Posts by Steven Lopez19

slywolf65 said:I feel like I'm the only one seeing this, but honestly, I have no clue why.😵

Amanda Garcia25 said:Honestly, I’m terrified too. I’m scared of what’s going to happen when we finally see what’s heading our way. This is the future we're stuck with, whether we like it or not. Dealing with panic disorder makes things even worse—the heat and the lack of air usually trigger my attacks. Plus, I’m on Paxil, which makes me sweat even if it were freezing outside, and I don't even want to get into what I'm dealing with right now. Throw in some low blood pressure and, uh, digestive issues, and the whole situation just feels unbearable. Everyone handles stuff differently, sure, but this kind of heat hitting a massive crowd of people is a total psychological nightmare. And once your nerves are shot, your body just gives up too.
I can't tell if today was harder because of the heat or because of the suicidal, high-strung people trapped in an unventilated train where you can't even crack a window open...

driftingmason20 said:Does anyone here actually know their stuff enough to explain what W-MCR, AST, ALT, and GGT mean on a blood test?

dustyeagle73 said:Threatening to tell their parents? Look, I know that sounds pretty messed up, but I honestly think it might actually work. You could test the waters first to see how they react—if they play ball, great. If not, then you just go ahead and tell them, no matter how shady it feels. I know it sounds stupid, but if we're talking about someone just smoking weed or whatever, fine, we can let it slide. But once things get more serious than that, I feel like taking drastic measures is totally justified...

Roger Evans said:Whatever...
all I want in this life is my peace and my health.🧐

Noah Sanchez7 said:I just wanted to say this to clear up any stereotypes: being an addict doesn't automatically mean you're unintelligent.

That way, we won't be unfairly blaming everything on drugs.👍

Noah Sanchez7;9113560 said:

Chris Peterson53 said:Man, you’re clearly out of your mind if you think taking out a loan to start some random business is a genius move.
And then you plan on using the profits to pay off the debt while spending all your cash on junk and shooting up ten times a day? Nice.

Dude, you're so blinded by these outdated stereotypes that you can't see reality.

Maybe go hit up a local dive bar instead.

Go ahead, buddy... just keep dreaming.

Don't stop at ten times a day—since you're such a big-shot "entrepreneur," I guess you can afford to go all out...

p.s. You really think things are just going to be sunshine and rainbows the second you open your doors?
I just hope we don't run into each other in a few months when you're drowning in debt and looking for advice on how to fix it.

Noah Sanchez7 said:🙂

Harold Flores4 said:Oh, man, you couldn't be more wrong if you tried! I had a brother who was an addict... Are you even listening? He was!
We went through hell watching him spiral right in front of us... we were constantly having to deal with his "dealers"... dealing with the police...
Just picture this: ten SWAT officers in full gear kicking down the door, screaming at everyone to get on the ground face-first, including a six-year-old kid. Just imagine that level of terror... the sheer shock of it all....
Okay, so we somehow managed to pull through, but it definitely left its mark.
Then one day he ends up in the ER... diagnosis comes back as a tumor. Emergency surgery. And go ahead and guess where? His liver, obviously. The disease spreads fast, metastases everywhere... and before long, my brother is gone.
I spent two years on disability leave. It triggered a depression that had actual physical symptoms. I couldn't function normally, and I had two kids at home to look after. Can you imagine what they were going through back then? Thank God I'm doing much better mentally now than I ever have.
But... even today, there isn't a day that goes by where my seven-year-old girl doesn't cry for him. I see my little guy suffering through it too. And the grandparents?
So, now you tell me, was he only destroying himself? Did he only have responsibility toward himself?
I can see you think you're pretty smart, but I honestly don't get your perspective on any of this. I know and believe that addiction is a nightmare and getting clean is incredibly hard, and that addicts will come up with a thousand excuses, which is why I read your posts the way I do, but I’m afraid you're giving the original poster a totally warped view of reality—even though she knows it herself, she just found one person who thinks like her and it makes her feel less alone. If someone refuses to get clean, they need to realize their child won't have a future with them.
Sweetie, I am sending you so much strength, willpower, and love, along with a huge amount of support.

slywolf45 said:So, let me get this straight... your parents should just applaud the fact that you’ve made the conscious, free-will decision to slowly kill yourself? Well, mission accomplished, I guess. Bravo.

slywolf45 said:I have my doubts about Sakoman... I know a girl who tried mixing Heptanon with God knows what else, and it didn't do a thing for her... much like how it fails 99% of other addicts.
I watch them walk out of Dr. Sakoman's office after he recommends they take 15 Heptanon tablets a day... then, after two or three years of steady usage, they go back for a check-up and the good doctor bumps them up to 20 tabs... and so on. I mean, hello?? How long does this cycle go on? And of course, it’s an open secret that besides consuming Heptanon in every possible way—crushing it, injecting it, you name it—they’re also selling it on the side, usually getting into scraps with local dealers in the process. No one here can tell me otherwise because I see it playing out every single day (it's my profession). They show up at the clinic, making a massive scene, trying to convince us they haven't received their daily dose yet... and it just goes on and on.

Then George Ramirez11 suggests that rehab isn't for everyone... Well, sure, it isn't for people who lack a serious intention to get clean and just want something extra to wreck their bodies with. Can someone please explain to me how taking 20 or 25 Heptanon tablets a day for years on end is considered "healthy"?

quiethound45 said:They can ruin themselves, sure, but then they shouldn't have kids.
Because if they do, they drag them into all of this, and those kids don't have a choice.

Random thought: I actually just got back from a trip to the coast... they found this local guy there. He was on leave from the military for seven years already. They found him after two days, just lying there in his house. He was bloated and practically green from the heat, and apparently, a stray cat bit his finger and scratched his face.
Only four buddies from his unit showed up to the funeral (they were also on leave).
His elderly parents basically disowned him, though word is they're still paying for the service. They had been in the house to do an inventory check in case things went south, especially since he had some debts...
Aside from an old radio, a beat-up table, some plastic chairs, and a mattress, they couldn't find anything else. I really wonder where it all went.🤔
Is that really what life is?
He was only 32...

stormyfalcon6 said:Even with a perfect cycle, anything can happen. Life gets stressful and suddenly your body decides to gift you fertile days right when you think it's impossible. 😬

George Ramirez11 said:Look, if social services had actually suspected for a second that my kid was unhappy or that I wasn't doing a good job, they would have snatched them away. Instead, they just believe me blindly—they assume I'm clean because the kid is smiling and happy and I look totally normal. So, please, don't jump to conclusions before you know anything.
Second thing: Everyone keeps talking about "slowly dying." My dad died from throat cancer—smoking, obviously—so I guess it's all my fault because he didn't have enough guts to just quit due to some "stupidity or weakness," right?? It’s awful; I watched him literally starve because the chemo burned his throat out. Maybe they should have taken custody from him then!?
Or... if I had AIDS, would it be my own fault for not telling my partner to use a condom?? And now I'm slowly dying... do I need to lose my child again???
Let's be clear, I've hit rock bottom more times than I can count. Like Noah Sanchez7 said, I seriously ran out of veins to use; even now, during pregnancy, they were pulling blood from my toe because they couldn't find a vein in my arm or neck. Now I use my nose, so I can't overdose easily, though sometimes there are days when I just take some Hep or Sbtx. So, this is a far cry from those days when I didn't even care if I woke up in the morning. You might think I'm just venting, but I know how I feel now compared to back when I used to take Prozac and Xanax and beg for the crying to stop like I was in an Ariel commercial.
Also, the state basically gives me permission to take whatever pills I want. Seriously, my social worker told me: "Go see a psychiatrist and let them cocktail you; if they have to prescribe 15 different types of meds just to make you feel like you're flying, so be it. You aren't pregnant anymore, after all!" Isn't that just hilarious and hypocritical?
Third thing—rehab isn't for everyone, and a therapist once told me that exact thing. I've already mentioned that unfortunately, I see more and more people sliding back into their old ways after years in recovery. Because what comes after? Don't underestimate the role of the state. Not everyone has the luxury to "change their environment," move away, and whatever else. I don't live in a massive metropolis where moving to a different neighborhood means nobody knows you. Hell, I have problems with a landlord who blames me for every single lightbulb that burns out in the hallway. Apparently, it's my fault because of some "sick or deviant" reason I have!!! It would be lovely if I could volunteer and help others, or if I had the money to start my own business for people like me... but I have to work to survive.
Fourth thing—my kid cries so hard on the other side of the door when I go to pee—which takes maybe a minute, bless them—that it takes me another half hour just to calm them down afterward.
And finally, the fifth thing—I'm sure you'll all have another thousand pieces of advice, but everything is so much easier in theory than in practice. Besides, rest assured, I have heard everything. Every single thing. I KNOW all of it! That's why I said at the beginning that I'm looking for support and encouraging words more than advice, because I doubt any more tips are going to help me much.
I'm not ungrateful, and I always hope someone will just pull a magic wand out of thin air and make everything easy, but... I have to do this myself. I wanted to be honest and feel a little bit of outside love because, like everyone else with problems, I am alone. At least for now, while the little one doesn't realize anything, and I won't let them ever feel my struggles.

Jesse Flores842 said:Look, I hate to be the one to break it to you... but even that "pulling out on time" method isn't actually contraception—it’s more like playing the lottery. 😳
If your cycle is textbook (say, 28 days), you still have a little bit of breathing room. Based on yesterday, you were likely around day 11, and ovulation usually hits around day 14... obviously, nothing is a 100% guarantee, but you're in a much better spot than if you had missed it by three or four days.
Fingers crossed for you...

Keith Thomas11 said:Why don't you just go grab the Plan B pill?

Charles Ramirez59 said:Actually, she's in a worse spot.
Sperm can live inside the body for about five days just waiting for an egg. An egg only lives for about 24 hours, which is why the fertile window includes the days BEFORE ovulation, the day of, and maybe the day after.

So, she basically hit the jackpot. 🙂

(By the way, the "pulling out" method has a 20% pregnancy rate. That is NOT contraception. If you end up pregnant, it wasn't bad luck—you just did exactly what happens when you use that method.)