Frank Campbell
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joined Sep 2012
Back when I was on it about four years ago—taking it for seven or eight months total, finishing up with 75mg for the last three—I felt absolutely incredible. Honestly, I felt *too* good, which led me to make the mistake of quitting cold turkey. I was still riding that serotonin high for about a month after stopping, so naturally, I made a totally reckless, impulsive decision to quit my job. Well, that turned into quite the saga! ;-)
Fast forward to a year ago. After taking it for five or six months (hitting the 100mg mark for five of those), I ended up falling for a coworker, which nearly blew up my marriage. Following my psychiatrist's advice, I tapered off, and just a month later, I jumped headfirst into a new business venture. I didn't quit my day job this time, but I definitely took a massive financial leap.
Today, I tried explaining to my psychiatrist that I’m not some kind of manic person; rather, my issues tend to flare up specifically when I STOP taking my antidepressants. She just isn't hearing me. She’s really against me getting back on them. But I truly believe that a steady 50mg dose of Zoloft over the next two years would give me the stability and energy I need. I'll just be careful not to fly too close to the sun this time.
When I'm on an antidepressant, I feel like a lion—powerful, happy, and totally energized. Those silly, impulsive ideas just don't cross my mind (that whole thing with the coworker was likely just a symptom of marital stress, which we're working through). The real trouble starts once I stop. It's happened twice now, so it seems to be a pattern for me. It feels like the meds might still be working in my system for a few months after I quit, even if the intensity fades?