Posts by wiredfalcon21

granitesurfer36 said:You're talking like I'm some kind of psychiatric patient...

I wouldn't go so far as to call you a psychiatric case in general, but given how you're reacting to everything right now, I can see why it feels that way—and I don't see why you're denying it. People seek out psychological or psychiatric support all the time, especially after being robbed or facing the kind of situation you're in. It isn't unusual at all for someone to look for mental health assistance after the sudden loss of a loved one.

granitesurfer36 said:Five days ago, my father took his own life. Pain, despair, bitterness, guilt, anger—even shame... those are just a few of the things I’ve been carrying around. During the day, I can hold it together, but at night, the memory of what he did haunts me. I find myself constantly replaying it in my head. I’m actually scared to go to sleep because even when I finally drift off, I wake up thinking about it all over again. How can I help myself get through this?

I strongly suggest that you head to the emergency room immediately. They can provide you with a referral so you can get to a crisis center or a psychiatric facility right away, regardless of the hour. If you happen to be in the Los Angeles area, there are specific crisis centers available, but if not, please just go to the nearest psychiatric hospital in your vicinity.