#6481 ·
Harold Anderson3 said:You probably signed up for one of the hardest programs in the US—physics. Physics is actually tougher than MIT, for real. I personally tried my hand at studying for the FBI, MIT, and the University of Michigan. At least my conscience is clear because I genuinely gave it my all to try and graduate. Over ten years, I only managed to pass one single year. But unlike some people, nobody was funding me from the start until the moment I quit; I paid for everything myself. And yeah, I also dealt with that mental spiral starting when I was 21.
Yeah, I get it. It's easily one of the hardest paths out there, though it didn't feel that way before I signed up. I remember walking onto campus with a buddy right before finals week just to get a feel for the place. The vibe? Incredible. I told myself, "This is it. This is my calling." Back then, I was obsessed with probability and engine mechanics. There were so many cool diagrams and visuals everywhere inside. But once you get into the actual coursework, almost none of that stuff shows up in freshman year except for probability. It’s just endless, grinding study sessions. That was the hardest part for me—I’m just not a natural straight-A grinder. So, I wasn't a great fit. I ended up having a breakdown after the first semester. Even the doctors at the hospital told me they’d help me get back into school. They promised I could move to a different department and that everything would be fine. What a joke. I never even saw that "other department." I talked to my doctor three times in five months, but it changed nothing. Anyway, that’s all ancient history now. I moved on to new things a long time ago. And just like him, I funded everything myself, aside from whatever scraps I could grab from my parents. Though, to be fair, I didn't spend much since they covered most things—books, supplies, the whole nine yards. I mostly just handled my own bus fare and food when I was on campus.
