Reallocating my life energy...!!

Bradley Myers63 said:I don't really have any more questions now. Bradley Myers63 started a thread about places of power and his answers aligned perfectly with my own practice—so everything is clear to me. There is just one thing I'm stuck on: Carlos Castaneda clearly calls those who seek and spread the truth warriors of light, but personally, I don't need a title like that to be a warrior of light. That said, whenever the concept of truth comes up, I’ll never allow myself to get dragged into debates like the ones you all and Samting get into. I can't help but wonder why I can't move past my ego during those moments of "attack"—it's why I can't reach a state where I'm actually spreading the truth. And if you take this as some twenty-year-old kid trying to sound smart, you're wrong—you're missing the point that a light body isn't linearly tied to age, so there's no function that would make people unequal based on years lived. The attitude during our last discussion on a different topic was basically that it's impossible to explain things to you because most materialistic people are incapable... blah blah blah... "the greatest" warriors running around with their egos and blunt swords. It's sad I even have to write this here, but I felt the need, so don't feel attacked without reason. My takeaway is that the greatest warrior of light is the one who doesn't even realize they are one—they don't even know others have a name for them. Once again, it doesn't matter who is speaking, but what is being said; excluding someone based on age is fundamentally against instinct. Joseph Cook7, please drop the ego and share your knowledge with us younger folks so we can appreciate your wisdom—there are those of us who genuinely want to 👍

Zachary Cook2
95% of people won't get it. What an attitude—you've shut everyone else out. Don't make me sharpen my axe for battle, warrior of light... those names are great for people who played with Action Man figures as kids, though I worry the gays might reject the title; maybe "Lady of Light" with a mink stole would suit them better, hahaha
Check out the places of power thread if you want; I think it has some key elements for reaching a materialistic person. For me, it's enough to give me a "knock on the head"—maybe it's because my IQ is around 150, so I pick things up fast. Otherwise, it's eventually going to end up with 95% of people not understanding anything when it all starts sounding like gibberish. Carlos Castaneda, you aren't getting away from me until Zachary Cook2 and I grab a coffee without all the unnecessary extras, hihihi

If you actually read my replies to the young man, you'd see I was always trying to help him out by pointing out he lacks the basics to even hold this conversation. But you missed the part where "the young gentleman" immediately claimed I just copied my opening post and that I'm just playing a role here. Since he thinks I'm just some copier and manipulator, I can't do much more than "request" that he stop addressing me altogether. Everything I write comes straight from my head—I don't copy anyone. I've been on the Toltec path for over twenty-five years, learning from a student of the last Toltec in California, where I lived and studied. Since I spend so much time traveling, I make typos, which the young gentleman immediately jumped on, failing to realize that internet forums aren't professionally edited books. People just write how they know how to write. I'm open to chatting and making connections, just not to the mockery and childishness...

@Carlos Castaneda

Hey, my bad if I came off a bit rude or offended anyone earlier.

I truly apologize, and I hope you all have an awesome rest of your night!

Don't take this personally—there's no malice intended—it’s just that people often lack understanding, plain and simple. It wasn't until yesterday that my practical experience finally aligned with the theory; everything suddenly clicked for me. My worldview is Catholic, so I've always leaned into intention—I think it's just time to move past this unconscious phase and start grasping things through a theoretical lens that was previously out of reach. In that spirit, I have plenty of questions, which I hope will help both you and everyone else in this process of discovery.
If you could describe the hurdles one faces when bringing the unconscious up to a conscious level—specifically, how closely linked are individual fear and the act of letting go? Personally, I don't feel any fear at all; if anything, it's the opposite. My surrender and rejection of material concerns have been absolute so far. Is that a sound approach, or is it more complicated than that?
A sharp pain between the eyes—is that normal, or am I hitting a block? I don't see why there would be pain if there isn't any fear present.
I didn't fall asleep until about 4 AM because of that exact pain. I had a strange dream that I can interpret roughly like this: total darkness, nothingness, just a voice. It's a shame—I can't remember much, just the end, and it's honestly pretty depressing that it's fading... just bits and pieces... something... something... something... "And that's how people reject materialism!" You'll play your part, just as vital as any other—don't listen to the body if it claims to be superior.
Truly wonderful. I'm asking humbly for your thoughts, hoping you won't see ego or falsehood in my writing. Or, if it is ego, please tell me straight—or perhaps it's just a flawed interpretation? I have a mental health patient in my family—my mother, specifically—so I always try to maintain a rational perspective on these matters, even though every instinct tells me this is the truth, regardless of who says it or how they label it. Honestly, I want your intention to manifest, for you to fulfill your part of the plan, and if there's any way you can help me do the same, please try... I actually have a spiritual guide who perceives energy and reveals quite a bit about people's futures; she's incredibly wise and radiates an energy so palpable it's felt on a physical level. However, she only answers specific questions, so I'm mostly on my own here. We only speak in person, and I can't travel to her right now, plus the questions are endless... ugh.

Just so I don't forget—haha—if anyone reading this thinks I'm losing my mind, let them. If they want to come at me with everything they've got, honestly, go for it. It'll just give me a chance to help them move through their current phase a little faster. No thanks necessary; you don't really owe the world anything until you actually start seeing things with spiritual eyes.

Joseph Cook7 said:If you actually read my replies to the young man, you'd see I was always trying to help him out by pointing out he lacks the basics to even hold this conversation. But you missed the part where "the young gentleman" immediately claimed I just copied my opening post and that I'm just playing a role here. Since he thinks I'm just some copier and manipulator, I can't do much more than "request" that he stop addressing me altogether. Everything I write comes straight from my head—I don't copy anyone. I've been on the Toltec path for over twenty-five years, learning from a student of the last Toltec in California, where I lived and studied. Since I spend so much time traveling, I make typos, which the young gentleman immediately jumped on, failing to realize that internet forums aren't professionally edited books. People just write how they know how to write. I'm open to chatting and making connections, just not to the mockery and childishness...

Hmm, looks like that young guy is getting under your skin.
I’m honestly surprised that after being on the path for so long, something like this can actually offend you—maybe you haven't quite mastered the art of stalking yet.

Take what I'm saying as some well-meaning criticism, something to chew on.

The whole point is learning how to stalk properly so you can preserve your energy. Honestly, the more "young gentlemen" like that I run into, the better—it’s good practice for me.

👍

lonehawk16 said:When I first stumbled upon this thread regarding spirituality, I found myself quite captivated by those initial few posts... However, as I continue reading through to the end, I find myself encountering certain points where my own perspective diverges from the consensus. That said, I recognize the possibility that some ideas might simply be missing the right vocabulary or perhaps remain somewhat underdeveloped rather than being inherently incorrect.

The energy we carry into this world—which manifests as an egg-shaped field surrounding our physical body, what some might call an aura—isn't truly "spent" or depleted throughout our lives in a literal sense; rather, its ebb and flow is conditioned entirely by how we choose to live.

Furthermore, this energy can serve as a compass to help us navigate the complexities of our circumstances and our very existence, provided we can quiet the mind enough to actually interface with that energy. By doing so, we gain a deeper insight into our essence and come to understand the nature of existence within this "illusory reality." This understanding is vital for gaining specific experiences and absorbing the lessons necessary for our growth—specifically, the evolution of the energy that permeates our being.

You mention the necessity of inner silence, which makes perfect sense, as that stillness is required to reconnect with the "inner self," or the "Higher Self." You also speak of detaching from perceived reality, which is equally valid, as such detachment is necessary for us to perceive other dimensions of reality.
However, I detect a certain logical inconsistency within the discussions here, and I would appreciate some clarification, even if you happen to disagree with my line of reasoning.

A being "cold as ice"?
Indifferent to human affairs?

Think about it this way: someone who perceives an orange by its textured, pitted peel would look like a primitive lunatic to someone who sees only a smooth, irregular sphere, wouldn't they? In that scenario, the person seeing the true texture of the orange must "pretend" to see nothing more than a plain sphere just to satisfy the majority. And we all know that whatever the majority believes is labeled "normal"—anything outside those boundaries is dismissed as insanity.

So, I ask you: is it possible that this "being cold as ice" only appears that way at first glance because they perhaps understand the nature of existence more clearly than others? Could it be that they realize the trivialities of life hold little weight, and instead focus on something greater than ourselves—living in alignment with that higher purpose without exhausting themselves on meaningless distractions in an effort to maintain and evolve their state of consciousness?
Secondly, while a certain detachment from human affairs might be necessary to preserve that state of awareness, aren't human activities a fundamental part of this world we have chosen to inhabit for the sake of learning and growth? If we view things through that lens, wouldn't total indifference mean missing out on the very opportunities intended for our education?

Yeah, exactly. Personally, I wouldn't even say it’s "cold as ice"—I’d say it’s just so saturated with energy that human trivialities don't matter anymore. When you're that full, all that mundane stuff just becomes irrelevant. In that moment, you realize there's actually something much bigger and more meaningful out there than whatever people are fussing about daily.

Me? I prefer a bit of controlled madness. On the inside, I’m my true self, but on the outside, I play the part people expect to see. If I actually let them see the real me, people would have a field day—they'd talk constantly, paint me in a negative light, and never leave me alone. That would totally wreck the sense of invisibility I'm working so hard to build.

Haha, so it’s basically controlled madness—pretty great. I'm not entirely sure what I'm doing, but clearly, something is working—maybe we should just call it controlled spirituality instead?
Zachary Cook2, can you pull any actual, useful advice out of the insights from my last post?

Nancy Harris6 said:Quote: Inside Silence

I took your advice and stepped back for a bit—not only did my mind go completely silent (as in, there wasn't the slightest chance of a single thought drifting in), but I also felt... Better... It’s like running ahead of oneself—that kind of profound mental stillness where you just stumble into this overwhelming sense of happiness... More intense... I felt it...

Quote: Inside Silence

It all comes down to consciousness. I’ve come to realize that mental stillness—that quietude where the internal dialogue finally ceases—is essentially what it means to be conscious in the present moment. Silencing those thoughts is the fundamental prerequisite for stepping into NOW. And honestly, grasping this... it’s been more rewarding to me than anything else in this world... 🙏 Now it’s just a matter of turning all that knowledge into actual practice... That’s where the real artistry lies—it’s easy enough to talk about it or dwell on the theory... It seems like such a waste, all the wisdom in the world if it never meets real-world application, doesn't it...

Quote: Inside Silence

Maybe you could lend me a bit of that humility of yours—I feel like I’ve been throwing posts around this forum like some kind of heavy hitter, and I might be coming across as a little too full of myself... 🤷
How does one share their perspective without coming across as arrogant or overbearing...

I’m certain that you could offer far more than just me... anyone reading your words would find immense value in the knowledge and experience you possess, which truly is a treasure...

I have this growing sense that the more I actually learn, the less I truly know... which is the honest truth...

Quote: Inside Silence

While flipping through Quote: Inside Silence, I thought perhaps you were inspired by the section from the Westwood series—those theories found within the book. The magic of inner silence, living in the now, and true awareness. It makes the story even more compelling if you were actually living out what you read...

I mentioned once that I had read a book by Carlos Castaneda. Specifically, "the art of dreaming." The book I actually wanted for my birthday, and eventually received, was "magical movement." I haven't fully immersed myself in "magical movement" yet; I’ve mostly just skimmed through the chapters. It functions quite a bit like a manual, filled with photos that provide a step-by-step guide for practicing tensegrity (the magical movement), along with various interesting insights...

To save a bit of energy—essentially by transcribing, which is much easier on my energetic system—I'll briefly outline the core concepts...

As Joseph Cook7 previously noted, 🙂 there are six tensegrity sequences:
-The sequence for preparing intention
-The sequence for immersion
-The five-area sequence (the Westwood series)
-Separating the left body from the right body
-The masculinity sequence
-The sequence of means used in conjunction with a magical movement
Each of these sequences meets the criteria for maximum efficiency and serves as a replica of how the longer sequences of magical movement were originally utilized...
It is important to recognize here that these movement sequences weren't simply made up; they are the result of observing unconscious movements the body performs during states of heightened awareness, movements that resulted in a profound improvement in physical and mental states. Initially, the Toltec warriors attributed this improvement to the elevated state of consciousness itself, but they later discovered it was actually caused by those inexplicable, unconscious bodily movements, which they observed and subsequently began to perform consciously in these sequences...

Look, I'm a hands-on kind of guy—whenever I stumble onto something useful, my first instinct is to put it into practice immediately.

Maybe borrow a little of my humility—I tend to scatter posts all over this forum like I'm some big shot, so I probably come off as arrogant... 🤷
How do you share what you know (or just your opinion) without sounding cocky or aggressive?

You don't look arrogant; you just seem... excited? I don't know how else to put it. It's like you finally found your niche here on the forum and everything is just clicking.

It’s just a phase, though. You'll grow out of it eventually.😁

I was thinking (while flipping through magic movement) that maybe you were inspired by that whole Westwood series—all that theory from the book. The whole thing about Quote : Inside Silence / living in the NOW / awareness. Which makes the story even better—that you were inspired by actually living what you read...

Nah, I haven't actually read that book yet. Usually, I experience something firsthand and then go find it in a book later—that's always been more satisfying for me. What inspired me was just the state I found myself in, and that moment when I realized what was happening. Like, crossing that threshold where the whole narrative shifts—where the "normal" state becomes Quote : Inside Silence, and talking just happens sporadically rather than being the main event.

I mentioned somewhere that I read one of those books by Carlos Castaneda. Specifically, "the art of dreaming." But the book I wanted for my birthday—and ended up getting—is "magic movement." I haven't fully tackled "magic movement" yet; I've mostly just skimmed the chapters. It's basically a manual with photos showing you step-by-step how to practice tensegrity (magic movements), along with some interesting side notes.

Read the magic movement stuff; it's incredible for redirecting your energy.

Bradley Myers63 said:Haha, so it’s basically controlled madness—pretty great. I'm not entirely sure what I'm doing, but clearly, something is working—maybe we should just call it controlled spirituality instead?
Zachary Cook2, can you pull any actual, useful advice out of the insights from my last post?

I honestly have no clue what I'd even say to that. Just ask me something specific.

Nancy Harris6 said:Quote: Inside Silence

Sometimes it happens spontaneously, and other times I lean into being a complete idiot on purpose... just pure, unadulterated stupidity... 😛 I try to conserve my energy, mostly because I have this tendency to give too much of myself away... I find myself getting sucked into someone else's movie, desperate to truly understand... 🙄It’s like some kind of energy vampire latches onto me and just won't let go, staring me down with this relentless, unblinking intensity... and the more they try to drain me, the harder it becomes to break free... 😠

I mean, I’ve definitely mastered the art of playing the fool for this society... It happens rarely and usually only when the mood strikes me... levels... The energies involved—that sense of being present, the relaxation in the moment, the level of composure... it all starts out naturally, but over time it becomes more frequent and intentional, growing proportionally... It seems like things are starting to pick up... If this really is all about energies... then I suppose I’m planning on becoming a complete idiot at record speed... 🤣
There's also this sense that all this acting feels somewhat hollow, a kind of surface-level absurdity regarding human existence that pales in comparison to my own experience of actual meaning...

Joseph Cook7, would you say that spontaneously playing along with society or just letting things slide counts as controlled madness, or does it actually require a certain level of skill developed through intense self-work? It feels like a bit of a silly question, since you really only reach that point after doing the work... energy...But still, I find myself curious about what an expert has to say on the matter...

Is it actually possible to experience a sense of purpose and the joy of being during the process of transformation—to feel comfortable in one's own skin and in the company of others—or is the defining characteristic truly this coldness, which strikes me as nothing more than a profound sense of emptiness and the sheer meaninglessness of existence... 😢

The concept of controlled madness feels absolutely brilliant... 🙏

Controlled madness isn't actually playing the idiot—it's just masking who you really are. It’s a defense mechanism because, honestly, what would happen if you actually opened up to people and started talking about all this stuff we discuss here? They wouldn't get it.

With controlled madness, you aren't being fake; you're just performing the role everyone expects you to play.

😉

Zachary Cook2 said:I honestly have no clue what I'd even say to that. Just ask me something specific.

Bringing the subconscious up to the surface—will that just feed the ego? I’m assuming so. More responsibility usually means more "problems" to deal with, haha. I'm actually looking forward to it. My inner voice keeps telling me not to even ask this, but rather just listen to him instead—but here I am, asking not out of spiritual growth, but out of a sort of controlled madness. He says one thing, I tell him to slow down, and we go from there. hihihi
That feeling of total surrender from such an early age—has it been detrimental to a mentally underdeveloped diet in any way?
And this pain? Will it eventually fade? It’s so heavy. Every time I write something that doesn't align with the truth, I get kicked right out of that pain—which immediately tells me on a deeper level, "re-examine what you wrote; does this question even serve your spiritual growth?" hihihi. It's all pretty cool. I've already deleted a few stupid questions, so this pain is actually useful. The only real question is whether the pain stays exactly like this, or if it transforms into something else entirely.

High energy—we were just chatting privately, but I didn't realize back then that we actually share the same worldview. Born on the exact same day, too—funny how that works when you think about how differently people usually process things... You asked how to know if you aren't pushing your opinion too aggressively? The answer is right there in front of you: just feel your own intention behind it. Is it coming from the ego, or is it coming through the light? Be the shovel digging the hole, not just some guy holding a shovel.
Also, whatever I write—or anything anyone else writes—try to look at it with your own eyes, not just the physical ones.

There’s also this connection between sadness and transcendence happening all at once—I didn't think it was actually possible until I felt it myself. How does that even work, and why?
Thinking about this gives me a massive headache—haha. This is easily the most important question I’ve ever thrown your way, and honestly, maybe just asking it will help you too.

Here’s another one my intuition tells me is true—try to approach this with an open mind, there's a mutual benefit here. I get to learn more about myself through your response, and you get to test the depth of your own honesty. It’s a bit of a blend of spirituality and psychology, really—it helps you grow, provided the answer stays sincere. If I hadn't been so guarded with my own insights, maybe there wouldn't have been so much conflict lately—though, let's be honest, most of that was on me. There’s a strange overlap between sadness and transcendence when you finally stop letting the ego run the show. Anyway, I just want your take so I don't end up drowning in my own ego instead of staying grounded in wisdom. I have this feeling like I'm just talking to myself—asking questions I'll eventually answer anyway if you don't step in. That’s the real spiritual work, I suppose—being able to sit with oneself and provide answers for others rather than just for one's own sake. I’m fairly certain—hopefully without the ego getting in the way—that I'm tapping into a vision where we move past pure materialism. We can bridge the gap by integrating material perspectives into universal ones—merging psychology, spirituality, and all those different religions that tend to divide us. All we really need is the language of love rather than hate. So, I’ll keep talking to myself until you reply; might even pass out before 4 AM tonight.

wearyhawk83 said:@Carlos Castaneda

Hey, my bad if I came off a bit rude or offended anyone earlier.

I truly apologize, and I hope you all have an awesome rest of your night!

Look, it's all good, kid... hopefully we can find a topic where you and I can actually have a decent chat without the drama...!!

Zachary Cook2 said:Hmm, looks like that young guy is getting under your skin.
I’m honestly surprised that after being on the path for so long, something like this can actually offend you—maybe you haven't quite mastered the art of stalking yet.

Take what I'm saying as some well-meaning criticism, something to chew on.

The whole point is learning how to stalk properly so you can preserve your energy. Honestly, the more "young gentlemen" like that I run into, the better—it’s good practice for me.

👍

Look, man, I was just trying to shut down a pointless argument between two people who aren't even listening to each other—I never said the kid insulted me. Another guy on the forum asked me about it, so I had to explain why I made the call... don't worry about my ego or how much "thrust" I've got left—I think I'm doing just fine.

Bradley Myers63 said:Here’s another one my intuition tells me is true—try to approach this with an open mind, there's a mutual benefit here. I get to learn more about myself through your response, and you get to test the depth of your own honesty. It’s a bit of a blend of spirituality and psychology, really—it helps you grow, provided the answer stays sincere. If I hadn't been so guarded with my own insights, maybe there wouldn't have been so much conflict lately—though, let's be honest, most of that was on me. There’s a strange overlap between sadness and transcendence when you finally stop letting the ego run the show. Anyway, I just want your take so I don't end up drowning in my own ego instead of staying grounded in wisdom. I have this feeling like I'm just talking to myself—asking questions I'll eventually answer anyway if you don't step in. That’s the real spiritual work, I suppose—being able to sit with oneself and provide answers for others rather than just for one's own sake. I’m fairly certain—hopefully without the ego getting in the way—that I'm tapping into a vision where we move past pure materialism. We can bridge the gap by integrating material perspectives into universal ones—merging psychology, spirituality, and all those different religions that tend to divide us. All we really need is the language of love rather than hate. So, I’ll keep talking to myself until you reply; might even pass out before 4 AM tonight.

First off, I gotta address that constant tug-of-war between "materialism" and "spirituality"... in the Toltec way, that divide doesn't even exist.
Everything around us is saturated with this incredible energy—infinite strands of living light that no creature can actually look at directly. The Toltecs were the only ones who could observe this energy in groups, which kept them from getting wiped out by it. Everything is built from this living energy that stays hidden, radiating everything around us, something no one has ever truly been able to describe because it defies any comparison. The material world is basically just our minds projecting onto that massive energy. Once you shift your collective point of observation, you realize the physical world is just a mental description—it isn't nearly as "real" as the average person thinks. Reaching the point where the material world starts to dissolve means hitting what the Toltecs call "stopping the light." But messing with that collective point of observation isn't a game; you're staring down "infinity," and if you don't handle its movement indirectly and carefully, you'll fall into a nightmare of uncontrolled chaos where everything looks surreal and fake.
To put it simply, think of our world like a single frequency on an old TV set. We’re tuned into just one channel, and that channel is our material reality. Turning the dial is like shifting that collective point of observation—we lose our "channel" (the material world) and start picking up other worlds vibrating on different frequencies. Just a little analogy to help wrap your head around the concept of the collective point.

I don't know—sometimes when I speak, I realize I’m just voicing the truth. I don't need to actually see it, because I know it's being said. I believe those who see can't really speak, since their energy tends to pool right where they want it to be... that's a higher plane, I suppose. Let it be. I have no intention of seeking visions, but I'm not afraid of them either... I just want to talk and write, letting everything flow into a single point—a blue dot of truth through which white light descends to Earth. I say I don't want to see, but there's no fear there. You all are the researchers who seek sight; you'll be shown what you look for, and you're here to interpret the external world—thanks for doing that. I am simply a "voice," someone meant to speak, not through ego but through light... a voice exists so others might choose to listen and accept it. It’s all about an exchange of different colors and frequencies—all that's needed is openness and faith in the one white light and its aspects, our dear God who pours knowledge into us... that’s how it works when someone can't explain something; they simply can't, because the light intends to emerge at a specific place, in a specific color, flowing through a person at a precise frequency. For me, truth is blind... and if staying that way helps me help others, then so be it. He who sees doesn't need a voice... he who hears doesn't need to see... let it stay that way for a while. I don't think we can reach a collective insight without enough people speaking rather than seeing—after all, speaking is for others. There's no ego involved there; once you start seeing, I suspect the ego takes over because you'll try to explain the unexplainable through it, relying on their own experience. You should see for others if you possibly can... so that they receive what the light intends to give them. To be blunt, you can talk to Democrats and they might sincerely try to understand, but they won't want to see it—and that’s where all vision disappears.

Bradley Myers63 said:I don't know—sometimes when I speak, I realize I’m just voicing the truth. I don't need to actually see it, because I know it's being said. I believe those who see can't really speak, since their energy tends to pool right where they want it to be... that's a higher plane, I suppose. Let it be. I have no intention of seeking visions, but I'm not afraid of them either... I just want to talk and write, letting everything flow into a single point—a blue dot of truth through which white light descends to Earth. I say I don't want to see, but there's no fear there. You all are the researchers who seek sight; you'll be shown what you look for, and you're here to interpret the external world—thanks for doing that. I am simply a "voice," someone meant to speak, not through ego but through light... a voice exists so others might choose to listen and accept it. It’s all about an exchange of different colors and frequencies—all that's needed is openness and faith in the one white light and its aspects, our dear God who pours knowledge into us... that’s how it works when someone can't explain something; they simply can't, because the light intends to emerge at a specific place, in a specific color, flowing through a person at a precise frequency. For me, truth is blind... and if staying that way helps me help others, then so be it. He who sees doesn't need a voice... he who hears doesn't need to see... let it stay that way for a while. I don't think we can reach a collective insight without enough people speaking rather than seeing—after all, speaking is for others. There's no ego involved there; once you start seeing, I suspect the ego takes over because you'll try to explain the unexplainable through it, relying on their own experience. You should see for others if you possibly can... so that they receive what the light intends to give them. To be blunt, you can talk to Democrats and they might sincerely try to understand, but they won't want to see it—and that’s where all vision disappears.

Look, you've got the potential and the drive to actually do something with your life, and that's a massive gift you don't see often. There are endless paths into that infinity, too slippery to ever pin down with rules or schemes, so just the intention to act is enough to kick you onto a new track or path. Listen and learn about all the ways, and your heart will find the right one—don't sweat it, it won't and can't go wrong. Only a tiny fraction of things depends on our willpower; a much larger part is, like under an iceberg, beneath anything we can grasp, and that's where the path reveals itself, ready to pop up in front of you at any second, and you'll definitely move toward it without fear or hesitation...

It’s wild—I can actually feel it when my ego takes over. That tension in my third eye just vanishes, and I find myself completely surrendered to my physical self. Even hearing the word "talent" triggers it; suddenly, I start pushing away the people who mean the most to me right now.
I’m done with the ego. All I want is to be one with God.

The church says God is the truth, the way, and the life, but as I’m typing this, my inner voice is countering that. It tells me truth is simply fulfilling our purpose; the "way" is up to the visionaries to interpret for everyone else; and as for "life"—well, I haven't quite figured that part out yet. Maybe you or someone like Inside can have a vision and explain it to me. To me, truth is found in all of us working together without any ego getting in the way. It's about pure intention—praying that God pours from that eternal vessel so we can follow the path laid out for us. Let the blind see and the deaf hear... it’s all part of the same reality.
I’ve spent twenty years studying what God is and the nature of the Holy Trinity, and finally, it’s clicking. My inner voice is telling me to study the religious texts deeply and thoughtfully—that’s the key to connecting with people. If they choose to tear the truth apart, let them; it’s just another one of His many aspects. It’s all about using love and understanding to bridge different layers of knowledge, merging various faiths and perspectives into a single truth—because there can't really be two. Truth is simple. It’s naked, and it’s available to anyone willing to strip themselves down enough to be truly seen. I’m starting to see spiritual growth as an exponential function rather than a linear one—which explains why some books get it wrong. We should explore this in higher realms and try to bring it down to earth, so those who pride themselves on being "progressive" might actually catch a glimpse of the light.