silentpuma3 said:At this point, I could pop 4 mg of Xanax all at once and wouldn't feel a damn thing.
Fevarin turned my life into a living hell, so I tossed it.
The only thing that’s actually worked for over a year now is Tramadol (Doreta works too). It always lifts my mood and gives me this rush of euphoria, though it does make me a little agitated at the same time. After higher doses, I can sleep like a log. Once the "come down" happens, I don't really deal with any nasty physical or mental side effects.
Sure, it causes some kind of dependency, but honestly? It’s the only thing that's helped me survive this far.
Besides, why would Big Pharma bother making an effective drug for depression, OCD, or BPD that works instantly instead of building up over weeks—and doesn't create an addiction? What's in it for them?
Talk to your doctor and start tapering off; that dose is getting pretty high.
There are effective antidepressants and antipsychotics out there—neither of which cause addiction.
Benzodiazepines are a whole different story since they cause physical dependence, and the psychological addiction is even harder to break. A long time ago, xanax gave me this false sense of security, and I ended up addicted for years—I was hitting 4 mg a day (8 pills of 0.5 mg, just like you). With the help of my therapist, I finally managed to get off it. She told me about this young guy she knew who was taking way more xanax than I was, and he eventually had to be hospitalized just to detox.