I’ve actually started feeling optimistic about the future again. Like, I know deep down everything is going to turn out okay eventually 🙂
It’s such a massive shift.. I was walking through downtown today after grabbing a quick coffee with some dear friends, and I just found myself feeling this quiet, beautiful sense of joy all on my own. My heart wasn't racing or pounding in my chest anymore.. Maybe that really is the secret to it all?
I went in for a massive battery of tests just to see if there was some underlying physical reason for all these symptoms. My heart is actually fine, except for the fact that it absolutely hammers against my ribs whenever I get worked up (during the EKG, I was basically at peak anxiety and freaking out, so my pulse hit 120 😲)—the doctor said it’s no wonder I feel completely wiped out by midday.
Still, all those terrifying thoughts about having some major illness have been ruled out, 🙂
My blood work came back 5+... honestly, it was perfection itself..
Now, I’m just sitting here waiting to finally try these pills 🙂 I know, I'm such a pill junkie 😁
I'm really curious to see how they work. Part of me is a little nervous about getting hooked, but I'm hoping that won't happen.
Good news—my therapist already scheduled me for next week, which means he's putting a ton of hope in the idea that I'll be feeling more stable by then!
electricdriver78, does that have anything to do with pregnancy?? 😕 It’s true, though—it feels less like living and more like pure survival. You find yourself avoiding certain situations because you just know the mental fallout you'll deal with if things get too intense for a second.
Gal Gadot, I’ve never taken anything like this before, maybe just a couple of those over-the-counter sedatives (like Person or whatever..) Thanks for the link.. 🙂
Yeah, quick question—do things like Person, Person, or Person fall into the same category as Xanax and stuff? As far as I know, a regular GP can prescribe the first group, right...?
My therapist just put me on Helex at 0.5mg—with a cap at 2mg per day. I’ve also been doing a ton of daily positive affirmations and self-suggestion exercises.
I guess I’m a little anxious about it... does anyone actually know what this medication is like? My Psychic tells me it’ll take a few weeks before things start feeling steady again.
electricdriver78, how long have you been taking yours??? 😲 What’s the experience been like for you? How are you holding up? Please, tell me a bit more about it..
I was chatting with a coworker who was on some kind of Zonex or Zenex—I can't quite remember which—when she was dealing with the exact same level of stress I am right now. She said things finally started looking up after a couple of weeks. 🙂
I guess I finally realized that actually being around good people and their positive vibes makes a massive difference.
I just ran into an old friend from elementary school a few minutes ago, and man, we always used to have such a blast together 🙂 For about ten minutes there, I completely forgot about all my problems... Maybe that's what I really need—just some happiness and good people in my life?
I finally went to see the doctor to get some guidance on what comes next... Honestly, I was terrified of the whole conversation. I was just so tense and restless the entire time..
The doctor on duty was just an intern. She listened, I guess. I ended up breaking down crying a few times during the talk, like I was digging way too deep into my own soul... It’s that same undefined fear again, where every single thing she said just set me off..
She wanted to write me a referral for a psychiatrist, but she didn't actually know any good ones. So, she just told me to come back in the morning when my regular doctor is in.
By the way, I drifted off for a nap this afternoon and got jolted awake by a text message. I snapped upright so fast, and I got hit with this light shaking/trembling that actually scared the hell out of me.
I talked everything through with my mom, and she’s just so worried about me—which, I guess, is why she tries to convince herself that I’m just making this all up.. She keeps saying stuff like, "Don't get worked up, just calm down, you'll have much harder things to deal with later in life."..
I really wish I could just control it, 😢 and tell her, "Mom, you're right." But I can't. I just end up feeling even more afraid.
margo, people don't actually think I'm crazy or anything; if anything, a bunch of them have admitted they deal with similar thoughts... It made me feel a little better, but just for a moment.
I've been reading up on anxiety.. I don't know, I've never really struggled with self-actualization, social stuff, or performing (maybe deep down I do, but I'm just not aware of it yet).. Honestly, everything is pretty much fine except for this constant fear of terminal illnesses 😁 and some physical symptoms..
My doctor says it's just nerves. 😕
It’s tough because I’ve never had thoughts like this before, but they just come out of nowhere + these totally unrealistic fears that I won't go into detail about right now—but they're truly irrational, like seeing monsters in my room and stuff like that 😁
I honestly have no clue what this is 😢
Galadriel, yeah, I am; I'm at a major turning point, let's just say I can barely breathe under the weight of obligations that basically dictate my entire future.. I rushed into certain things way too fast just because I was terrified that if I didn't do them now, I never would.. During the workday, everything is fine, I'm calm, I'm joking around and all that.. And then these symptoms hit, and this disgusting fear of things that have absolutely nothing to do with my job or anything else.
Cutting back on coffee helps a bit since it makes me shake uncontrollably; I can't even sit still.. And the thing is, I used to drink liters and liters of it for years and everything was perfectly normal!!!
I'm definitely not in a routine, far from it.. My life is completely upside-down, everything is new—new people, new situations.. New challenges..
As for self-punishment, I don't know, I think I need to do some deep soul-searching... The truth is, I hate myself for certain things, but I somehow feel like things are leveling out. I'm happy because I'm finally becoming who I am supposed to be—maybe that's just incredibly painful!??
Avatar... geee... I'm gonna change it 🙂 As for your question... I guess I'll get back to you.
Lately, I just haven't been feeling right, but it’s not exactly a physical thing...
I’ve never been the type to obsess over little health hiccups. I mean, I wasn't being ignorant—I pay attention to my body—but I never let anything weigh me down or get under my skin..
But things have shifted lately, and now I’m becoming incredibly overwhelmed by this constant fear that I’m going to develop some terrible disease or disorder.. Honestly, sometimes I even feel these weird symptoms that I never noticed before (or maybe I did, but I just brushed them off). Most people deal with stuff like heart palpitations or random aches, but for some reason, those things absolutely terrify me and just eat at me. 😲
It isn't your typical hypochondria because, in principle, I avoid talking about this in public (I'm not looking for attention or anything), so I mostly just suffer in silence within the four walls of my room..
I realize nobody is 100% healthy all the time, but what’s happening to me lately feels totally abnormal.. I know I can't fall asleep because I'm so preoccupied with the thought that something awful is going to happen to me during the night (or tomorrow). 😲
All of this just makes me more irritable and stressed out, which definitely doesn't help my already hectic schedule..
I know deep down the issue is psychological, but I seriously have no clue what the root cause is. Has anyone else gone through something similar? Why does it manifest this way?
Is it just constant stress? Some kind of mental purge? Am I facing something head-on? What the hell is going on?
Finally, my day spent feeling absolutely miserable is actually going to peak. Even though I've been dealing with this cold, I still managed to take a bath, exfoliate, and—of course—wax my legs, just so I can settle in for some relaxation with Gabriel 😍
I guess you could say I've officially become desperate 😵
Douglas Myers6 said:Well... let's just say this... Gabriel Byrne is definitely the star of the show, but there's this certain spirit haunting the whole thing... hmmm... seen it all before, I guess. 🙂
Honestly, Gabriel Byrne is just a total SEXY icon in this movie. 😍
Maria Kelly6 said:So how much do you weigh and how tall are you if your butt is that flat? And seriously, how on earth did you pull that off? I bet "Chocolate Bar" isn't your middle name!
Look, I make a distinction between being "flat" versus having "shape"—or basically, "big" versus "small."
You can actually influence size, but you can't change shape; that’s just pure genetics at work.
Having a big backside doesn't necessarily mean it's shaped a certain way, and vice versa.
Personally, I’m all about that shape, whether it’s big or small. What about you?😉
Okay, look, I don't really eat candy (and I definitely wouldn't be able to stop at just one if I did 😁). But when I start snacking on chocolate, I seriously cannot quit... So, I mean, it's probably way better to grab a yogurt that's around 150 calories instead of polishing off an entire chocolate bar that's like 600 calories, or whatever...
John Adams4 said:I stay far away from them because most of them are packed with gelatin. If it isn't certified as being plant-based, I’m just not putting it in my body. Even with Danone yogurt, I steer clear unless they aren't fruit-flavored.
I honestly devour at least one of them every single day. My whole family has basically become obsessed with them lately. 🙂
The peach diet yogurt from Vindija is awesome, and everyone loves Chobani and that Dannon Fantasia—you know, the two-part kind.
As for whether they're "poison" or actually healthy... I don't know, that's up for debate, I guess. At my house, we've been eating these ever since we decided to cut back on all the chocolate and cookies in the pantry. I mean, seriously, tell me which is better—grabbing a fruit yogurt or just munching on candy?