Raymond Fisher2 said:How am I supposed to switch doctors? I just went to my primary care physician and they sent me there. If I get the chance, I'll definitely switch.
I'm not sure if you're working or still in school, but if you're a student, you should totally check out the campus counseling center—you have rights to that help. Also, maybe ask if there’s another psychiatrist or psychologist available within the hospital system itself.
Bradley Wood3 said:Do you guys seriously pop pills every single time you feel a regular human emotion—like fear, sadness, or anger? 🍿
Look, anger is negative, destructive, intense energy.
But more than anything, it’s just energy.
Don’t choke it out—channel it instead.
Get physical, hit the gym, write, whatever helps push it outward and toward something productive rather than turning it inward on yourself.
For a long time, I carried all this rage toward my "friends," my mom, my dad—people who were never there for me, never sacrificed a thing for me, even though I did plenty for them.
Back then, I’d be screaming, swearing, smashing plates...
Because of my "unstable" behavior, I ended up seeing a therapist, and they put me on Lexapro.
So, I started suppressing everything.
I kept telling myself I just had to calm down.
Then came the depression, the anxiety, the panic attacks.
Eventually, I just hit a wall where I couldn't do it anymore.
And the people around me? They were the exact same ones triggering those emotions in the first place.
Basically, there was no bottom to the pit.
I spent three years stuck in bed, terrified of everything, losing 15 pounds... just like that.
And in those three years, not one person even asked if I needed a glass of water.
If I’d died, nobody in my own house would have even noticed, and I live with six people.
So, I finally just said "screw it."
Why shouldn't I be angry?
Why can't I show my negative emotions?
Who am I doing this for?
Is it for today's collective mindset that says showing any emotion is "crazy"? That we aren't allowed to be pissed off, sad, or bitter?
Or is it for the people I'm forced to look out for, even though they weren't there for me when they were actually healthy and sane?
I ditched the Lexapro. I don't hold anything back anymore. No more bottled-up rage, no panic, no depression, no anxiety—just ME.
I'd rather have ten broken plates than a wrecked psyche and suppressed anger.
I'm not suppressing it with pills, consciously or otherwise, and not for anyone.
Not at all.
When I'm sad, I'm sad. When I'm happy, I'm happy. If I'm frustrated, I'm frustrated.
I'm a human being with feelings. I want to manage them, sure, but I refuse to suppress them.
At the start, I mentioned the people who trigger these emotions in you or me.
That's not their fault—it's yours.
Because YOU allowed them to trigger that reaction in you.
So, look inward, love yourself, and be selfish with people who treat you poorly.
It's not about hate or revenge; it's just that you don't need people in your life who don't love you while you're busy loving them. In those dynamics, you're just the victim.
And you don't need to be a victim.
And NOBODY else is required for you to be happy. You don't have to hunt for happiness in a girlfriend, a mom, a dad, a sister, or whoever—everything you need is already inside you. Don't doubt yourself; you have massive strength within you, just like everyone else, and you don't need anyone else to find your own happiness.
You were born alone and you'll die alone—and I don't mean you have to be isolated, but that you should be independent, especially emotionally.
Wishing you guys the best. Your behavior isn't "abnormal."
That kind of rage isn't fixed at the gym. In fact, it might make things worse, because having great physical conditioning won't magically blow off deep-seated trauma. People love the "healthy body, healthy mind" mantra, but in cases like this, it's seriously overrated.
Look, meds aren't some magic fix, but sometimes they're absolutely necessary just to make sure someone doesn't end up hurting themselves or anyone else—especially when we're talking about those out-of-control rage fits. That's high-stakes territory right there. Honestly, the fact that the OP is actually self-aware enough to recognize their own emotions is a huge win. If they jump into therapy ASAP, they’ll probably see progress way faster because they already have that level of insight into their own headspace.
Smashing plates, screaming, and getting aggressive isn't a "fair" response to being mistreated by someone else, but let's be real: it's abnormal behavior that requires psychiatric attention. At the same time, nobody who's been a victim of verbal or physical abuse is responsible for how they react in the moment. Learning how to actually manage and steer those reactions takes a ton of psychotherapy sessions. You don't just wake up one day suddenly "chill" unless you're just burying everything deep down—which, looking at the OP's outbursts, is clearly what's happening here. And suppressing stuff like that won't be solved by smashing a plate, or worse, hitting another person (I mean, where does it stop once you cross that line?...)
You made some good points; people need to express their reactions somehow, but definitely not in such a wild, uncontrolled way. That's a skill you learn in therapy. Otherwise, you just end up feeling even more frustrated and powerless after the dust settles. Sometimes, screaming doesn't even provide any release; it's all about your internal mindset, and honestly, yelling can often just be a sign of pure helplessness.