Posts by redtinker36

... they look like corner store junkies...

.. she’s convinced she’s some kind of visionary.. there are plenty of them.. the country produces them by the dozen..

.. she proposes something akin to a.. fool tax.. and somehow, everyone finds it acceptable.. how does that work..?
.. it's because of that classic American neighborly spirit.. if you screw over everyone else, it’s fine.. just ignore the neighbors.. and you can probably get away with screwing me over too..
.. then they won't touch anything under three thousand.. because we're "compassionate".. or maybe because we aren't afraid of the poor.. otherwise.. it's just pure leveling.. that's what we used to call it back in the mid-forties.. it was like.. well.. an extreme version of socialism..

.. defending ourselves against.. visionaries like her.. is simple.. just stop working..
.. even the most crooked politicians figured that out by the eighties..
.. reasonable neighbors caught on by the turn of the millennium..
.. not to brag, but after that.. the only ones left on the job were.. well.. us idiots..
.. and damn it.. we still have people like Jeb Bush and Mitch McConnell.. and that visionary, Kosor..

.. the eighties fulfilled a massive dream .. a wall came down .. and millions finally gained direct access to God ..
.. then came the cinema era .. and now that God shines .. up in the heavens .. with a terrifying brilliance ..

.. a world unified under a single deity ..

.. man in harmony .. the pressure in the boiler suddenly drops .. true freedom at last ..

.. but .. damn it .. that's just the freedom of money
.. you need massive wealth to help some people survive .. they end up doing exactly what the old socialists tried to do .. and we all know how that failed ..

.. Marx thought capitalism would defend itself through a global war .. suggesting Americans should maintain dominance over something .. even if it means bombing Russia .. whether from Ukraine or Georgia ..
.. but .. the actual timing of death .. is an anarchic war ..

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.. a real .. anarchic war .. is incredibly primitive .. it happens between two individuals .. two men .. witnessed by maybe a few .. or a few dozen people ..
.. in that kind of war .. one person is prepared to die .. and that person is the winner ..
.. victory comes via a blunt instrument .. he breaks three of his opponent's ribs with a club and tells him .. maybe you'll live .. just say you fell .. so when they get to court the witnesses can say .. looks like he fell .. but I didn't get a clear view ..
.. the act of warring itself is simple .. it might even seem too simple to some ..
.. what's complicated .. is the process of existence that precedes it ..
.. I suspect that existence can be stripped of lies so thoroughly .. that someone could kill themselves simply because they were told to .. "kill yourself" ..
.. much like the mob .. they tell him .. you screwed up, you have to die .. we're doing you a favor ..

.. when this world finally flips upside down.. it’ll look like an inverted pyramid.. where the petty politicians and the small-timers end up at the bottom..
.. yet there are those at the very top.. people who are currently invisible.. strange.. and hollow..
.. personally.. I found it.. well.. a bit disappointing.. that they aren't actually tied to any real knowledge.. but.. there isn't much one can do about it..

.. there is quite a lot to be said about that..

.. though something else happened to me today.. I discovered something.. interesting.. almost revolutionary..
.. I always assumed I knew nothing of time.. that such understanding belonged solely to God..
.. I don't think that's true..
.. or perhaps I should hope that it isn't..
.. because.. if what I know is indeed the truth.. things are looking grim..

.. the old historical pattern—if you believe in those kinds of cycles—is very clear..

.. but the new pattern was.. well.. somewhat illogical..
.. the first and second wars.. and that.. peculiar.. lull in between..
.. though it wasn't really a lull.. the eighties were incredibly significant..
.. and here we are again.. and if we manage to survive this wave.. then at the second swing of the pendulum.. Jesus will return..
.. but Jesus is already prepared for this.. the thinkers should have stayed quiet.. unless they are simply unwell..

.. death is power .. (.. later, it will be called authority ..) .. and money is power ..

.. which means the financial world is dualistic .. and why that leads straight to its own destruction ..

.. because .. back in the day .. people lived in communities where the hierarchy was always set .. and once that structure vanished, the community tore itself apart ..
.. everyone knew their place .. from the priest to the aristocrat to the tycoon .. and it felt .. well .. ordained ..
.. if a laborer thought he had finally become a big shot .. he ended up destroying things .. killing .. burning novels, for instance .. all while trying to play the part of a kingpin ..

.. and this pattern repeated constantly .. right on the surface .. in the visible world ..

.. now, some greedy opportunist is the king of capital .. acting like he wants to work for the common good .. like a mayor ..
.. isn't it quite simple .. we just need to cut the price of bread in half ..

.. this world is becoming fundamentally fake .. in its very essence ..
.. it’s actually helpful when you can find enough decent patriots to allow one man to truly lead the charge ..

.. but when they are gone .. what then .. ? (.. alongside the political leaders, there are the veterans .. those veterans .. do they actually produce anything .. ?)
.. when the lie becomes most pervasive in the mind .. ?
.. when nothing holds you together except your own fear .. what happens then .. ?

.. death .. that is the solution ..

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.. this world is good .. this America is great .. all those politicians and local leaders .. all those neighbors and folks .. all those brothers and peers .. they were capable of building just one world .. just one real world .. the one we have right now ..
.. all those stories about .. what could be .. or .. what should be .. are mere illusions .. dreams of a world that doesn't exist ..

.. and what does that world look like when viewed from below .. ? .. from the edges of Hell .. ?

.. what does it even mean to be real ..

.. are these digital avatars actually real people ..?
.. no .. they are just real avatars ..

.. for some, the ultimate examples of tyranny are Adolf Hitler and Auschwitz .. for others, it’s Joseph Stalin and the Gulags .. for some, it's the FBI or Guantanamo .. for me, it’s Emilio Fedde .. the news director at one of Berlusconi’s networks .. I think it was Channel 5 .. and the Kursk
.. the Kursk submarine .. people are going to tear him apart over it .. Emilio loves his audience and portrays how the Russian regime doesn't care about its people .. Digić watches and concludes .. my god .. how lucky I am .. Digić's neighborhood is completely different .. people actually care there .. I'd give Berlusconi my blood .. if he needed it ..

.. so .. Digić is turning into a regime lackey out of fear that the government won't let him die in that submarine ..
.. he’s begging the establishment for his life, even though he’s never even been on a submarine ..

.. essentially .. Digić is a creature of fear .. he was molded that way by Emilio Fedde .. and as such .. he is perfect raw material .. for .. imposing a submissive culture .. that's how they used to describe Hayle Selasija

.. if he wants to be a man .. Digić has only one solution .. accepting his own death ..
.. you don't have to kill yourself .. but it would be very useful .. if he just went quiet .. .. the moment he realizes he is a being driven by fear .. it would be incredibly foolish to pretend to be fearless .. he just needs to acknowledge reality .. and reality says he is a creature of fear .. and that this position is what keeps him alive .. that this is his entire existence ..

.. whose command is it..? "Thou shalt not kill"..?
.. the commandment preceding that one is ".. an eye for an eye .. a tooth for a tooth .. or .. you kill me .. and I'll get you back .. let's call it blood vengeance .."

.. it could be God's command -- since He knows exactly what He intends for this world He created ..
.. or perhaps just a social contract among people..

.. if it's a social contract .. then his version of .. collective action .. looks like this..

1 .. it becomes a message sent to a bad actor .. a signal that says .. we, the united neighbors, are taking it upon ourselves to take you out if you don't behave..
2 .. and a message to a good person .. which says .. we know he deserves to die, but don't take matters into your own hands .. we will handle the killing and ensure justice is served..

.. and .. here's a little trivia question for you..

.. if you can no longer rely on those united neighbors to look out for you .. are you forced to go back to killing someone all by yourself?

.. is there some kind of natural law .. that grants the wolf the right to stay fat .. while the sheep get to stay in high numbers ..?

.. it’s the right to lie .. you could call it illogic or just plain stupidity .. but .. it is the right to lie ..
.. it’s no different from a President claiming .. he’s stepping down for personal reasons .. only to walk away two days later because "national interests" took precedence over his own ..
.. there isn't anything inherently wrong here .. I’m not saying any of this lacks value .. I don't mean to suggest there's no worth in it ..

.. everything holds weight here ..

.. the world doesn't work any other way .. God didn't create it differently .. and it didn't evolve any other way .. there is no version of reality .. where a wolf has a right to be well-fed while the sheep remain numerous .. because the moment the wolf becomes a real factor .. it becomes obvious .. that for him to survive .. some sheep are going to have to get screwed ..
.. and it’s the same world .. governed by that same natural law .. the kind of world where it’s considered "natural" to kill a Black man .. take his kidney .. and transplant it into someone else .. provided they can pay .. pay the person willing to snatch him .. kill him .. harvest the organ .. and hide the body ..

.. so why now .. at the very moment when .. evolution .. survival of the fittest .. Darwinism .. reaches its simplest and most honest conclusion .. why would we suddenly strip Darwinism of its only logical outcome ..

.. I don't think a philosophy .. whose strongest argument is simply one's own fear .. is much of a philosophy at all ..

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.. I suspect many will decide it's time to switch political parties .. only when .. the alternative .. is essentially suicide ..

.. there are moments .. where you can achieve a sort of .. freezing .. a total stillness .. .. in those moments, it isn’t just about finding a way .. to pause yourself .. sometimes it feels like you could actually freeze the entire environment .. what mystics call .. stopping the world ..
.. the issue with love is .. its inherent goodness .. you simply cannot walk away from it .. it is the only true good ..
.. thoughts have the exact same problem .. they serve us far too well .. by creating blueprints for things that don't even exist yet .. they are just too useful ..
.. which is why a thought is such a difficult thing to let go of ..
.. to say .. that thoughts participate in shaping an illusory reality .. is only partially right .. thoughts .. within reality .. take the fragments of reality they manage to gather .. and construct the reality they are able to assemble ..
.. if a thought could gather more pieces of reality .. and the resulting reality it built .. were any more substantial .. it would feel more real ..
.. but .. the brain is nothing special .. it merely redirects .. it creates channels .. patterns .. it takes existence — which reaches a person as raw sensation — and channels it into flows .. which might manifest as physical forms or bursts of energy .. which might move a hand or compose a painting ..
.. in short .. this leads to one conclusion .. .. of all the ways one can expend themselves .. their energy .. their very being .. .. the best way is the one that doesn't consume the self ..

.. death is the spark .. and that’s where it all begins .. really ..
.. so, what does life actually look like at that spark ..

.. back when Jesus was teaching that we’re all meant to be brothers .. people weren't exactly acting like family .. but .. even then, nobody was stopping a slave owner from valuing his property .. respecting it .. or treating it with the same rights he'd give a brother ..
.. why does everything have to perish at the spark .. isn't there some way .. for us to actually become brothers .. or just stay alive ..

.. so ..

1 .. you need your community .. as a sort of anchor ..
2 .. what people call "living" .. is really just this constant negotiation with those around you ..
3 .. whether there’s any way to live differently .. well, we don't know yet — if "differently" means living outside the social circle ..

.. the matter of speech .. that isn't trivial either ..

.. speech was .. how we connected people .. after writing .. then after the internet .. and it expanded our reach .. immensely ..
.. alongside speech came thought .. much like mammals following dinosaurs .. and it has clung to us .. drifting in and out ..
.. and as it drifted .. it touched more deeply into the self .. into our senses and our very existence ..
.. eventually leading to that logical question .. down at the bedrock .. am I an individual .. or just a social creature .. a political animal ..

.. if truth were actually possible .. rather than just unknown .. there could be two reasons for that ..
1 .. truth is complicated ..
2 .. a massive effort is made to hide it ..
.. though if that effort to hide it truly existed .. there would only be one cause .. self-preservation .. survival ..

.. the urge to talk is overwhelming .. on TV, they make it look like they've reached paradise .. once they start speaking ..
.. but their words aren't about the truth .. they are talking for the neighbors ..
.. so .. wait a second .. almost all words are just for the neighbors ..

.. I have to say this again.. what’s the core of my argument here?

.. It’s based on the idea that a person isn't truly alive.. they just exist..

.. It’s based on the fact that there’s a social world—a consensus among people..
.. And the fact that behind that world lies another one—a world of lies—peering out from everyone.. This isn't just some conspiracy theory..

.. Once a person.. realizes their actual place.. they see that.. if everything goes according to plan.. they're screwed..
.. That's why they perform miracles—trying to patch up their true standing with any illusion they can find.. They call love God.. but individuality remains a distant dream, because they are nobody and nothing..

.. The only real way out is.. to stop fighting.. and consistent surrender means death..

.. Let me try once more.. more concisely..

1 .. The neighborhood surrounding you is predatory.. and you are merely prey to it..

2 .. If you engage in a fight with that neighborhood.. you've done exactly what the enemy wants..

3 .. But there is a chance for victory.. and that chance lies in refusing to fight..

.. One more time..

1 .. A person isn't alive.. they simply exist..
2 .. Up until now, they lived within the neighborhood..
3 .. That was until now..

(.. I wrote that down quite well.. it’s a system of teamwork—you repeat it.. constantly repeat it.. that’s how you build a scheme.. something piercing.. something clear.. and that’s where people fall apart.. I know.. I've been there..
.. I don't know.. personally, I think this is ugly enough that there's no reason to delete it.. so whatever.. this is just for me, and I really like it.. )

.. damn .. everything I’ve ever said feels much more coherent than what I’m saying now .. though even here, I can find .. some decent traces of order ..

.. whereas others let themselves be dragged away by some dead-end rabbit hole .. or one that leads them precisely where there isn't any ring to be found .. right now, it isn't present .. you only have the reference within yourself ..
.. yet, you still manage to trap your own mind .. in one specific area ..
.. still, my situation is better .. because I am pulling myself toward my weakest points .. while others just drag me along aimlessly .. following the unwritten rules of the neighborhood ..
.. essentially .. there's this assumption being born that I know more than the entire block combined .. and since that sounds a bit boastful .. I'll correct it early on .. me .. and God .. are stronger than the local tough guy ..

.. anyway, back to death ..

.. it all revolves around this ..
.. the individual .. their struggle to hold on .. the sheer will to exist .. in the real world .. and the real world is split into .. the public sphere .. and .. the background ..

.. at a certain point, that .. poor soul .. realizes one thing .. that nothing is in their hands .. that regardless of how they behave .. nothing guarantees them .. survival, legally speaking .. that they have no rights at all ..
.. that is the moment right before suicide ..
.. it is the moment .. of discovery .. of death .. or perhaps the moment .. when friendship .. or love .. is established .. with death .. assuming you haven't lost your mind in the previous moment ..
.. but the person who possesses enough strength to stand .. in that .. place .. with that feeling .. with that knowledge .. long enough .. on the knife's edge .. on the brink .. they will be gifted various things ..

.. at first, they might think those are gifts from a dying neighborhood .. a gift simply called freedom ..
.. but those with enough strength .. will realize .. that these gifts are .. terrifyingly significant ..

.. death brings only one nasty problem ..
.. it kills ..
.. it seems impossible that anyone could .. actually reach it .. and then move past it ..
.. it is perfectly clear that people will be able to do it .. but the real kicker .. the real shitty question .. is this .. can I? ..
(.. and then there is the matter of the drug high ..)

.. so.. every person's story is really just a reflection of who they are—someone who first needs, and absolutely must, find someone to talk to..
.. and that’s what dialogue actually is..
.. it’s where perspectives and truths are weighed—agreements and compromises are made..
.. given how we relate to one another—and the fact that we want to present ourselves as beings capable of constant growth—regardless of where we are on the road—every individual truth is relative. Each one is just waiting for the next version to surpass it..

.. you could call the opposite religion—where truths are handed down pre-packaged..

.. but.. many people hold onto certain truths knowing full well they're lies.. they just keep them around because, in this complicated world, they can be useful..

.. the situation here is that the subconscious knows the "superconsciousness" of the neighborhood—and practically protects the individual from any actual reason.. or more accurately.. it manipulates reason by using emotions—those true drivers of what we call the "self"..

.. the circle is pretty much broken and closed..
.. there was once a guy—one of those types.. who said these people are nothing more than microbes of total decomposition; they understand analysis perfectly fine, but they haven't the slightest clue what synthesis actually is..

.. the issue with lies is this.. logically speaking, you take a whole, break it apart, take the elements, and then try to project them back onto the whole..

.. from a magical perspective.. a world of lies is a world of unevenly mixed dimensions..

.. from a neighborly perspective.. a world of lies is just one life—one single existence—trying to sustain itself..
.. but the development of that world inevitably leads to its own destruction..

.. we'll need some examples and a look at how people actually use them..

.. deception is the key to timing..

.. there’s a person here.. right in front of you.. and this is how it goes..
.. you assume the person standing before you is being honest.. and that's where you messed up..
.. you assume they actually care about the truth.. and that's where you messed up..
.. you assume the one speaking knows exactly what the person standing there wants.. and that's where you messed up..

.. so what kind of.. useful insight can we even pull from this.. here in front of us..
.. maybe there is some.. because.. there is someone.. right here.. who lies.. and they lie quite logically..
.. because that person.. standing before you.. follows a code.. and they follow it blindly.. that code is simple survival..
.. and they don't have a single thought that isn't tethered to it..
. true freedom only comes through fate.. only if one accepts self-destruction as their own personal law..

.. knowledge can have various .. depths .. or perhaps we should say .. heights ..
.. intellect and intuition represent knowledge at various levels .. though it might be more accurate to say .. various widths ..
.. the intellect maps out a path .. from sign to sign .. from junction to junction .. while intuition remembers everything .. all those tiny details .. so with the intellect, we travel along a line .. but with intuition, we experience the world .. the surface ..

.. a thinking human is a remarkably broad being .. their brain deconstructs everything .. they are the god of wealth and prosperity ..
.. such a person isn't unique because of their goals .. they are simply defending themselves .. just like any other person or animal .. what makes them distinct is how they go about it .. and the core of that method is that one must hide their intentions from others if they want to remain effective ..
.. in doing so, a person creates a persona of lies .. which becomes their greatest weapon .. but also their curse ..

.. the second type of person .. the servant of a different god .. is known as the man of the sword ..
.. he is another rider of the apocalypse .. his strength is that of a commander .. but acting in the first person .. like a Mexican warlord .. or a Greek hero .. or Caesar ..
.. yet the essence of this second god is speech .. negotiation .. it refers to the era when people gathered around leaders .. rather than clustering around a singular divine entity .. as they did in ancient Egypt ..
.. that was where philosophy was born .. where the gods were definitively separated from humanity ..
.. the Romans were also known for .. their pacts to assassinate someone .. but the true essence of that era was the forum .. people gathering around an idea they could accept ..

.. then there is the first god .. the primal force .. the strength of a rider holding a bow in his hands ..
.. he grips the horse with his legs .. using his inner thighs .. leaving his entire upper body free for riding .. his hands are occupied with other things .. keeping him unencumbered from the top down ..
.. he became the master of the land .. the master of plants and animals alike ..

.. and death is the rider .. the final one .. and he carries only one attribute .. single, but significant .. and that god is .. death ..

.. the Christian cross represents these four symbols ..
.. the horizontal beam signifies the arms .. seen in the sword and the scales .. and it represents man among men .. the vertical beam .. the lower part belongs to the first god .. while the upper part belongs to death ..
.. that segment is shorter .. death isn't time itself .. it’s only half of time ..
.. the man of death isn't truly a man .. he is .. let's say .. a dying neighbor .. or .. according to the Bible .. the son of man .. the one who can be born from a human ..

.. death is an individual's god..

.. if you want to clear things up with someone.. you step into a conversation.. and it always feels the same.. by the time you're shaking hands, you've already messed it up..
.. and the result is.. insulting the forum members..
.. so now the forum takes it upon itself to defend Enki on my behalf.. and I suppose that's just.. the social contract..
.. but.. what am I actually gaining from this?
.. if I'm hoping to learn something from someone.. then fine, I can take the hit..
.. but if I believe the world is merely an illusion—a facade built on a single lie—then any fear that binds me to that illusion or that lie.. might actually be useful. As long as I accept the bond.. I'll take it at any cost.. because I accept the world at any cost..

.. for me to endure any neighborhood or community.. always and in advance.. there can only be one reason.. a certain kind of fear that I simply cannot bring before myself..
.. a fear that I cannot bring.. before my own judgment..

.. and there isn't a soul who can help me with that..
.. if the world is truly what I think it is.. if I cannot call that world into question.. then I have to embrace my fear..

.. otherwise.. I'm just courting my own death..

.. just as blood sustains the body, money sustains this world..

.. money is the god of our era .. its movement mimics the veins in a living organism .. through the heart .. filtering through the kidneys .. charging up through the lungs like pure energy..
.. the master of freedom .. of kindness .. of love..
.. money is the raw power behind empires .. organized crime .. and every single individual..

.. at first glance, money seems like a great organizer .. a life-giver .. almost like a guiding spirit .. something that can breathe life back into the dead..

.. money represents value..
.. it means reputation .. access to doctors .. the ability to reach out for love..

.. but .. that very same money .. that same circulatory system .. is starting to look more and more like sewage flowing through a drain .. varying in thickness .. varying in color .. yet all shades of gray .. and various smells .. but they all stink..
.. the way it’s being used has reached a point where it demands a massive overhaul .. and a massive overhaul .. simply isn't possible..

.. I suspect salvation might lie in something much older .. perhaps in controlled bloodletting .. for medical reasons..

.. this new god isn't your neighbor's god .. it isn't the god of bureaucrats .. or .. more simply put .. that god isn't yours..

.. and that’s where the philosophy ends.

.. they say we call it power—and sometimes, just "strength"—because when that strength reaches a certain threshold, it becomes absolute. And once you can do everything that is physically possible, you essentially become a god.

.. history recognizes only three great forces... and death is the fourth.

.. It's interesting, really—this isn't new knowledge; it’s primal. It belongs to the realm of instinct.
.. and those instincts? Most people know them best as... the Four Horsemen.

... the idea of a superman...