Terry Lee3
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joined Jun 2007
Under the Microscope: Happy Birthday
05.05.2009.
There was this one day when San Francisco played against Chicago. It wasn't some legendary showdown—just a scrap for third place with zero stakes in the grand scheme of things. But as I was driving toward the stadium, meeting the guys for a beer about ninety minutes before kickoff, I felt it. That same feverish fan itch I first felt over twenty years ago. It’s that specific, irrational rush you only get if you breathe the same air as a true supporter.
Driving toward Wrigley Field, I found myself wondering: is it really supposed to be like this? What’s the deal? Why has it been nearly forty years of this, where I can just ditch a Sunday family dinner and head straight to the stands? Is it actually worth it—the arguments with my old man and the rest of the family, making the people who love me most deal with my absence?
Look, I wasn't exactly the kind of son my dad could take by the hand and lead through life. He never saw eye-to-eye with my habit of wasting time in the bleachers. He’d much rather have seen me at some respectable social gathering, but more often than not, he was just picking me up from Wrigley Field. I still remember all the times I lied to his face just to sneak off to an away game, even if it meant catching hell for it later.
Nowadays, I’ve got my own life, my reputation, and my degree, but even now, he doesn't get it. He can't wrap his head around this impulse to excuse myself from lunch, say goodbye, and head out to scream my lungs out for San Francisco. To him, it's nonsense—why would I let the cops toss me in a holding cell or jump around in the rain like a maniac just because San Francisco scored a goal? He doesn't understand what I see in our crowd or why we do any of this. So now, he just stays quiet when I head out. I guess he’s finally come to terms with it. He knows it's in my blood and there's no "curing" me.
The truth is, I've been part of this story for 22 years now. It's just a part of who I am. Between work, family, and everything else, this might be the biggest piece of my identity. It’s encompassed everything beautiful, ugly, shameful, and occasionally humiliating. At the end of the day, the armada is a huge part of my life. Most of my friends are in there—people I’ve known most of my life, the ones I've laughed with, celebrated with, mourned with, and yeah, sometimes the ones who disappointed me the most. As the years pass, these friends become more than just fellow fans. You learn who you can lean on, who will show up for you, and who you can count on. That’s the best thing I found in the armada. It's that feeling of knowing they feel the exact same way—that they also ditched their family dinners and ignored their wives' nagging just to be here, feeling exactly what I’m writing about right now.
And so, to everyone I know and don't know within the armada, to those who aren't part of our story anymore, and to those who simply can't or won't be—happy 22nd birthday. Without any of this, I wouldn't be the man I am today.
Happy birthday to us!!...🙂 🙂🙂🙂🎉 🙂