#41 ·
Hey there.
I’ve been struggling to fall asleep for quite a while now; I just can't drift off normally no matter what I try. As far as work goes, I’ve cycled through all kinds of shifts—one stretch I was strictly on nights, then afternoons, then mornings, then just a total mess of a schedule. Out of all of them, those damn morning shifts hit me the hardest! In the evening, I can't sleep for the life of me, regardless of whether I hit the sack at 9, 10, or 11... The second I lie down, exhausted, my brain starts racing with everything and anything, goddammit, it feels like a full-blown battle is raging inside my head on the Mississippi River 🤣🤦 Then I glance at the clock and see it's already 2:30 AM, and I have to be up by 4:30, so panic sets in. I struggle again, finally pass out, but only for a few minutes before the alarm starts screaming at me. I perform perfectly fine when I first start my shift, but toward the end of the day, my concentration and physical strength just tank. By the time I get home, I can barely keep my eyes open, so I crash in bed, only to wake up about an hour and a half later feeling completely dazed and disoriented. It’s fine if I don't have a morning shift the next day; I can usually fall asleep in the evening without much trouble. But when I get stuck with five or six morning shifts in a row? That is pure hell. Soon, I'll probably be back to that 12-on/24-off rotation (I worked like that for a while once), which actually suits me best because I get a full day at home between shifts to rest, recharge, go biking, run, and just clear my head. But then, after that, the morning shifts come back and the whole nightmare repeats itself. I tried taking Normabel at 5 mg, then bumped it up to two of them (so 10 mg). Tried Pan Sanval at 5 mg, then two of those too... AND NOTHING!! It’s like I’m made of freaking concrete and steel. I tried it once and won't bother again because it's useless. Man, some people say they get tongue-tied or stop breathing from just 2 mg of Normabel, but for me, nothing happens. I'm part of the crowd, weighing 85 kg and physically pretty strong, so maybe these pills just don't reach the parts of my brain where they're supposed to 😁 I'm not even thinking about herbal teas. Honestly, it feels stupid to even ask for advice because that usually just leads to "go see a psychologist or psychiatrist," though I doubt even that would do any good.
I forgot to mention that I don't have any major life crises keeping me up at night; just the usual little annoyances everyone deals with, right 😉 and I actually love my job, so that isn't the reason for this mess either.
Anyway, I've gone on a bit of a rant here. It's 1:25 AM; maybe I'll actually fall asleep by 3 😉 :*
I’ve been struggling to fall asleep for quite a while now; I just can't drift off normally no matter what I try. As far as work goes, I’ve cycled through all kinds of shifts—one stretch I was strictly on nights, then afternoons, then mornings, then just a total mess of a schedule. Out of all of them, those damn morning shifts hit me the hardest! In the evening, I can't sleep for the life of me, regardless of whether I hit the sack at 9, 10, or 11... The second I lie down, exhausted, my brain starts racing with everything and anything, goddammit, it feels like a full-blown battle is raging inside my head on the Mississippi River 🤣🤦 Then I glance at the clock and see it's already 2:30 AM, and I have to be up by 4:30, so panic sets in. I struggle again, finally pass out, but only for a few minutes before the alarm starts screaming at me. I perform perfectly fine when I first start my shift, but toward the end of the day, my concentration and physical strength just tank. By the time I get home, I can barely keep my eyes open, so I crash in bed, only to wake up about an hour and a half later feeling completely dazed and disoriented. It’s fine if I don't have a morning shift the next day; I can usually fall asleep in the evening without much trouble. But when I get stuck with five or six morning shifts in a row? That is pure hell. Soon, I'll probably be back to that 12-on/24-off rotation (I worked like that for a while once), which actually suits me best because I get a full day at home between shifts to rest, recharge, go biking, run, and just clear my head. But then, after that, the morning shifts come back and the whole nightmare repeats itself. I tried taking Normabel at 5 mg, then bumped it up to two of them (so 10 mg). Tried Pan Sanval at 5 mg, then two of those too... AND NOTHING!! It’s like I’m made of freaking concrete and steel. I tried it once and won't bother again because it's useless. Man, some people say they get tongue-tied or stop breathing from just 2 mg of Normabel, but for me, nothing happens. I'm part of the crowd, weighing 85 kg and physically pretty strong, so maybe these pills just don't reach the parts of my brain where they're supposed to 😁 I'm not even thinking about herbal teas. Honestly, it feels stupid to even ask for advice because that usually just leads to "go see a psychologist or psychiatrist," though I doubt even that would do any good.
I forgot to mention that I don't have any major life crises keeping me up at night; just the usual little annoyances everyone deals with, right 😉 and I actually love my job, so that isn't the reason for this mess either.
Anyway, I've gone on a bit of a rant here. It's 1:25 AM; maybe I'll actually fall asleep by 3 😉 :*
