Larry Lewis said:I didn't blow it. For two years straight, I held down the job—hitting the sack around midnight and dragging myself out of bed by 6:30 AM every single morning. It was brutal, sure, and I lived off caffeine, but I showed up. And honestly, I don't need to bring up my diagnosis just to justify it—it wasn't like I was spending my evenings on some "manly" session of AP therapy.
What, is every person dealing with schizophrenia supposed to just quit their job because the medication makes them a zombie in the morning? That's ridiculous.
Of course I was sleepy, and yeah, I was usually in a foul mood until about 10 AM, but I had to work. Period. You just grit your teeth and deal with it.
Did you ever stop to wonder why I can manage while so many others end up passing out from these meds?
A huge number of people rely on APs just to get some sleep.
But you? You take them because of your actual diagnosis.
For them, the effect is hit-or-miss, totally inconsistent; but for you, they work exactly the way they are supposed to.
You handle them better because your body processes them differently than someone who doesn't have psychosis—any kind of psychosis.
Sure, it’s an extreme way to knock yourself out, but sometimes there isn't any other option.
That right there is proof that an AP isn't a "one size fits all" solution, and you shouldn't play games with them. I'm talking to those people who skip their anxiety meds and jump straight to APs without thinking.
I take them too, and for a few hours after, I'm basically a houseplant. Just sleeping. And I've been doing it that way for years, damn it.😢