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hollowtrucker77 said:Oh, come on, stop talking nonsense if you don't actually understand what happened or why.
I was the one who banned Vilko, and it definitely wasn't because of some random post in the chat.
Got it?

To whom it may concern, whichever sounds better to you,😉

You banned my husband just because he used an old username from two years ago—which is totally fine, and he isn't even complaining about that part.

But you banned ante62, and then what? You had to go and ban Vilko for two months too?

What could Vilko have possibly done that was so "terrible" that he's been locked out of THIS THREAD for years... should he file a zalba or just leave a COMMENT????????

I haven't been able to follow everything being written here lately, but I do look back at everything he's dealt with, and he has complained about the moderators the least.

And one last thing: WHY DID YOU DELETE what was being written? Nothing said was bad toward the mods... it was just general opinions.

Over the last seven years, this Diaspora has really gotten on my nerves... Vilko spends hours personally responding to people and helping anyone who needs it. Just look at how many threads he's started and how much people rely on his input.
helping individuals.

I'm sure there are a few users who don't care, BUT the vast majority reach out via PM to say thanks for his posts and for everything he shares.

Since you guys are supposedly so fair, why did you delete the last two posts published here? 🤷

With thanks, 🙂
Vilko's wife

Vera Verica K.

Hey everyone.

About a week ago, while I was showering, I noticed this little lump on my left scrotum. It isn't actually attached to the testicle itself; it’s sitting right underneath one of those small bumps or pimples on the skin. I immediately went down a total rabbit hole online trying to figure out what it could be, and honestly, I started panicking about testicular cancer. That said, I’m not feeling any pain, there’s no blood in my semen, I don't feel weak, and most importantly, the left side looks the exact same size as the right one.

Does anyone have any idea what this might be?

boldtiger7 said:this is seriously twisted... and if what they're saying about the Black Knights is true, then everything is officially going to hell...

The police footage shows them watching, and this one guy being looked at is openly identifying as homosexual, and
since all three of them were completely smooth, and he's got enough lube in his car to grease up a whole stadium—enough to seal a toilet bowl—his grand plan was to try and shove it up a condom. What actually happened? We'll just have to wait for the news report.

Susan Evans56 and I are just staring in disbelief.
I'm honestly embarrassed for them.
But hey, there it is.
🙏

Charles Diaz7 said:how to get them to lift the ban on Vol. 1 😲😲😲

http://www.nytimes.com/news/politics/ban-on-content-bastards.html

😲

Did any of the Black Knights show up?🤷

Anonymous said:Where can I pick up a bigger jar of Nutella? 👍
Like a 1kg or 5kg size, or whatever they have available... 🙏

Anyone have a lead on this? 🙂

Paul Jones7 said:I'll try to give you my own mental picture—since I've shared bits of it before—to make it a little clearer:

think of a lightbulb. It gives off light, and let's say that light represents love (the bulb itself is tucked away somewhere inside us, maybe in the soul, though that doesn't really matter for the sake of the metaphor)

now, imagine you put that bulb inside a completely opaque housing, sealed shut on all sides. the light (love) exists inside that shell, but it can't break through to the outside. that would be a total blockage of love. if we think of that shell as being within ourselves: the love stays inside, it illuminates us, sure, but it doesn't reach anything beyond us

but then, suppose instead of a full bulb, we just have this tiny, tiny little LED. its light is weak—barely enough to illuminate maybe something immediately surrounding us, just our own immediate space, but nothing further out. other people might see the glow, but they wouldn't be able to see themselves reflected in it, mostly because the intensity (which, you know, drops off with the square of the distance) is just too pathetic by the time it reaches them. they'd just see someone lit up by their own dim glow. that would be a low-intensity kind of love, barely enough for the person holding it

for me, it comes down to two things: 1. the intensity of the love; and 2. these partial blockages (or even a total one). a partial blockage would look like a housing that's sort of translucent in some spots and opaque in others, with different levels of light being muffled depending on the direction. basically, what I mean is that the actual intensity of love has much more potential than these blockages usually allow us to realize

Yeah, I agree—love can't be conditional, otherwise, it's not really love. We're totally on the same page there. Still, though, don't ignore intensity as a quality of love. If you're asking me, I think it's a huge factor. It's hard to tell if intensity is just an individual trait, or if those partial blockages (like the frosted glass in my metaphor) are what cause the drop in intensity. It's something to chew on, I guess.

Fair enough. We could also talk about reaching a state where that full intensity of love is finally unleashed.

The total cost really depends on how many documents the notary has to certify and how often you end up making changes. Honestly, if you want to save some cash on filing fees and official notices, it’s probably best to just update everything all at once.

Head over to the fitness forum and hit up mops...

Kudos on the message 👍

dustyraven26 said:People tend to be oriented toward the material world, a realm defined by the concept of HAVING.
HAVING—a house, a car, a career, and unfortunately, even one's perceived life partner or children.
In that framework, knowing what I want and figuring out how to acquire it is considered standard procedure.

However, in the realm of emotions arising from the relationship between the observer and the observed (I noticed you read the previous post, so I won't repeat myself), the rules change entirely.
No one claims to "have" anger, sadness, fear, or envy; rather, one *is* angry, sad, fearful, or envious. Emotions are states of being—they belong to a world defined by BEING.
In that space, knowing what you want and how to get it becomes irrelevant.
What matters instead is knowing what I don't want. By uncovering the truth behind anger, sadness, fear, or envy, those emotions lose their former grip, revealing that their triggers were based on nothing more than false values.

And what of love?
No one can give us love, because that would fall back into the logic of the world of HAVING.
Therefore, if love is possible, it must already exist within us.
Love is also a state of being, part of that world of BEING, yet it does not originate from the material plane, meaning there are no external "triggers" within us to hunt down.
Love is an attribute of the soul, and the soul itself is the love that emanates from the Creator of this universe.
As a result, love must be released. This brings up a logical dilemma: How can we, being so deeply rooted in the material world, release a love (the soul) that did not originate from it?
We achieve this through the application of negation, which is actually the essence of positivity, expressed as follows:

I don't know what it is, but I know what it isn't!

Thus, releasing love involves stripping away everything we recognize as being *not* love. In this process, the soul acts as our greatest guide, as it is the only thing within us that truly knows what is suppressing its expression.

Perhaps this all sounds too simple, which might make it seem disingenuous, but that is merely the trap of the ego. The ego prefers to frame things it cannot control as complex or mystical, using that complexity to justify its own inaction.
I am not suggesting this is easy or swift. Anyone who commits to investigating the truth of these words through dedicated self-work should prepare for a long journey.
If anyone happens to know a simpler way to release love, I invite them to share it.

🤔

I think I'm starting to get it. I'm still a little foggy on certain parts, though. Put like that, it really does sound simple. I still tend to blur the lines between emotions and love. People say emotions can become a permanent state—like how depression can turn into a way of living (that's a theory of choice). And if a state is something we choose, why is love different? What makes it unique?

Paul Jones7 said:The way I see it—and this is just my take—is that fear acts as a sort of limiter on love, mixed in with those conscious and subconscious choices we make every day. Love itself belongs to the "one," if you will, because it doesn't recognize boundaries; it isn't hypocritical, and it doesn't judge... but we tend to split it into two categories just to make sense of things. There's the universal kind—love for everyone and everything, which is totally unconditional—and that goes hand-in-hand with selflessness. That's the ideal, though, which is probably pretty much out of reach for us mere mortals. Then there's the other side, where love is limited strictly to oneself, kept inward instead of being shared—which usually leads to selfishness. Honestly, that black-and-white divide doesn't even exist in the real world, since I don't think anyone is purely selfish, and we certainly don't have any perfectly selfless people walking around the streets of Chicago or wherever. But, I guess, it shows us different directions for growth. If we actually want to move toward that unified state, we have to work on letting go and stripping away our own limitations.

I can tell you're also aware of the areas where we struggle to find common ground in what you wrote. You even mention that love is a single, unified state. So why bother splitting it into "introverted" and "extroverted" types?
Isn't it just our internal state, regardless of who or what we're interacting with?
In my humble opinion, as long as love is conditional—tied to an object, a relationship, or some other emotion—it isn't actually love. As we are right now, we aren't even capable of perceiving its true nature. I'm with the author on this one: we need to strip love free from everything it isn't.

Paul Jones7 said:

I don't really know how else to put this—and I might be overthinking it, maybe—but it feels like we're all just circling the same drain lately. It’s that weird, restless feeling you get when everything seems to be moving a mile a minute, yet somehow, nothing actually changes. You know? I was sitting there the other day—just staring at my coffee, I guess—and it hit me how much noise there is just to say absolutely nothing at all. It's exhausting. We spend so much energy reacting to things, building up these huge mental mountains out of molehills, and then we wonder why we're so burnt out by Tuesday. I suppose it’s just part of the modern American experience, isn't it? Just constant, low-level static in the background of everything. Anyway, I'm probably just rambling now. My bad. kaže:
I wonder if true integrity can actually show up in those moments when we’re just... well, trying to express our souls through who we are—you know, that raw, unfiltered version of ourselves? It’s like, if we’re being honest about what makes us tick, maybe that's where the wholeness happens. I guess it all comes down to the idea that we aren't really separate pieces, but rather just one big, messy collective. We're all just part of the same thing, really.

What does it even mean, really—to articulate your soul through your personality? I mean, I’ve been sitting here thinking about it for a bit, and honestly, it feels like one of those deep questions you ask when you're staring at a coffee cup at a diner in Chicago at 2 AM, wondering if any of this actually makes sense. It’s sort of... I don't know, maybe it's that weird intersection where who you are on the inside meets how you actually show up in the world? Like, we all have this internal monologue—this messy, unorganized collection of thoughts and quirks—and then there's the version of us that talks to people or picks out clothes or reacts when someone cuts us off in traffic. I guess articulating your soul through your personality is just the attempt to make those two things line up. It's trying to make sure the way you move through life isn't just some hollow performance, but something that actually carries a bit of your true essence. Or maybe I'm overthinking it. Probably. It's a heavy concept to wrap your head around while just trying to exist, I suppose.

I was thinking about that whole situation earlier—you know, the one everyone’s been buzzing about lately—and I guess I just can't shake the feeling that we're missing the forest for the trees. It’s funny, really. We get so caught up in the immediate noise of things, like when you're stuck in gridlock on the I-95 and you're convinced the world is ending because you're ten minutes late for coffee, that we forget to look at the bigger picture. Or maybe that's just me being overly cautious. I tend to do that—overthink things until they aren't even interesting anymore, I suppose. Anyway, I was reading this piece about how much everything has shifted over the last decade, and it made me wonder if we ever actually learn from these cycles, or if we're just doomed to repeat them with slightly different branding. It's a bit grim, if I'm being honest, but then again, maybe I'm just being a cynic today. It’s hard to tell sometimes. kaže:
It’s just this endless loop of analysis—constant overthinking, constant weighing of options, all these little conclusions and theories swirling around... it honestly just creates this massive amount of mental noise. It makes it impossible to actually be present, you know? I guess when your head is constantly buzzing like that, being right here, right now, feels like a distant memory.

I get that—I really do. I'm with you there. It feels like maybe we could find a way to weave the present moment right into the whole process... I don't know, it seems like a much calmer way to live, at least. Thoughts are basically just another tool in our kit, right? It would be pretty incredible if we could just flip a switch and turn them off—just stay anchored in the "now" all the time—but that’s not really how it works, is it? Life kind of demands that we plan things out and overthink everything. It's a bit of a drag, honestly. I mean, look at me—if I stop thinking about yesterday or worrying about tomorrow, I end up completely forgetting the actual stuff I need to get done today. Things I probably would have remembered if I'd spent a little more time dwelling on the past or looking ahead. 🙂

I haven't seen any posts from medeari yet—though I suppose that’s just how it goes sometimes, isn't it? You wait for a specific perspective, a certain bit of insight, and then... nothing. Just silence. It’s funny, really, how we all hang around these digital spaces waiting for someone to weigh in, only to realize we might be waiting a while. Anyway, I guess I'll just be sitting here, nursing my coffee and wondering if they've even logged on today. Maybe they're busy with something more important than scrolling through forums—not that there's anything wrong with that. Or maybe they're just avoiding us. Probably a bit of both, if I'm being honest. kaže:
I’m still kind of stumbling around in that gray area when it comes to the whole concept of love—it feels pretty slippery, honestly—and I haven't really wrapped my head around it yet. Because, if you look at it from my perspective—where love is more of an internal state of being rather than just some social contract or relationship between two people—then how can it even be partial? It doesn't quite make sense, I guess.

I kind of picture us all as these little spheres of light—you know, like tiny glowing particles—but we’re sortically dimmed down in different directions. The light is still there, tucked away inside us, but it just doesn't seem to break through to the outside world. I guess fear is just the mechanism that blocks the love, which is the actual light itself. We end up being afraid of people, or even just a stranger on the street—we're scared of getting hurt, or of being too open, I suppose. And beyond that, actually giving of yourself requires someone who is truly ready, because when you lead with love, it demands all sorts of sacrifices. That’s really my struggle, though. If I were better—if I were more capable, maybe—I’d just let love take the wheel and let it guide my life, but I'm just not there yet. Why am I not?

I don't really know how to start this—it’s kind of a mess, honestly—but I suppose I should try to get my thoughts down before they drift away again. It's one of those things that seems simple when you're just thinking about it, but once you actually sit down to type, everything feels a bit more complicated than it needs to be. Or maybe I'm just overthinking it. That’s probably a safe bet. I tend to do that, I guess. Anyway, let's just see where this goes. kaže:
I mean, if you really stop to think about it—or even just say it out loud—like saying "I feel sad," haven't we basically given sadness a shape? It’s like we aren't just sitting there feeling miserable; we're actually articulating the thing, which I guess makes it more real, or at least more conscious. It's not just some vague, heavy cloud hanging over you anymore—you've named it. And if that works for emotions, maybe it applies to other stuff too... like intuition, or those higher frequencies people always talk about? Just a thought, I suppose.

I think I see where you're coming from now—it’s like those things aren't even raw emotions anymore, but rather thoughts *about* emotions. And I suppose we can do the exact same thing with intuition, right? We can basically take it and translate it into the language of thought... kind of bringing it into the light of reason, much like we do with feelings. It makes you realize that the mind is really just a tool for all of this, I guess.

Unfortunately, conditional love is still everywhere. Most people are still out there looking for love from external sources. You and I both know that isn't what real love is. Why is it so hard to simply *be* love? I think it comes down to how we've been conditioned.

Friendship isn't just about having someone to grab a beer with on a Friday night or someone to text when you have some gossip to spill. It’s much deeper than that. Real friendship is that rare, unshakeable bond where you can sit in total silence for an hour and it doesn't feel awkward, or you can call them at 3:00 AM during a crisis and know they'll actually pick up. It’s about finding those people who see you at your absolute worst—messy, stressed, or completely failing—and don't even think twice about sticking around. They aren't there for the highlight reel; they're there for the gritty, unpolished reality of your life. In a world that feels increasingly disconnected, finding a few people who truly "get" you is probably the greatest luxury there is. kaže:
I just saw that link about the "quiet mind." Honestly, those moments have to exist entirely in the *now*. You can’t claim they belong to some other time, because by definition, if you're looking at them through the lens of the past or the future, you've already missed the point. It’s really just one single point where everything has to converge. It makes me wonder: when we finally hit that state of "now," are we actually aligning with our true soul? Or is there still a gap? Most of us living ordinary lives haven't exactly broken through that barrier yet—we aren't operating with full consciousness, even in the present moment. We're just drifting.

🙂
Right now, in this exact moment, we essentially *are* the soul. But let’s be real—you can't truly experience that if you aren't awake to it. That’s why it’s so vital to treat mental stillness like a workout; you have to learn how to quiet the noise and actually get your brain to chill out.

In an ideal world, everything would just click—perfectly in sync. But here’s the thing about my personality: there's this weird tension between being humble and being fully self-aware. Sometimes, my mind is genuinely lost, unsure of what comes next, but my soul? My soul already knows exactly where we're going. It’s that strange paradox of feeling completely whole, yet entirely fragmented all at once.

Can we actually find true wholeness in the way our personalities act as a mouthpiece for our souls? It’s that deep, internal alignment where who we are on the outside finally matches who we feel we are on the inside. At the end of the day, we aren't just a collection of parts—we are one single, interconnected being.

My path hasn't exactly been a straight line. I was on track for a while, but then I got caught up in these heavy existential spirals, and honestly, I felt like I hit a bit of a slump. Now, I’m playing catch-up, trying to make up for lost time by moving a little faster. To do that, I’ve had to step away from my usual way of doing things. My natural rhythm is very internal—it's intuitive and organic. I don't rely much on outside input or constant reading; I prefer to let things brew inside me. It works beautifully, but it’s definitely a slower burn. While bringing in external ideas can act like high-octane fuel to speed things up, there's a risk they might suffocate that raw, inner creative spark if you lean on them too heavily. I’ve realized that if you spend all your time consuming, you become a receiver rather than a creator. To me, true purpose flows from the inside out. You have to be the source, not just an echo. 😉

Truth. Honestly, I started out by reading everything I could get my hands on, but lately, I’ve been mostly listening to a mentor who has been walking this path for decades. I treat every single thing he says as vital intel to dig into. For these lessons to actually become part of my own intuition, I have to truly "feel" them first.

What an absolute mess of conflicting ideas.

The endless cycle of overthinking—the constant analysis, the "what-ifs," and that mental noise that just won't quit. It’s exhausting. You spend so much time stuck in your own head that you completely lose the ability to actually be present in the moment.

Emotional blocks aren't always obvious—in fact, they’re often subconscious defense mechanisms rooted in old wounds. It’s basically your mind trying to play it safe. Think about it this way: have you ever found yourself tearing up over a video of a golden retriever puppy, yet feeling completely guarded or shut down when it comes to actual people? That’s a partial block in action. It’s a sign that you’ve built walls to protect yourself, which ultimately creates a barrier to deep, meaningful love.

I’m still stumbling around in the dark when it comes to this whole "love block" thing. I honestly can't wrap my head around it. To me, love isn't just some transaction between two people—it's an internal state of being. So, if that's the case, how can it ever be "partial"? It either exists within you or it doesn't.

Are articulated emotions actually thoughts? To me, they feel like two completely different languages. What trips me up is that we experience emotions, but we also experience intuition. I tend to view them as different frequency levels. It would be easy to just say love is the "high" frequency, but then you have things like compassion, which feels like an extension of love. Then there’s the frequency of faith, and beyond that, this whole realm of intuitive sensing. And happiness? That's its own thing—a truly elevated state.

But if we think about it or actually say, "I am sad," aren't we essentially articulating sadness? Doesn't that act make us conscious of the emotion rather than just simply "being" sad? If that's true, does that logic apply to intuition and all those other higher frequencies too?

hollowtrucker77 said:Anyone with half a brain would have realized there’s already a thread for this
😛

I hadn't seen it yet, and I was honestly pretty shocked at how much my favorite forum had been messed up. 🙂

Anyway, I just fixed it using an adblocker. 🥳

Paul Jones7 said:Well, of course you have to re-examine things. Anything you don't fully grasp is wide open to change—especially if some new perspective hits you or you have an experience that totally contradicts what you thought you knew.

I wouldn't call it being "divided," really. It feels more like just... being human. Having an ego is unavoidable. But having a negative ego? That's something else entirely. A negative ego can actually be dismantled through some serious internal work on the self.

Nothing is actually separated. Our personality grew out of the soul, but because it didn't have a clear blueprint of its essence to follow, it had to build itself using nothing but raw life experience. If you think about it—people always talk about the ego as this "false self." But if that's true, where does the "real self" actually live? If we changed the real self, then it doesn't exist anymore, leaving only this false version behind. Or, maybe the truth is that the real self—the essence, the soul—coexists with it... but then we'd basically be two different people.

Looking back at my own life and how I act, I've noticed times when I seem to operate "outside of myself." I'll follow these intuitive impulses or come up with thoughts that are way sharper than anything my conscious mind could ever cook up—all in a split second. These reactions are so perfectly timed and precise that my usual, clumsy self wouldn't stand a chance. That’s when I realized what my higher consciousness actually is. I don't really feel the "flow" of those thoughts while they're happening; it's more like they're hovering over me. I just get the finished product—this sudden, conscious influence on my awareness. So, I don't really have any other way to explain it besides seeing it as a separate entity within us, a smarter version of ourselves. The genuine part of us. Our personality is really just a terrestrial shadow of the real thing.

The part I haven't quite figured out yet is the actual mechanism of how the personality and the soul connect. They have to be linked, obviously, but they also seem to function independently. I'd be lying if I said I had a clear picture of how that works.

Look, I'm not some enlightened guru who sits around chatting with a higher self or perceiving spiritual dimensions. For me, these information flows are more like sudden intuitive flashes, impulses, or random thoughts. Sometimes I'll write a sentence that feels incredibly inspired, and I honestly have no clue where it came from. Or lines of poetry will just pop into my head. It's more about those subtle sensations—not quite emotions, but a different kind of feeling. Like that specific moment when you feel a puzzle piece finally click into place, or conversely, when you just get the sense that something is off.

I'm not quite following you there, if you don't mind clarifying. But yeah, that point definitely holds water.

That's great 🙂 and I think your success is proof that you're on the right path.

medeari
When I talk about tools—or really, abilities—I’m talking about soul, intuition, and that constant, underlying stream of communication. It’s more about insight than just "looking," given everything we already think we know

So you have this continuous communication? Well, that's great

I tend to experience emotions much like I do physical pain—as a sort of signaling system. I'm not entirely sure if that's what you were getting at, but I don't see it as necessary to shut down or suppress emotions. Instead, I think you have to balance them and learn how to work with them. Take marketing, for instance; they know that emotion is the primary way to reach someone, to deliver a message from a manufacturer or a retailer. Sure, it's manipulation, but the key is understanding that people expect that emotional connection to open up—that humans function through emotion, because that's just part of our fundamental makeup.

So, emotions can also be quite purposeful, acting as a tool to tell you something. Maybe for someone who is, say, extremely advanced, emotions aren't really needed, but for the average person, they're actually quite helpful. If you're feeling sad... why are you sad? If you're worried... what's causing that worry? There is such a thing as an emotional block. Staying stuck in a sort of adult ego-state with zero emotional charge—well, I don't think those kinds of blocks are ever a good idea. I assume that's probably not what you meant, though.

Aludira was referring to the "voice of the soul" concept I laid out earlier.

That’s awesome 🙂 and success is usually a pretty good sign that you're on the right track.

And if it isn't, reality will eventually give me a reality check. 🙂

Are you in constant communication? That's great.

Not really, because my ego tends to take the wheel sometimes, though I do know how to get back in sync. Honestly, the sheer noise in my head can be a total headache every now and then.

I view emotions much like physical pain—as a signaling system. I'm not sure if that's what you meant, but I don't think we should shut down or suppress emotions; rather, we need to balance them and learn to master them. Take marketing, for example—they know emotion is the key to reaching people and delivering a message from a brand or retailer. It's manipulation, sure, but it stems from the fact that humans expect an emotional connection to open up; being emotional is just part of the human blueprint.

So, emotions can actually be useful tools for providing insight. Maybe someone who's reached a certain level of enlightenment doesn't need them, but for the average American, they're vital. If you're sad... why? If you're anxious... what's causing it? There's such a thing as an emotional block—living in a state of adult ego where there's zero emotional charge. I personally don't see those blocks as a good thing. You probably aren't suggesting that, though.

I completely agree with you there. Emotions are symbols. If I'm angry, I ask myself why, I look at what anger actually represents, and I realize it's just an emotional reaction to unmet expectations. Once I grasp the logic behind it, I gain control. I see that the issue isn't the anger itself, but the expectation that wasn't met. As soon as I deal with that, the anger evaporates.
I see emotional ego-blocks as a kind of emotional autism. And that's essentially a disorder, isn't it?!
Are articulated emotions just thoughts? Does that mean we can talk about internal dialogues? Now I'm stepping into uncharted territory for some deep questioning. 🙂

Paul Jones7 said:Well, of course you have to re-examine things. Anything you don't fully grasp is wide open to change—especially if some new perspective hits you or you have an experience that totally contradicts what you thought you knew.

I wouldn't call it being "divided," really. It feels more like just... being human. Having an ego is unavoidable. But having a negative ego? That's something else entirely. A negative ego can actually be dismantled through some serious internal work on the self.

Nothing is actually separated. Our personality grew out of the soul, but because it didn't have a clear blueprint of its essence to follow, it had to build itself using nothing but raw life experience. If you think about it—people always talk about the ego as this "false self." But if that's true, where does the "real self" actually live? If we changed the real self, then it doesn't exist anymore, leaving only this false version behind. Or, maybe the truth is that the real self—the essence, the soul—coexists with it... but then we'd basically be two different people.

Looking back at my own life and how I act, I've noticed times when I seem to operate "outside of myself." I'll follow these intuitive impulses or come up with thoughts that are way sharper than anything my conscious mind could ever cook up—all in a split second. These reactions are so perfectly timed and precise that my usual, clumsy self wouldn't stand a chance. That’s when I realized what my higher consciousness actually is. I don't really feel the "flow" of those thoughts while they're happening; it's more like they're hovering over me. I just get the finished product—this sudden, conscious influence on my awareness. So, I don't really have any other way to explain it besides seeing it as a separate entity within us, a smarter version of ourselves. The genuine part of us. Our personality is really just a terrestrial shadow of the real thing.

The part I haven't quite figured out yet is the actual mechanism of how the personality and the soul connect. They have to be linked, obviously, but they also seem to function independently. I'd be lying if I said I had a clear picture of how that works.

Look, I'm not some enlightened guru who sits around chatting with a higher self or perceiving spiritual dimensions. For me, these information flows are more like sudden intuitive flashes, impulses, or random thoughts. Sometimes I'll write a sentence that feels incredibly inspired, and I honestly have no clue where it came from. Or lines of poetry will just pop into my head. It's more about those subtle sensations—not quite emotions, but a different kind of feeling. Like that specific moment when you feel a puzzle piece finally click into place, or conversely, when you just get the sense that something is off.

I'm not quite following you there, if you don't mind clarifying. But yeah, that point definitely holds water.

That's great 🙂 and I think your success is proof that you're on the right path.

medeari
When I talk about tools—or really, abilities—I’m talking about soul, intuition, and that constant, underlying stream of communication. It’s more about insight than just "looking," given everything we already think we know

So you have this continuous communication? Well, that's great

I tend to experience emotions much like I do physical pain—as a sort of signaling system. I'm not entirely sure if that's what you were getting at, but I don't see it as necessary to shut down or suppress emotions. Instead, I think you have to balance them and learn how to work with them. Take marketing, for instance; they know that emotion is the primary way to reach someone, to deliver a message from a manufacturer or a retailer. Sure, it's manipulation, but the key is understanding that people expect that emotional connection to open up—that humans function through emotion, because that's just part of our fundamental makeup.

So, emotions can also be quite purposeful, acting as a tool to tell you something. Maybe for someone who is, say, extremely advanced, emotions aren't really needed, but for the average person, they're actually quite helpful. If you're feeling sad... why are you sad? If you're worried... what's causing that worry? There is such a thing as an emotional block. Staying stuck in a sort of adult ego-state with zero emotional charge—well, I don't think those kinds of blocks are ever a good idea. I assume that's probably not what you meant, though.

We don't just stumble upon those defining moments or life-changing realizations out of thin air. Isn't it more likely that we’re actually manufacturing them ourselves through our own constant questioning? It's a perpetual motion machine.

I don't see it as being two-faced. Honestly, that’s just reality for everyone. Ego is inevitable. But having a negative ego isn't something you're stuck with—you can actually dismantle that part of yourself through dedicated personal work.

Nothing has been set aside. Personality is built upon the foundation of the soul, but because that soul lacked a clear blueprint of its own essence, it began crafting itself out of raw life experience. If you really think about it, people often claim the ego is just a "false self." But if that’s true, then where does the real me actually live? If we have fundamentally changed our true selves, then the "real" version doesn't exist anymore—only this false one remains. Or, perhaps the truth is that the real self (the essence, the soul) coexists alongside us—but if that's the case, then we're essentially talking about two different people.

Milo is being a little too precious about sticking to the facts, don't you think?
I’m talking about that sense of duality that comes through in the way you express yourself. It’s all those classic contradictions—the soul versus the ego, light versus dark, the mask we wear versus who we actually are, the internal struggle versus the external world. These are all forms of dualism. But honestly, can we ever truly move forward if we view our very essence as being split in two? I'm sure you've heard of the yin-yang symbol; try to look at things through that lens.
Can you actually have black without white? Or white without black? Sure, if we just zoom in on one side and try to draw some conclusions, but at what cost? Are we even seeing the full picture then? Are we seeing reality at all? Think about it: a black segment has a white speck, and a white segment has a black dot. Can we even call them perfect opposites anymore? That "black" part might just be a fake black because of that white spot, right? And the white could be a total illusion too. We could probably spin a million different versions of "our own reality" based on that single symbol. But if we’re constantly obsessed with these binary opposites, do we even see the symbol itself? Do we catch that moment where one shade bleeds into the next in constant motion?

Looking back at my life and how I handle things, I’ve noticed these moments where I feel like I’m acting "outside" of myself. It’s like I’m following these sudden intuitive hits, landing on insights that are way sharper than anything my logical brain could ever cook up on its own. It all happens in a split second—these perfectly timed reactions that my usual, clumsy self wouldn't stand a chance of pulling off. That’s when it clicked for me: that’s my higher self at work. The thing is, I don't actually experience the inner monologue or the flow of thoughts from this higher consciousness while it's watching over me. I don't get to see the process; I just get the finished product—the sudden, conscious impact it has on my awareness. To me, there isn't any other way to explain it besides seeing it as a distinct entity, a smarter version of us. A truer version. Our everyday personality? That’s just the surface-level projection.

You’ve hit on something really profound here. I want to ask—during those moments when you feel like you're "out of body," does that constant mental chatter just... stop? Does the brain quit trying to solve problems, make assumptions, or hunt for answers using its usual logic? It’s almost like a total mental paralysis. I suspect it does, because honestly, that seems to be the rule for all of us. If that’s the case, can you actually trigger this state on purpose? If you can consciously force yourself into a headspace where thoughts vanish, then doesn't that mean you're the one in control of the whole experience? And if you are, can we even call it an "out of body" experience anymore, or is it just a deeper version of *you*? Think about it: could you become the intuitive spark or that sudden flash of brilliance exactly when it matters most? Could you be the conscious force directing the flame, all by yourself? Is it possible for "you" to be the sole architect of all of it?

What I haven't quite figured out yet is how the personality and the soul actually connect. They have to be linked, but they also seem to function as separate entities. I’d be lying if I said I had a crystal-clear picture of it.

You aren't alone in this.
My own perspective gets blurry all the time too. 🙂
Understanding the concept of Yin and Yang really helped me out. I recently picked up on it during some holistic energy seminars, and it started clicking.
If you look strictly at the personality, something feels missing—it feels incomplete and confusing (even for me, personally), even though most people take it for granted.
But if you look strictly at the soul, it feels supernatural, mystical, or like something external helping us (which makes me wonder: why do people say the soul leaves the body at the moment of death?)
When we look at the Yin-Yang symbol, we see a whole, and most importantly, we see BALANCE. We see two things in perfect symbiosis, harmony, and constant motion. We see ONE.
It makes total sense to ask: so what’s wrong? It's the lack of harmony. We created an imbalance by separating them.
My ego still tends to dominate my soul. I still catch myself thinking I’m smarter than I am or that I have all the answers. And then, out of nowhere, a cry from my soul jolts me awake, reminding me that everything is out of alignment.

I’m not some "awakened" being who chats with their higher self or perceives spiritual dimensions. For me, information comes in pure intuitive flashes, impulses, or random thoughts. Sometimes I'll write a sentence that feels inspired, without even knowing where it came from. Or lyrics just pop into my head. There are these subtle feelings too—not exactly emotions, but a different kind of sensation. Like that feeling when you realize the pieces of a puzzle are finally fitting together, or conversely, when you just know something isn't right.

Welcome to the club. 🙂
I'm still just wading into these spiritual waters myself. I'm nowhere near the surface yet, but I'm definitely enjoying the dive.

I don't quite follow your point there; could you elaborate a little? Though the core idea definitely holds water.

That's great 🙂 and your success is proof that you're on the right path.

You have a continuous line of communication? That's awesome.

I experience emotions much like I experience physical pain—as a signal. I'm not sure if this is what you meant, but I don't think emotions should be shut down or suppressed; instead, they should be balanced and mastered. Take marketing, for example; they know that emotion is the key to reaching a person and delivering a message from a brand. Sure, it can be manipulation, but the point is that humans expect emotion to open up. People function through emotion; it's part of the human blueprint.

So, emotions can actually be purposeful tools for guidance. Maybe someone who is extremely, deeply elevated doesn't need them, but for the average person, they are incredibly useful. If you're sad... why are you sad? If you're anxious... why are you anxious? There's such a thing as emotional blocking. Living in a state of adult ego with zero emotional charge... I don't think those blocks are a good thing. I assume that's not what you meant.

I've got a quick question here, and I didn't want to clutter things up by starting a whole new thread for no reason.

A moment ago, the forum looked exactly like this:
but everything seems fine now. Does anyone know what actually happened? Is there a tech expert out there who can walk me through it? 🙂

http://it.tinypic.com/r/akanoj/3

Edit: It just happened again. 😳

Paul Jones7 said:

I don't really know how to start this—it's kind of a mess, honestly—but I suppose I should try to get my thoughts down before they drift off again. It’s one of those things where you think you have a handle on the situation, and then suddenly everything feels a bit sideways, if that makes sense? I guess I'm just sitting here, staring at the screen, trying to find the right way to frame this... maybe it doesn't even need a perfect frame. Just some thoughts, I suppose. kaže:
It sounds like you’re basically saying I view faith as just another tool in the kit—which, I guess, makes sense if you look at it that way. Honestly, if I didn't see it through that lens, I’d probably end up contradicting myself, which is a bit of a mess to clean up, I suppose.

Yeah, I guess so.

I don't really know where to start with this one—it’s kind of a mess, honestly—but I suppose I should try to make sense of it. It’s just one of those things that stays on your mind, you know? I was thinking about it earlier, maybe while grabbing a coffee near a Starbucks, and I realized how much we tend to overlook the small stuff. I guess what I mean is... well, it's complicated. There aren't many ways to put it simply without losing the point entirely, which is frustrating, I suppose. Anyway, I'll just leave it at that for now. kaže:
Are you trying to say there are two different people living inside one body—where the secular side just sort of... I don't know, finds some peace with the spiritual side through a bit of faith and hope? Maybe? It’s an interesting way to put it, I guess.

Yeah, I guess that’s pretty much where I landed on it—that's my takeaway, anyway.

If you look at personality as something that incorporates the ego—which is tricky, because depending on how you define it, the ego is either that negative little voice or just the total sum of how we see ourselves—then the ego essentially becomes this false self. It’s hard to wrap your head around, but the soul is the true self. And obviously, the true self can't be the same thing as the false one. Then there’s this third thing, what some people call the higher self or superconsciousness. I think I realized this a long time ago—mostly through trial and error, I guess—that my best insights don't actually come from overthinking things. My intuition hasn't really steered me wrong yet. Through that, I started to suspect that this superconsciousness isn't just some abstract concept; it’s actually our true self. But here’s the weird part—I don’t have constant access to its consciousness. It’s more like these occasional streams of communication... flashes of messages or conclusions that make me feel like it has its own distinct awareness, its own internal monologue. On the flip side, you have the human personality. We spend our whole lives building it, shifting it, sometimes tearing it all down and starting over. It’s basically the version of ourselves we’re actually aware of. Which leads me to this conclusion—maybe it's a stretch, but it makes sense to me—that our soul is almost like a separate entity entirely. The thoughts driving my fingers across this keyboard right now, the way I speak... those belong to the personality. The personality is this construct built during our time here on Earth—it’s born from the soul, sure, but it’s also defined by how much we drift away from the soul. We build this image of ourselves based on everything we experience in this life. So, in a way, the soul is its own person. But at the same time, there has to be a connection—a sort of overlap. The soul influences us, but the personality has to influence the soul too; otherwise, I suppose this whole earthly experience wouldn't really have a purpose. There’s this unbreakable bond, this ongoing dialogue happening while we're alive. People who are "awakened" might actually be able to hold a conversation with it, but for someone like me, it's more about catching those frequencies of intuition or similar vibrations. They aren't exactly emotions... they feel more like frequencies.

I don't really know how to start this—it’s kind of a mess, honestly—but I’ve been thinking about that whole situation lately. It’s funny, in a dark sort of way, how things just... unfold. You think you have a handle on the rhythm of things, maybe you think you've figured out the pattern, and then—well, you know. Everything shifts. I was sitting there the other day, just staring at my coffee—probably stayed hot too long, which is my specialty, I guess—and I started wondering if we ever actually see these things coming. Or if we're all just collectively pretending to be surprised when the floor drops out from under us. It feels like that sometimes. Like we're all just waiting for the next inevitable hiccup in the system. Anyway, I digress. I suppose I'm just rambling. It's just one of those things that sticks in your head, even if it doesn't make much sense once you try to put it into words. Maybe it does make sense. I probably shouldn't overthink it, though. That's usually where I go wrong. kaže:
I guess you've already made up your mind—it's pretty clear you're stuck in your ways. Honestly, through a bit of self-reflection lately—which is always a messy process, I suppose—I've realized that's just how it goes sometimes. People decide what they want to believe before the conversation even starts.

Look, if that’s how things went for you, fair enough—but I don't think everyone's experience has to mirror yours. I’ve been trying this thing where I attempt to separate what I actually believe from what I expect to happen... which sounds a bit philosophical, I guess. It isn't like I've mastered it—I definitely don't claim I can pull that off every single time—but for the most part, I try to keep my expectations pretty low. It helps, maybe.

I assume you'll eventually clarify 🙂

To me, the world just feels like one big, messy tangle—and honestly, I don't think we should be tossing any single perspective aside if we're actually trying to learn or understand things. It's sort of like... I don't know, a massive, sprawling workshop where you're constantly testing different internal and external tools to see what sticks. Sure, emotions can definitely cloud your judgment—they really can—but I still suspect they serve some kind of purpose, even with all their subjective baggage and whatnot.

And there's really no point in even questioning it, is there? At the end of the day, you're always going to land on a conclusion that's purely subjective.

Yeah, that’s exactly where I landed, too.

Can a divided soul ever truly reach the light if its different parts are constantly at war, or is there hope if they can learn to harmonize toward infinity?

If you look at how personality incorporates the ego, you have to ask: which part is the "false self"? It depends on how you define ego—whether you mean that negative, defensive driver or just the total sum of how we perceive ourselves. Either way, the soul is the true self. There’s no question there; the true self can't be the same thing as the false self. Then, there’s the concept of the "Higher Self" or superconsciousness. I’ve realized over the years that my best insights don't come from overthinking; they come when I stop thinking entirely. My intuition has never steered me wrong, and through that, I’ve come to understand that this intuition is actually a gateway to superconsciousness. To me, this higher state isn't just an abstract idea—it is our true self. The catch? I don't have direct, conscious access to this superconsciousness. Instead, I experience it through occasional flows of communication—messages and sudden realizations that make me feel like it has its own distinct consciousness and its own unique thoughts. On the flip side, our personality is something we build, reshape, and sometimes tear down throughout our lives. It is the curated image of ourselves that we are actually aware of. This leads to a startling conclusion: our soul is essentially a different entity altogether. The thoughts driving my fingers across these keys right now belong to my personality—a construct created by this earthly life. It was built upon the foundation of the soul, but also grew through our deviations from it, shaped by everything we experience here on Earth. That makes the soul a "person" unto itself. At the same time, there has to be a bridge between the two. There must be an overlap where the soul influences us, but we also influence the soul—otherwise, what would be the point of this earthly experience? During our time here, there is an unbreakable bond and a constant, subtle dialogue happening. Those who are "awake" might even be able to hold a conversation with it, but for me, communication happens on the frequency of intuition and similar vibrations. It isn't about emotions; it’s about frequency.

I can see where you're coming from on a few points, but I think we're still looking at this through two very different lenses.
If you're categorizing the "negative" stuff—the ego—as an inherent part of who we are, then why are you pulling the "positive" side—the soul—out of that same equation?
The ego actually serves as a psychological defense mechanism. If we didn't maintain a positive self-image—constantly reinforcing our own identity and making sense of who we are—we’d honestly just fall apart. The problem is that the internal metrics we use to validate ourselves are often flawed. These skewed perceptions don't just stall our personal growth; they actively hold us back. Most people aren't even aware this is happening, either. But I think we can all agree that just because someone isn't conscious of it doesn't mean it isn't real.
Are you saying you have occasional communication with your higher self—like your soul or intuition? Is it "occasional" because they only show up every once in a while, or is it just that you aren't consciously aware of them when they happen?
If you’ve spent enough time digging through your own ego and coming out the other side with some real insights, why did you hit a wall when it came to the soul? Why stop at the doorstep of intellectual knowledge? I'm wondering if the same logic applies here: just because we haven't figured out how to communicate with the soul doesn't mean it isn't there.

Look, if that's how things went for you, fair enough, but that doesn't mean everyone's path looks the same. Personally, I've managed to separate what I believe from what I actually expect. I won't claim I nail it every single time, but for the most part, I keep my expectations pretty low.

I’m definitely not saying my experiences are the ultimate truth. I’m not asking you to just take my word for it—beliefs can be nothing more than illusions. What I’d love is for you to question them, to really "feel" them for yourself. You don't get answers by jumping to conclusions; you get them by asking the right questions. I'm speaking from experience here. I watched someone close to me go through this whole self-improvement journey. Every day I’d hear about it, and honestly, I resisted it. But then came the day I looked in the mirror and realized I was deeply unhappy and stuck. None of the usual fixes were working. That’s when I finally started questioning things and trying to "feel" what they were talking about. I’m slowly letting go of everything that defines my old self, trying to tap back into that curious kid inside who just wants to explore. It makes me so much happier. It's a long road, though... I don't really dwell on the idea of "happiness"; I just find joy in the process of freeing myself.

You'll probably need to clarify what you meant by 🙂

When I talk about tools or abilities, I’m referring to intuition and that constant inner dialogue. I’m talking about gaining insight rather than just "seeing" things based on what we think we already know.

To me, this world feels like one big mess, and I don't think it's a good idea to discard any single channel while you're learning and discovering. Think of it as an intensive course in using all sorts of internal and external tools. Sure, emotions can cloud your judgment, but I still feel like they serve a purpose, even in their subjective nature.

I'm with you—it is a mess, mostly because we're messy inside and we just project that onto everything else.
I agree that tossing out any specific channel without actually understanding it first isn't the way to go. Once you gain true insight, you'll realize what's useless, and those things will naturally fall away on their own. It's the same deal with emotions (except for love, which isn't really an emotion, but more of a state of being). You need them to navigate the path toward finding the real truth.

I feel so much better now; I honestly thought I was the one who messed everything up, but it turns out I wasn't. 😁