As for the twitching, I’m actually terrified of lying on my back. I’ve nearly cracked my teeth a few times because my jaw slams shut so hard that my bottom teeth just smash right into the top ones—it’s honestly terrifying. After it happens, I find myself checking my teeth every single time just to make sure nothing is broken... It didn't used to be this bad, but over the last couple of years, these spasms have been getting more frequent. Even when I'm fully awake, my mouth will suddenly snap shut or clench violently if it wasn't already...
My old man used to clench his jaw so hard in his sleep that he actually ended up cracking his molars...
Ugh, tell me about it! It always hits me right when I’m finally drifting off to sleep, and just as I'm about to pass out, I get that sudden sensation of plummeting through the floor... which is honestly kind of ridiculous since I'm already lying flat on my bed 😁 Then that wave of pure panic just surges through my entire body, I jerk awake, and immediately realize I was just dreaming... yeah, typical.
Gregory Reyes, look, that jealousy is just a byproduct of being unhappy with yourself and dealing with the fallout of losing someone close to you. It’s pure frustration, plain and simple. Honestly, it’s good that you’re recognizing how toxic this envy is—mostly because it’s eating you alive from the inside. Once you realize how completely pointless all of this is, you'll finally be able to let it go. First things first, you have to stop obsessing over what she’s wearing and trying to mimic her style; you aren't going to get anywhere that way, and frankly, it’s getting pretty unhealthy. You need to find some peace with who you actually are. If you want to change things up, do it because it fits *you* and what you can actually do, but none of that matters if you don't have any self-respect to begin with. Just learn to value yourself and everything will fall into place. She only seems "better" because that's how you've framed her in your own head—because she has something you're craving. I get it, it's human nature, but seriously, try to get a grip before this turns into a full-blown breakdown.
Men are obviously more violent, probably due to hormones, testosterone, and all that other crap, but that doesn’t mean women can't be way more malicious and calculating. Why do women specifically target men? Maybe it's just a lifetime of built-up frustration that finally snapped and turned into something incredibly twisted. From what I've gathered looking into these cases, the women who kill serial killers often resemble a woman who once dumped them or walked out on them.
There isn't a single instrument or sound out there that can't be used for something good. It’s the same deal with the accordion. I don't get many chances to hear it in most music these days, but honestly, it’s just as perfect an instrument as any other.