IggXy said:I mean, I’m not exactly bulletproof, but if things go south for me... I guess I'll just keep doing whatever they tell me to do and "suffer" quietly at home...
Oh, man... you're not gonna make it. Honestly, if you're trying to break into a creative field or anything like that, you're looking at an uphill battle... just saying.
What really got to me... I still have a few years of school left ahead of me, and then I see her on the forum posting about being out on medical leave for three months because of depression?!
I never actually finished college... mostly because I just kept putting things off for years on end. It’s frustrating because I know I’m actually pretty sharp and creative, but my focus, my memory, even my logic—everything has just completely tanked lately. I tried applying for a philosophy program this year, thinking maybe that was the move, but I absolutely bombed the abstract reasoning test. Total disaster. And honestly? It wasn't even because I didn't know the material. Some heavy emotional stuff hit me the day before and I just couldn't shake it. I couldn't sleep, I couldn't think straight, my brain was just pure chaos... Most days I feel like I'm basically incapable of getting anything done. I only find the spark when I realize I'm running out of time. That’s when I start slamming massive amounts of Coca-Cola or Pepsi just to force myself into gear... then I’ll pull an all-nighter, or sometimes two, just to finish a task. I guess I just can't function the way everyone else does...
I mean, honestly? Other people are out there actually getting things done while she’s just sitting at home moping around like she wants to wither away... People like that need a reality check. Honestly, give them some heavy-duty work boots and throw them into the toughest manual labor jobs imaginable. Maybe then we'll see if they still feel "depressed" when they stumble through the front door exhausted, too tired to even process how hard life is... instead of just spending the whole day wallowing...
So, what kind of work are we actually talking about here?...
I’m not saying we should banish depression altogether... I get that for some people, like someone living with a severe physical disability, it’s just an unavoidable part of the struggle. It’s hard to even wrap your head around how someone deals with that kind of hardship... but even then, people find ways to cope and move forward. But is it really fair? Should someone be pushed into a dark place just because society refuses to accept them for who they are?...
Am I really supposed to just skip right over the depression part after my parents spent my entire life emotionally tearing me down? Like, am I just being some kind of weakling or something... why am I like this? 😵 You really don't get it... For me, the emotional stuff hit way harder than anything physical ever could. I remember my mom used to beat me when I was little, just because I’d wet the bed or something... I wasn't crying because of the hits, and I didn't feel terrible because of the pain. It was her coldness that wrecked me. That total lack of affection, seeing her turn all that aggression toward someone—me—who hadn't done a single thing wrong... It stays with you. Most of the depression people deal with as adults? It usually traces right back to what happened to them when they were kids... The Brave Phone—looking at the different ways people deal with abuse...