Posts by Peter Murphy6

You’re missing the concept of ownership.
Ownership is something you defend.
Do you love anyone?
Family—your dad, mom, sister, brother, even your dog or cat. Someone you actually give a damn about.
Pick that person and picture them in a nasty situation in your head. Imagine someone bullying them. They’re humiliated, basically on the verge of tears. They’re paralyzed, hands shaking because they’re so scared. And the aggressor just won't stop—pushing them, mocking them.
How does that make you feel?
Don't think about yourself or your own fear—think about what you feel for *that* person. Just lean into that feeling. Really sit with what they’re going through.

Once you step out of the spotlight and become an observer, the whole world takes on a different tone.

Love is ownership (this is gonna sting for some people, I'm ready for the arguments), we protect the people we care about because they are "ours." Now, apply that to yourself.
Do you even own yourself?
Love is ownership—saying it for the fifth time—but that’s not where it ends.
Find the middle ground. Don't look for a template; look for your most optimized self.
The middle ground is feeling someone else's pain and protecting them *because* of that pain, not to prove how tough you are. And if you do that, you end up feeling your own pain too.

Basically, when the moment hits, people pull off feats they never dreamed they were capable of. Having this kind of reflection beforehand really helps.
And I don't mean just imagining yourself saying "no"—because that doesn't seem to help you much, other than keeping you stuck in the same spot.
For you, I’d actually suggest leaning into triggering your own anger.
And I don't mean through sports or whatever—I mean mentally. All mental. Sports, working out, hitting the gym... those are just external ways people try to pump up their insides. But if the internal stuff isn't following suit, all that effort is useless.

By the way, how good are you at saying "no" to yourself? If you struggle with that, work on it. Being able to tell yourself "no" is one of the greatest powers there is; it opens up entirely new worlds.

Look, everyone has a fighting spirit; the question is where you point it. Find your direction—where are you aiming that fight? What gets your blood boiling? I mean literally—not just what makes you sad or scared, but what actually raises your blood pressure?
In the "worst-case" scenario, you might realize you're the one raising your own blood pressure, so use that fighting spirit to go toe-to-toe with yourself. Conquering yourself (in stages, battles, wars... I don't know if you can ever truly "win") is... a cure for a lot of things. 😉

See, for example, look at how you protect your own pain—you got pissed off the second someone questioned it.

I’d be happy to pour a little of my own extreme onto you: the constant search for conflict. I’m learning how to handle conflict just like you are, just from the other side. I’m learning how to find calm.

casualtiger2 said:Indigo children eventually grow up and step up to take responsibility—both for themselves and for the world at large.
They end up becoming a source of inspiration for everyone around them, near and far.
They make the world a better place, not just for themselves, but for everybody else too.
Their massive creativity—paired with that same level of intelligence and a genuine love for life and people—allows them to find all sorts of fresh solutions for both individuals and entire communities.
Through their sensitivity and heightened awareness, they help transform this world in all its forms, pushing us steadily toward harmony, love, and peace.

Seems a bit too "perfect world" for me.

"Indigos" are just one part of how the world works—they aren't the ones driving the whole machine.

Honestly? Thinking things work exactly like you described is basically just fuel for the ego.

Sometimes you just gotta learn when to leave well enough alone—don't poke the bear if you want to stay out of trouble.
The world is fine. And everything is a mess. Honestly, it’s neither—it just *is*.
If everything were actually perfect, we wouldn't even have a reason to grow, right?
Maria Parker77, you think we've hit a dead end in terms of human progress? Or was there ever even a starting line?

Justin Baker6 said:Give it a rest.

No answer?
Whatever—I’ve got one, and yeah, it might get a little intense. 😈

It's actually on topic, too. Honestly, all this talk about spraying stuff in the sky is the perfect setup for me to explain my next idea.
Moving away from just my personal vibes and stepping into some (mostly) theoretical territory here.

People aren't accepting the spraying—they're basically ejecting it out of their systems. The real question is which direction that energy goes and how. I'd suggest being constructive about it, but let's be real, that isn't always an option.

The whole "indigo child" thing really comes down to empathy. And I don't just mean being nice.
How it works is through this absorption principle. You soak up the other person's emotions into yourself, live through them, and along the way, you trigger your own buried or ignored feelings.

That's why it's so hard for "indigo kids" to figure out who they actually are. You absorb everything around you—the good, the bad, all of it. It's exhausting; eventually, you lose track of where *you* end and everyone else begins. That's where the conflict starts.

Learning how to purge those outside emotions is vital if you ever want to actually know yourself. But first, you have to be able to tell if a feeling is yours or if it was absorbed.
If it's triggered by something, you can manage it—especially if you realize you're actually the one "triggering" yourself (which makes you wonder why you're poking at those specific emotions in the first place).
If it's absorbed—you've gotta let it go, because it's not your vibe, it belongs to someone else.
And yeah, even with positive vibes, holding onto them too tight isn't helpful either. It just creates this weird restlessness—positive-negative-whatever=restlessness.

After a while, people like this try to build a "shield" to stop themselves from absorbing things. That's a dead end—totally unproductive. The point is learning how to release, I'm telling you. Not shield. And I don't mean releasing it in that destructive, negative way a lot of these kids or adults end up doing (aka, starting fights).

You can't change the mechanism that absorbs; you can only force it to shut down, and man... the consequences are rough.

So, bottom line: learn to distinguish the source of the emotion from its actual purpose.
Obviously, the best results come from just calming your entire being. The only catch is that these types of people are usually way too restless to pull that off.

I passed this test and a few others quite a while ago.
Looks like I am an indigo after all—even though I really wished I wasn't. 🙄
19/21 (honestly, I have no clue when I started walking and I definitely don't know what's actually coming out of my eyes right now).

Indigos are dangerous—and unfortunately, not just because of who they are.

Justin Baker6 said:Fine, whatever. It's your call how you want to handle it.

Handle what exactly?
The holy water sprinkling?

Justin Baker6 said:Glad you finally asked that.

👍

Yeah, I'm with you—she caught me totally off guard.

Props to her, though. Here I am hours later, coughing up dust from lungs that feel like they're coated in grit—it’s slowly spreading through my whole system.

Honestly, I have no clue what to do about all this pesticide sitting in my body now. 🤔

Joseph Bailey41 said:Once things land in my inbox or show up in public, they become content. If you're naive enough to think that sharing your "truth" makes everyone else equally transparent, you're mistaken. And don't worry, I don't go around broadcasting private messages; I've never been that kind of person. They've been izbrisati, just like you've been izbrisati from my life.

Go find some other fool to play your games with.

Nah, it doesn't "become" anything—you just choose to see it that way. It makes it feel less personal, right?
It's a great little shield—gives you the perfect excuse to talk trash without feeling guilty about who you're hurting.
Besides, people are one thing in real life and totally different online.

Yeah, I write the truth about myself because I'm writing for *me*.
(Thanks for the "helpful" advice you didn't even try to give sincerely, but damn, apparently I'm just some bot playing games, like every other person on the internet)

Do whatever—izbrisati it, share it, I don't give a damn, Joseph Bailey41. You finally got your moment and did what you wanted, I guess.

Anyway, enough off-topic stuff—you could've just sent a DM instead of putting on a show for an audience... but then it wouldn't have felt as "powerful," would it?

This isn't just stuff—it's my whole life.

Joseph Bailey41 said:Have you ever considered just stopping all this "helping"? Honestly, your long lectures have completely thrown me off—I actually got a little spooked thinking your next post might come from some sketchy neighborhood in West Philly, like what happened to that other user before you. You saw all sorts of things in me, but she just ended up spiraling into her own drama. Maybe take a break from everyone else's problems and focus on yourself for a bit. You really need it.

Yeah, I have.

wearyrider16 said:Oh, for sure. She’s everywhere. I just hope she’s doing her job well and looking out for us introverts. 😁

?
Wait, you think you slid into my DMs?

Which clone of yours am I supposed to be talking to? Because it definitely wasn't this one—you're the one who messaged me.

Joseph Bailey41 said:Did you get a message in your inbox too? 🤦

Don't sweat it—in your case, I won't be making that mistake again.

Sorry wearyrider16, I just realized how much reading someone else's map is basically just manipulating them.

I wanted to reach out and say nothing but nice things, but then it hit me—that’s just manipulation too.
I wanted to just tell it like it is, but even that "truth" is just my own perspective—which is still a form of manipulation.

I guess I’m not arrogant enough anymore—or maybe just not shallow enough—to try and read your entire universe.
Honestly, I don't even know how to "help" people anymore; every little move I make feels like a potential landmine.

It's not that I forgot, I just... hoped you had.

Ryan Wilson2 said:The point I am making is quite simple: if you lack the capacity to manage your own existence—meaning, if you aren't even satisfied with your own life—how on earth do you expect to fix a world that is currently collapsing under its own weight?

Personally, I don't buy into this whole "Indigo" concept at all. In fact, I find it dangerous to the very idea of human individuality and intrinsic value. It's nothing more than spiritualized psychiatry—a way to slap a label on people through a pseudo-spiritual diagnostic lens.

I couldn't agree more.

Does having the job and checking all those boxes actually mean you're satisfied—like, does it mean you've finally "made it"?

Honestly, feels like wearyrider16 is more about chasing that inner peace than anything external—just looking for that internal satisfaction, you know?

Having a polished life on the outside doesn't mean you're actually happy on the inside—man, if only it worked that way. Things would be a hell of a lot easier.

That whole "world pressing against your back" thing... yeah, I feel you there. But honestly? You can't fix that kind of weight just by moving this way—it's not gonna cut it.

Ryan Wilson2 said:Before I even consider addressing the question at hand, there are several other matters I find myself curious about... for instance, do you actually hold down a job, who is responsible for preparing your meals, how old are you, and with whom do you reside?

Look, if you had a real life going on, you wouldn't even be thinking about this, right? Is that what you're getting at?

Just to get ahead of you—I'm 28, I work, I cook my own meals, and I live with my partner.
So, clearly, I don't have a single problem in my life and I'm just sitting here wasting time. If I were living in the "real world," I wouldn't even bother with this kind of "nonsense."

Not to mention, it's hard for a kid who's 28 years old to have "experienced" much by now. (answering your little prediction there)

Anyway, I don't really "buy" into this whole Indigo concept. Honestly, I think it’s dangerous for individuality and human worth—just as much as psychiatry is. Indigo is basically just spiritual psychiatry—it's a diagnostic label.
But hey, I get the human urge to categorize everything just to feel like we belong.

Harold Anderson3 said:I actually need to sort out my residency paperwork in Washington, D.C. before I can get to that, but other than that, everything should be smooth sailing.

Honestly, I was feeling so incredibly overwhelmed this morning that right after I started this thread, I actually headed toward the hospital thinking I might need to be admitted. On my way there, though, I decided to pull over for a quick coffee, and after sitting in the cafe for about an hour, my perspective shifted and my mood improved quite a bit. To top it all off, an old friend reached out to me out of the blue, which was such a lovely surprise. I’m feeling much more like myself now.

So, what you're saying is—you totally vented all that stress this morning because of the job hunt, then just sat down, chilled out, processed things, and somehow even found a silver lining despite everything you wrote here?

Don't beat yourself up about it—what you were feeling makes total sense 🙂

Glad to hear things are looking up 👍

Is the residency stuff going to be a headache?

Harold Anderson3 said:Could someone please lock or just delete this thread? Honestly, I’m cringing at the title and everything else I wrote here. Thanks!

Hey Harold, how'd that contract signing go?

I see myself just chilling, kicked back in an armchair made of pure consciousness, somewhere in that half-formed meta-mess ( 🤣 ) that’s convinced it holds all the cards and runs the whole show. But look—control is a two-way street, just like delusions are. Power doesn't actually exist outside of how we perceive it as a value. We drag morality into everything about our existence, including using it as the starting point to explain what "power" even is.
When power isn't in the picture, you’re basically on vacation—just leaning back and enjoying the ride, trusting the driver. Think of it like this: if you—the "customer"—didn't exist, the driver wouldn't have a job either.
There are two drivers in play here: one is wise, the other is a total loose cannon. A person "needs" to learn how to tell which one is "talking" and stirring up desire. That’s the control part—you get to choose. But to make a choice, you first "have" to trust yourself. You have to find yourself in that armchair and just let go.
Honestly, you’re the one holding yourself back. "They" or "it" is just playing in a sandbox during a storm while you sit there wondering whether to throw "it" entirely into the washing machine or just toss in the laundry.
Try thinking a bit harder about how to pull "him" away from all those metal-iron-whatever-conducts-electricity poles stuck in the sand meant to protect "him." If that's not control, I don't know what is.
And I'm telling you, you're just you without "morality" or responsibility—it’s not about that, it’s about levels of power that you either aren't aware of yet or are just temporarily ignoring.

Sure, you can tell yourself a hundred times to accept something. But you’ll just suppress it until you snap and need an outlet—another mess. There’s no point in saying "no" to yourself because the very next thought after that firm decision—well, a stronger need will just hit, and nothing will change.

So why are you pissed off? Is it at yourself or at whatever dragged you here? Who are you making excuses for, or who are you pinning the blame on? All of that is just a brake on objectivity—on progress. It’s the cause-and-effect stuff that messes with your ability to decide in the moment to just grab a drink. It messes with your will.
Willpower isn't automatic in these kinds of spirals; you have to anticipate it and "program" it, and over time, it pays off. If you don't want to remember, if you feel like you aren't ready and you're still angry, try programming specific moments to release the tension that you already know is building up. And don't beat yourself up for doing "stupid things" (to a certain extent, anyway 😬 ); you decided to do it and you planned it, so you're gaining power. That way, you're being responsible to yourself. You aren't giving yourself too much freedom—the key is in the planning and organizing, having control over the urge.

Later on, you slowly start uncovering more about that urge, with a calmer soul and zero guilt. Why did it start? When did it happen? What was it serving "back then," and what is it serving now? Once you cover that, you catch the consequences—both for yourself and for the people around you. You start seeing patterns and repetitions and asking the same questions: why, when, how. Cover the consequence, then the consequence of the consequence—the effect. See if it impacted some other event. Basically—start connecting the dots 🙂
You can do this superficially, covering maybe the last 5 years, or you can go way deeper—that’s up to you.

If you start feeling panic, try swapping it out for excitement—something like butterflies. Then, try to remember a time you felt positive nerves in your life that actually led to great results.
The power of self-persuasion can serve you incredibly well, provided you're aware you're using it.

Also, the brain has this little trap. Sometimes you're thinking about something and suddenly this "perfect" logic and sense seems to emerge. The feeling is so subtle it's almost invisible, and then suddenly everything falls apart and you're hit with this misery of failure and a sense of panic because you're afraid of being stuck. I interpreted this to myself as that "loose cannon" driver not wanting progress, so he invents a loophole, throws in some confusion—a temporary "virus" to muddle things up and actually block the "truth."
When that happens to me, I step away completely. I shift my focus because I realize that anything following that moment makes zero sense—it just creates dizzying spirals. I just grab onto the first thing that pops into my head because I believe the "wise" driver is the one making the call (pure logic; he's just confused because he didn't get what he wanted, so he gives the other guy enough time and space to whisper which direction to go). Once that reaches a saturation point, I go back to where I started.

All those "my" ways I process info—that whole semi-rational approach thing—I've worked through over time. Maybe you can grab a few bits from there and plug them into "your" own way of doing things.
Life’s got its ups and downs—just like how a recliner rocks right along with ya.🤷
Maybe instead of just jumping straight into learning how to drive a car, we should first learn how to just... be ourselves behind the wheel.🐔

I think the beauty lies in how every day is just... reality. That sense of security and peace comes from your idea about reason acting like a processor in a projector—that’s such a killer line! 👍
To me, one of those "newly discovered" life lessons is actually learning how to live in the moment. I feel like people get this wrong all the time; they think living in the moment means you have to be constantly chasing stuff—traveling, partying, being social, hitting milestones—just a massive checklist of activities. But for me? Living in the moment is about understanding my emotions—where they're coming from, why they're there, and what triggered them (you know, that two-layer thing where you have the surface emotion and then the deeper layer underneath), regardless of whether the feeling is "good" or "bad."

The hard part is dealing with that split. Every day is different, emotions are constantly shifting, and logic usually shows up way too late—everything feels totally out of my control. But by leaning into reason, I think I've hit this kind of "sync"—now, the feeling of the moment and the logical explanation happen at the same time. It’s allowed me to finally let go and trust that I won't "mess up."
If you keep tripping over the same stone, you've gotta learn something. The real nonsense is not knowing "why," because that’s exactly what drives people into those frustrating cycles of self-blame.

Guilt isn't meant to be a sentence; it's just a compass pointing toward where you need to grow internally 🙂 It's not there to judge you or "destroy" you.

wanderinggull11 said:You're right. I remember watching an NBA game once and thinking the player would kill himself if he missed a free throw—then he missed. I fought it because I knew it was total nonsense. Those obsessive thoughts kept coming back, but I ignored them. I didn't give them any weight. But today at work, I got hit with this thought: what if I actually want to kill myself? It spiraled into me feeling like I *want* to, or even that I *have* to. I guess those are just intrusive thoughts. I'll try to listen to you guys. Let the thoughts exist without giving them any power. Maybe I should just treat them like any other random thought.

Try looking at it without getting all emotional—stay objective. Like, seriously, how does handball even connect to you?
Why do you love it? What does it actually mean in your life?
How have you handled your own failures in the past? Or seeing others fail? Has anyone ever put you in competition with someone else?

No, obviously you don't have to listen to the thoughts. They’re just nudging you toward stuff you need to figure out for yourself. Try viewing them as signs or symbols—nothing more. Just... don't ignore the sign itself.
Keep asking yourself these questions. If it helps, write everything down. Read it back later with some distance, study yourself.

Good luck 🙂

Ask yourself why these exact thoughts keep looping—maybe you’ve felt this way before and just shoved it down deep.
Start with "why." It might not even be the stress itself; sometimes stress just turns up the volume on stuff that was already there.