Schizophrenia - General Discussion

[QUOTE=Andrew Harris7]I have to admit, even though we're talking about such a serious illness, your thread is somehow the most cheerful one here🙂 😘[/QUOTE

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The vibes over here at briskgull27's place are just incomparably brighter... honestly, I’m starting to feel depressed just thinking about how much better this is compared to my own mood.😁

That’s exactly what I was thinking😁 🙂

It’s such a bright, beautiful day today.
Life is beautiful!
Oh, I feel so good right now.
Do you guys honestly think God is a rational being who would forgive me if I ended my own life?
You know what went through my mind when I heard about that woman who took her own life?
I just thought to myself: I get it, you just wanted to end the struggle.
I mean, since I'm already dealing with this illness, surely it isn't just some coincidence.
I didn't just catch this randomly; there has to be a reason behind it.
I've been fighting this battle for three months now, and after eleven years, I just don't have the strength left.

briskgull27 said:It’s all sunshine and rainbows, right?
Life is beautiful!
Ugh, just look at me.
Do you guys honestly think God is a rational being who would forgive me if I ended my own life?
You know what went through my head when I heard about that woman who took her own life?
I thought to myself: I get it, you just wanted to end the struggle.
I mean, if I have this illness, it can't be a fluke.
I didn't just stumble into this by accident; there has to be a reason.
I've been fighting this for three months now, and after eleven years, I'm just completely drained.

So, what kind of "reason" do you think there is for having the condition you're dealing with?
Everyone is carrying something... some people are tough as nails while others are fragile as glass, yet the impact stays—even the smallest touch leaves a mark.

I don't even want to go there—when you really step back and look at the world, there's so much suffering out there... there's a child somewhere right now who is starving and thirsty...🙂

Brenda Cook4 said:What do you think would be the 'reason' behind your current situation?
Everyone deals with something... some people are rock solid while others are soft as wax, yet everything leaves its mark, even the slightest touch...

I don't even want to get into it—when you look around at how much hardship there is in the world... there's a child out there right now who is hungry and thirsty...🙂

That's a fair point. Honestly, my own family wouldn't even let me go out and feed the hungry; they'd rather have me changing diapers for seniors in Washington, D.C., which I’ve already done.
The real reason? My dad stepped in and they were all "making deals behind my back," because ever since I started keeping quiet, they just treat me like I'm even more unstable.
I have specific goals and I refuse to sit around waiting twenty years for them to pass away—which sounds terrible, I know. Basically, everyone watches my every move, but they ignore my mother, so I end up getting burned.
I can't make my own decisions because they label me as schizophrenic whenever it suits their agenda.
When it works for them, suddenly I'm perfectly healthy.
This is actually the first time my husband has acted this way.
The whole system seems to believe that I need constant supervision.
I feel completely trapped.

What on earth were they plotting behind your back?

That’s a really insightful question.
They were actually discussing how to plant some rare tree species right on the grounds of the company I own and manage.
To be honest, the whole thing feels like more trouble than it's worth, but my old man is just being stubborn about it.
It doesn't really matter, though.
It’s almost worse than a disease; you're physically there, but you're barely living. Understand?

It’s fine, no big deal. I think I'll just stick to browsing the web for a bit; maybe I can actually get some rest if I manage to 🙄

Hi😳
The wildest hallucination I’ve ever experienced:
I was just standing in the kitchen while my brother and husband were hanging out by the computer. Then, the hallucination hit: It was daytime, and atomic bombs were dropping somewhere way off in the distance, maybe near 6837 miles.
Everything was just floating through the air like we were drifting in deep space. In the vision, I managed to save them both—it's hard to explain how, but I basically kept them safe for the next 70 years, essentially for the rest of their lives. Honestly, this whole thing might just be a leftover from a movie I saw when I was little; you know, where the rain after a nuclear blast looks just like falling snow. BL.......🤣 😍🙂 shit

Dr. Silberman !!!!!!!!!!!!

Hey, thanks for the heads up!🙂
Is this just a hallucination, some heavy daydreaming, or a full-on visualization?

Brenda Cook4 said:Right back at you, briskgull27🙂
Was it a hallucination, a daydream, or just a vivid visualization?

Hey, there was dust flying everywhere and the sun was blindingly bright—it was definitely a hallucination.
Honestly, I’m just trying to save my sanity by focusing on other threads. To be fair, watching the debates involving Mexicans is usually what keeps me entertained.
Even mistybison isn't around anymore.
It's funny how life works, isn't it? Just when everything seems to be going perfectly, something hits you out of nowhere. You really can't see it coming.
I was reading some things online about souls, and man, it sounds incredibly heavy.
Besides, it feels silly to dwell on the idea of slowly destroying myself.
And the worst part is how much it affects the people standing right next to me.
If I ended up looking like Stephen Hawking, I suppose I could live with that, but still...shit

Oh, come on... don't be so hard on yourself. Believe me, life is a total bitch, and it hits plenty of people just as hard as it's hitting you right now.

And you know what? It's like Proust said—life is basically just one long series of ups and downs. One day you're coasting downhill, everything feels effortless and smooth... then the next, you're staring at a massive uphill climb, struggling just to keep your footing. It’s all just one big cycle.
Don't let this get inside your head too much. I've told you before: try not to get "hypnotized" by your own "illness." You can pull through this. Seriously, so many people have been in your shoes and made it out on the other side.😘

*I'm sure things aren't easy for Steven either...

I don't see it either, honestly—it's not even noticeable at all
see ya😘

This was honestly the highlight of my day. Thanks huh!🙂 🙂 🙂
Is there anything else we should add to the poll?

The poll is right here:http://smileys.sur-la-toile.com/repo.../cool-3854.gif

I went ahead and voted for option 1, though I’ve only just finished reading through everything.http://smileys.sur-la-toile.com/repo...s-anges-22.gif

But honestly? My favorite part is just how much joy you bring to this.http://smileys.sur-la-toile.com/repo...-dalmatien.gif🎉 😘 🙂

briskgull27 said:Even mistybison is gone now.

I am still here. 🙂 I read everything you all post.

I cast my vote....
I was torn between two very different paths:
1. I’m going to flip this whole world upside down until I fix it—because honestly, things just can't go on like this indefinitely
2. Whatever it takes.
In the end, I went with option 1.🙂

Let’s get it together... this is a dedicated thread... try to keep things a bit more serious here.

Any word on the poll? I’d personally throw in an option like "please, let God send them to the hospital so the doctors can actually help"—anyway, I'm voting for the first one. 😘
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