Posts by Kevin Bailey2

If you actually manage to walk away from your kid, good for you... because personally, I can’t even wrap my head around that concept.
That bond between a mother and her child is automatic. It’s powerful enough to rewire even the most set-in-stone personality traits in a woman, all for the sake of the kid.

Maybe having a child is exactly what you need to find your footing.

I've dealt with depression and bipolar disorder myself... but my kids have always been my North Star through the dark times.

My child is the biggest reason I keep fighting—whether I'm battling my own head or dealing with people out in the world.

Since none of this seems to be hitting home with you, I'm not sure why I'm even typing this.

Find a better therapist.

I dropped down to about 136 pounds on Prozac. I'm 5'11".
My psychiatrist actually noticed the weight loss, but he didn't really say much else about it.

My mom keeps nagging me, acting like I'm headed straight for an eating disorder.

lol..omg...

Kenneth Scott41 said:By the way, I guess you ever wonder what actually takes out those famous rock stars? Some succumb to pure stimulants, sure, and others to various combinations, but more often than not, it seems to be a cocktail of morphine-based painkillers mixed with far too much Xanax and alcohol.

What I mean is, most of them were likely cycling through antidepressants and benzodiazepines—things like Valium or Ativan—all at once.
It feels like everyone here is following a similar script, taking at least one anxiolytic alongside an antidepressant.🙂

The connection just kind of struck me.🙂

Oh, please... my grandma lived to be ninety on nothing but Valerian and herbal supplements.
What are you even talking about?

These people died because they lived messy lives. God knows what kind of hell they were dealing with internally.

Thinking someone’s just gonna drop dead suddenly from combining an antidepressant and an anxiolytic while under a psychiatrist's care is honestly a joke.

I just finished high school. I swear, when we were enrolling, they practically branded us with some weird cult symbol right on our foreheads. Pretty sure that's why people give us such side-eye. Honestly, just grow some bangs and you won't have to deal with that crap anymore.

feralstag72 said:Honestly, I’m at a point where I can’t tell if my brain is just moving in slow motion because of the Apurin and everything else I'm taking—or if it's just the anxiety finally catching up to me.

I usually feel sluggish if I don't get out of bed early enough. And by "early," I mean anything after 7:00 AM. 😬

Back when I was on 2 Prozac pills a day, there was a stretch where I could barely drag myself out of bed. It felt way too cozy to move. Once they bumped my dose up to three—the max—things actually started feeling a bit more normal. I also started taking those Supradyn effervescent tablets. Just some basic vitamins and minerals. They're a lifesaver. Since I'm still losing weight on Prozac, I often forget to eat, which makes me feel terrible once my supplies run low. That's why I need the supplements.

As for the Lorazepam, yeah, it definitely slows you down. I try to stay away from it because of that.

casualstag39 said:Greetings. I was doing quite well on 20mg of Prozac from Eli Lilly, but everything went downhill once my psychiatrist switched me over to WebMD. It feels like I'm just drinking plain water at this point. Apparently, Prozac isn't even available in the US anymore, so they're pushing this new successor called Cymbalta instead. Anyway, I started taking the Cymbalta yesterday, and within an hour, this crushing fatigue hit me and I felt completely numb. I could barely walk all day and ended up passing out by 8 PM. Has anyone else dealt with this nonsense?
Thanks

What do you mean there's no more Prozac? I picked some up at the pharmacy just last month.

As for WebMD, it works just as well as Prozac for me, except it used to give me way worse nausea.

Larry Lewis said:Ever since I started taking Prozac, I’ve felt absolutely nothing—just this total emotional numbness, a complete void where my feelings used to be—and even my girlfriend at the time noticed it immediately once I finally stepped off the stuff.

See... I actually had the exact opposite experience. It was the Faverin that everyone raves about that left me feeling totally hollow. I didn't stay on it long because as soon as I told my doctor I felt emotionally blunt, he pulled me off it. He figured being numb was worse than the actual illness. Honestly, that Faverin hit me so hard I didn't even care about food or water.
Amyzol was similar, though that one just made me starving and emotionally empty.

If Prozac were going to numb me out, there's no way I'd touch it. I can't stand that feeling of being a zombie.

Right now, I just feel balanced. It’s funny looking back at all the nonsense I used to stress over. 🙂

It's true I dropped a lot of weight on Prozac, but eventually my appetite leveled out and the nausea went away.

But arguing about it is pointless. Everyone's body reacts differently. That's why some people find the right fit instantly while others spend years searching.

At the end of the day, I still think long-term use of anti-anxiety meds isn't healthy for anyone. They aren't meant to fix the root cause; they just mask the symptoms. Constantly treating the symptoms just delays dealing with the real issue. You're just running in circles.

Kenneth Scott41 said:Prozac is a killer. Just think back to the whole Prozac Nation era...🙂

It works for me. It wiped out fears I honestly thought would haunt me forever. Those anxieties used to hold me back so much that I was failing my classes and losing friends. I’d pick fights with people for no reason and end up hurting them badly. Now, it helps me rationalize things and actually make sense of how people react. Honestly? It’s basically stopped me from turning into a bitter, frustrated old lady. And I get that with hardly any side effects.

If this stuff is a killer, then I'm more than happy to be its victim.

The whole issue is that there’s just nothing going on up there.

I’m also staying far away from Normaban and all those other anti-anxiety meds. I used to pop them here and there whenever a panic attack hit, especially during the early stages of starting Prozac. But once the Prozac actually kicked in, I cut the anxiety meds out completely. I don't need them anymore, and honestly, they just drain my energy too much.

rowdytiger said:Why are people constantly on these massive ego trips? Why does everyone act like they’re the center of the universe? Why is there this desperate, pathetic need to force an impression on everyone else—like, love me or hate me, just please, for the love of God, acknowledge that I'm special? 😉Seriously?

What’s even the point? Who actually cares about making an impression? 🤷And why can't people just be themselves for once?

Why not?

hiddenhawk3 said:I don't really get why you're equating being impulsive with being emotionally unstable.
If that's the case, most women would fall into that category according to you.🤷

🙄

And I guess you're calling being closed off and distant "stable" or "normal."
To me, that kind of shut-down behavior just seems immature.🤷

People like that are basically ticking time bombs—they just bottle up all this aggression until they eventually snap.🤷😁

Fair enough... I was using myself and my mother as examples. Maybe we both fall into that narrow category of being highly emotional—like hypersensitive. Not everyone who's emotional is hypersensitive, though. I definitely am... which is part of why I've sought professional help.😬

One thing I have noticed, though, is how easily I click with people who are my polar opposite. People who are antisocial. Or, if you want to go with your label... potential psychopaths.😍
I actually find their company refreshing because it creates a sort of balance for me.

Personally, I think we're all potential psychopaths in some way; everyone has their own triggers.

Being antisocial doesn't mean someone is a psycho or destined to become one. Especially not if they have a partner or friend who understands them—someone capable of seeing things from their perspective and communicating through it, even if they aren't wired that way themselves.

Maybe "antisocial" is the wrong word... I don't know. Maybe it isn't. All I know is that an antisocial type of guy is the only person I can be with without getting sick of him after a few days. No matter what baggage he's carrying, it's usually fixable. Unless he's a full-blown sociopath...🤣
though maybe you could even build something nice with a sociopath. Provided they aren't a total chainsaw. Lol.
I'm assuming "antisocial" isn't the same thing as being a sociopath. If it is, then my bad to any guys who fit my description above and were offended by my choice of words.
We can find a different term if it helps. Something more politically correct. Reserved, unsociable, semi-misanthropes...🤣

Just my theory.

Melissa Sanchez8 said:Have you ever considered that you might be doing this because you're a caregiver at heart? Like, you see people who clearly need that care and you step up. You see them as someone who needs you.

I'm not sure why you equate stability with being emotionally distant, though. To me, those types just seem cold... unless you're seeing a parallel between that detachment and staying steady.

Could be.

It could be both. My side and yours. It's a toss-up. 😬

quietsailor32 said:Exactly. You're basically just running a loop of whatever dynamics you picked up from your parents growing up. Either they treated you that way, or at least one of them did.

I think this idea is a bit oversimplified.

I grew up in a house where emotional distance didn't exist.
My mom is a nurturer. Not just with me, but with everyone. She has this empathy that sometimes veers into borderline neurotic territory.
She passed that right down to me. It’s probably why I deal with that constant inner restlessness and excessive guilt.

My dad was more rational than her. More reserved. But he wasn't emotionally detached either. He was just... I don't know... balanced. Normal.

But here's the thing. Even though I'm an open book, I've always been drawn to guys who are a bit antisocial. The types who hate crowds, shut themselves off, and don't seek attention. They’re self-contained. They build these walls, creating that exact emotional distance that you have to peel back layer by layer.

The way I see it, my openness—which I inherited from my mother—is something I actually view as emotional instability. It's not something I particularly love about myself. My emotions allow me to give a lot, but they can also cause damage. Mostly to me, but sometimes to others too. Like when I take things too personally and lash out defensively instead of just walking away.

I can hang out with the loud guys, the ones constantly seeking the spotlight. They don't bother me. But I could never build a deep connection with someone like that.

In those "emotionally distant" men, I guess I see the stability I've been trying to build in myself for years.
That’s likely why I gravitate toward people who are my complete opposite. Only with that type of guy can I find true emotional intimacy—even if it’s a long, bumpy road just to get through his shell before we can even start building something real.

I don't know what to tell you. Some things just aren't worth the headache. kaže:
Will this loss of appetite ever clear up? If things keep going like this, I’m going to end up with anorexia at this rate. 😢

It’ll be ready in a week or so. Don't sweat it.

Try to grab some breakfast before you take that first dose. It really helps.

Man, Sanval is a total disaster... 🙂

A while back, my GP handed me some Sanval because she claimed she couldn't prescribe me Ambien since it was "too strong"... 🤦
And then she gave me Sanval, which basically sent me into a hallucinogenic trip, and when I finally woke up, I felt like I’d been hit by a truck.

Ambien works way better for me—no hallucinations (lol), and I actually wake up feeling rested. Though, honestly, I rarely struggle with insomnia, so I don't even touch the Ambien much anymore.

As for this heatwave... I drink tons of water too, and I don't mind if it's room temp. Actually, I can't stand ice water. I stick to lukewarm or warm water, whether it's summer or winter.

David Mendoza73 said:I used to comfort myself—or make excuses, if we're being honest—with that whole "*this is just who I am, I can't change*" routine. But then I realized there was something deeper bothering me, which is why I was reacting that way in the first place.

I’ve got a temper too. Honestly, you can't really change your nature unless you go the antipsychotics route, which I definitely wouldn't suggest here, lol.

You just have to find a different outlet for all that energy. Something constructive. Pick up an intense sport or I don't know... start a garden. 🤣

Grow up.

This kind of behavior is basically just immaturity fueled by deep-seated insecurities.

I’ve caught myself doing this plenty of times, and it forced me to take a hard look in the mirror. What am I actually doing, and why?
Usually, it's an attempt to fix my own flaws by projecting them onto someone else.
The root cause is often just repressed fear—fear of being hurt. And fear and aggression are two sides of the same coin, whether it's verbal or physical.

Sure, lashing out might give you a momentary rush... but...
It doesn't work that way. You're just spinning your wheels in a vicious cycle.

If you aren't a cold-blooded shark (and honestly, I'm not) and if you aren't some kind of sociopath (which I'm betting isn't you, since you actually want to change)... then this conflict might feel good for a second, but eventually, the guilt starts eating at you. You'll hit a point where you stop and ask yourself... what was the point of all that?

If you don't want to be haunted by your past, just own it as part of growing up. Apologize to the people you might have hurt. Then, do your best to move forward.

Good luck.

Have you ever tried Prozac or anything like that?

🤦

Look, you might not even need a battery of tests. Your GP might just give you a diagnosis on the spot or send you straight to a specialist.

And even if you *do* have to go through extensive testing... wtf? So what?
Imagine if people actually went in for checkups when they felt sick. How weird is that? 🤦

If our entire healthcare system were fully privatized and every single little exam cost an arm and a leg, people would be crying foul about doctors leaving them to die at the hospital doors and complaining that nobody will bother looking at them. 🤮

If you seriously need a bunch of strangers on a forum to tell you that you need to see a doctor, then I honestly have no idea who issued your ID or gave you a driver's license.