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Nicole Barrett76 Nicole Barrett76 Regular
515 messages
joined Sep 2009
#6721 ·
Jose Ward4 said:Wait, are we talking about high voltage or high current? Those are two very different things. And honestly, that phrase "high voltage of current" makes zero sense to me. What is that even supposed to mean?

And by the way—all this talk about meditation being dangerous is just nonsense. I’m not talking about you personally, but the media and those other pundits. Look, I meditate myself. Not every single day, obviously, but when I do, I feel fine. It doesn't bother me at all. People just get it into their heads that it might be bad if you have Schizophrenia. Trust me, I sat down for thirty minutes three days in a row, and my head felt perfectly normal.

It involves both high voltage and high frequencies. When you generate electricity using an AC generator, both the voltage and the frequency remain proportional to the speed at which the generator rotates.

Jose Ward4 said:Wait, are we talking about high voltage or high current? Those are two very different things. And honestly, that phrase "high voltage of current" makes zero sense to me. What is that even supposed to mean?

And by the way—all this talk about meditation being dangerous is just nonsense. I’m not talking about you personally, but the media and those other pundits. Look, I meditate myself. Not every single day, obviously, but when I do, I feel fine. It doesn't bother me at all. People just get it into their heads that it might be bad if you have Schizophrenia. Trust me, I sat down for thirty minutes three days in a row, and my head felt perfectly normal.

That is truly heartening to hear! I find myself wishing I possessed the sheer capacity for concentration required to sit in meditation for a full half hour, yet I simply lack it. My only success lies in a morning meditation where I attempt to plan my upcoming day. However, I consistently find that I only manage to execute perhaps 30 to 40 percent of my goals, or 45 to 50 percent on a particularly good day. On a truly hyper-productive day, I might reach 60 percent. Then, there is my evening recapitulation, wherein one attempts to recall every minute detail of what was accomplished during the previous day and at what specific hour.
Jose Ward4 Jose Ward4 Regular
379 messages
joined May 2015
#6722 ·
Nicole Barrett76 said:It involves both high voltage and high frequencies. When you generate electricity using an AC generator, both the voltage and the frequency remain proportional to the speed at which the generator rotates.

That is truly heartening to hear! I find myself wishing I possessed the sheer capacity for concentration required to sit in meditation for a full half hour, yet I simply lack it. My only success lies in a morning meditation where I attempt to plan my upcoming day. However, I consistently find that I only manage to execute perhaps 30 to 40 percent of my goals, or 45 to 50 percent on a particularly good day. On a truly hyper-productive day, I might reach 60 percent. Then, there is my evening recapitulation, wherein one attempts to recall every minute detail of what was accomplished during the previous day and at what specific hour.

Right. But I was actually wondering about the amperage.

Nicole Barrett76 said:It involves both high voltage and high frequencies. When you generate electricity using an AC generator, both the voltage and the frequency remain proportional to the speed at which the generator rotates.

That is truly heartening to hear! I find myself wishing I possessed the sheer capacity for concentration required to sit in meditation for a full half hour, yet I simply lack it. My only success lies in a morning meditation where I attempt to plan my upcoming day. However, I consistently find that I only manage to execute perhaps 30 to 40 percent of my goals, or 45 to 50 percent on a particularly good day. On a truly hyper-productive day, I might reach 60 percent. Then, there is my evening recapitulation, wherein one attempts to recall every minute detail of what was accomplished during the previous day and at what specific hour.

Try this: just attempt to think about absolutely nothing for twenty minutes. It sounds easy, but it’s a real challenge. Your only goal is to lock in on your breathing. When your mind inevitably starts to drift—and trust me, it’s going to happen constantly—don't beat yourself up. Just gently pull that focus right back to your breath. If sitting upright feels too restless for you, try lying down on your back instead. Use the exact same technique. I tried this last Tuesday after a particularly chaotic day at the office, and honestly, even just five minutes of staying present made a massive difference. Give it a shot.

When I first started diving into this, I was getting plenty of advice from people around me, but honestly? It wasn't until I stumbled upon Tony Samara on YouTube that things finally clicked. YouTube was a total game-changer for me. I really loved his approach. The guy seems to be in a zen state almost constantly—just totally centered. I’ll admit, though, I’m not quite built that way. I don't think I'll ever reach that level of chill!

I was listening to this woman—she’s a musician, so take her perspective with a grain of salt—who was arguing that because the Earth is constantly rotating, it has to be emitting some kind of sound. We just can't hear it because it falls outside our frequency range. It got me thinking. It feels like all those meditation trends and people juggling mindfulness techniques are basically just tools to help you swallow the daily chaos without choking. You aren't actually fixing the mess around you. You aren't changing the world or stopping the madness. What you're doing is shifting your own lens. You stay right there in the middle of the wreckage, but you develop a different way of perceiving it. It makes the heavy stuff easier to stomach. And honestly? If you can change how you react to the people around you, that's a massive win in itself. Even if the scenery stays exactly the same.

It’s absolutely true—meditation really does build up your mental toughness. It gives you that extra layer of strength when things get heavy.
Carol Barrett2 Carol Barrett2 Regular
363 messages
joined Jul 2017
#6723 ·
Nicole Barrett76 said:You haven't bored me at all; rather, my stomach has been giving me absolute hell, and I spent about six hours babysitting my sister's kids. I finally laid down to get some rest, but that "little break" stretched from two in the afternoon until almost six. Between the physical discomfort and her throwing off my entire sleep schedule, I am only just now able to respond.

Your writing is actually quite coherent, which leads me to believe that what you are experiencing isn't Paranoid Schizophrenia, but rather that non-specific version you mentioned earlier.

If I recall correctly, the Latin term for it is Schizophrenia simplex.

Honestly, there are plenty of doctors out here making massive mistakes—people have died because of it. Psychiatrists throw diagnoses at patients left and right when they really just have something else going on, like a thyroid issue or a brain tumor.

I hadn't heard of Schizophrenia simplex before. But look, some veterans I talked to told me that doctors will just label you with whatever they want, so you just have to fight for what you're actually entitled to based on this stuff—especially since I'm not getting any disability checks right now.

From what I can gather, it would be about 75% of the lowest Social Security check in the US.

Still better than nothing, I guess.
Rebecca Rivera3 Rebecca Rivera3 Active Member
206 messages
joined Mar 2017
#6724 ·
Hi everyone, first off, thank you all for those supportive messages.

Basically, I had this feeling that something was wrong with me. Since I’ve always insisted that everything was just "psychological," I tried to tackle the issue through mental health channels. However, despite various medications, diagnoses, and even stays in psychiatric facilities, the problem wouldn't budge. It turns out, I don't have a mental illness.

I actually have brain lesions; I am a neurological patient. I am living with Multiple Sclerosis. It's a progressive disease where lesions spread through the brain, and as they affect specific areas, they cause physical disabilities as well as cognitive and emotional shifts.

My vision is most affected, so my sight is impaired, and my legs are also impacted, making it difficult to walk for long periods. Further progression usually leads to more significant disability. I won't even list the other symptoms—to put it mildly, they are quite unpleasant and I wouldn't wish them on anyone.

All in all, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. I am a stronger person today because of it. My main struggle over the last few months has been depression stemming from the uncertainty of tomorrow. Will I be able to walk at night? Questions like that weigh on me.

Many people just don't get it, which can be really isolating.

By nature, I am a scientist. I have ambitions that others might find hard to grasp, specifically my goal to earn a PhD in quantum physics.
These aren't just pipe dreams; I am currently in my final year of a science program and maintaining a 4.0 GPA. Ever since this diagnosis, I've been on medical leave.

I am currently trying to find ways to get back on track.
For now, I am living on disability benefits and rental income from an apartment. Naturally, I have much higher aspirations for my future.
Rebecca Rivera3 Rebecca Rivera3 Active Member
206 messages
joined Mar 2017
#6725 ·
Carol Barrett2, I am truly sorry to have to tell you this, but it sounds like you are dealing with a serious mental health disorder or even a chronic illness. I really hope you pull through. Please don't fight the process—just listen to your doctors.
It’s also about hypochondria, honestly. I feel for you... I’ve seen cases like this before because a close friend of mine was just as convinced as you are, and I ended up taking her for extensive medical checkups. She kept acting like she knew better than everyone else, Googling everything like she was some kind of doctor. Look, doctors make mistakes, sure, but they didn't spend years in med school and complete their residencies just so anyone could look up symptoms online and play specialist.

Diagnosis is complicated, and it often leads to wrong conclusions in the beginning, but you can't give up. Take it from me—I'm telling this to someone who was diagnosed with paranoid Schizophrenia, even though my brain scans show actual physical gaps...

What can I say? They make mistakes, and they aren't always great at communicating a diagnosis. It's true. And honestly, most of the time, we hate them for it.

But you know, we still need them.
Your liver isn't failing or anything extreme; I have liver damage myself, which is actually quite common. I don't even know what her specific physical diagnosis is, but it doesn't matter if you understand what I mean—the obsession with it is what makes you a hypochondriac. You don't need that. You can do better. Being undernourished is nothing major; I've been there, and plenty of people deal with it. It will pass...
In America, the healthcare system might struggle to provide the integrated support you need to address both your mental and physical health simultaneously. If you don't mind me asking, Carol Barrett2, how old are you?
Carol Barrett2 Carol Barrett2 Regular
363 messages
joined Jul 2017
#6726 ·
Turning 34 this month. I wouldn't call it hypochondria—that would imply I’m constantly obsessing over being sick, which isn't really what's happening. Physically, I'm mostly fine, just... I don't know, there's something off. Mentally, things aren't great either, but I don't think I'm dealing with paranoid Schizophrenia or anything like that; it's just something else I can't quite put my finger on. My vision is pretty bad, too. I know what it's like living with MS, though—I have an acquaintance who deals with it. Anyway, we just have to keep fighting and not give up.

I'm trying to stay positive, too, but honestly, it's hard to find the motivation sometimes. Maybe once I finally get through this round of physical therapy, things will start looking up.
Jose Ward4 Jose Ward4 Regular
379 messages
joined May 2015
#6727 ·
Rebecca Rivera3 said:Hi everyone, first off, thank you all for those supportive messages.

Basically, I had this feeling that something was wrong with me. Since I’ve always insisted that everything was just "psychological," I tried to tackle the issue through mental health channels. However, despite various medications, diagnoses, and even stays in psychiatric facilities, the problem wouldn't budge. It turns out, I don't have a mental illness.

I actually have brain lesions; I am a neurological patient. I am living with Multiple Sclerosis. It's a progressive disease where lesions spread through the brain, and as they affect specific areas, they cause physical disabilities as well as cognitive and emotional shifts.

My vision is most affected, so my sight is impaired, and my legs are also impacted, making it difficult to walk for long periods. Further progression usually leads to more significant disability. I won't even list the other symptoms—to put it mildly, they are quite unpleasant and I wouldn't wish them on anyone.

All in all, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. I am a stronger person today because of it. My main struggle over the last few months has been depression stemming from the uncertainty of tomorrow. Will I be able to walk at night? Questions like that weigh on me.

Many people just don't get it, which can be really isolating.

By nature, I am a scientist. I have ambitions that others might find hard to grasp, specifically my goal to earn a PhD in quantum physics.
These aren't just pipe dreams; I am currently in my final year of a science program and maintaining a 4.0 GPA. Ever since this diagnosis, I've been on medical leave.

I am currently trying to find ways to get back on track.
For now, I am living on disability benefits and rental income from an apartment. Naturally, I have much higher aspirations for my future.

Is Multiple Sclerosis an autoimmune disease?
Carol Barrett2 Carol Barrett2 Regular
363 messages
joined Jul 2017
#6728 ·
Jose Ward4 said:Is Multiple Sclerosis an autoimmune disease?

Yeah, it is. I actually have some old notes somewhere regarding cancer and Microsoft—well, MS—and seeing this reminded me to dig back into some stuff I’ve been working on. I can't say for sure if my logic is 100% spot on, but it's basically what I've observed.

Multiple Sclerosis

Wednesday, July 3, 2019

Multiple sclerosis, much like many other autoimmune conditions, is essentially a form of cancer. Think about it—cancer is also an autoimmune failure, where the body's own cells end up attacking and slowly destroying the system because of glitches in cell function, RNA or DNA replication, and all that.

I've written about this before—can't quite remember where, maybe in some old notebooks—but my theory was that all autoimmune diseases fall under one umbrella as a type of cancer, and that cancer itself is just an autoimmune malfunction.

A long time ago, I used to scribble these theories and ideas down in physical notebooks; nowadays, I just move those same thoughts over to the computer every once in a while.

Not saying I'm definitely right, though. Just my two cents.
Nicole Barrett76 Nicole Barrett76 Regular
515 messages
joined Sep 2009
#6729 ·
Rebecca Rivera3 said:Hi everyone, first off, thank you all for those supportive messages.

Basically, I had this feeling that something was wrong with me. Since I’ve always insisted that everything was just "psychological," I tried to tackle the issue through mental health channels. However, despite various medications, diagnoses, and even stays in psychiatric facilities, the problem wouldn't budge. It turns out, I don't have a mental illness.

I actually have brain lesions; I am a neurological patient. I am living with Multiple Sclerosis. It's a progressive disease where lesions spread through the brain, and as they affect specific areas, they cause physical disabilities as well as cognitive and emotional shifts.

My vision is most affected, so my sight is impaired, and my legs are also impacted, making it difficult to walk for long periods. Further progression usually leads to more significant disability. I won't even list the other symptoms—to put it mildly, they are quite unpleasant and I wouldn't wish them on anyone.

All in all, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. I am a stronger person today because of it. My main struggle over the last few months has been depression stemming from the uncertainty of tomorrow. Will I be able to walk at night? Questions like that weigh on me.

Many people just don't get it, which can be really isolating.

By nature, I am a scientist. I have ambitions that others might find hard to grasp, specifically my goal to earn a PhD in quantum physics.
These aren't just pipe dreams; I am currently in my final year of a science program and maintaining a 4.0 GPA. Ever since this diagnosis, I've been on medical leave.

I am currently trying to find ways to get back on track.
For now, I am living on disability benefits and rental income from an apartment. Naturally, I have much higher aspirations for my future.

I once held those same ambitions myself. They were intense, driving desires, and did not just elude a few people—rather, almost no one in my small, insular, and rather narrow-minded rural hometown could possibly understand them.

Rebecca Rivera3 said:Hi everyone, first off, thank you all for those supportive messages.

Basically, I had this feeling that something was wrong with me. Since I’ve always insisted that everything was just "psychological," I tried to tackle the issue through mental health channels. However, despite various medications, diagnoses, and even stays in psychiatric facilities, the problem wouldn't budge. It turns out, I don't have a mental illness.

I actually have brain lesions; I am a neurological patient. I am living with Multiple Sclerosis. It's a progressive disease where lesions spread through the brain, and as they affect specific areas, they cause physical disabilities as well as cognitive and emotional shifts.

My vision is most affected, so my sight is impaired, and my legs are also impacted, making it difficult to walk for long periods. Further progression usually leads to more significant disability. I won't even list the other symptoms—to put it mildly, they are quite unpleasant and I wouldn't wish them on anyone.

All in all, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. I am a stronger person today because of it. My main struggle over the last few months has been depression stemming from the uncertainty of tomorrow. Will I be able to walk at night? Questions like that weigh on me.

Many people just don't get it, which can be really isolating.

By nature, I am a scientist. I have ambitions that others might find hard to grasp, specifically my goal to earn a PhD in quantum physics.
These aren't just pipe dreams; I am currently in my final year of a science program and maintaining a 4.0 GPA. Ever since this diagnosis, I've been on medical leave.

I am currently trying to find ways to get back on track.
For now, I am living on disability benefits and rental income from an apartment. Naturally, I have much higher aspirations for my future.

As far as I am aware, unfortunately, one cannot simultaneously receive disability benefits and pursue formal higher education. If such a thing were possible, would I not have saved myself? Of course, that is assuming I also had access to a university dormitory.
Carol Barrett2 Carol Barrett2 Regular
363 messages
joined Jul 2017
#6730 ·
Nicole Barrett76 said:I once held those same ambitions myself. They were intense, driving desires, and did not just elude a few people—rather, almost no one in my small, insular, and rather narrow-minded rural hometown could possibly understand them.

As far as I am aware, unfortunately, one cannot simultaneously receive disability benefits and pursue formal higher education. If such a thing were possible, would I not have saved myself? Of course, that is assuming I also had access to a university dormitory.

Hold on, why wouldn't you be able to? 😲 My plan was to use whatever disability or assistance I could get to retrain, finish my degree, or even start from scratch.

We aren't asking for much here. Just small things. Like, you know, an education. Nothing crazy. 🙂
Nicole Barrett76 Nicole Barrett76 Regular
515 messages
joined Sep 2009
#6731 ·
Carol Barrett2 said:Hold on, why wouldn't you be able to? 😲 My plan was to use whatever disability or assistance I could get to retrain, finish my degree, or even start from scratch.

We aren't asking for much here. Just small things. Like, you know, an education. Nothing crazy. 🙂

It is possible the laws have shifted since then. I am aware that as of last January, one can work while receiving disability benefits here in the States, but I am uncertain if you can pursue schooling simultaneously while still collecting those checks.

Back when I asked a primary care physician—who happened to be one of the specialists tasked with evaluating disability claims—if it was possible to do both, how did she respond? She met my question with a biting rhetorical one: "Do you have any other musical wishes I can grant you?" That was back around 2005.
Carol Barrett2 Carol Barrett2 Regular
363 messages
joined Jul 2017
#6732 ·
From what I gather about how things work here in the States, you can both collect disability benefits and still pursue an education—I mean, I’ve seen plenty of people on disability finish up college degrees or vocational training, so it seems like you can definitely go back to school if you want to.
Rebecca Rivera3 Rebecca Rivera3 Active Member
206 messages
joined Mar 2017
#6733 ·
Going to school, studying at a university, and finishing my Master's in research physics—none of that has anything to do with having a disability.
No one is stopping you, now or later, from pursuing training or whatever else you want to do.

In fact, during my evaluation, the doctor told me she was proud of me for having such big ambitions. She believes I can pull it off, even though she understands how difficult it will be given my condition.

Anyway, just so everyone knows, you can work and still receive disability benefits. You can have a paycheck and your benefits at the same time.

The doctor even mentioned during the assessment how much she admires what I’ve already achieved academically. She said she hopes to support me and really doesn't want to see someone like me leave the country later on.
It’s in their best interest to keep young, highly qualified people around; the government functions much better that way.

Look, I tell everyone—especially those struggling every day and fighting through it—that if you qualify for any kind of assistance, take it. Use it to improve your quality of life.

I’m really glad to see so many good people here, which is why I keep stopping by.
Kimberly Cooper Kimberly Cooper Member
11 messages
joined Jul 2019
#6734 ·
I’ve always been fascinated by psychiatry. It turns out psychiatrists deal with the same mess they try to fix, too. I see Schizophrenia mentioned here,

Not to be a jerk, but can someone actually living with schizophrenia tell you when they’re feeling best, or do they only speak up when they're caught in a crisis?

It looks like some people got slapped with a diagnosis the second they walked into the doctor's office. ☕ I’d love to sit down and talk to them, but I’m not trained for it—and I'm definitely not trying to play doctor, I'm just curious.
Carol Barrett2 Carol Barrett2 Regular
363 messages
joined Jul 2017
#6735 ·
@Rebecca Rivera3 I get what you're saying—I really do—but honestly, I just get lost in my own head and forget everything else. I’m going to try to make it happen, though... either getting on permanent disability or securing some kind of long-term social assistance with those caregiver benefits.

If I can actually pull that off, I’d look into going back to school—you know, trying to retrain for something else. Something where I could maybe put in just four or five hours a day. Maybe something like running a stall at a local farmers market or something similar. Right now, it’s just not feasible because I don't have the startup capital for a market stand, nor the funds for retraining.

Back in the day, when I was younger and actually had some health left in me, I used to do a bit of side hustling—under the table stuff, mostly reselling things. Kind of like how the Trotters used to do it. I’d show up looking like that tall guy, the brother of that guy Dale.

@Kimberly Cooper, dealing with a serious illness is tricky, and it’s highly specific—from what I understand about schizophrenia, it hits everyone differently. For me, it’s like I’m constantly living in my own little world. My mind is elsewhere, no matter what I’m physically doing.

It’s hard to put into words, really. When I’m online, I’m lost in my own world; watching TV, it’s the same thing. Listening to the radio? Same deal. Even if I turn everything off, it doesn't stop—actually, it gets worse once the noise stops and I'm just left with myself while I'm trying to do something.

The ideas and thoughts just swarm in—it’s like a hive. They multiply, and it feels like my brain is racing at a hundred miles an hour or more. I can't slow them down. I end up feeling trapped inside those thoughts, just drifting away into them.

I don't know if I explained that very well. I sort of drifted off mid-sentence myself.
Jose Ward4 Jose Ward4 Regular
379 messages
joined May 2015
#6736 ·
Carol Barrett2 said:@Rebecca Rivera3 I get what you're saying—I really do—but honestly, I just get lost in my own head and forget everything else. I’m going to try to make it happen, though... either getting on permanent disability or securing some kind of long-term social assistance with those caregiver benefits.

If I can actually pull that off, I’d look into going back to school—you know, trying to retrain for something else. Something where I could maybe put in just four or five hours a day. Maybe something like running a stall at a local farmers market or something similar. Right now, it’s just not feasible because I don't have the startup capital for a market stand, nor the funds for retraining.

Back in the day, when I was younger and actually had some health left in me, I used to do a bit of side hustling—under the table stuff, mostly reselling things. Kind of like how the Trotters used to do it. I’d show up looking like that tall guy, the brother of that guy Dale.

@Kimberly Cooper, dealing with a serious illness is tricky, and it’s highly specific—from what I understand about schizophrenia, it hits everyone differently. For me, it’s like I’m constantly living in my own little world. My mind is elsewhere, no matter what I’m physically doing.

It’s hard to put into words, really. When I’m online, I’m lost in my own world; watching TV, it’s the same thing. Listening to the radio? Same deal. Even if I turn everything off, it doesn't stop—actually, it gets worse once the noise stops and I'm just left with myself while I'm trying to do something.

The ideas and thoughts just swarm in—it’s like a hive. They multiply, and it feels like my brain is racing at a hundred miles an hour or more. I can't slow them down. I end up feeling trapped inside those thoughts, just drifting away into them.

I don't know if I explained that very well. I sort of drifted off mid-sentence myself.

You did. You explained it perfectly. I hear you. You should try meditation. Even just a few days a week. You might find those thoughts start to settle down a bit.
Carol Barrett2 Carol Barrett2 Regular
363 messages
joined Jul 2017
#6737 ·
Jose Ward4 said:You did. You explained it perfectly. I hear you. You should try meditation. Even just a few days a week. You might find those thoughts start to settle down a bit.

I mean, I'd give it a shot if I could, but there's always a "but." With the possibility of bipolar disorder hitting at the same time as this schizophrenia stuff, I honestly don't know how it would even go. If only someone here could actually walk me through it—show me the ropes or something.

I know all the "how-to" guides and videos are out there on the internet, but unless someone actually sits down and shows me personally, I doubt I'd ever figure out how to do it right.

For now, I'm doing alright on the Azolar, but the apaurin is really messing with me—it's making me sleep way too much. Like, half the day, minimum.

Look, I get it—pills aren't always the magic answer—but what am I supposed to do if I have to take them?

I'd much rather rely on meds to keep things steady than let this illness just tear me apart.
Kimberly Cooper Kimberly Cooper Member
11 messages
joined Jul 2019
#6738 ·
Carol Barrett2 said:@Rebecca Rivera3 I get what you're saying—I really do—but honestly, I just get lost in my own head and forget everything else. I’m going to try to make it happen, though... either getting on permanent disability or securing some kind of long-term social assistance with those caregiver benefits.

If I can actually pull that off, I’d look into going back to school—you know, trying to retrain for something else. Something where I could maybe put in just four or five hours a day. Maybe something like running a stall at a local farmers market or something similar. Right now, it’s just not feasible because I don't have the startup capital for a market stand, nor the funds for retraining.

Back in the day, when I was younger and actually had some health left in me, I used to do a bit of side hustling—under the table stuff, mostly reselling things. Kind of like how the Trotters used to do it. I’d show up looking like that tall guy, the brother of that guy Dale.

@Kimberly Cooper, dealing with a serious illness is tricky, and it’s highly specific—from what I understand about schizophrenia, it hits everyone differently. For me, it’s like I’m constantly living in my own little world. My mind is elsewhere, no matter what I’m physically doing.

It’s hard to put into words, really. When I’m online, I’m lost in my own world; watching TV, it’s the same thing. Listening to the radio? Same deal. Even if I turn everything off, it doesn't stop—actually, it gets worse once the noise stops and I'm just left with myself while I'm trying to do something.

The ideas and thoughts just swarm in—it’s like a hive. They multiply, and it feels like my brain is racing at a hundred miles an hour or more. I can't slow them down. I end up feeling trapped inside those thoughts, just drifting away into them.

I don't know if I explained that very well. I sort of drifted off mid-sentence myself.

Blocking dopamine isn't just some niche biohack—it's a total system reset. Researchers think certain psychotic experiences are actually caused by... Overproduction is a mess. It’s all about dopamine levels in the brain. That's why people say... Most antipsychotics work by blocking dopamine receptors in the brain. This slows down that rapid-fire messaging that happens way too often during psychotic episodes.

Dopamine receptors aren't just about feeling good. They drive motivation, memory, learning, fine motor skills, and even how our brain signals hormones. It’s a massive web of neurological processes.

Neurotransmission.

A neuron fires an action potential down its axon, then hits the synapse by releasing neurotransmitters. This triggers a response in the target cell—think muscle cells or various endocrine glands. Depending on the specific neurotransmitters and receptors involved, that signal will either kickstart or shut down the target cell. 207. NEUROTRANSMISSION

An impulse can jump from one neuron to another via an axon to a cell body, an axon to a dendrite, cell body to cell body, or even dendrite to dendrite. A single neuron is constantly bombarded by various excitatory and inhibitory signals at once, which it then integrates into specific firing patterns.

Signal propagation: It’s all about electricity. An action potential travels down the axon driven by shifts in sodium and potassium ions across the membrane. Every single time a neuron gets triggered, it fires an identical signal at a constant speed. That speed depends on how thick the axon is and whether it’s myelinated—we're talking anywhere from 1 m/s in thin, unmyelinated fibers up to a blistering 75 m/s in the big, myelinated ones. Myelination makes things much faster because those gaps, known as Nodes of Ranvier, allow the electrical impulse to jump from one spot to the next rather than crawling along the whole length. This is exactly why conditions like Multiple Sclerosis are so devastating; when that myelin sheath gets damaged, the signal breaks down, leading to all those neurological issues.

Action potential transfer happens when neurotransmitters jump from axon terminals via a chemical reaction. These chemicals diffuse across the synaptic gap and latch onto receptors on the next neuron or target cell. Depending on the receptor involved, the result is either excitatory or inhibitory.

Electrical synapses don't bother with neurotransmitters. Instead, ion channels link the cytoplasm of the pre- and post-synaptic neurons directly. It's the fastest way to send an action potential. Period.

The nerve cell body pumps out enzymes that build most neurotransmitters. These get packed into vesicles right at the nerve endings. A single vesicle holds a specific amount—called a quantum—usually involving thousands of molecules. Once an action potential hits the axon terminal, calcium channels swing open. That influx of calcium forces the vesicles to fuse with the axon membrane, dumping the neurotransmitters into the synaptic cleft through exocytosis. Simple mechanics.

Neurotransmission basics: An action potential triggers those axonal calcium channels to open. That calcium influx kicks off the release of neurotransmitters from their storage vesicles. These molecules flood the synaptic cleft, some hitting postsynaptic receptors to trigger a response, while the rest either get reabsorbed back into the axon for storage or just diffuse into the surrounding tissue. Simple enough.

Neurotransmitter levels in nerve endings don't really care how active the nerve itself is. They stay pretty much constant by just swapping out precursor intake or tweaking the enzymes involved in synthesis.

Stimulating presynaptic receptors can actually cut down neurotransmitter synthesis, while blocking them tends to ramp it up.

Neurotransmitter interaction with receptors has to be lightning-fast so those receptors can reset and fire again immediately. It’s a high-speed cycle: the neurotransmitter gets pumped back into the presynaptic terminal via an ATP-dependent process, or it's broken down by enzymes nearby. Once it's back inside the cell, it just gets repackaged into vesicles for the next round. When this system glitches—whether it's production, release, binding, or cleanup—you get neurological and psychological issues. Drugs that tweak this transmission can actually help manage or fix conditions like Parkinson’s or depression.

Receptors: Think of these as complex proteins spanning the cell membrane. Their specific type dictates whether a neurotransmitter triggers an excitatory or inhibitory response. When receptors are constantly bombarded by neurotransmitters, they go numb through negative feedback. Conversely, if they aren't being stimulated—or if drugs are constantly blocking them—they become hypersensitive via positive feedback. This loop is exactly why tolerance and physical addiction happen. It’s also critical in tissue and organ transplants, where denervation cuts off the neurotransmitter supply to those receptors. You can explain withdrawal symptoms, at least partially, as a direct result of these shifts in receptor affinity and density.

Most neurotransmitters hit those postsynaptic receptors, but some actually sit on the presynaptic neurons to regulate how much gets released.

Some receptor families—think NMDA, kainate, nicotinic acetylcholine, glycine, and GABA—have neurotransmitter binding sites tied directly to ion channels, which triggers an instant response. Other groups, like serotonin, adrenergic, and dopamine receptors, rely on a "second messenger" to pass the signal along. Usually, that messenger is an enzyme that kicks off a chain reaction, leading to protein phosphorylation or calcium mobilization. These second-messenger responses are slower. Bottom line: there are way more neurotransmitters out there than there are specific second messengers.

The main neurotransmitters and receptors:

There are at least twenty different substances that function as neurotransmitters, but eighteen of them are absolutely critical. A handful of those show up in slightly different forms.

Glutamate and aspartate are the heavy hitters when it comes to excitatory neurotransmitters in the central nervous system. You'll find them in the cortex, cerebellum, and spinal cord. Glutamate basically signals neurons to ramp up nitric oxide synthesis. If you have too much glutamate, it spikes intracellular calcium, free radicals, and protease activity—which can get toxic fast. These neurotransmitters can also drive opioid tolerance and play a role in hyperalgesia.

Glutamate receptors fall into two categories: NMDA and non-NMDA. Both PCP—that "angel dust" stuff—and Memantine, which is used for Alzheimer's, bind directly to those NMDA receptors.

GABA: This is the brain's primary inhibitory neurotransmitter. It's an amino acid produced via the decarboxylation of glutamic acid, facilitated by glutamate decarboxylase. Once it hits the receptors, GABA is transported back into the nerve endings through active transport to be metabolized. Glycine, which functions similarly to GABA, shows up mainly in spinal cord interneurons (Renshaw cells) and circuits that relax antagonist muscles.

GABA receptors are categorized into two types: GABA-A (which activate chloride channels) and GABA-B (which boost cAMP production). GABA-A receptors are the target sites for several neuroactive drugs, including benzodiazepines, newer anticonvulsants like lamotrigine, barbiturates, picrotoxin, and muscimol. Baclofen activates GABA-B receptors and is used to treat muscle spasms.

Serotonin: Serotonin (5-hydroxytryptamine or 5-HT) is synthesized in the raphe nuclei as well as neurons in the pons and upper brainstem. Tryptophan is hydroxylated by tryptophan hydroxylase into 5-hydroxytryptophan, which is then decarboxylated into serotonin. Serotonin levels are regulated by tryptophan intake and intracellular monoamine oxidase (MAO).

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Ugh, when I start talking nonsense in this heat, I clearly haven't lost my mind yet—I need to actually study this stuff. Personally? Start tracking what you eat. You might actually find something interesting. See how your neurotransmitters react to certain triggers. Note down when you hit the salt, sugar, or just binge. Or try cutting back on food and see what happens. Even pro bodybuilders track every single thing they shove in their mouths every two hours alongside their workouts. And if you're on medication too... man, this is only day one for me and I can already tell what on earth was I thinking 😁
Carol Barrett2 Carol Barrett2 Regular
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I’m definitely getting plenty of sugar. I know that much. But I’m not talking about sitting around snacking on candy or cookies—it’s more that most of the food I eat is just loaded with hidden sugars anyway.

And honestly, cutting back isn't really an option when you're living on the cheap—this kind of stuff is basically the budget staple.

So, yeah, my dopamine levels are constantly spiking. It’s like being perpetually high.

It’s probably no wonder my brain is constantly racing—thoughts and ideas just sort of swarm and multiply out of nowhere.
Jose Ward4 Jose Ward4 Regular
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#6740 ·
Carol Barrett2 said:I mean, I'd give it a shot if I could, but there's always a "but." With the possibility of bipolar disorder hitting at the same time as this schizophrenia stuff, I honestly don't know how it would even go. If only someone here could actually walk me through it—show me the ropes or something.

I know all the "how-to" guides and videos are out there on the internet, but unless someone actually sits down and shows me personally, I doubt I'd ever figure out how to do it right.

For now, I'm doing alright on the Azolar, but the apaurin is really messing with me—it's making me sleep way too much. Like, half the day, minimum.

Look, I get it—pills aren't always the magic answer—but what am I supposed to do if I have to take them?

I'd much rather rely on meds to keep things steady than let this illness just tear me apart.

Carol Barrett2 said:I mean, I'd give it a shot if I could, but there's always a "but." With the possibility of bipolar disorder hitting at the same time as this schizophrenia stuff, I honestly don't know how it would even go. If only someone here could actually walk me through it—show me the ropes or something.

I know all the "how-to" guides and videos are out there on the internet, but unless someone actually sits down and shows me personally, I doubt I'd ever figure out how to do it right.

For now, I'm doing alright on the Azolar, but the apaurin is really messing with me—it's making me sleep way too much. Like, half the day, minimum.

Look, I get it—pills aren't always the magic answer—but what am I supposed to do if I have to take them?

I'd much rather rely on meds to keep things steady than let this illness just tear me apart.

Do you struggle with split personalities? In layman's terms, that’s basically what bipolar disorder looks like. One minute you're riding high on pure happiness, and then, out of nowhere, you're crashing into total sadness. It's quite a rollercoaster.

Carol Barrett2 said:I mean, I'd give it a shot if I could, but there's always a "but." With the possibility of bipolar disorder hitting at the same time as this schizophrenia stuff, I honestly don't know how it would even go. If only someone here could actually walk me through it—show me the ropes or something.

I know all the "how-to" guides and videos are out there on the internet, but unless someone actually sits down and shows me personally, I doubt I'd ever figure out how to do it right.

For now, I'm doing alright on the Azolar, but the apaurin is really messing with me—it's making me sleep way too much. Like, half the day, minimum.

Look, I get it—pills aren't always the magic answer—but what am I supposed to do if I have to take them?

I'd much rather rely on meds to keep things steady than let this illness just tear me apart.

You really have to find your own "why" when it comes to meditation. Honestly, if things were actually falling apart for you, you wouldn’t be sitting around pondering this—you’d be frantically Googling solutions to fix your life. I know, because that’s exactly how I operate. If I’m in a rut, I’m digging through the internet until I find an answer. Is finding your own purpose okay with you? Because if you're curious, once you find that spark, you can learn pretty much everything online. It isn’t rocket science, really. At the end of the day, when you first start out, it just boils down to being mindful. You focus on your breathing. Try to calm it down. Just take slow, steady breaths through your nose. That’s the layman's version, anyway. If you want a specific starting point, I can give you a name that actually caught my attention: Tony Stark. That’s who I learned from. Personally, I don't care for all that Zen mysticism stuff. If I wanted to dive into that, I would have searched for it. So, the ball is in your court. But hey, if this works for you, stick with it. What else can I say? You seem content with where you are right now. If you weren't, you would've been out there tearing up the ground trying to find a fix. Aren't we all like that?

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