Well, there it is. The damage is done. We went ahead and took a bite of that forbidden fruit, didn't we? There’s no undoing it now.
And just like that, the warm, living pulse of reason basically turned into ice.
It’s funny how things work out sometimes. You think you have this massive, overwhelming force in front of you—something huge and blinding, like the sun of Adam—and then suddenly, this tiny, insignificant little grain of wheat just rolls in and eclipses the whole thing. It’s wild, really. Just one small thing completely changing your entire perspective on what's actually standing in front of you.
It’s just like as The Dragon's tail dulls The brightness of The moon.Maulana Jallaludin Rumi Maulana Jallaludin Rumi: Masnavi I Ma'nav *** Quote
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beeli said:Hey, Jason Johnson4. Since I actually dig your writing style, I’ve gotta ask—where are you pulling all this from? Is it just hands-on experience, or do you have a specific reading list you swear by? I’d love to at least become well-read on the subject, if not go a bit deeper.
Well... I have to say, hearing something like that actually makes my day.
Look, I’ve definitely had my fair share of run-ins with the deep end. Honestly, I usually prefer to just sit on the sidelines and stay out of these debates entirely, but I feel like I have some skin in the game here. Not all of my past experiments were exactly what you'd call "recommended," if you catch my drift, but I know exactly what kind of demons I was dancing with back then. I was already on very familiar terms with them.
Just to be crystal clear: this isn't some kind of recommendation or an invitation to go out and start using similar substances.
Look, the thing is, most people just won't admit to themselves that they aren't actually ready for that kind of experience. They fall into this trap of thinking, "Well, if everyone else can handle it, I definitely can too." Then, once things get heavy, they swear they’re "expanding their minds," only to end up cursing plain old marijuana because they couldn't handle the ride.
I mean, honestly, the alpha and omega of any experience with—even the most mellow psychoactive substances—is Leary’s whole postulate regarding SET and SETTING. But does anyone actually stop to think about them? Seriously, lay it on me, give me some guidance so I can actually fly instead of crashing. If people just paid a little more attention to their set (you know, their headspace right before and after they take something) and their setting (the actual environment they're in), there would be so much less paranoia and that weird, heavy lethargy you get after hitting a bong or a joint. Heck, if they were careful, they might even avoid a total meltdown when dealing with something much heavier.
Anyway, back to the heavyweights:
I personally know a few people who are total Oedipus types. 🙄 I almost completely trashed my life plans... Honestly, that whole Oedipus thing—not even the Freud version, just the core concept—is this fundamental conflict that really shouldn't be hanging around when you're heading out on expeditions like this.
I've honestly had it up to here. Seriously, screw everything. 😁
I’ve actually "facilitated" a few mushroom-fueled DSL sessions myself—mostly because people kept asking me to, of course. And honestly? Not a single person had a massive meltdown. I just made sure to convince anyone who looked even slightly shaky that it was better to frame the whole experience as simple fragmentation and defragmentation. It keeps things manageable, you know?
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Let's talk about literature.
I honestly don't even know where to start with recommendations—there's just way too much good stuff out there to pick just one thing.
Maybe start with Louis Lewin’s stuff on psychedelics. It’s pretty tough to track down, but hey, if you're actually interested in diving deep and you happen to be fluent in German, I might be able to scan a PDF over to you one of these days... just let me know.
You know, I was just sitting here thinking about Aldous Huxley's *The Doors of Perception* and *Heaven & Hell*. It’s one of those books that really sticks in the back of your mind, isn't it? It makes you wonder about the way we perceive everything around us.
Then there’s MOKSHA, written by that same author.
So, I was diving back into some Stanislav Grof lately—you know how it goes, one minute you're looking for something specific and the next you're three hours deep into a rabbit hole. I ended up revisiting some of his stuff on LSD psychotherapy. It’s wild how much he pioneered in that space; he really laid the groundwork for understanding how those kinds of intense experiences can actually be used for healing rather than just being some chaotic trip. It’s heavy stuff, but incredibly fascinating.
If you're looking to get a real look under the hood of the human psyche, you should definitely check out that character analysis by Wilhelm Reich I mentioned earlier. It's worth the read.
Just a quick heads-up: you really ought to read Reich within a real-world context—something like David Boadella’s *The Life and Work of Wilhelm Reich*. If you don't, his whole set of theses and theories might end up sounding a little ridiculous or just plain unbelievable.Look, you have to understand that I’ve got a few secrets tucked away. They aren't exactly hidden—I mean, the books are out there for anyone to find if they bother looking—but I'm not about to just drop their titles on you right here.
Honestly, most of this stuff was already covered back when I was studying under my old mentor:
Dostoevsky. 🙏 🙏 🙏 🙏
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Best of luck out there—and seriously, keep your eyes peeled. You never know when things might get a little dicey.