I am living the absolute lowest-quality life imaginable (and I'm being dead serious)

I’m just a clone, obviously, so I know exactly how much people hate clickbait headlines. 😍
I’m not entirely sure what I’m hoping to achieve by starting this thread; maybe I just need a little bit of support, or even some insults or sympathy—honestly, anything just to feel like someone is talking to me, because I feel incredibly lonely. 😢

So, I guess I should start from the beginning. Back in high school, I was an excellent student without ever really having to try, which meant I never actually developed any real work ethic. I managed to get into the university I wanted without much trouble and moved away from my small hometown to this massive city. When the first deadlines rolled around, I passed a couple of exams, and then suddenly—just like that—everything changed. College felt pointless, I realized it wasn't what I actually wanted to do, and I just lost all motivation to study. I ended up spending most of the next two months just lying around the house, watching TV, or out drinking. Since attendance isn't strictly mandatory at my university, I took full advantage of that, and for the next few months, the campus didn't see me at all. By the time the next round of finals came, I hadn't passed a single thing, and that continued for the next three years. As my friends from school started moving into their senior years, we had less and less to talk about, our schedules stopped lining up, and bit by bit, I just drifted away. Yeah, I don't have anyone. I grew distant from everyone back home, lost touch with the people from college, and honestly, I don't even know who I could grab a coffee with tomorrow if I wanted to.

I'm 23 now, and I have no idea what my future holds. I don't have any real job skills to speak of, so I can't exactly be independent and stop relying on my parents, though I suppose I don't spend too much money since, as I mentioned, I have no one to go out with. I've basically locked myself in my apartment and stopped leaving. A few times a week I'll head to the grocery store or maybe take a short walk, but the rest of my time is spent in front of the TV or online; I've written ten thousand posts here, for goodness' sake. 😳

Nothing brings me joy anymore; every day feels identical. I only change out of my pajamas under very unusual circumstances, and I feel quite pathetic. I'm no expert, but I suspect I might be dealing with depression. There have been moments where I've thought about just ending it all to stop this stagnation, but I'm quickly snapped back to reality by the thought that I have no friends and no one would even show up to my funeral, which would lead my mom to realize things aren't as great as I tell her they are. 😢

I realize that my behavior is terribly childish and immature; I'm aware of it all. I spend my nights crying and feeling desperate, feeling small and worthless and ashamed, yet I just can't seem to force myself to change. I'll sit down to study, and then my mind just drifts away, and that's that. I don't know, I really don't. And I suppose I'm doing this for selfish reasons, just wanting to find some relief for my soul.

If anyone actually read this, I apologize for venting like this, but I feel a little bit better now. 😢

Do you find yourself struggling with guilt over those "lost" years, or are you just feeling stuck in neutral? Have you actually sat down and had an honest conversation with yourself about college—do you even want to finish that degree, pivot to something else, or just walk away from academia entirely?
In my experience, things tend to fall into place naturally once you gain some clarity on your true passions and actually commit to taking that first step forward.
It feels to me like the core of the issue is simply that you haven't quite figured out what your North Star is yet.

Life is way too short to just... drift through it.

Look, you’re only 23. That’s honestly nothing. I feel like I’m just repeating myself from that psychology thread earlier, but seriously—go hit up a gym or find some sport you actually give a damn about. It’s the easiest way to meet people who aren't boring. Plus, you might actually end up going out somewhere. I know, I know, showing up solo feels awkward as hell when you don't have a crew, but you mentioned those classmates from college? Just reach out to them once in a while. Even if they act a little weird about it, it's worth it just to get out there and eventually find your own people...

vividtiger50 said:I’m just a clone, obviously, so I know exactly how much people hate clickbait headlines. 😍
I’m not entirely sure what I’m hoping to achieve by starting this thread; maybe I just need a little bit of support, or even some insults or sympathy—honestly, anything just to feel like someone is talking to me, because I feel incredibly lonely. 😢

So, I guess I should start from the beginning. Back in high school, I was an excellent student without ever really having to try, which meant I never actually developed any real work ethic. I managed to get into the university I wanted without much trouble and moved away from my small hometown to this massive city. When the first deadlines rolled around, I passed a couple of exams, and then suddenly—just like that—everything changed. College felt pointless, I realized it wasn't what I actually wanted to do, and I just lost all motivation to study. I ended up spending most of the next two months just lying around the house, watching TV, or out drinking. Since attendance isn't strictly mandatory at my university, I took full advantage of that, and for the next few months, the campus didn't see me at all. By the time the next round of finals came, I hadn't passed a single thing, and that continued for the next three years. As my friends from school started moving into their senior years, we had less and less to talk about, our schedules stopped lining up, and bit by bit, I just drifted away. Yeah, I don't have anyone. I grew distant from everyone back home, lost touch with the people from college, and honestly, I don't even know who I could grab a coffee with tomorrow if I wanted to.

I'm 23 now, and I have no idea what my future holds. I don't have any real job skills to speak of, so I can't exactly be independent and stop relying on my parents, though I suppose I don't spend too much money since, as I mentioned, I have no one to go out with. I've basically locked myself in my apartment and stopped leaving. A few times a week I'll head to the grocery store or maybe take a short walk, but the rest of my time is spent in front of the TV or online; I've written ten thousand posts here, for goodness' sake. 😳

Nothing brings me joy anymore; every day feels identical. I only change out of my pajamas under very unusual circumstances, and I feel quite pathetic. I'm no expert, but I suspect I might be dealing with depression. There have been moments where I've thought about just ending it all to stop this stagnation, but I'm quickly snapped back to reality by the thought that I have no friends and no one would even show up to my funeral, which would lead my mom to realize things aren't as great as I tell her they are. 😢

I realize that my behavior is terribly childish and immature; I'm aware of it all. I spend my nights crying and feeling desperate, feeling small and worthless and ashamed, yet I just can't seem to force myself to change. I'll sit down to study, and then my mind just drifts away, and that's that. I don't know, I really don't. And I suppose I'm doing this for selfish reasons, just wanting to find some relief for my soul.

If anyone actually read this, I apologize for venting like this, but I feel a little bit better now. 😢

Are you my long-lost twin?

Man, I'm in the exact same boat. You overthink things, you show up, you overthink again, and then you retreat. Except, in my case, a professional actually gave me a diagnosis...

Don't sweat it too much; sometimes taking a risk or finding some kind of action is the only thing that keeps you going. 😉
And hey, you aren't the most miserable person out there; there are always people going through even worse stuff.
Yours sounds a lot like mine, but I guess we're lucky compared to others.
To be honest, I used to feel the same way, but now I've got entirely different problems to deal with.😁
The thing is, there’s just never enough 😉

I am living the pathetic life you can imagine (and I mean it)
I'm a bot, obviously, so I know how stupid these titles are.
I don't even know what I'm trying to achieve here. Maybe just looking for some support, insults, sympathy—anything, really. Just someone to acknowledge me because I am miserably alone.

So, here it goes. I was a straight-A student back in high school without even trying, which means I never actually learned how to work. I got into the university I wanted and moved from my tiny hometown to this massive city. Then the first deadlines hit. I passed a couple of exams, and then—bam. Suddenly, college felt pointless. I realized it wasn't what I wanted, lost all motivation, and spent the rest of the month rotting at home watching TV and getting wasted. Since attendance isn't strictly mandatory at my school, I took full advantage of that. The campus hasn't seen me in months. When the next round of finals came, I failed everything. Same story for the next three years. As my friends moved on to their junior and senior years, we ran out of things to talk about, our schedules stopped lining up, and bit by bit, I was left behind. Yeah, I have nobody. I drifted away from everyone back home, lost my college crowd, and honestly? I don't even know who I'd grab coffee with tomorrow.

I'm 23 now and I have no idea where my life is going. I don't have any actual skills to get a job that would let me be "cool" and stop being a burden to my parents. I don't spend much money because, like I said, I have no one to go out with. I just shut myself in my apartment and stay inside. A few times a week I'll hit the grocery store or take a quick walk, but the rest of the time is just TV and the internet. I've got ten thousand posts on here, so there.

Nothing makes me happy anymore. Every day is a loop. I only take off my pajamas under extreme circumstances. I feel pathetic. I'm no expert, but I think I'm depressed. I've had thoughts about just ending it all to stop this rot, but then I realize I have no friends. No one would show up to my funeral, and my mom would find out I wasn't actually doing as well as I tell her I am.

I know my behavior is incredibly childish and immature. I know it all. I spend my nights crying and feeling hopeless. I feel worthless. I'm ashamed, but I can't force myself to change. I'll sit down to study, then my mind drifts, and it's over. I don't know. I don't know. And I'm only doing this for selfish reasons—just to unburden my soul.

If anyone actually read this, sorry for dragging you down. I feel a little better now.

Maybe there's a hint of misanthropy in there... mixed with nihilism. Dammit.

Otherwise, in my opinion, without that last part, this would be a great motivator.
The way I see it, you need human connection... not the shallow, superficial, totally meaningless kind 🤷 because what good would you get from empty chatter or basic small talk? 🙂
You need a deep, passionate connection—physical first, spiritual later—with someone who will actually push you forward. You need a man. In short, just let go, enjoy him, you need something to hold onto.

Speaking from experience. 😉

John Fisher4 said:

I am living the pathetic life you can imagine (and I mean it)
I'm a bot, obviously, so I know how stupid these titles are.
I don't even know what I'm trying to achieve here. Maybe just looking for some support, insults, sympathy—anything, really. Just someone to acknowledge me because I am miserably alone.

So, here it goes. I was a straight-A student back in high school without even trying, which means I never actually learned how to work. I got into the university I wanted and moved from my tiny hometown to this massive city. Then the first deadlines hit. I passed a couple of exams, and then—bam. Suddenly, college felt pointless. I realized it wasn't what I wanted, lost all motivation, and spent the rest of the month rotting at home watching TV and getting wasted. Since attendance isn't strictly mandatory at my school, I took full advantage of that. The campus hasn't seen me in months. When the next round of finals came, I failed everything. Same story for the next three years. As my friends moved on to their junior and senior years, we ran out of things to talk about, our schedules stopped lining up, and bit by bit, I was left behind. Yeah, I have nobody. I drifted away from everyone back home, lost my college crowd, and honestly? I don't even know who I'd grab coffee with tomorrow.

I'm 23 now and I have no idea where my life is going. I don't have any actual skills to get a job that would let me be "cool" and stop being a burden to my parents. I don't spend much money because, like I said, I have no one to go out with. I just shut myself in my apartment and stay inside. A few times a week I'll hit the grocery store or take a quick walk, but the rest of the time is just TV and the internet. I've got ten thousand posts on here, so there.

Nothing makes me happy anymore. Every day is a loop. I only take off my pajamas under extreme circumstances. I feel pathetic. I'm no expert, but I think I'm depressed. I've had thoughts about just ending it all to stop this rot, but then I realize I have no friends. No one would show up to my funeral, and my mom would find out I wasn't actually doing as well as I tell her I am.

I know my behavior is incredibly childish and immature. I know it all. I spend my nights crying and feeling hopeless. I feel worthless. I'm ashamed, but I can't force myself to change. I'll sit down to study, then my mind drifts, and it's over. I don't know. I don't know. And I'm only doing this for selfish reasons—just to unburden my soul.

If anyone actually read this, sorry for dragging you down. I feel a little better now.

Maybe there's a hint of misanthropy in there... mixed with nihilism. Dammit.

Otherwise, in my opinion, without that last part, this would be a great motivator.
The way I see it, you need human connection... not the shallow, superficial, totally meaningless kind 🤷 because what good would you get from empty chatter or basic small talk? 🙂
You need a deep, passionate connection—physical first, spiritual later—with someone who will actually push you forward. You need a man. In short, just let go, enjoy him, you need something to hold onto.

Speaking from experience. 😉

Honestly, she doesn't need a man or a woman—she's perfectly fine just being herself.
She’s really looking for that perfect trifecta—you know, that specific blend of high-stakes risk, a genuine adrenaline rush, and a job that actually pushes her to her limits—because, let's face it, she needs that sense of pressure to feel truly engaged.

I’m speaking from direct experience here—believe me, I’ve been through it myself.

She doesn't need a man or a woman
She needs risk, adrenaline, a career, and some actual pressure.

Pressure? Definitely not that.🤷
Adrenaline and risk? Sure. A job? Maybe.😉
But none of that just happens by magic.😉

Mark Martinez4 said:Honestly, she doesn't need a man or a woman—she's perfectly fine just being herself.
She’s really looking for that perfect trifecta—you know, that specific blend of high-stakes risk, a genuine adrenaline rush, and a job that actually pushes her to her limits—because, let's face it, she needs that sense of pressure to feel truly engaged.

I’m speaking from direct experience here—believe me, I’ve been through it myself.

At some point, you have to make a definitive choice about what you truly want. It means stepping out of the self-pity cycle, forgiving yourself for past mistakes, and finally taking a step in a productive direction. To start small, maybe set a goal to be out of your pajamas by 11:00 AM every single day—just get out for a walk around the neighborhood, or better yet, go for a light jog.

...again, I'm speaking from experience. 🙂

For example, she needs to be out of her pajamas by 11:00 AM at the latest to walk around the neighborhood—or better yet, go for a light jog.

🙂
She doesn't have enough time to just drift through life like that. 🙂
She needs to snap out of this half-asleep state ASAP. 🤷 She’s gotta realize she’s still alive (even if she feels like a 😳 ). She needs to feel something that actually excites or moves her! Eventually, her body will crave stimulation, activity, something new, a fresh goal... 😉

….I’m speaking from experience here.

🤣
We're all experts 😵 😂

How should I put this diplomatically? Hmm... basically, my sister told me to get my act together and stop wasting my life about a year ago. She clearly knows me better than I know myself, and honestly? She was spot on. My first choice for college... man, I don't think I'll ever go back there, but it doesn't even matter. I switched to a different program—something I actually give a damn about—and everything changed. My whole vibe shifted, and suddenly life started happening. I met new people, reconnected with old friends, and stopped being that "black hole" everyone used to say I was. Just find something in life, anything that makes you feel alive, and chase it, no matter how trivial it looks to everyone else. JUST MOVE FORWARD; there's zero point sitting around feeling sorry for yourself. A year ago, I never would've dreamed of writing something like this, but things change. You just have to take that first step. And as for anyone needing a friend, seriously, shoot me a DM and I'll grab you a coffee and listen. I needed someone once, someone listened to me, and now I'm paying it forward. Gosh, look at me 😍

Keep your head up, kid. It’s not over yet 👍

John Fisher4 said:

She doesn't need a man or a woman
She needs risk, adrenaline, a career, and some actual pressure.

Pressure? Definitely not that.🤷
Adrenaline and risk? Sure. A job? Maybe.😉
But none of that just happens by magic.😉

I mean, let's be real—isn't every job some kind of burden?
Who in this country actually does their work just for the pure joy of it?

The grind is what keeps your mind from wandering off into total nonsense
.
I'm speaking purely from my own experience here 😉

John Fisher4 said:

For example, she needs to be out of her pajamas by 11:00 AM at the latest to walk around the neighborhood—or better yet, go for a light jog.

🙂
She doesn't have enough time to just drift through life like that. 🙂
She needs to snap out of this half-asleep state ASAP. 🤷 She’s gotta realize she’s still alive (even if she feels like a 😳 ). She needs to feel something that actually excites or moves her! Eventually, her body will crave stimulation, activity, something new, a fresh goal... 😉

Think of this as that essential first spark to jumpstart her morning. It’s about finding that one ritual—something small but intentional—that she can claim entirely for herself before the rest of the world starts demanding her attention. It’s much like how a professional athlete prepares before a big game; they don't just walk onto the field cold. They prime their body and mind first. When you dedicate those first few moments of the day to your own well-being, it creates a ripple effect. You carry that sense of accomplishment forward, feeling more energized, productive, and mentally agile as the hours pass. It sets a positive tone that makes navigating the daily grind feel significantly smoother.
I truly believe that most of us have found ourselves navigating those particular seasons of life—those stretches of time that either feel like they’re dragging on forever or seem to slip through our fingers in the blink of an eye.
It felt as though everyone was being pulled in a completely different direction.
If you find yourself waiting for someone else to give you a nudge or provide that necessary spark, you might be waiting forever. Sometimes, there isn't a mentor, a boss, or even a lucky break coming to pull you up the ladder. In those moments, you simply have to be your own catalyst. You have to grab yourself by the shoulders and push forward, because if you don't take that initiative, you’ll just end up standing exactly where you are, watching the world move on without you.

Well, let’s all just admit it—and I mean everyone here, let's say it together now—we aren't just guessing. We are speaking from firsthand experience.

Work is nothing more than a burden.

A job? If I'm getting paid for it, it isn't a "burden" to me. 😉
Though I highly doubt anyone can land a decent gig without a college degree. 🤷 Once you have your own money—earned through actual hard work—you finally understand the value of your labor. You can spend that cash however you want; someone will always be interested in taking it. 😉
Anyway... I’m sticking to my original advice. 😉

The stress alone keeps you from even thinking about this crap.

Is it actually better to just be a conformist? Just swallow everything they feed you without ever chewing it yourself? 🙏
Found an older thread on this, but it’s still relevant... regarding that whole issue 😉

dustywolf13 said:How should I put this diplomatically? Hmm... basically, my sister told me to get my act together and stop wasting my life about a year ago. She clearly knows me better than I know myself, and honestly? She was spot on. My first choice for college... man, I don't think I'll ever go back there, but it doesn't even matter. I switched to a different program—something I actually give a damn about—and everything changed. My whole vibe shifted, and suddenly life started happening. I met new people, reconnected with old friends, and stopped being that "black hole" everyone used to say I was. Just find something in life, anything that makes you feel alive, and chase it, no matter how trivial it looks to everyone else. JUST MOVE FORWARD; there's zero point sitting around feeling sorry for yourself. A year ago, I never would've dreamed of writing something like this, but things change. You just have to take that first step. And as for anyone needing a friend, seriously, shoot me a DM and I'll grab you a coffee and listen. I needed someone once, someone listened to me, and now I'm paying it forward. Gosh, look at me 😍

Keep your head up, kid. It’s not over yet 👍

Now, this is what I call real support. 🙂

And more importantly, the person is speaking from genuine experience. 🙂

John Fisher4 said:

Work is nothing more than a burden.

A job? If I'm getting paid for it, it isn't a "burden" to me. 😉
Though I highly doubt anyone can land a decent gig without a college degree. 🤷 Once you have your own money—earned through actual hard work—you finally understand the value of your labor. You can spend that cash however you want; someone will always be interested in taking it. 😉
Anyway... I’m sticking to my original advice. 😉

You’re speaking sense, my friend—truly wise words.
But honestly, I still find myself coming back to the same point—when you're dealing with that kind of workload and constant movement, you just can't afford to waste your energy on trivial nonsense. 😉

stress and action

Action 🙂 is definitely 😉

but the stress isn't 😕
Is being a conformist actually a good thing? 😳

John Fisher4 said:

stress and action

Action 🙂 is definitely 😉

but the stress isn't 😕
Is being a conformist actually a good thing? 😳

Actually, I think I phrased that a bit poorly
let's toss out the word "burden" and go with "obligation" instead
because if I didn't have any obligations at all, I'd probably just spend my entire life lounging on the couch 😉

😉