Arthur Scott5
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24 messages
joined Dec 2012
Hey everyone, it's me again. I suppose things have taken a turn for the worse lately. My thoughts haven't drifted away from the root cause of all this at all; in fact, they've been tormenting me for four years now. I constantly see and hear this individual—whether I'm in my room, on a bus, or riding the subway—following me around. They insist that I need to have microchips implanted in my brain to engineer a race of superhuman beings, and they tell me to eat dead animals to absorb their strength and power so I can transform into some kind of super-human. Just yesterday, I had an encounter. It was about 9:00 PM; I walked into my room in total darkness, flipped the light switch, and there they were: a figure with long hair, a face obscured, wearing a black dress. They were just standing there, smirking at me, shouting, "Everyone is going to die, isn't that right, Arthur Scott5?" They screamed at me before vanishing within five minutes. Honestly, I was terrified, though I guess I'm somewhat desensitized since I've been seeing them for three years already. To be fair, there was a period where they weren't visible because I was taking medication and staying in the hospital, but even then, the essence of it never truly left me. The intrusive thoughts about killing and those chips... they follow me everywhere. My psychiatrist suggested I should just let the thoughts pass through—basically told me to just say "screw you" to the thoughts and try to focus on something else—but it is incredibly difficult to actually do that. Right now, I am only taking Haldol.