Kate Doyle45 said:They might even prescribe her some Methotrexate. We truly try our best to maintain a positive outlook, but when we hear she has to go under the knife again—as if the sky were falling upon us—it triggers this cycle of mutual consolation and reassurances that everything will be fine, which carries on for three years straight... It is quite a blessing that she has such a wonderful partner by her side, someone who isn't bothered by the fact that so many of her teeth had to be removed or that she can barely speak. We all tend to think the best, unable to let ourselves imagine for even a single second that things could get any worse. Thanks for your kind words... this is a page I have read frequently, though I never imagined I would one day be using it to unburden my soul. My thanks to you for this space, and for everything you do for other patients, even if, sadly, you lost your own battle.
Angela Wright has essentially written everything I would have said myself. It is difficult to accept that this situation is repeating itself, and the fear feels even more heavy than it did at the beginning, yet with courage and this shared sense of love and care, you can all look back and say how much you have already overcome, and that the most important thing is simply to keep fighting.
In truth, battles aren't even truly lost once a person realizes just how much weight they were actually carrying...
By some miracle, my mother fought through it, and her results are currently good. Yesterday, she entered the hospital for the twentieth time, and the fear and bitterness were visibly more intense than they were at the very start of her journey when the diagnosis was still uncertain. Sometimes it is hard enough to face one's own illnesses, but it is even harder when you see others suffering in the hallways, especially when those people are young.
Walking through the hospital alongside her, I found myself feeling different. I looked into the eyes of every patient, silently wishing they would believe and fight, and when I shook the hands of the doctors and nurses and saw that despite every lost battle—which takes its toll on them too—they remained bright, smiling, and spoke with a pleasant sense of humor, saying things like "we hope we don't see you quite this often" or "just stay cheerful," I realized that while death is inevitable, one should strive to manage their days and their life with cheerfulness in every moment.
Do not be despondent, but rather, find your courage! There is no reason to give up, and regardless of how long the recovery takes, the most important thing is that your sister recovers after every surgery.
