Posts by velvetmaker18

Honestly, the fact that you’re actually spotting your own patterns? That’s huge. Like, that’s massive progress right there. But look, before you try to fix anything, you just gotta embrace who you are right now. If you don't, every single attempt to change is just gonna be surface-level nonsense, you know? Just scratching at the paint. Some people are just wired a certain way. Maybe one day you'll stumble upon someone who just *clicks*—someone whose vibe, humor, and interests hit all the right notes—and then closeness just happens naturally. But hey, if this whole thing is really just a fear of being alone? My best advice is to take a massive, deep dive into your own soul.

Are you actually stoked about this job waiting for you? Like, is this really what you want to be doing with your life? Are you gonna feel fulfilled in a career like this? Honestly, I feel like when things aren't clicking mentally, it’s often because you’re just unfulfilled deep down. Of course, everyone’s different, right? But if you’re forcing yourself into something under all this pressure, I can’t help but think you’re just setting yourself up for another cycle of the same old thing. Since this is exactly what you've been dreading, it really comes down to one big question: do you dive headfirst into the grind to try and "make something of yourself," or do you just take a beat for yourself? Maybe meditate, find some peace, and figure out what actually makes you happy and whole.