Schizophrenia - General Discussion

Larry Lewis said:I was flipping through this book earlier, and it claims the true definition of a human being is simply "a two-legged creature that lacks gratitude." 🤷

Honey, you have no idea😍 what I’ve been witnessing and listening to today—it’s felt completely schizophrenic, honestly. 😬But don't worry, there's plenty of time before all of this finally gets dragged into the spotlight and scrutinized.☕

Noah Garcia4 said:Honey, you have no idea😍 what I’ve been witnessing and listening to today—it’s felt completely schizophrenic, honestly. 😬But don't worry, there's plenty of time before all of this finally gets dragged into the spotlight and scrutinized.☕

Honestly, it doesn't matter; I'd actually prefer if the rest of you lot kept the discussion going, because frankly, I am completely underwater right now.🙂

Larry Lewis said:Honestly, it doesn't matter; I'd actually prefer if the rest of you lot kept the discussion going, because frankly, I am completely underwater right now.🙂

Well, I see you managed to phrase that quite elegantly to ensure we aren't painting everyone dealing with mental health struggles with the same broad, crazy brush. Kudos to you. It looks like you left quite an impression, too, considering there hasn't been a single reply posted underneath. 🙂

Noah Garcia4 said:Well, I see you managed to phrase that quite elegantly to ensure we aren't painting everyone dealing with mental health struggles with the same broad, crazy brush. Kudos to you. It looks like you left quite an impression, too, considering there hasn't been a single reply posted underneath. 🙂

honestly, they should just throw all us crazies into a camp and call it a day 🤣 🤣

Joining the EU basically just hands us a golden ticket to come up with even more insane conspiracy theories 😬

David Vaughn75 said:Joining the EU basically just hands us a golden ticket to come up with even more insane conspiracy theories 😬

Honestly, who cares about the European Union when you consider how easily people track one another's every move online on a daily basis anyway?😬😂

She lowered my dose of Haldol... said something about how if I start hearing voices or if things get weird, they'll just bring me straight back to the ER.
Easy for her to say.
I'm really hoping this works out, because I seriously can't handle spending a third summer in a row stuck in a hospital bed. 😍

Get lost. 😍

Eric Mitchell55 said:She lowered my dose of Haldol... said something about how if I start hearing voices or if things get weird, they'll just bring me straight back to the ER.
Easy for her to say.
I'm really hoping this works out, because I seriously can't handle spending a third summer in a row stuck in a hospital bed. 😍

Get lost. 😍

I’ve always tried to dodge the summer heat whenever possible... the first time I managed it, I showed up right at the start of spring and then headed straight from the hospital to the coast.😍 Last time, I actually pulled off a clean escape from that miserable snow and slush—waited until things finally thawed out before I checked myself out of the facility.😍

David Vaughn75 said:I’ve always tried to dodge the summer heat whenever possible... the first time I managed it, I showed up right at the start of spring and then headed straight from the hospital to the coast.😍 Last time, I actually pulled off a clean escape from that miserable snow and slush—waited until things finally thawed out before I checked myself out of the facility.😍

Every single time I've been admitted—and I’ve been through inpatient care six times now—it’s been during some pretty decent weather. The only exception was this last time right after New Year's; it was nothing but endless rain, ice, and snow, and all I could do was stare at it through those heavy psychiatric bars 😳

Noah Garcia4 said:Well, I see you managed to phrase that quite elegantly to ensure we aren't painting everyone dealing with mental health struggles with the same broad, crazy brush. Kudos to you. It looks like you left quite an impression, too, considering there hasn't been a single reply posted underneath. 🙂

Unfortunately, that's just the way it goes—you have to be blunt about it if you want people to actually listen.🤔

Eric Mitchell55 said:Every single time I've been admitted—and I’ve been through inpatient care six times now—it’s been during some pretty decent weather. The only exception was this last time right after New Year's; it was nothing but endless rain, ice, and snow, and all I could do was stare at it through those heavy psychiatric bars 😳

So, what was the weekend situation like?

I used to get three days off every single weekend, so honestly, it wasn't half bad.

David Vaughn75 said:So, what was the weekend situation like?

I used to get three days off every single weekend, so honestly, it wasn't half bad.

They never actually let me go home on the weekends.
In fact, they kept me stuck in the inpatient ward for quite a long stretch.

Eric Mitchell55 said:They never actually let me go home on the weekends.
In fact, they kept me stuck in the inpatient ward for quite a long stretch.

So, is it actually true that the state hospital in Chicago is basically the only decent psych facility left in America?

David Vaughn75 said:So, is it actually true that the state hospital in Chicago is basically the only decent psych facility left in America?

I don't know, I've heard some people get weekend passes from the Kukuljevic clinic or over in Indianapolis, but I never got those. My dad was at the Oakland facility maybe 15 times, if not more, and he was always allowed to head home for the weekends. Guess I was just a tougher case to crack, haha. 👋

Eric Mitchell55 said:I don't know, I've heard some people get weekend passes from the Kukuljevic clinic or over in Indianapolis, but I never got those. My dad was at the Oakland facility maybe 15 times, if not more, and he was always allowed to head home for the weekends. Guess I was just a tougher case to crack, haha. 👋

Look, hallucinations are a massive deal, no question about it—but even on my ward, there were plenty of folks hearing voices who still got their weekends off. 🤷

David Vaughn75 said:Look, hallucinations are a massive deal, no question about it—but even on my ward, there were plenty of folks hearing voices who still got their weekends off. 🤷

Well, looking back, I was basically just talking to myself most of the time. I was being pretty self-destructive and having some really dark, suicidal thoughts during those episodes, so I honestly don't blame them for keeping me under observation. It also doesn't help that they probably overheard me talking to the voices about how I wanted to escape from the psych ward, so I can't say I'm surprised by how they handled things. 🤷
The poor elderly lady who was sharing my room with me is being accused of stalking me and wanting to kill me in my sleep. It’s honestly such a ridiculous situation, especially considering she can barely make it from her bedroom to the kitchen without having to hold onto the wall just to stay upright.
It’s honestly pretty wild how much our brains can just warp our perception of reality. It's one of those things that really makes you stop and think about how much we take for granted.

Eric Mitchell55 said:Well, looking back, I was basically just talking to myself most of the time. I was being pretty self-destructive and having some really dark, suicidal thoughts during those episodes, so I honestly don't blame them for keeping me under observation. It also doesn't help that they probably overheard me talking to the voices about how I wanted to escape from the psych ward, so I can't say I'm surprised by how they handled things. 🤷
The poor elderly lady who was sharing my room with me is being accused of stalking me and wanting to kill me in my sleep. It’s honestly such a ridiculous situation, especially considering she can barely make it from her bedroom to the kitchen without having to hold onto the wall just to stay upright.
It’s honestly pretty wild how much our brains can just warp our perception of reality. It's one of those things that really makes you stop and think about how much we take for granted.

Have you ever thought about applying for disability? Or are you aiming to get back into the workforce and actually hold down a job?

David Vaughn75 said:Have you ever thought about applying for disability? Or are you aiming to get back into the workforce and actually hold down a job?

Nah, disability isn't really on the table for me.
It’s kind of like when people ask if I want to switch to night school or some kind of correspondence course... there's just no way. Even with everything I'm dealing with, I still manage to find a little bit of hope. I actually missed about three months of school this year, and yet somehow I still pulled a GPA higher than most of my classmates. I'm trying my best.
I am definitely thinking about heading to college and starting a career down the road.
Sure, this will be my sixth year navigating high school, but I'm not letting that get to me too much. I know plenty of "typical" students who end up repeating grades anyway, so I don't see why it should be any different for me. 🤣

Never give up. Stay true to who you were from the start. Defeats might feel like they last forever, but they can't break your dreams.

Eric Mitchell55 said:Nah, disability isn't really on the table for me.
It’s kind of like when people ask if I want to switch to night school or some kind of correspondence course... there's just no way. Even with everything I'm dealing with, I still manage to find a little bit of hope. I actually missed about three months of school this year, and yet somehow I still pulled a GPA higher than most of my classmates. I'm trying my best.
I am definitely thinking about heading to college and starting a career down the road.
Sure, this will be my sixth year navigating high school, but I'm not letting that get to me too much. I know plenty of "typical" students who end up repeating grades anyway, so I don't see why it should be any different for me. 🤣

Never give up. Stay true to who you were from the start. Defeats might feel like they last forever, but they can't break your dreams.

Well written. Truly. Such an elegant way to put it!🙂
Just as a quick aside... I find myself thinking of W. B. Yeats. He once wrote, "Though I am poor, I have my dreams." Does anyone else feel that way? Is there not a certain dignity in holding onto one's aspirations when everything else seems to be lacking? I truly believe so.
I have crushed my very own dreams beneath your feet.
"Tread softly, because you're stepping all over my dreams."

It is worth reflecting upon everything. Truly. One must pause... just stop and consider the sheer weight of it all, wouldn't you agree? Everything. All of it.😉

Hey, where the hell did you guys disappear to?? 🙂