiftdrifter4 said:It’s a relief if it helps you maintain a more optimistic view of reality—but it becomes a burden if you start clinging to those fleeting "positive" highs, especially since they aren't permanent. Honestly, the easiest path would be to ditch the need for control altogether, but let's face it—not everyone is at that level yet.

Interesting take—I like how you tied all that together.

My other two questions were actually about viewing emotions as just... emotions. Not labeling them as "positive" or "negative," just raw feeling.

Being controlled by "positive" emotions is pretty much the same thing as being controlled by "negative" ones.
At the end of the day, you're still just being driven by an emotion.

So, how exactly does it make having a more positive view of reality any easier?

These two stories are a total quality addition to the 🎉
thread.

swiftdrifter4 said:Well, from where I’m sitting, that’s a superpower because an attitude like that lets you navigate life a bit more smoothly—it keeps negative emotions from running the show. I don't think many people actually look at emotions that way. For instance... most people, when they feel fear, their first instinct is just to run away from it rather than stopping to ask why it's there or what it's trying to tell them.

But is being driven by positive emotions actually easier?

That mindset definitely has a flip side, though—what do you think makes it "negative"?

Where could it actually make things harder instead of helping?

swiftdrifter4 said:I'm guessing you view "negative" emotions as teachers—that you see both sides of every feeling, making the labels positive or negative pretty much meaningless.
Take fear, for example... you could see it as a cage that keeps you stuck and drags you down into a depression, or you could see it as a nudge—a challenge meant to push you out of your comfort zone and get you moving.

I look at the whole damn universe and everything in it as one big teacher.
So, why exactly is that considered a superpower?
And "possession"—now that's another interesting word, depending on how you use it.

swiftdrifter4 said:There's just one more superpower you've got there.🙂

Why though?

swiftdrifter4 said:I find your comparison to a psychopath interesting, though it sounds a bit bleak to me. I’d argue that being able to see the "silver lining" in a negative situation or a life storm is almost like a superpower. It gives you the wisdom to know when to keep fighting and when to just let go—not in the sense of giving up or sinking into depression, but more like having faith in "cosmic patterns" that we might miss because we're blinded by fear, frustration, or guilt.
To answer your question...
I don't have some hidden agenda or profound revelation I'm chasing by starting this thread; I was honestly just curious to see what people thought.

Feeling blue? 🐔
I get where you're coming from.

You know those "glass half-full" types? Depending on who they are, if things get heavy emotionally, they’ll almost automatically go hunting for the silver lining—even if it’s just so they can argue against it.
Look, the whole idea is that you gotta act like you’ve already arrived at that "vision" you're chasing. It’s about moving toward the goal through your actions. To actually make those bright spots happen, you have to be fully dialed in—emotionally and rationally—which basically means you need to emotionally detach from all the heavy, messy stuff happening right now. Usually, that headspace only kicks in once enough time has passed... though honestly, it really just depends on the person.
That part about psychopathy? It hits deep. But honestly, once you move past the psychology side of things, you’re basically stepping out of sociology and straight into philosophy and spirituality. It's all connected.
If there’s one word that sums up this whole thing—it's focus.
Looking for the silver lining is basically just an attempt to run away from the negativity—it’s an escape tactic. For me? It’s about seeing both sides, period. You can't have the light without the dark; they both come as a package deal.

It’s not about having some kind of superpower—it’s more about how you navigate yourself through time and whatever chaos life throws at you, regardless of what society expects. Honestly? A huge part of it just comes down to awareness.
Sometimes, trying to force logic into an emotional situation is just high-stakes gambling—it’s risky as hell. Honestly? It’s usually better if that rational side just... clicks in on its own. You don't want to force it and end up looking like a robot; you gotta leave some room to just be human. It all comes down to how you read the room.
So, we've talked about the whole breakup/cheating drama... but what about the even heavier stuff?
How does someone even allow themselves to see—to actually *grasp*—the silver linings in some of these truly horrific situations? Not to mention all the other dark stuff constantly swirling around in my head...
You can kind of take that same pattern and apply it to easier situations too—the stuff you're actually interested in. It’s all deeply tied to how you see yourself, your core values, how you were raised, and those social norms we just soak up—you know?
Here’s a mid-level example—a woman sticking by an alcoholic. Just the thought of walking away triggers this massive wave of guilt because she thinks "true" love means staying through absolutely everything, no matter how toxic it gets. 🙄 So you "don't love" them, huh? Now you’re taking that same pattern—that whole cycle of guilt and self-justification—and dragging it into other areas of your life. It's getting messy. You've got all these layers involved now—self-reflection, core values, how you were raised, even the influence of society at large. It's deep.

I mean, I’m not even sure you can truly call looking at the "bright side" perfect—regardless of how objective you think you're being. Like I said before, when things are actually going down, that "silver lining" usually has zero real basis in reality; it's mostly just a way to smell some comfort. As long as there's an emotional tint to it, you're taking a risk. Honestly, spotting the "light vs. dark" is more of an emotional reflex than a rational one. From a purely logical standpoint? It doesn't even matter. Maybe that's the biggest part—you can't know the final outcome. And if you can't see the end, you can't be certain whether you even picked the "light" or the "dark" side to begin with.
Look, from one angle—specifically those non-objective "enlightened" perspectives—you get people doing some seriously legendary, mind-blowing stuff. Honestly, they move with way more drive than any rational, "objective" person ever could.
Look, I’m no genius. But I truly believe you can—in a healthy way—tap into certain traits of constructive psychopathy just to expand your range of possibilities. I’m not talking about a full-blown disorder here, just picking up specific tools that actually work. Honestly, I’ve already mastered some of these bits myself, and I'm still working on others.

I tend to just go with the flow when I realize that trying to force control—which can get pretty messy emotionally—might actually trigger some high-risk potential. My "shortcut" methods have their flaws, though. Like, sometimes there’s a total short circuit when I try to process logic and raw emotion all at once. Then my intuition kicks in from the background and hits me like a freight train, forcing me to sit still and wait out the storm while the system "cools down" and I try to minimize the fallout.

There’s also a certain blindness that comes with it... some "bright-side" side effects, if you will. Especially when other factors get involved.

It’s not like (right now 🤣 ) I’m buying into cosmic patterns or anything, but I definitely "believe" in patterns—as much as I believe in my own inability to spot, grasp, and decode them all. I just let things happen 😬 Everything that’s meant to connect, will.
So yeah, I agree—knowing when to let go and when to grab hold is everything.

Quick side note—I don't really see emotions as "good" or "bad."

To answer your question...
I don't have some deep, hidden truth I'm chasing by starting this thread; I was honestly just curious what everyone else thinks.

Fair enough, interesting stuff.
I'm not supposed to get too personal with people on the forum ( 😢 ), so I'll leave it at that.

swiftdrifter4 said:I wasn't sure if this belongs under spirituality or psychology—if it needs to be moved to psychology, feel free to relocate it.
It hit me recently just how narrow most people's perspectives are when they face life events. They tend to view everything through this incredibly tiny lens, immediately labeling situations as strictly "good" or "bad." Take infidelity, for example. Most people see being cheated on as an absolute disaster—a total negative. They spend their time cursing their partner and feeling like they wasted years of their life on someone who didn't value them. It becomes this constant, looping thought in their head. It’s usually only much later, after some time has passed, that their perspective actually widens. They might eventually see that betrayal as the opening they needed to find someone actually worth their time. Or maybe they realize it’s a chance to finally focus on themselves—picking up a new hobby or developing a skill they ignored for years. You could apply this to pretty much any situation, whether it seems major or minor (though "major" is always a matter of opinion). You never truly know where certain turns or decisions will lead you... yet people act like they "know" exactly what a situation means for them right from the start.
What do you all think is the reason for this?

For someone who looks at the world through a lens similar to "mom"—basically seeing everything through a constructive filter (like picking a specific shade from a palette of vibes we've all seen before)—that opening statement really plants some seeds in the mind.

It's a constant, pretty steady battle—honestly, a fight against oneself that's been going on since the dawn of reason.
I can picture it (from experience): spending time with someone, falling in love, getting to know them, then truly loving them. You trust. You let go. And then comes the breakup (though I haven't hit that part yet).

Why not see the "silver lining" in a breakup?
My guess? It would feel like betraying yourself. In that clash between logic, emotion, morals, desires, and society, maybe even a dark word—a concept like "psychopathy"—would echo when trying to see the "big picture" outside the whirlwind of messy feelings.
Only a psychopath could just casually spot the bright side of a bad situation, right?

Personally, I don't agree, but look—society has these quiet little taboos that are hard to talk about. Like love. We talk a lot about "😍 love," but real love? Not so much.

Wrapped up in guilt, shame, anger, and pride—and reflected back by society during those interactions—it's incredibly hard for an individual to actually see themselves, even though they're the center of this whole emotional drama. They feel they *have* to suffer, they *have* to show they loved, they *have* to be the victim—and the whole world needs to witness it (regardless of whether anyone actually cares).
The real struggle is with yourself—letting go of that person, letting go of the time spent together. It's admitting that idealism doesn't exist in a permanent state. Logic. Acceptance. Seeing yourself outside of that black-and-white idealism. Moving on.
Whenever I enter any kind of relationship—doesn't have to be romantic—humanity (including my own) is automatically "factored in," which means the potential for "wasting time" is always there. I accept that the second I start talking to another living being. No illusions, and I choose how I spend my time.

Not every breakup or betrayal is the same, and people don't feel them all equally. A betrayal in a one or two-year relationship would be "nothing" to me emotionally compared to being cheated on after, say, 11 years. After 11 years of deep connection in a relationship that broke down gender stereotypes from day one, a betrayal would carry such weight that I wouldn't be able to call my partner an "idiot" or someone I just "wasted time on" while trying to shovel off the tiny bit of responsibility left on my shoulders.
But then again, maybe only psychopaths have that kind of steady logic and calm reason during life's storms. Right?
Maybe not.

I see a thousand different options "constantly and always." In my head, there isn't really a "good vs. bad" when it comes to labeling things. Sure, there's good and bad. (Good = constructive/quality; bad... I haven't figured that one out yet.)
Realizing "how things actually are" has slapped me pretty hard in the past; it was tough to swallow, and it totally shook my world.

It's complicated to separate yourself from your current mood, which you need to do if you want to see things from different angles. Once I've "processed" the emotional part, I move on to the rational part. That's why I don't make important decisions while I'm still riding an emotional wave. There's a time for everything, and for me, the emotional component acts more like a scent that rounds out the picture once the logic is set. I don't always have the same amount of time to process emotions, so sometimes I just "vent" it out, or if I can't, I push it aside for a moment just so I can think straight. I come back to it later—you shouldn't suppress things long-term. Besides, in any rational setup, you have to include the emotion, and to truly account for it, you have to actually feel it. Even though many people "successfully" breeze through that process by guessing while running at full speed, for me and the way I'm wired, that just doesn't work.

Eventually, you learn how to tell yourself "enough" and just ruthlessly start mapping out your future. Honestly, it’s not like we have endless options anyway.
I actually used to wonder if I was a total sociopath because of how I operate. While other, "tougher" people around me are falling apart in real-time, my brain is just cruising along at sixty miles per hour. I deal with the breakdown later—on my own terms.

Sure, there are a thousand paths, but that just means there are three times as many questions. The more answers you hunt down, the fewer unknowns you have, which narrows the field. Once I’ve trimmed the list down to a few contenders, I decide based on "harmony." To me, harmony is like wine tasting. It’s about blending logic, emotion, and gut feeling into one smooth, full-bodied experience—that final sensation. Not every option has the same flavor.
Luckily for me and everyone else, I'm better at making decisions than I am at tasting fine wine.

I cap the whole process at two days max. Though, most of the time, I wrap it up in a few hours. During that window, from a purely rational standpoint—not an emotional one—I connect the "good" and the "bad." This applies to any process, really, not just decision-making. Morals, responsibility, right vs. wrong... those things have been tuned to my specific frequency in the background for a long time now. Their "offspring" are reason and emotion (which, by the way, are just reflections of how mature the whole system is—they work together, they aren't in a hierarchy).

Do I know exactly where a choice will lead? Of course not. But I can make an educated guess where it’ll take me (those kinds of assumptions are just sub-options within the main options 🤣 ). As far as I'm concerned, that’s plenty of control (and responsibility) to have in my hands.

Control—aka suppressing fear—is one of the big reasons why people think they "know" exactly what a situation means for them.

DecemberFlower, given all your thoughts here and on psychology, you could have definitely expanded on this a bit more. The brevity and compactness of the mix definitely makes you want to search for... another perspective to help flesh things out.
So, what actually interests you?
Lately, I've been getting into cooking. In that sense, cooking has its own process that you can't really shortcut (drastically) or "turn off"—you can only delay it.
Humans are the same way. Unless you're a sociopath, in which case certain steps are just skipped entirely.
For anyone else, trying to fake that kind of skipping without actually doing the work would be (long-term) fatal for psychological growth.

Same here, same there.
Basically, I have a lot of thoughts on why people avoid looking at multiple perspectives of the same situation all at once.

Matthew Cruz44 said:Furthermore, I did mention a book earlier, though I neglected to specify which exact title explores this concept of a "moral dilemma."

The thing is, I’m actually torn between two different books—both absolute gems, really—and my memory is failing me on which one specifically covers that point. Regardless, if you ever feel the urge to cultivate a deeper sense of ethics, you absolutely must pick them up.

Scott Peck: The Road Less Traveled—it's a total classic.

David Brooks: Road to Character—a more contemporary bestseller.

When we talk about building character, what we’re really talking about is nurturing that inner voice. If someone is chasing worldly success, they’re usually just following whatever loud, external impulse leads them toward those material goals.

I truly hope there are some folks here interested in diving into this conversation.

To me, it feels like when you choose the path you believe is morally right—or intuitive, or whatever term people prefer to use these days—you end up heading down a road that almost nobody else would ever consider. It makes you feel a bit like a madwoman, honestly, as if the whole world is going to point fingers at you. It’s a bit like Diogenes living in his barrel; just another eccentric who thinks he’s found wisdom while everyone else looks on in confusion.
It reminds me of when he told the King to move out of his way because he was blocking the sunlight, completely dismissing any sort of material bribe or offer.

In all seriousness, someone acting with pure common sense wouldn't typically choose the very things that the majority rejects or deems unprofitable.

And since we’re living in such a modern age, that "crazy" label carries even more weight than it used to.

So, faced with that heavy stigma, you have to decide: do you ignore the pursuit of money? Do you wonder if you've lost your mind by waiting for some sort of "Law of Attraction" enlightenment that promises to deliver both integrity and a massive bank account simultaneously? It isn't an easy way to live.

But it doesn't stop there. Because once you actually possess a sense of ethics—which is evident if you're even wrestling with these dilemmas in the first place—you also start to fear giving in to the "logic of greed" or similar passions. You realize that chasing wealth can lead to a complete collapse of your character, potentially leaving you bankrupt or disgraced, and quite frankly, it's better to avoid that mess altogether. Yet, if you do stay the course, others will simply call you a fool.

It’s a complete, dizzying circle.

🤣Of course, life still happens, and you'll naturally find yourself swayed by the rhythm of the song playing in the background and such things.

Good luck to everyone, and I look forward to hearing your thoughts.

Don't sweat it—most of us are just crazy people convinced we're geniuses. See? You're actually pretty sane after all. 🙂

Anyway, I'm really interested in chatting about our "subconscious." That headspace where you aren't even processing what you read or planning what you're gonna say.
You just feel it, and then it comes out on the page.

I think you've got that in you.

You down? Let's keep it intuitive—no need for long-winded essays.

Watch out—skribomania alert!

In my head, I call intuition "omniscience."
That’s basically how I see intuition—kind of a loose definition, if you know what I mean? It’s more like... well, it's hard to pin down. A bit of a question mark around the whole idea of actually "defining" it.
Intuition is basically flawless—it’s the ultimate end result pulled from every possible option across all "dimensions." Honestly? It’s lightning fast. Like, insanely quick. That’s just how that mechanism works. You instantly *know* what’s going to go down... the only real headache is actually trying to put it into words.

It’s all about that gut feeling—knowing something is true because you actually feel certain about it. Knowledge isn't just facts; it's that sense of security.
Look, everyone should just look out for themselves. Period.
Intuition isn't just one thing—it hits you in layers.
That "gut feeling" of absolute certainty—it’s real. Like knowing it’s gonna pour tomorrow regardless of what the Weather Channel says—that's just the surface level stuff. Then there's that other kind of "feeling"—the one where you just know you're gonna trip or wreck yourself today—and you end up stuck inside all day because you're just... off. That's the deep stuff.
Intuition doesn't give a damn about whether something is "good" or "bad" for us—or even if it matters to the rest of the world or the universe at large. It just... exists. It doesn't care about being important or unimportant. Honestly? It's our own selfish desires that cloud everything up and mess with the signal.
The fewer fears a person carries—the easier they are to read.

It’s just like how an encyclopedia would ache... you know, like reading about all that suffering young Hamlet went through.

They’re getting the info regardless—whether they're crying, laughing, or whatever else. The facts don't care about our vibes. (Though, let's be real—mood totally changes how you process stuff, so it’d be smart to keep that in mind.)

It’s totally different from logic, sense, or actual reason—stuff that’s just constantly being hijacked by emotion, you know? Like, driven entirely by some raw desire or deep-seated need, all while being walled off by this fake sense of "safe" reasoning.
She doesn't even need to overthink it—you can just feel that sense of security the second you look at her. Honestly, that first instinct? That’s everything. It's all there.
It’s not some calculated move—it’s not like they sat down and mapped out a chain of logic or built it from a bunch of patterns. Nah, it's just a random thought. A total non sequitur.
So, here's the thing—the second half of what intuition actually feels like? It’s freedom. Period.
Security vs. freedom—it's the classic tug-of-war.
Tried to type out "pulled" but the damn keyboard keeps fighting me—won't let me hit that "l" or even the space bar properly. My gut's telling me: just leave it alone and don't touch it. 🤔
Intuition is actually free—it’s not like people think. When you try to pin it down or wrap it in some "human" logic, you just end up losing that sense of freedom. Most people view liberty through this narrow, restrictive lens that basically ties you down... which isn't even true freedom in the real world. 😵 )

Intuition—that gut feeling—usually gets backed up by some serious stubbornness between what's happening outside and how you're feeling inside. Basically? The more you try to ignore that inner voice, the harder it’s gonna hit you. It'll manifest one way or another—no use fighting it.
You can't control, change, or upgrade thoughts like that—you just gotta ignore them.
Just another way to figure out what’s actually my top-tier, cold hard logic—you know, the stuff that's colored by emotion—versus that other thing... the stuff we haven't quite wrapped our heads around yet. Even when we think we get it, we really don't.
Why do we say "we don't know"? Because people get stuck in their own little bubbles. Feelings aren't facts—not logic, not reason (which, let's be honest, most people just flat-out ignore anyway). Facts? That’s actual knowledge.
Right? Or what?
What if feelings were just... I don't know. A risk. Just a super childish way of looking at things—right?

Intuition isn't even "mine." Just another thing on the list.
Look, logic and reason—that whole "my territory" thing based on how much we’ve developed or how we actually function—that's one thing. But intuition? That isn't mine to claim. Intuition doesn't give a damn about human logic, either. It's just that... you know, that "magical" element.
How am I somehow free on a Monday morning—right during the peak rush—when my calendar is supposed to be slammed? Honestly, I don't know. But apparently, my "inner voice" decided that was the vibe the second I opened my eyes today.

Knowledge isn't just about stacking up facts and then trying to practice them later—it's more than that.
Intuition isn't just some gut feeling—it’s the whole damn picture. Think about it: in religion, you've got God; in philosophy, it's the Absolute. It’s way bigger than us—way beyond any individual person. We're talking about the core mechanism of a reality that operates on a scale much, much larger than the human world.
Back in the old days—in that previous world—intuition felt like this thing tied directly to the "soul." Now? It’s more like the soul has just become one part of how our intuition works.

Intuition is all about that gut connection—it’s how you learn to actually listen and pick up on things. It's different from thoughts or emotions, which you gotta learn to manage and keep under control—plus there's the whole physical body thing, too, dealing with those subconscious levels.
You can't exactly put a leash on intuition—it’s not something you control.
That’s why she's such a tough pill to swallow—it's because most of us are wired to find security through control, and we try to get that control by thinking we know everything.
Intuition actually demands one of the toughest skills out there. Which is basically a human incapacity. (total glitch in the matrix)
The ability to just let go.
So, if we wanted to actually tap into all those perks of intuition and fully grasp what humans can know... maybe we’d need a utopia. Somewhere safe and free enough for a person to just surrender to that knowledge.

People talk about intuition like it’s this "inner voice," but honestly, it’s hard for us to wrap our heads around how something external can sound internal. Because if it’s inside—well, I have to assume it’s "me."
Nope.
It’s all about connection. Surrender. Security. Freedom.
Peace isn't even strictly necessary. Nor is wisdom. (though, fair point, you gotta learn how to maintain some "internal peace" in life—the world keeps spinning regardless, so no sense wasting energy on fear)

Dealing with people, relationships, and stuff like that—it’s way harder to listen to your gut there, just like with the big life decisions.
For instance.
There’s someone pretty dear to me. But whenever I check in with my intuition (just a quick thought about them, looking for that first gut reaction), the answer is always the same: "run!"
There’s zero emotion involved. It’s just an instruction.
Doesn't mean they're a bad person, necessarily. Just that the end result is negative. Or, better yet, totally unproductive.

Also, synchronicity.
Just like how celestial bodies spin in this persistent, identical dance around each other, everything else moves in kind—down to the smallest (or biggest?) organism. We see synchronicity more often now (or maybe we’re just noticing it more)—those moments where the dance aligns into multiple fragments, like water dancers.
Truly beautiful machinery.
Has anyone else (and I'm sure they have) noticed how when all those delicate, scissor-like hands are moving in the same direction, time seems to stretch? Like the moment lasts longer than any other chaotic movement? Even the water the girls are splashing slows down with their rhythm. And the flower they're forming stays perfectly still. You have to get close to realize how many other tiny, unbound forms are tucked inside that one single flower (all working together to make it).
When every car lines up perfectly at a red light in downtown Chicago, does anyone else feel like time just... slows down?
That’s because the brain doesn't need speed-flow-movement in a state of order—only in chaos.

Perfection is found in what is limited and finite. It's totally hypnotic.

Whew! Okay, enough. I gotta stop trying to chase perfection. Just a little bit more.

Intuition is tied to synchronicity—meaning, the act of connecting itself (connection creates order)—and it's tied to time, too. Where intuition "lives"—there is no time. No flow of time.
(mind you, be careful when connecting things; trying to force a link with human logic just leads to chaos and decay. Intuitive thought isn't tethered to human thought)
It’s linked (or rather, read) through feelings (that sense of knowing-certainty) and possibilities (surrender, noticing the details). (And remember: feelings aren't emotions!)
Intuitive thought is perfect synchronicity—the perfectly aligned info of a final result (because there is a place where all final results exist). A circle.

The only real snag is doubt. Doubt is a disturbance in the order. An ellipse.
But it's necessary... because order is boring. The universe is boring.
Humans aren't evolved enough to live a life without excitement. Besides, life is movement, a flow.
(and look at that sentence without any emotion, value, desire, need, or morality... just as it is written).
Doubt keeps us moving. As long as doubt exists, there is infinity—that's the virus, the imperfection. It pulls us away from our perfect, limited being. (Being limited isn't "exciting," even though that's what makes you perfect)

It’s not "exciting" in today's society, which translates to—it's not "worth it." (And "value"? That's part of the virus)
We're constantly sold this idea of perfect, non-stop, imperfect movement—ambition, hunger, need—a perfect illusion of imperfection that drives us toward the final outcome: total cosmic awareness.
And even that constant movement is finite—in its very persistence, it becomes perfect.

Maybe. 🤣

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Guys, I feel like I'm onto something with this novel—like there's a real spark here—but it’s just falling apart somewhere. I'll definitely be coming back to this exact draft one day.