Posts by wiredharbor22

George Chavez8 said:Maybe you should actually let your hair grow out...

Please don't do that. 🙂

What is it about addiction that draws people in so strongly? 😕 😁

Matthew Carter41 said:destructive types🤣

I have this habit of fidgeting with leaves... I'll pick up a few stiff ones and just snap them in half, then half again, then half again... how many times can you go... then I'll stretch them out and bend them until they finally crack 🤷 silly, right?

Yeah. I do that too. Same thing with paper. A movie ticket, for instance, always ends up shredded.

😕

mistycyclist5 said:Go ahead, smudge my screen... or maybe just blur the letters in my username...😉

Well, look at that, man. You're finally looking a bit more cheerful. That's progress... 👍

Regarding healthy eating and all that... I'm trying to change my habits lately, but I just can't give up coffee. Is it actually bad for you? I think on the Keto diet, you're supposed to drink it black or without milk (😂). If I have mine with whole milk and sugar, is that going to ruin things?...

I managed to whip up a really great lunch today. 😁

I had a long talk with a friend, honestly... and then I just let it all out and cried. After that, I got the dishes and laundry done.

I still intend to get some studying in.

I have a feeling I might be dealing with this too. It doesn't wreck my life, but I can tell things aren't quite right...

For instance, I have one of those laundry racks in my bedroom. If I hang something up and sit on the bed, only to notice a single piece of clothing is hanging crookedly, I feel completely paralyzed. I don't have the energy to get up and fix it, yet it eats at me so much that I can't focus on anything else until it's straight. It’s not that I’m a total neat freak otherwise...

Or how I like to organize my socks in the drawer by grouping them together. If I open the dresser and they’ve been moved, I have to reorganize everything all over again.

And most things I do follow a specific pattern, like washing the dishes. If someone interrupts my flow or messes with my system, I start getting really agitated...

Could this be OCD?

Anthony Rivera17 said:Thinking is a process we engage in at our own discretion... neither you nor a joint can force my mind to work if I don't want it to, right? So when I discuss the influence of the Marijuana Party,
I am talking about a shift in consciousness and the specific sensation that arises following consumption... you can't
falsely believe you’ve become inherently wiser or more spiritual, but you can certainly be aware that during the cognitive process while high, you tend to produce much more profound and spiritual "outputs"... I know for a fact
that I was more insightful and spiritually connected after smoking; I spent plenty of nights scribbling thoughts down on paper,
and later, once the effects wore off and I read what I had written, it became obvious to me that those
thoughts possessed a depth and spirituality far beyond the ones I produce when I am sober... which, of course,
doesn't mean one should be high constantly, because overdoing it leads to a diminishing return where the body builds up a tolerance to THC and the Marijuana Party starts hitting less and less effectively...

That is exactly it. It isn't that you instantly become wiser, but rather you express a wisdom you didn't even realize was inside you already. 😁

stormyfox72 said:Thanks, everyone... I'll give it everything I've got. I won't let you down.

See? You can tell this is purely optimistic. 🙂

Look, I wish nothing but peace for those who have passed...

A good life by those standards? Having a wife, kids, grandkids, and a steady career at a place like IBM for decades 🙂

But don't let it wear you down.

I almost had another episode the other day. I’ve realized they tend to hit whenever things start slipping out of my control, which is tough because I really value having everything under management. Right before it escalated, I actually anticipated what was coming. As the tears started welling up, I tried to talk myself down, saying things like, "What is happening? Stop it. Why are you crying? There's no reason for this..." (I can't recall the rest). Somehow, I managed to calm myself down before it fully took over. I'm counting it as a small victory... and I truly hope I can keep making progress like this. I am certainly going to try my best.

You really only have two ways to play this:

1. Quit smoking (I mean, obviously it’s bad for your physical health, though I haven't come across a case where it ruins your mental state quite like this)

2. Just convince yourself you aren't getting cancer. First off, you're way too young. Second, you've already had the tests done. You're acting like a hypochondriac... unless you're just messing with us. But I won't assume that, since you say you're feeling fine today.

That's it.

Oh, wait, there is a third option—a combination of the first two: quit smoking and deal with this phobia once and for all. Just be careful not to let one fear turn into another.

If I were you, I'd 🤷
...

Or should I just get drunk and forget about everything? haha
I guess we'll see...
Bye bye

Of course I want to feel better. That’s exactly why I came here to ask for advice...

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I have no idea why you'd think I'm trying to mess with you. A signature? Everybody's free (to wear sunscreen)

Well, placidranger, you’ve inspired me to go out and find a new avatar...

Look, I’m not asking you to understand me. If it doesn't mean anything to me, why would it matter to you? 😉
You just keep sending these messages, but there's nothing behind them...

My relationship isn't the issue here. It feels like you aren't even listening to me...

I sing in the shower without a care in the world. I could probably find a way to put that to good use...

It isn’t that he doesn't mean anything to me, or that his words don't carry weight. It's just that when I look at him through my own lens, I see someone who is completely head over heels... blinded by love and unable to think straight, much like I am...

I brought him up because I’ve been there before. We’re just friends, but I’m actually in love with him while he doesn't feel the same way... I used to think that even though I’m a great person, I just wasn't attractive enough for anyone to want to be with me. But honestly, I am good-looking, sexy, and have so much going for me. It just doesn't seem to matter much right now...