On Being and its components

Sam Martinez9 said:I think you missed my point.

It’s really about the methodology by which we acquire knowledge and understand the world. Broadly speaking, there are two ways we learn: we either learn independently, or we learn through the mediation of others.

Learning via others can be subdivided even further—learning from authority figures or teachers, learning alongside friends and peers, or even learning *from* someone, where they serve as the subject of your study...

Now, regarding what I was getting at earlier—we can categorize learning through others into two distinct modes: using conflict as a tool, or using cooperation as a tool.

Conflict as a tool is far more prevalent. I mentioned the example of a televised political debate, where two sides clash and essentially *fight* one another using nothing but arguments.

Cooperation, on the other hand, is what you see in scientific research teams or collaborative professional environments.

In my view, cooperative learning is of a much higher quality than learning through conflict, yet conflict remains the dominant method. This forum is living proof of that; ninety-nine percent of what is written here can be reduced to conflict (using arguments, words, quotes, etc.), while perhaps only one percent truly represents cooperation.

The reason for this is quite simple: humanity is still at an evolutionary stage where conflict tends to outpace cooperation. So many global issues are still *settled* through warfare rather than through diplomacy and agreement.

I am a firm believer that this is shifting—that we will see a gradual decrease in friction across all fields and a rise in collaboration.

Warfare will eventually vanish, both in terms of physical combat and verbal aggression. Our grandchildren and great-grandchildren will look back on our era as a barbaric age, much like we look back on the state of the world two thousand years ago.

That outcome depends entirely on the consciousness level of the individual. And you can't reach that level in pairs; it’s something you have to navigate through the self. Sure, you gain "world" experience through various insights, and those insights happen through the interaction between the subject and the object. That's basic mechanics. But no matter how many insights you collect or how wide your awareness stretches, nothing changes in how individuals treat one another until the personal level of Consciousness shifts upward toward the Higher.

Wars will vanish only when consciousness rises to a point where every single being within the collective knows, instinctively, that harmony can only be achieved through cooperation and empathy with the rest of the whole.

Sam Martinez9 said:I think you missed my point.

It’s really about the methodology by which we acquire knowledge and understand the world. Broadly speaking, there are two ways we learn: we either learn independently, or we learn through the mediation of others.

Learning via others can be subdivided even further—learning from authority figures or teachers, learning alongside friends and peers, or even learning *from* someone, where they serve as the subject of your study...

Now, regarding what I was getting at earlier—we can categorize learning through others into two distinct modes: using conflict as a tool, or using cooperation as a tool.

Conflict as a tool is far more prevalent. I mentioned the example of a televised political debate, where two sides clash and essentially *fight* one another using nothing but arguments.

Cooperation, on the other hand, is what you see in scientific research teams or collaborative professional environments.

In my view, cooperative learning is of a much higher quality than learning through conflict, yet conflict remains the dominant method. This forum is living proof of that; ninety-nine percent of what is written here can be reduced to conflict (using arguments, words, quotes, etc.), while perhaps only one percent truly represents cooperation.

The reason for this is quite simple: humanity is still at an evolutionary stage where conflict tends to outpace cooperation. So many global issues are still *settled* through warfare rather than through diplomacy and agreement.

I am a firm believer that this is shifting—that we will see a gradual decrease in friction across all fields and a rise in collaboration.

Warfare will eventually vanish, both in terms of physical combat and verbal aggression. Our grandchildren and great-grandchildren will look back on our era as a barbaric age, much like we look back on the state of the world two thousand years ago.

It wasn't like everyone was a barbarian two thousand years ago. Humanity goes through cycles of rising and falling based on its level of consciousness. The only real difference between then and now is the technology; our level of consciousness is essentially the same as it was two millennia ago—if anything, it might actually be lower right now. Even today, just like back then, there are a few individuals operating at a higher consciousness while everyone else is still fumbling around in the dark looking for "harmony." The weapons have certainly become more lethal, but the reasons we use them haven't changed one bit.

Matthew Evans
You haven't actually explained what harmony and balance mean to you.
Are you really that indifferent?

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Andrew Hayes8 said:Matthew Evans
You haven't actually explained what harmony and balance mean to you.
Are you really that indifferent?

Harmony isn't some vague, fuzzy feeling. It’s actually about existing in total openness to everything around you. It means everything exists while knowing its purpose—acting in a way that hits its absolute peak potential without stepping on anyone else's toes or messing with the rest of the system. That's why we talk about living in harmony with our environment; it just means making sure every move you make aligns with the fundamental laws of nature.

If a person could actually exist in total harmony with everyone else, it would mean that none of their actions would ever threaten the existence or the potential of another individual—and by extension, humanity itself. Every single thing they did would be driven by the pursuit of their own maximum potential, and in that scenario, reaching that peak would naturally become the ultimate expression of our highest collective values.

For a group to actually function in harmony, you need individuals who understand how to foster collective well-being. It’s pretty simple: true well-being comes from fulfilling those initial potentials we carry—those deep-seated intentions meant for our own soul's self-realization. If we actually knew how to let our souls manifest, we’d inadvertently create harmony in our reality too. The logic behind it is straightforward. When you're in the middle of an action, you can see its direction—you can see exactly where you're headed. If that goal, and the action itself, doesn't step on anyone else's toes, then you know you're on the right track toward realizing your soul. Another dead giveaway that the soul is being realized is the experience itself... The simple joys of living.

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Balance is essentially just a leveling mechanism—an effort to smooth out frequency discrepancies and pull every single cell back into equilibrium. Think of the human body like a complex electrical grid. We’re constantly trying to balance that energetic field, syncing up the frequencies of every individual cell with the frequency of the soul that drives them—the central point everything else orbits around. When those two frequencies finally align, healing actually happens. It's simple math: when the cells and the soul vibrate at the exact same rate, you achieve total systemic harmony. The problem is fear. Fear disrupts that harmony, creating blocks, and those blocks inevitably lead to sickness. To put it bluntly, if the cells become so diseased that they start vibrating in total chaos, the Being simply pulls the soul out of that vessel, and the body dies. But if you engage in the routine work of balancing that energetic field, those isolated, terrified cells can find their way back to their original frequency. They sync back up with the soul, and the body returns to a state of being healthy. Real health isn't just an absence of symptoms; it's a return to rhythm.

Balancing our body's energy field is essentially just mimicking how the universe balances its own field. On a cosmic scale, the process is identical. The universe maintains equilibrium by routinely sending a Proton Ring from its core out toward the periphery. Anything caught within that ring undergoes a sort of healing process. Our Earth follows this exact same cycle every 26,000 years, where the conscious levels of beings here return to their intended frequency—the frequency of their soul. During these times, humanity reaches a collective peak, and civilizations hit their absolute zenith. Of course, it doesn't stay there. Periodically, the cells of the human collective isolate themselves again, acting through a veil of fear. This drives consciousness downward, sometimes even toward total self-destruction. That’s exactly where we find ourselves right now: our technology has outpaced our actual capacity for understanding and our level of awareness. Because of this gap, we're seeing an influx of souls entering "life" with the specific intention of waking up to Self-knowledge. They come to use that knowledge to balance the vibrations of those whose consciousness has dropped to catastrophic levels. But a catastrophe isn't inevitable. We have spiritual access from higher dimensions down into the lower ones. From a state of Higher Consciousness, we get a bird's-eye view of Lower Consciousnesses. We step in as volunteers from above to balance this dimension from the inside, staying in constant contact with our older, more conscious brothers and sisters.

When people like this show up, their vibrations, their thoughts, and their actions act like a catalyst. They cause the collective understanding of existence to shift rapidly from the inside out. There isn't a better remedy than one that works internally. That’s how you actually make a change—without anyone hurting anyone else, without anyone threatening someone else's perspective. After all, the perspective itself is what's evolving. Once an individual's consciousness shifts, they become their own supervisor, naturally striving for internal harmony through that new lens.
(I'll be breaking down the method soon—how to balance our energy fields and what tools to use.)

Matthew Evans said:A Being, when viewed as an absolute—since an absolute is essentially its own "whole"—is fundamentally incapable of being harmed. The only kind of "harm" that actually exists is what manifests as a lived experience. So, really, you can only "damage" the quality of a single experience. But even that isn't true damage; it’s just the potential of Idea and Choice unfolding through a "negative" manifestation from Unconscious Corp.

Look, when a Being faces the sensation of being "harmed," and they start feeling like someone else’s actions—or even just the very framework that defines them as a subject—have turned them into a "victim," it tells you something specific. It’s a sign that the Being is first and foremost Self-unaware. Beyond that, it shows they lack an understanding of the underlying principles and the actual mechanics by which Self-Being constructs its own experience.

So, if I’m feeling like a "victim" right now, it’s just a sign that I’m hitting the realization phase of an initial Idea. Here’s how it works: you start with a pure intention or a soul-level plan, you distort that intention, and then you mistake that distortion for reality itself. That twist in the original Idea manifests as nothing but negativity or negation in our actual experience. The only way we manage to warp an intention is by fully identifying with the subject. When we go all-in on the subject, our Will and our attention get sucked into that central point—into the subject's own reason. From there, everything else—every object, every event—is perceived as being "outside" of us. It becomes something external to our intellect, something that either serves our pleasure or poses a direct threat to our existence. In this state, a Being doesn't actually have the freedom of Idea and Choice regarding the possibilities life throws at them. Instead, they fall into a sort of Unconscious Corp state, merely reacting to whatever motive hits them the hardest. We call that "necessity," but it's really just a lack of perspective. At the same time, every report of an action taken in this little drama gets processed through that centralized mind. The subject takes those reports, filters them through their specific mental framework, and generates reactions designed to justify their interpretation of the whole process. In this headspace, a Being becomes purely emotional. As long as the projection aligns with their existing beliefs, they feel fine. But the moment the balance shifts—the moment they start fearing for their own survival—something that was once a close friend can instantly turn into a blood enemy.

When you look at an action report within a projection, you always end up facing the Being. It doesn't matter where that Being decides to set up its Center. But here’s the thing: that report only hits you as a "feeling" when the Being positions its center *above* the subject-object relationship projection. Now, don't confuse this with basic emotions. Emotions can be positive or negative, sure, but their purpose is different. Typical emotionality is just a defense mechanism—it's the mind trying to shield the Being from the "outside world" when things get uncomfortable. This feeling isn't about protection. Its sole purpose is to act as an instant red flag. When a negative feeling arises, it's a signal that the projection of the intended soul has become distorted. It means the Being has fallen headfirst into its own projection, identifying so deeply with the subject of the action that the distinction is lost. Once that happens, free choice is effectively dead.

In that scenario, the Being instantly pulls itself out of the subject position. It looks down at the entire subject-object projection from above—viewing it all as a single result of its own Idea and Choice. This shift drags the individual back into a state of consciousness where, within a timeless existence, they can actually make a new, conscious choice. A conscious choice is one where you understand the consequences; it’s the kind of manifestation where the Being feels a sense of harmony with everything else in existence. Any choice that results in chaos, or causes "harm" to someone or something, suggests that the Being has fallen into a deep sleep. It means those core ethical values—the ones an individual always carries within themselves—have been forgotten or suppressed. In their place, new values have been installed. These aren't true values; they are just logical conclusions built without any Absolute Knowledge present in the individual's Consciousness. They exist solely to serve the systems of belief that rule over a Being stuck in that lower state.

Illness is just what happens after an Unconscious Corp makes a choice—specifically, a long string of them. It’s a disruption in the balance of the body's energy field. These disruptions come from blockages, and those blockages? They’re just fear manifesting at a cellular level. But here’s the thing: just as sickness builds itself up, it can be dismantled. To get rid of illness, you have to focus on BALANCING THE ENERGY FIELD. Instead of chasing symptoms, you should have a routine for balancing that field—essentially, maintaining HEALTH. Balancing keeps the system running at its peak. When the body is operating optimally, energy flows through it without hitting any walls. That’s when a person feels Healthy; they don't feel their "physicality" as a burden, but rather use it as a seamless tool to interact with the world around them.

Pain, for instance, isn't actually a disease. I'm talking about initial pain. Pain is designed to be an alarm—a signal that a Being needs to instinctively trigger a period of BALANCING. It's a sign that a blockage has formed. It’s also a sign that we’ve neglected our energy field, perhaps for a long time or maybe never at all. It means our thoughts have convinced our cells that their survival is under threat. Fear is an active architect of these blockages; it tries to protect an isolated cell, but instead of shielding it, it causes the cell to withdraw from the rest of the organism. By choosing to shut down, it kills the natural flow of energy. When energy can't find its natural path from point A to point B, it tries to force an alternative route, creating a conflict between two energy directions—and that conflict is the pain itself. In that moment, the "person" needs to drop everything and immediately move toward balance. Balancing the energy field is true healing. Healing, by its very definition, is the process of returning closed cells to an open state. Through this balancing, cells that lost faith in the organism as a whole regain that lost trust. This "convincing" process takes anywhere from thirty seconds to a few minutes, and the results are measurable in terms of HEALTH. We'll get to that later.

Well done.🙏 I find myself in agreement with everything you have written, though I cannot say how close or distant my own understanding remains to yours. I want to say that while the logic is perfectly clear, I lack the lived experience of oneness. Every day I ask myself how much further I have to go; occasionally, I manage to reach a state free of thought, and in those moments, I feel that anything is possible within that space. I desperately wish to recognize the illusion so that it might vanish.
What interests me, however, is how one actually approaches the balancing you describe? I am aware that reaching that level is essential. Everyone finds their own path based on their specific pursuits, and flashes of insight arrive in proportion to the intensity of one's desire for them.

Matthew Evans said:"Quote:"

Harmony isn't some vague, fuzzy feeling. It’s actually about existing in total openness to everything around you. It means everything exists while knowing its purpose—acting in a way that hits its absolute peak potential without stepping on anyone else's toes or messing with the rest of the system. That's why we talk about living in harmony with our environment; it just means making sure every move you make aligns with the fundamental laws of nature.

If a person could actually exist in total harmony with everyone else, it would mean that none of their actions would ever threaten the existence or the potential of another individual—and by extension, humanity itself. Every single thing they did would be driven by the pursuit of their own maximum potential, and in that scenario, reaching that peak would naturally become the ultimate expression of our highest collective values.

For a group to actually function in harmony, you need individuals who understand how to foster collective well-being. It’s pretty simple: true well-being comes from fulfilling those initial potentials we carry—those deep-seated intentions meant for our own soul's self-realization. If we actually knew how to let our souls manifest, we’d inadvertently create harmony in our reality too. The logic behind it is straightforward. When you're in the middle of an action, you can see its direction—you can see exactly where you're headed. If that goal, and the action itself, doesn't step on anyone else's toes, then you know you're on the right track toward realizing your soul. Another dead giveaway that the soul is being realized is the experience itself... The simple joys of living.

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Balance is essentially just a leveling mechanism—an effort to smooth out frequency discrepancies and pull every single cell back into equilibrium. Think of the human body like a complex electrical grid. We’re constantly trying to balance that energetic field, syncing up the frequencies of every individual cell with the frequency of the soul that drives them—the central point everything else orbits around. When those two frequencies finally align, healing actually happens. It's simple math: when the cells and the soul vibrate at the exact same rate, you achieve total systemic harmony. The problem is fear. Fear disrupts that harmony, creating blocks, and those blocks inevitably lead to sickness. To put it bluntly, if the cells become so diseased that they start vibrating in total chaos, the Being simply pulls the soul out of that vessel, and the body dies. But if you engage in the routine work of balancing that energetic field, those isolated, terrified cells can find their way back to their original frequency. They sync back up with the soul, and the body returns to a state of being healthy. Real health isn't just an absence of symptoms; it's a return to rhythm.

Balancing our body's energy field is essentially just mimicking how the universe balances its own field. On a cosmic scale, the process is identical. The universe maintains equilibrium by routinely sending a Proton Ring from its core out toward the periphery. Anything caught within that ring undergoes a sort of healing process. Our Earth follows this exact same cycle every 26,000 years, where the conscious levels of beings here return to their intended frequency—the frequency of their soul. During these times, humanity reaches a collective peak, and civilizations hit their absolute zenith. Of course, it doesn't stay there. Periodically, the cells of the human collective isolate themselves again, acting through a veil of fear. This drives consciousness downward, sometimes even toward total self-destruction. That’s exactly where we find ourselves right now: our technology has outpaced our actual capacity for understanding and our level of awareness. Because of this gap, we're seeing an influx of souls entering "life" with the specific intention of waking up to Self-knowledge. They come to use that knowledge to balance the vibrations of those whose consciousness has dropped to catastrophic levels. But a catastrophe isn't inevitable. We have spiritual access from higher dimensions down into the lower ones. From a state of Higher Consciousness, we get a bird's-eye view of Lower Consciousnesses. We step in as volunteers from above to balance this dimension from the inside, staying in constant contact with our older, more conscious brothers and sisters.

When people like this show up, their vibrations, their thoughts, and their actions act like a catalyst. They cause the collective understanding of existence to shift rapidly from the inside out. There isn't a better remedy than one that works internally. That’s how you actually make a change—without anyone hurting anyone else, without anyone threatening someone else's perspective. After all, the perspective itself is what's evolving. Once an individual's consciousness shifts, they become their own supervisor, naturally striving for internal harmony through that new lens.
(I'll be breaking down the method soon—how to balance our energy fields and what tools to use.)

But aren't the laws of nature designed such that someone always ends up hurting someone else? I am talking specifically about eating—for one thing to be full, it has to harm another.
Is that kind of existence actually harmonious?

Matthew Evans;51794136 Also, an obvious sign that the soul is realizing itself is the experience of [U says:
the joy of living.

I know that feeling of joy.

As for balance, I believe it is influenced by how everyone behaves, speaks, and thinks.
For instance, in parts of the country where people are constantly stressed, more aggressive, or obsessed with talking about violence,
those areas are mostly where negative things tend to happen.

Matthew Evans said:The preparation was simple, but it was intentional.

Back during that phase, I had this driving, almost obsessive need to figure out "who I am." I started cultivating that curiosity through things I did while taking breaks from my painting—I’m a painter by trade. Every day, I’d head out for a coffee, but eventually, I decided that instead of just sitting there, I’d listen to the same old repetitive chatter with the usual crowd and just... observe. I’d peek inward into the self. That’s what I was doing at the coffee shop. I’d find a spot, usually somewhere quiet where the sun could warm my back without blinding me or burning. I’d sit there, nearly every single day, lay out a pen and paper, close my eyes, relax, and just soak up the sun until I was completely loose. It was a kind of meditation right there in the middle of a Starbucks or a local diner—a specific way of meditating that felt right to the self, something I’d also do in my studio during breaks. Once I hit that state of no-thought, that total stillness, I’d stay there as long as necessary. Then, the second a thought surfaced in my mind, I’d start writing. I did my writing exclusively in coffee shops.

I’d jot down that first word, and I wouldn't even think about the second; I’d just recognize it as it emerged in my mind and instinctively line it up after the first, and so on, until it became clear that some kind of story was flowing out of me. While writing, I’d naturally grasp the meaning of what was already intuitively known within my spirit, and I’d just keep letting it flow into order. Usually, by the time I took the last sip of coffee and that brief little story wrapped up, I’d put a period on it.

Every story, every poem, carried its own message—something that spoke unerringly of Consciousness. Not my individual consciousness, which most people call "human consciousness," but Consciousness as the Source of all Knowledge, as the Truth.

So, the preparation was conscious and deliberate, though I had no clue what answers or insights would be left behind. The preparation itself was really just a gradual opening of the spirit toward the spirit of the absolute, so that at the moment I was sufficiently ready, my spirit could merge with the spirit of the absolute. At that point, the self vanished from the attention of the being, and the absolute became "visible" to the self. I didn't experience the enlightenment of the absolute in a coffee shop; it caught me off guard in bed, at home. Still, it happened as the direct result of all that disciplined preparation I had been doing.

This feels strangely familiar to me—it’s like déjà vu, honestly. I’ve been sitting here, staring at my screen, trying to make sense of this whole mess—this endless cycle of people talking past one another—and honestly, it just makes me want to walk away from the keyboard entirely. It feels like we're all circling the same drain. Look, I’m not trying to be difficult, but when you look at the way certain individuals approach these deep truths, it’s almost painful to witness. There’s this persistent tendency to strip away the actual weight of things, to turn profound concepts into nothing more than shallow, digestible bits of trivia. It’s lazy. It’s fundamentally lazy. Take what Matthew Evans was saying earlier—if you can even call it that—and compare it to the actual substance required for true Self-knowledge. You can't just skim the surface of the universe and expect to find the core of your own being. It doesn't work that way. It’s like trying to understand the entire American legal system by reading a bumper sticker; you aren't getting anywhere near the essence of the matter. And don't get me started on the constant misinterpretations of historical figures. People love to drag names through the mud or twist their intentions to fit some modern, flimsy narrative. It’s exhausting. We have these massive, complex ideas—concepts that touch on the very nature of the I-man and his relationship to the Self-absolute—and yet, we treat them like they’re just items on a grocery list. I remember back when I was first diving into these heavier texts—really digging into the stuff that actually challenges your worldview—I felt this immense frustration because everyone around me seemed content with the superficial. They wanted the comfort of easy answers, whereas I was looking for the grit, the struggle, the actual judgment of one's own soul. We need to stop this trend of intellectual dilution. If we are going to discuss the nature of the Being-that-is or the complexities of the unconsciousness, we have to do it with some level of respect for the depth involved. Otherwise, we're just shouting into a void, wasting our breath on a debate that has no foundation. It’s just noise. Pure, unadulterated noise.
It’s not just happening at some local dive bar, either—it’s happening right out in my own backyard. Usually happens late at night, too. And we aren't talking about a casual cup of coffee here; it’s more like a glass of whiskey and a Coke—and, of course, a Black Devil cigarette. 😁

I’ve never really felt that spark—that sudden, driving urge to actually sit down and put pen to paper. Writing just isn't my thing. But I have definitely experienced a different kind of stimulus—more like these sudden, intense bouts of physical twitching—that makes me want to just writhe around. 😲

Every single story—every poem, really—has always carried its own core message. It’s something that speaks with an unerring clarity about Consciousness itself. And I don't mean my own little personal consciousness—the kind most people mistakenly label as "human consciousness"—but rather Consciousness as the Source of all Knowledge, the ultimate Truth.

It reminds me of the way Aleister Crowley used to scribble away at The Book of Law—just that same raw, unfiltered energy.

So, look—I was going about my preparations with total intention. It wasn't some accidental drift; I was being conscious, deliberate, and purposeful about every single step. But even then, I honestly had no clue what kind of answers or insights I’d end up leaving behind in the process. The whole preparation phase was really just this slow, gradual opening of my spirit toward the spirit of the absolute—almost like a tuning process. I was waiting for that specific moment where I’d finally be ready enough, so that my spirit could simply merge and become one with the spirit of the absolute. Back then, the I-man simply faded from the Being's perception—and in that moment, the I-absolute finally became "visible" to the self. Now, don't get me wrong, people always expect these massive spiritual breakthroughs to happen in some trendy coffee shop or a bustling downtown bistro, but that wasn't my story. I didn't hit enlightenment while sipping a latte at Starbucks; instead, I was just caught off guard right there in my own bed, at home. In the end, it happened—just as a direct result of all the deliberate groundwork I’d been laying down beforehand.

I’m curious, though—how did this sudden "awakening" of yours actually trigger? What was that process like for you, and what was really going on inside your head during the whole thing?
As for me, unfortunately, I haven't quite managed to leap across the abyss yet while practicing my own little routine out in the garden:
I’d fix my gaze on one particularly brilliant star. I’d start visualizing how, 13.5 billion years ago, everything was just a single point. Not just that star, mind you, but the entire universe and the entirety of my own SELF within it. I’d try to perceive myself as the original singularity—the "I." Then, this intense sensation would kick in—something I first encountered back when I was doing those yoga jumps at the local gym. Except, in this case, that core desire for movement—which usually sits at the base of the spine in that technique—would migrate up into my neck and my head. It triggers this violent, churning feeling because I'm desperately trying to mentally leap over the void, but I just... can't.

Sam Martinez9 said:I’ve already attempted to find an answer to the question I’m about to pose, but I haven't come close to finding clarity, let alone a definitive response.

The subject at hand is the nature of being and its constituent parts, so perhaps there is some luck to be found here.

It seems worth noting that I am currently in my fifties. Over the course of these five decades, both my physical body and my mind have undergone constant transformation. I have studied, I have lived, and I have accumulated experiences; life itself has reshaped me.

And yet, despite all that change, I am left with the impression that I am still that same wide-eyed, curious child, watching this magnificent and magical world unfold. To put it more precisely, I have this sensation that there is one specific part of me—a core part—that represents the true *me*, which has remained virtually untouched by the passage of these fifty years.

I am curious to know if any other members here share this same feeling, or this same sense of self.

Look, the whole deal with the human spirit—that sense of being a complete, unified self—is its continuity. Every single morning when you roll out of bed, you’re still you. Plain and simple. Sure, your nature (the way your human spirit actually functions) might shift around. Even if you flip-flop your mood or change your mind about something (or swap out any other part of yourself), you’re still fundamentally the same person. That’s why what we call our "current nature" is just that—it's current. People tend to label whatever mood or disposition they happen to be in right now as their "true" self simply because it’s convenient[1] or fits the moment.

[1] Opportune - appearing at a specific time; timely or appropriate.

The fact that you're leaning so hard into this idea of "childlike curiosity and wonder" right now actually colors how you look back at your own past. This kind of emphasis shapes how your memories are even formed in the first place. If you were to pull out those other sides of your memory, you’d probably get a much clearer, more complex picture, proving that depending on where you're standing emotionally, you actually construct slightly different versions of what happened.

I'm wondering if there are any other people on this forum who feel the exact same way, who have this same impression of themselves.

Is there some deep, essential reason why you're hunting for others who think like this, or are you just looking for some kindred spirits to make chatting a little easier?

Matthew Evans said:So, I could go ahead and say, "Wow, look how brilliant this guy is." But I won't. Instead, I’ll just say this: take your opinions and shove them back into whatever mental boxes you’ve built for yourself. You can try to force my writing into those same little molds if you want, but let me save you the trouble—it’s never going to fit.
Don't waste your breath. You’re better off just looking out for yourself. Honestly—and I'm still pretty new to this place—if you're the one running the show here, deciding who gets to speak and which sub-forum they belong in, then I might as well pack my bags and head for the exit right now.

There isn't anything wrong with the fact that you're actually easy to figure out.
You're just another one of those self-proclaimed spiritual gurus who thinks they've sucked all the wisdom straight out of the Source of all spiritual energy, and therefore, clearly, the universe has hand-picked you to be some kind of global leader for humanity.

But honestly, you're just making things unnecessarily complicated by hiding behind these massive walls of text and flowery poetry, because if you actually laid out your ideas in a short, clear way, everyone would see the glaring holes, the cracks, and the sheer stupidity that serves as the shallow foundation of your whole act.

Peter Phillips32 said:There isn't anything wrong with the fact that you're actually easy to figure out.
You're just another one of those self-proclaimed spiritual gurus who thinks they've sucked all the wisdom straight out of the Source of all spiritual energy, and therefore, clearly, the universe has hand-picked you to be some kind of global leader for humanity.

But honestly, you're just making things unnecessarily complicated by hiding behind these massive walls of text and flowery poetry, because if you actually laid out your ideas in a short, clear way, everyone would see the glaring holes, the cracks, and the sheer stupidity that serves as the shallow foundation of your whole act.

So, responding to your first comment and your reaction to my writing, I gave you an answer—one where you failed to find any actual message or meaning, choosing instead to double down on the same tone. Essentially, you're acting like a judge over everyone else. You sit there passing judgment on what people do and why they do it, judging their motives, but you can only play that role when you identify with the mechanism of judgment itself: the intellect. That isn't a spiritual "achievement." It's just a symptom of falling into deep unconsciousness. Not "you"... I'm not talking about your ego, because sure, you read, you write, you use logic, but I'm not talking about "you," I'm talking about You, the Being-that-is, which has fallen asleep by staring too hard at the intellect—specifically, into one of its polarities: the subject of one's own experience. It’s no wonder you judge; judgment is the very foundation of that relationship. You judge "good" or "evil," which really means you're judging an object based on whether its appearance in your subjective consciousness fits your current mental framework. In other words, does it align with the system of beliefs you use as a filter to process information? Judgment is just that filtering process. Based on your filter, you decide if the info fits or doesn't, nothing more. That kind of filtering... it has zero connection to truth. Of course, it has everything to do with the relative position you've taken, the position where you've centered your own will and attention.

So, there's nothing wrong with understanding, but the question is: "what is it that you have understood?" The very act of judgment you take before everything else said reveals what you consider to be "understanding." You've confused grasping facts with true comprehension, elevating your own judgment to the level of absolute Self-knowledge, which can only be perceived by the spirit.

Peter Phillips32 said:There isn't anything wrong with the fact that you're actually easy to figure out.
You're just another one of those self-proclaimed spiritual gurus who thinks they've sucked all the wisdom straight out of the Source of all spiritual energy, and therefore, clearly, the universe has hand-picked you to be some kind of global leader for humanity.

But honestly, you're just making things unnecessarily complicated by hiding behind these massive walls of text and flowery poetry, because if you actually laid out your ideas in a short, clear way, everyone would see the glaring holes, the cracks, and the sheer stupidity that serves as the shallow foundation of your whole act.

Yeah, sure. And why does it bother you so much that you felt the need to broadcast your judgment regarding me and my "emptiness" to the public?

I write what I write because I know it, and I offer what I know. Since you've already reached a verdict on me and my work, go ahead—back it up. Point out those "gaps" and argue why they exist. If you won't, then every comment of yours intended to condemn me or my words will be dismissed as irrelevant—just another outburst of envy. I won't feed your hunger. Take care. 🙂

Matthew Evans said:So, responding to your first comment and your reaction to my writing, I gave you an answer—one where you failed to find any actual message or meaning, choosing instead to double down on the same tone. Essentially, you're acting like a judge over everyone else. You sit there passing judgment on what people do and why they do it, judging their motives, but you can only play that role when you identify with the mechanism of judgment itself: the intellect. That isn't a spiritual "achievement." It's just a symptom of falling into deep unconsciousness. Not "you"... I'm not talking about your ego, because sure, you read, you write, you use logic, but I'm not talking about "you," I'm talking about You, the Being-that-is, which has fallen asleep by staring too hard at the intellect—specifically, into one of its polarities: the subject of one's own experience. It’s no wonder you judge; judgment is the very foundation of that relationship. You judge "good" or "evil," which really means you're judging an object based on whether its appearance in your subjective consciousness fits your current mental framework. In other words, does it align with the system of beliefs you use as a filter to process information? Judgment is just that filtering process. Based on your filter, you decide if the info fits or doesn't, nothing more. That kind of filtering... it has zero connection to truth. Of course, it has everything to do with the relative position you've taken, the position where you've centered your own will and attention.

So, there's nothing wrong with understanding, but the question is: "what is it that you have understood?" The very act of judgment you take before everything else said reveals what you consider to be "understanding." You've confused grasping facts with true comprehension, elevating your own judgment to the level of absolute Self-knowledge, which can only be perceived by the spirit.

Yeah, sure. And why does it bother you so much that you felt the need to broadcast your judgment regarding me and my "emptiness" to the public?

I write what I write because I know it, and I offer what I know. Since you've already reached a verdict on me and my work, go ahead—back it up. Point out those "gaps" and argue why they exist. If you won't, then every comment of yours intended to condemn me or my words will be dismissed as irrelevant—just another outburst of envy. I won't feed your hunger. Take care. 🙂

Haha 😂
It's easier for you to make up all this mindless nonsense about me than it is to actually explain your ideas briefly and clearly.

That's enough about your guru complex.

Yeah, yeah. And why does it bother you so much that you felt the need to air your Judgment regarding me and my 'flaws' in public?

I write what I write because I know it, and I'm offering what I know. Right now, I'm giving you the chance to take that Judgment you've formed about me and my writing and actually back it up. Point out those flaws and argue why they exist. If you don't, then every single comment (of this type) where you try to condemn me or my work will be dismissed as irrelevant—just an outburst of envy. Therefore, I'll ignore them... I won't feed your hunger. Peace. 🙂

I made it pretty clear: "explain your ideas briefly and clearly, and the holes, cracks, and pathetic failures will become obvious."

Go ahead, give it another shot. This time, try it without insulting your opponent and shifting the burden of proof for your own claims onto them.

Peter Phillips32 said:Haha 😂
It's easier for you to make up all this mindless nonsense about me than it is to actually explain your ideas briefly and clearly.

That's enough about your guru complex.

Yeah, yeah. And why does it bother you so much that you felt the need to air your Judgment regarding me and my 'flaws' in public?

I write what I write because I know it, and I'm offering what I know. Right now, I'm giving you the chance to take that Judgment you've formed about me and my writing and actually back it up. Point out those flaws and argue why they exist. If you don't, then every single comment (of this type) where you try to condemn me or my work will be dismissed as irrelevant—just an outburst of envy. Therefore, I'll ignore them... I won't feed your hunger. Peace. 🙂

I made it pretty clear: "explain your ideas briefly and clearly, and the holes, cracks, and pathetic failures will become obvious."

Go ahead, give it another shot. This time, try it without insulting your opponent and shifting the burden of proof for your own claims onto them.

I present my Self-knowledge exactly how I see fit. If the way I deliver it—or what I'm actually saying—doesn't sit right with you (if it doesn't pass through whatever bias-filter you're using to process reality)... then don't read it. (The moment you see my name, just skip it, RUN). What I write isn't specifically targeted at you; obviously, it's meant for whoever needs to read it exactly as it stands. Period.

Peter Phillips32 said:Look, the whole deal with the human spirit—that sense of being a complete, unified self—is its continuity. Every single morning when you roll out of bed, you’re still you. Plain and simple. Sure, your nature (the way your human spirit actually functions) might shift around. Even if you flip-flop your mood or change your mind about something (or swap out any other part of yourself), you’re still fundamentally the same person. That’s why what we call our "current nature" is just that—it's current. People tend to label whatever mood or disposition they happen to be in right now as their "true" self simply because it’s convenient[1] or fits the moment.

[1] Opportune - appearing at a specific time; timely or appropriate.

The fact that you're leaning so hard into this idea of "childlike curiosity and wonder" right now actually colors how you look back at your own past. This kind of emphasis shapes how your memories are even formed in the first place. If you were to pull out those other sides of your memory, you’d probably get a much clearer, more complex picture, proving that depending on where you're standing emotionally, you actually construct slightly different versions of what happened.

I'm wondering if there are any other people on this forum who feel the exact same way, who have this same impression of themselves.

Is there some deep, essential reason why you're hunting for others who think like this, or are you just looking for some kindred spirits to make chatting a little easier?

That isn't really the point. It seems you haven't quite grasped what I'm getting at, either.

And that’s exactly why I find myself constantly looking for people on these forums who think along similar lines. I'm essentially searching for those who have walked a comparable path—people whose own lived experiences might offer them the necessary context to truly grasp the nature of my questions.

I can't exactly crawl inside someone else's head to see what they’re actually thinking or feeling, of course. I can only ever get a secondhand glimpse through their words and descriptions. But I suspect I'm not some singular anomaly here; I assume there are plenty of others out there who feel exactly the same way.

I have to say, I’ve posed this question several times now, and much like my experience just now, I haven't actually received a real answer. Even when someone does take the time to respond, it becomes painfully obvious that they didn't truly grasp what I was getting at in the first place.

So, why didn't he get what I was driving at? There are a few ways to look at it. First off, my description probably wasn't sharp enough; if you don't lay it out clearly, people aren't going to see themselves in the narrative. Then there's the issue of comprehension—they simply missed the point entirely. It could also be that they haven't walked the same path I have. Or, more likely, even if they *do* share the same experiences, they just reach into their own little mental stockpiles and pull out whatever fragment of information they think constitutes an answer, when in reality, it’s completely irrelevant to the core of the matter.

You’re the one who put that together. You reached into your own reservoir of information to pull out what you thought might be an answer, but it just isn't. I have a very clear understanding of what continuity actually means, and I am acutely aware of the other side of that coin—my own personal evolution. I can look back and vividly recall being a five-year-old child who knew absolutely nothing, feeling all those raw, unformed emotions, and hold that up against the woman I am today. Now, in my fifties, I carry a lifetime of accumulated perspective on the world around me—from the complexities of politics and human nature to the intricacies of global affairs, biology, and economics.

Matthew Evans said:I present my Self-knowledge exactly how I see fit. If the way I deliver it—or what I'm actually saying—doesn't sit right with you (if it doesn't pass through whatever bias-filter you're using to process reality)... then don't read it. (The moment you see my name, just skip it, RUN). What I write isn't specifically targeted at you; obviously, it's meant for whoever needs to read it exactly as it stands. Period.

Maybe I’m just being thick—honestly, maybe I’m just slow on the uptake or my reasoning is fundamentally flawed—but man, I am having a hell of a time trying to follow you through this labyrinth of ideas. It’s like... well, it's like trying to read a map while someone is constantly shaking the table. I'm struggling to keep pace here. 😲😁😲
And that—right there—is exactly why I stick to the PRACTICE.

Look, you actually wrote this:

Even Sigmund Freud couldn't wrap his head around this one—not even close. Because, let's be honest—there’s just zero actual experience to back that up. To even begin talking about confirming something like that, Sigmund Freud would have to stop being Sigmund Freud. It needs to stop being perceived as just some individual expression of the absolute—it’s gotta go back to the Self (the absolute). Only through that direct, raw relationship between one's own Will, focused attention, and the actual substance of the absolute (the Self)—specifically through the spirit of the absolute (Consciousness)—can one finally uncover the truth about the Being that they so stubbornly claim they are NOT.

So, this brings me back to a question that’s been rattling around my brain lately—how exactly does someone like Sigmund Freud, or honestly, any of us hanging out in this digital corner of the internet, actually undergo an experience so profound that we cease to be just some "individual expression of the absolute"? It's a heavy thought, I know, but I can't help but dwell on it.
And that he finally returns to his Source.
I honestly feel like we’re all just sitting here spinning our wheels—fighting over nothing more than which way the wind blows a flag on a flagpole. It feels completely trivial. I’ve been sitting here thinking about this whole mess—this endless loop we seem to be stuck in—and honestly, it’s exhausting. It feels like we're just circling the drain of our own making. You look at what people are saying, how they interpret things through such a narrow lens, and you realize how little anyone actually understands about the core of the matter. Take what Matthew Evans was getting at earlier—it’s almost comical how much effort goes into misinterpreting the fundamental truth. We spend all this time debating the surface level, the trivialities, while the actual essence remains untouched by our noise. It reminds me of those long, pointless debates I used to get dragged into back in college—those late nights in the dorm where everyone thought they were a philosopher because they’d read a single chapter of a textbook. It’s the same thing here. We’re intellectualizing ourselves into a corner. And then there’s the question of the self. Everyone wants to talk about "finding" themselves, as if the self is some hidden treasure buried in the backyard. They don't realize that the self isn't something you find; it's the very foundation of everything. If you don't grasp the concept of the Self-absolute, you're basically just shouting into a void. You're trying to build a house on sand without even realizing the ground is shifting beneath your feet. It's like what Sigmund Freud used to suggest about the unconsciousness—we are constantly being driven by these deep, hidden currents that we refuse to acknowledge because it's too uncomfortable. It’s easier to argue about semantics than to face the reality of our own being. We'd rather stay in the comfort of our delusions than face the weight of true Self-knowledge. Honestly, most of these discussions feel like they're designed to distract us from the real work. We get caught up in the personalities, the egos, the constant need to be "right." But being right doesn't mean anything if you're disconnected from the absolute. It’s all just noise—empty, hollow noise. We need to stop looking outward for answers and start looking inward, though I know how much people hate hearing that. It's too much work. It's much easier to just keep arguing on a forum.

So, let me just wrap this up and put it back to you: what exactly was it that you went through during your awakening?

If we don't find a way to actually experience that kind of "awakening," then we’re all just going to end up like some clueless Joe Schmoe wandering through this life—completely lost, totally oblivious, and frankly, a bit pathetic. A guy walks into a high-end bar in Manhattan—one of those places where even the ice cubes look expensive—and he sits down next to this incredibly polished, suit-wearing executive. The executive looks him up and down, sees his worn-out jacket and tired eyes, and decides to be patronizingly "charitable." The exec leans over and says, "You know, son, if you worked hard, stayed focused, and climbed the corporate ladder like a real professional, you wouldn't be sitting here looking so lost. You could be sitting right where I am, enjoying the finer things in life." The guy takes a slow sip of his cheap beer, looks the man dead in the eye, and says, "That’s funny... because I actually did all that. I worked my tail off, I played by all the rules, and I stayed laser-focused on the goal. Now, I’m just sitting here waiting for the guy who actually owns this place to come out and tell me why my paycheck hasn't cleared yet."

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Benjamin Taylor6 said:Maybe I’m just being thick—honestly, maybe I’m just slow on the uptake or my reasoning is fundamentally flawed—but man, I am having a hell of a time trying to follow you through this labyrinth of ideas. It’s like... well, it's like trying to read a map while someone is constantly shaking the table. I'm struggling to keep pace here. 😲😁😲
And that—right there—is exactly why I stick to the PRACTICE.

Look, you actually wrote this:

Even Sigmund Freud couldn't wrap his head around this one—not even close. Because, let's be honest—there’s just zero actual experience to back that up. To even begin talking about confirming something like that, Sigmund Freud would have to stop being Sigmund Freud. It needs to stop being perceived as just some individual expression of the absolute—it’s gotta go back to the Self (the absolute). Only through that direct, raw relationship between one's own Will, focused attention, and the actual substance of the absolute (the Self)—specifically through the spirit of the absolute (Consciousness)—can one finally uncover the truth about the Being that they so stubbornly claim they are NOT.

So, this brings me back to a question that’s been rattling around my brain lately—how exactly does someone like Sigmund Freud, or honestly, any of us hanging out in this digital corner of the internet, actually undergo an experience so profound that we cease to be just some "individual expression of the absolute"? It's a heavy thought, I know, but I can't help but dwell on it.
And that he finally returns to his Source.
I honestly feel like we’re all just sitting here spinning our wheels—fighting over nothing more than which way the wind blows a flag on a flagpole. It feels completely trivial. I’ve been sitting here thinking about this whole mess—this endless loop we seem to be stuck in—and honestly, it’s exhausting. It feels like we're just circling the drain of our own making. You look at what people are saying, how they interpret things through such a narrow lens, and you realize how little anyone actually understands about the core of the matter. Take what Matthew Evans was getting at earlier—it’s almost comical how much effort goes into misinterpreting the fundamental truth. We spend all this time debating the surface level, the trivialities, while the actual essence remains untouched by our noise. It reminds me of those long, pointless debates I used to get dragged into back in college—those late nights in the dorm where everyone thought they were a philosopher because they’d read a single chapter of a textbook. It’s the same thing here. We’re intellectualizing ourselves into a corner. And then there’s the question of the self. Everyone wants to talk about "finding" themselves, as if the self is some hidden treasure buried in the backyard. They don't realize that the self isn't something you find; it's the very foundation of everything. If you don't grasp the concept of the Self-absolute, you're basically just shouting into a void. You're trying to build a house on sand without even realizing the ground is shifting beneath your feet. It's like what Sigmund Freud used to suggest about the unconsciousness—we are constantly being driven by these deep, hidden currents that we refuse to acknowledge because it's too uncomfortable. It’s easier to argue about semantics than to face the reality of our own being. We'd rather stay in the comfort of our delusions than face the weight of true Self-knowledge. Honestly, most of these discussions feel like they're designed to distract us from the real work. We get caught up in the personalities, the egos, the constant need to be "right." But being right doesn't mean anything if you're disconnected from the absolute. It’s all just noise—empty, hollow noise. We need to stop looking outward for answers and start looking inward, though I know how much people hate hearing that. It's too much work. It's much easier to just keep arguing on a forum.

So, let me just wrap this up and put it back to you: what exactly was it that you went through during your awakening?

If we don't find a way to actually experience that kind of "awakening," then we’re all just going to end up like some clueless Joe Schmoe wandering through this life—completely lost, totally oblivious, and frankly, a bit pathetic. A guy walks into a high-end bar in Manhattan—one of those places where even the ice cubes look expensive—and he sits down next to this incredibly polished, suit-wearing executive. The executive looks him up and down, sees his worn-out jacket and tired eyes, and decides to be patronizingly "charitable." The exec leans over and says, "You know, son, if you worked hard, stayed focused, and climbed the corporate ladder like a real professional, you wouldn't be sitting here looking so lost. You could be sitting right where I am, enjoying the finer things in life." The guy takes a slow sip of his cheap beer, looks the man dead in the eye, and says, "That’s funny... because I actually did all that. I worked my tail off, I played by all the rules, and I stayed laser-focused on the goal. Now, I’m just sitting here waiting for the guy who actually owns this place to come out and tell me why my paycheck hasn't cleared yet."

It’s actually pretty simple: Once you finally return to the Source—once you actually wake up—you realize you are God.
When you finally cycle back from that state and reintegrate into experience—let's say, you’re just an ordinary guy again—you aren't starting from scratch. You emerge as someone with an upgraded awareness of the Self-God. It’s a heightened state of being that you keep sharp, all thanks to that specific process of pulling your attention back toward the Self-absolute.

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A bit more context:

First, you need the hunger to know, followed by the groundwork—basically, training the Being’s will and attention to slowly turn toward the Self. But when I say "toward the Self," I’m talking about that thing which can never be perceived through subjective imagery. I mean the true I. Once a Being is sufficiently prepared, the enlightenment of the absolute (the Self) happens exactly when you least expect it. Why? Because that's the only time you're actually free from striving. Every attempt at striving is just an exercise in concentrating attention through the intellect. You can't perceive something that doesn't vibrate using mere logic. As long as you remain conscious of the object you're chasing—as long as you're thinking and focusing on a vibrating thought—enlightenment won't happen. It means you have to be ready to voluntarily surrender everything that makes you a distinct creature, including Consciousness itself. This doesn't imply that, as a Being, you are totally unaware of what you're trying to achieve. Quite the opposite; you've simply placed your intention in the hands of the Self-God. Even before enlightenment, you've already had intuitive flashes of Consciousness (the spirit of the absolute), including glimpses of that "thing" you're searching for. But you could never truly conceptualize it; your intellect just couldn't grasp the absolute. This preparation is essentially an intuitive education in how to surrender unconditionally, placing total trust in that absolute spirit that has been feeding you instructions until now. By developing intuition, you arrive at inevitable Knowledge, which allows you to surrender with confidence. The path to total surrender is the path to total trust—which leads to an absolute freedom from the fear of loss, from death, and from the terror of non-existence. Through this kind of spiritual self-education, you become calm and composed, yet still driven by the desire for total Self-knowledge, ready to accept whatever Consciousness decides to offer you. When you are fully surrendered to Consciousness, that is the moment all barriers dissolve and the spirit of the creature returns to the absolute spirit. Truly, that is when the Being, through a will that is already surrendered to Consciousness, shifts its attention away from the projection of experience—away from the subject's intellect—and onto the absolute itself: onto what remains when the projection is "switched off." Onto the true Self.

It’s pretty simple, really. When a Being directs its entire focus inward toward the self—toward the absolute—that absolute becomes illuminated by an absolute spirit. That reflection of what truly is merges with the thing itself. In that moment, that initial core of what exists (the absolute) and the absolute spirit (Consciousness) become one single, absolute unit of Self-knowledge.

Look, I’m telling you, it all comes down to the Self-absolute. Think about it: if Knowledge itself is absolute, then that Absolute is absolute too. That means every single bit of individual Self-knowledge—which is really just a reflection of the quality of the absolute—acts as a container for every other piece of Self-knowledge out there. In this kind of absolute relationship, the Being becomes God. Once consciousness turns inward and excludes unconsciousness, the human spirit as we know it simply ceases to exist. It has to happen that way for the Source to reveal itself. At that point, the Being isn't some "creature" anymore; it's become the Self-absolute, or God.

If God is the absolute—the one who truly knows the Self—then that Knowledge contains everything necessary for what *is* to actually exist. It’s all there, sitting in that pool of potential. Within that same Consciousness, everything is already known. We're talking total Self-knowledge: every quality of the absolute, the mechanics of projection, the principles of existence, and pretty much anything else you could possibly wrap your head around. But here’s the thing: Knowledge isn't the manifestation itself. Because the Being understands this, it pulls its attention and will back into an individual projection. It carries that Knowledge along, expanding the spirit of creation and trying to fulfill that primal drive—the original intention of the soul to realize itself. That’s why that spiritual Knowledge gets funneled down into the human intellect. It has to be processed and understood so it can actually be put to work, attempting to refine reality until it mirrors the purest expression of the soul.

Sam Martinez9 said:That isn't really the point. It seems you haven't quite grasped what I'm getting at, either.

And that’s exactly why I find myself constantly looking for people on these forums who think along similar lines. I'm essentially searching for those who have walked a comparable path—people whose own lived experiences might offer them the necessary context to truly grasp the nature of my questions.

I can't exactly crawl inside someone else's head to see what they’re actually thinking or feeling, of course. I can only ever get a secondhand glimpse through their words and descriptions. But I suspect I'm not some singular anomaly here; I assume there are plenty of others out there who feel exactly the same way.

I have to say, I’ve posed this question several times now, and much like my experience just now, I haven't actually received a real answer. Even when someone does take the time to respond, it becomes painfully obvious that they didn't truly grasp what I was getting at in the first place.

So, why didn't he get what I was driving at? There are a few ways to look at it. First off, my description probably wasn't sharp enough; if you don't lay it out clearly, people aren't going to see themselves in the narrative. Then there's the issue of comprehension—they simply missed the point entirely. It could also be that they haven't walked the same path I have. Or, more likely, even if they *do* share the same experiences, they just reach into their own little mental stockpiles and pull out whatever fragment of information they think constitutes an answer, when in reality, it’s completely irrelevant to the core of the matter.

You’re the one who put that together. You reached into your own reservoir of information to pull out what you thought might be an answer, but it just isn't. I have a very clear understanding of what continuity actually means, and I am acutely aware of the other side of that coin—my own personal evolution. I can look back and vividly recall being a five-year-old child who knew absolutely nothing, feeling all those raw, unformed emotions, and hold that up against the woman I am today. Now, in my fifties, I carry a lifetime of accumulated perspective on the world around me—from the complexities of politics and human nature to the intricacies of global affairs, biology, and economics.

Well, if you don't know how to frame your question and you keep getting useless answers, then maybe next time you should figure out how to word it so you don't end up with those same wrong answers you already know aren't helpful.

So, just ask it again in a way that won't trigger those incorrect responses you aren't looking for in the first place.

That's just how you handled it. You reached into your own little stash of knowledge and pulled out something that might sound like an answer, but it isn't. Because I know damn well what continuity is, and I'm fully aware of my own growth. I can look back at myself as a five-year-old kid who knew nothing and had certain emotions, and compare that to who I am today—a woman in her fifties who knows what she knows about the world, politics, people, nations, biology, economics... and so on.

You can only be aware of your own nature evolving in a theoretical sense; having the idea of such change is one thing. But thinking you actually know who you were as a five-year-old? That’s most likely just a manufactured memory mixed with a tiny bit of reality. Those generalizations about how five-year-olds act are just that—tiny bits of reality—and the rest is just making stuff up by stitching those generalizations onto fragments of childhood memories.

If you really want to convince me I wrote something wrong, you're going to have to try a lot harder than that. Nothing short of posing the "right question" and finding the right answer is going to move the needle for me. And honestly, just a heads-up: stop lecturing me on my "wrong beliefs" regarding how much of memory is made up, and just focus on finding the "right question." I mean, hey, it's your call which matters more to you.

Benjamin Taylor6 said:Maybe I’m just being thick—honestly, maybe I’m just slow on the uptake or my reasoning is fundamentally flawed—but man, I am having a hell of a time trying to follow you through this labyrinth of ideas. It’s like... well, it's like trying to read a map while someone is constantly shaking the table. I'm struggling to keep pace here. 😲😁😲
And that—right there—is exactly why I stick to the PRACTICE.

Look, you actually wrote this:

Even Sigmund Freud couldn't wrap his head around this one—not even close. Because, let's be honest—there’s just zero actual experience to back that up. To even begin talking about confirming something like that, Sigmund Freud would have to stop being Sigmund Freud. It needs to stop being perceived as just some individual expression of the absolute—it’s gotta go back to the Self (the absolute). Only through that direct, raw relationship between one's own Will, focused attention, and the actual substance of the absolute (the Self)—specifically through the spirit of the absolute (Consciousness)—can one finally uncover the truth about the Being that they so stubbornly claim they are NOT.

So, this brings me back to a question that’s been rattling around my brain lately—how exactly does someone like Sigmund Freud, or honestly, any of us hanging out in this digital corner of the internet, actually undergo an experience so profound that we cease to be just some "individual expression of the absolute"? It's a heavy thought, I know, but I can't help but dwell on it.
And that he finally returns to his Source.
I honestly feel like we’re all just sitting here spinning our wheels—fighting over nothing more than which way the wind blows a flag on a flagpole. It feels completely trivial. I’ve been sitting here thinking about this whole mess—this endless loop we seem to be stuck in—and honestly, it’s exhausting. It feels like we're just circling the drain of our own making. You look at what people are saying, how they interpret things through such a narrow lens, and you realize how little anyone actually understands about the core of the matter. Take what Matthew Evans was getting at earlier—it’s almost comical how much effort goes into misinterpreting the fundamental truth. We spend all this time debating the surface level, the trivialities, while the actual essence remains untouched by our noise. It reminds me of those long, pointless debates I used to get dragged into back in college—those late nights in the dorm where everyone thought they were a philosopher because they’d read a single chapter of a textbook. It’s the same thing here. We’re intellectualizing ourselves into a corner. And then there’s the question of the self. Everyone wants to talk about "finding" themselves, as if the self is some hidden treasure buried in the backyard. They don't realize that the self isn't something you find; it's the very foundation of everything. If you don't grasp the concept of the Self-absolute, you're basically just shouting into a void. You're trying to build a house on sand without even realizing the ground is shifting beneath your feet. It's like what Sigmund Freud used to suggest about the unconsciousness—we are constantly being driven by these deep, hidden currents that we refuse to acknowledge because it's too uncomfortable. It’s easier to argue about semantics than to face the reality of our own being. We'd rather stay in the comfort of our delusions than face the weight of true Self-knowledge. Honestly, most of these discussions feel like they're designed to distract us from the real work. We get caught up in the personalities, the egos, the constant need to be "right." But being right doesn't mean anything if you're disconnected from the absolute. It’s all just noise—empty, hollow noise. We need to stop looking outward for answers and start looking inward, though I know how much people hate hearing that. It's too much work. It's much easier to just keep arguing on a forum.

So, let me just wrap this up and put it back to you: what exactly was it that you went through during your awakening?

If we don't find a way to actually experience that kind of "awakening," then we’re all just going to end up like some clueless Joe Schmoe wandering through this life—completely lost, totally oblivious, and frankly, a bit pathetic. A guy walks into a high-end bar in Manhattan—one of those places where even the ice cubes look expensive—and he sits down next to this incredibly polished, suit-wearing executive. The executive looks him up and down, sees his worn-out jacket and tired eyes, and decides to be patronizingly "charitable." The exec leans over and says, "You know, son, if you worked hard, stayed focused, and climbed the corporate ladder like a real professional, you wouldn't be sitting here looking so lost. You could be sitting right where I am, enjoying the finer things in life." The guy takes a slow sip of his cheap beer, looks the man dead in the eye, and says, "That’s funny... because I actually did all that. I worked my tail off, I played by all the rules, and I stayed laser-focused on the goal. Now, I’m just sitting here waiting for the guy who actually owns this place to come out and tell me why my paycheck hasn't cleared yet."

Isn't it kind of weird how everyone who disagrees with him is automatically wrong, as if this "guru of humanity" simply must be right? It's almost like—dare I say it—he's just another spiritualist in a long line of guys delivering monologues about their own superior truth. If reverse psychology exists, then this guru of humanity is the first one to actually prove "reverse gurulism."

And please, for the love of God, stop throwing in convenient little stories about your anti-guru hero, K. g. U.

Matthew Evans said:I present my Self-knowledge exactly how I see fit. If the way I deliver it—or what I'm actually saying—doesn't sit right with you (if it doesn't pass through whatever bias-filter you're using to process reality)... then don't read it. (The moment you see my name, just skip it, RUN). What I write isn't specifically targeted at you; obviously, it's meant for whoever needs to read it exactly as it stands. Period.

But look, I personally met Jesus, and I was hit with these heavy arguments about his Truth, his Path, and his Life back when I was just a kid. There was just one tiny little catch, though. Jesus turned out to be just some kid from the neighborhood.

I mean, when you finally come face-to-face with the most powerful figure in religious history—someone who's basically a guru that avoids anyone with a different opinion like Satan avoids frankincense—what happens?

Honestly, you've got pretty low standards if you're just one of those people who thinks, "Well, as long as at least one person finds happiness," and then you pat yourself on the back thinking you've accomplished your life's mission.

You're standing at a crossroads here, and you've got a choice: you can keep churning out these massive mountains of nonsense text just to reach one or two people who will become your mindless little cult followers, or you can actually try to explain your ideas concisely and clearly, aiming to foster some actual understanding through real conversation.

Peter Phillips32 said:Well, if you don't know how to frame your question and you keep getting useless answers, then maybe next time you should figure out how to word it so you don't end up with those same wrong answers you already know aren't helpful.

So, just ask it again in a way that won't trigger those incorrect responses you aren't looking for in the first place.

That's just how you handled it. You reached into your own little stash of knowledge and pulled out something that might sound like an answer, but it isn't. Because I know damn well what continuity is, and I'm fully aware of my own growth. I can look back at myself as a five-year-old kid who knew nothing and had certain emotions, and compare that to who I am today—a woman in her fifties who knows what she knows about the world, politics, people, nations, biology, economics... and so on.

You can only be aware of your own nature evolving in a theoretical sense; having the idea of such change is one thing. But thinking you actually know who you were as a five-year-old? That’s most likely just a manufactured memory mixed with a tiny bit of reality. Those generalizations about how five-year-olds act are just that—tiny bits of reality—and the rest is just making stuff up by stitching those generalizations onto fragments of childhood memories.

If you really want to convince me I wrote something wrong, you're going to have to try a lot harder than that. Nothing short of posing the "right question" and finding the right answer is going to move the needle for me. And honestly, just a heads-up: stop lecturing me on my "wrong beliefs" regarding how much of memory is made up, and just focus on finding the "right question." I mean, hey, it's your call which matters more to you.

Isn't it kind of weird how everyone who disagrees with him is automatically wrong, as if this "guru of humanity" simply must be right? It's almost like—dare I say it—he's just another spiritualist in a long line of guys delivering monologues about their own superior truth. If reverse psychology exists, then this guru of humanity is the first one to actually prove "reverse gurulism."

And please, for the love of God, stop throwing in convenient little stories about your anti-guru hero, K. g. U.

But look, I personally met Jesus, and I was hit with these heavy arguments about his Truth, his Path, and his Life back when I was just a kid. There was just one tiny little catch, though. Jesus turned out to be just some kid from the neighborhood.

I mean, when you finally come face-to-face with the most powerful figure in religious history—someone who's basically a guru that avoids anyone with a different opinion like Satan avoids frankincense—what happens?

Honestly, you've got pretty low standards if you're just one of those people who thinks, "Well, as long as at least one person finds happiness," and then you pat yourself on the back thinking you've accomplished your life's mission.

You're standing at a crossroads here, and you've got a choice: you can keep churning out these massive mountains of nonsense text just to reach one or two people who will become your mindless little cult followers, or you can actually try to explain your ideas concisely and clearly, aiming to foster some actual understanding through real conversation.

Oh, I intend to ask again. I'll pose the question once more, though certainly not right now—there’s just no point in doing it this second. The opportunity will present itself again eventually. Or perhaps it won't. It's entirely possible that I'll never actually land on an answer to this particular inquiry. Still, I suppose it doesn't matter much; so many questions in this life go unanswered anyway. I can live with that.

That doesn't mean the answers—including yours—are insignificant. In fact, it’s quite the opposite; they carry immense weight. Through this process, I've managed to uncover things I hadn't even realized I was looking for. It's funny, really; I've found myself answering questions I didn't even know I had posed to my own self.

I have no desire to persuade you, nor anyone else, of anything. That isn't my purpose here. I'm not here to peddle my own answers or convince people to adopt my perspective; I am simply here to find the answers to my own questions.

I only laid everything out like that to make sure my question was clear; I wasn't trying to force my perspective on you or win an argument.

In the end, you’ve actually managed to answer my question, haven't you? You seem convinced that I'm just cheating my way through this, or perhaps that I've simply lost my way. You hold this conviction that there isn't some immutable core within a person—that there is nothing unchanging in the human soul. In your view, the man I am today at fifty-something is operating under the exact same flawed preconceptions about himself that he held back when he was only five years old. That is essentially your position, and for that clarity, I thank you.

Peter Phillips32

One more thing.

Since every answer just seems to trigger another question, there's one specific thing I'd love to get from you:

Why do you think that?

I mean, is it because you genuinely don't feel what I'm feeling deep within your own self, or is it simply because you're drawing that conclusion from everything you've learned up to this point? In other words, is your response merely the logical byproduct of your accumulated knowledge?

Peter Phillips32 said:Well, if you don't know how to frame your question and you keep getting useless answers, then maybe next time you should figure out how to word it so you don't end up with those same wrong answers you already know aren't helpful.

So, just ask it again in a way that won't trigger those incorrect responses you aren't looking for in the first place.

That's just how you handled it. You reached into your own little stash of knowledge and pulled out something that might sound like an answer, but it isn't. Because I know damn well what continuity is, and I'm fully aware of my own growth. I can look back at myself as a five-year-old kid who knew nothing and had certain emotions, and compare that to who I am today—a woman in her fifties who knows what she knows about the world, politics, people, nations, biology, economics... and so on.

You can only be aware of your own nature evolving in a theoretical sense; having the idea of such change is one thing. But thinking you actually know who you were as a five-year-old? That’s most likely just a manufactured memory mixed with a tiny bit of reality. Those generalizations about how five-year-olds act are just that—tiny bits of reality—and the rest is just making stuff up by stitching those generalizations onto fragments of childhood memories.

If you really want to convince me I wrote something wrong, you're going to have to try a lot harder than that. Nothing short of posing the "right question" and finding the right answer is going to move the needle for me. And honestly, just a heads-up: stop lecturing me on my "wrong beliefs" regarding how much of memory is made up, and just focus on finding the "right question." I mean, hey, it's your call which matters more to you.

Isn't it kind of weird how everyone who disagrees with him is automatically wrong, as if this "guru of humanity" simply must be right? It's almost like—dare I say it—he's just another spiritualist in a long line of guys delivering monologues about their own superior truth. If reverse psychology exists, then this guru of humanity is the first one to actually prove "reverse gurulism."

And please, for the love of God, stop throwing in convenient little stories about your anti-guru hero, K. g. U.

But look, I personally met Jesus, and I was hit with these heavy arguments about his Truth, his Path, and his Life back when I was just a kid. There was just one tiny little catch, though. Jesus turned out to be just some kid from the neighborhood.

I mean, when you finally come face-to-face with the most powerful figure in religious history—someone who's basically a guru that avoids anyone with a different opinion like Satan avoids frankincense—what happens?

Honestly, you've got pretty low standards if you're just one of those people who thinks, "Well, as long as at least one person finds happiness," and then you pat yourself on the back thinking you've accomplished your life's mission.

You're standing at a crossroads here, and you've got a choice: you can keep churning out these massive mountains of nonsense text just to reach one or two people who will become your mindless little cult followers, or you can actually try to explain your ideas concisely and clearly, aiming to foster some actual understanding through real conversation.

Look, that Jesus you ran into might have actually been Jesus, but he probably wasn't the same guy they call Christ.

Look, I’ll break this down for you since you seem lost: Jesus—even if we assume he was a real historical figure, which isn't out of the question—is nothing more than the personification of universal knowledge. For reasons entirely predictable within the framework of Christendom, they just slapped the label "Christ" on it. Personification simply means taking a concept, like universal knowledge, and giving it a face and a name so people can wrap their heads around it.

So, that version of Jesus you’re talking about couldn't possibly be the same personification of Christ—it clearly isn't the same guy. But sure, he could have been, just like any one of us who manages to elevate their own consciousness to the level of the universe's consciousness. It's all part of the same thing. Christ The whole thing about an entity manifesting within a human body... honestly, save the religious fairy tales about the birth of Jesus for someone else. It’s all noise to me. None of that stuff has anything to do with actually awakening the Self-knowledge within a person.

Peter Phillips32 said:Well, if you don't know how to frame your question and you keep getting useless answers, then maybe next time you should figure out how to word it so you don't end up with those same wrong answers you already know aren't helpful.

So, just ask it again in a way that won't trigger those incorrect responses you aren't looking for in the first place.

That's just how you handled it. You reached into your own little stash of knowledge and pulled out something that might sound like an answer, but it isn't. Because I know damn well what continuity is, and I'm fully aware of my own growth. I can look back at myself as a five-year-old kid who knew nothing and had certain emotions, and compare that to who I am today—a woman in her fifties who knows what she knows about the world, politics, people, nations, biology, economics... and so on.

You can only be aware of your own nature evolving in a theoretical sense; having the idea of such change is one thing. But thinking you actually know who you were as a five-year-old? That’s most likely just a manufactured memory mixed with a tiny bit of reality. Those generalizations about how five-year-olds act are just that—tiny bits of reality—and the rest is just making stuff up by stitching those generalizations onto fragments of childhood memories.

If you really want to convince me I wrote something wrong, you're going to have to try a lot harder than that. Nothing short of posing the "right question" and finding the right answer is going to move the needle for me. And honestly, just a heads-up: stop lecturing me on my "wrong beliefs" regarding how much of memory is made up, and just focus on finding the "right question." I mean, hey, it's your call which matters more to you.

Isn't it kind of weird how everyone who disagrees with him is automatically wrong, as if this "guru of humanity" simply must be right? It's almost like—dare I say it—he's just another spiritualist in a long line of guys delivering monologues about their own superior truth. If reverse psychology exists, then this guru of humanity is the first one to actually prove "reverse gurulism."

And please, for the love of God, stop throwing in convenient little stories about your anti-guru hero, K. g. U.

But look, I personally met Jesus, and I was hit with these heavy arguments about his Truth, his Path, and his Life back when I was just a kid. There was just one tiny little catch, though. Jesus turned out to be just some kid from the neighborhood.

I mean, when you finally come face-to-face with the most powerful figure in religious history—someone who's basically a guru that avoids anyone with a different opinion like Satan avoids frankincense—what happens?

Honestly, you've got pretty low standards if you're just one of those people who thinks, "Well, as long as at least one person finds happiness," and then you pat yourself on the back thinking you've accomplished your life's mission.

You're standing at a crossroads here, and you've got a choice: you can keep churning out these massive mountains of nonsense text just to reach one or two people who will become your mindless little cult followers, or you can actually try to explain your ideas concisely and clearly, aiming to foster some actual understanding through real conversation.

Everything Jesus knew, I know. Anyone who has managed to elevate their consciousness to the level of universal consciousness shares that exact same Knowledge. It’s simple: because Jesus, myself, and others like us have raised our awareness to that same frequency, we all possess the same universal Knowledge. We aren't just followers; he, I, and those of us on this path are simply the physical embodiments of that Knowledge itself. Not the man, but the truth he carried. ChristThat’s exactly why that specific attribute was grafted onto Jesus within Christendom. He ceased to be just some man named Jesus and became Jesus Christ. The living, breathing embodiment of universal knowledge.

Sam Martinez9 said:Oh, I intend to ask again. I'll pose the question once more, though certainly not right now—there’s just no point in doing it this second. The opportunity will present itself again eventually. Or perhaps it won't. It's entirely possible that I'll never actually land on an answer to this particular inquiry. Still, I suppose it doesn't matter much; so many questions in this life go unanswered anyway. I can live with that.

That doesn't mean the answers—including yours—are insignificant. In fact, it’s quite the opposite; they carry immense weight. Through this process, I've managed to uncover things I hadn't even realized I was looking for. It's funny, really; I've found myself answering questions I didn't even know I had posed to my own self.

I have no desire to persuade you, nor anyone else, of anything. That isn't my purpose here. I'm not here to peddle my own answers or convince people to adopt my perspective; I am simply here to find the answers to my own questions.

I only laid everything out like that to make sure my question was clear; I wasn't trying to force my perspective on you or win an argument.

In the end, you’ve actually managed to answer my question, haven't you? You seem convinced that I'm just cheating my way through this, or perhaps that I've simply lost my way. You hold this conviction that there isn't some immutable core within a person—that there is nothing unchanging in the human soul. In your view, the man I am today at fifty-something is operating under the exact same flawed preconceptions about himself that he held back when he was only five years old. That is essentially your position, and for that clarity, I thank you.

So, why won't you just stand behind what you say, or even just participate in a decent debate? Just because everyone is entitled to an opinion doesn't mean nobody has the right to defend theirs.

Get it? There’s nothing more "spiritual" or ontologically special about some guy who refuses to show even a shred of passion when defending his own thoughts and ideas.

You think I'm deluded, or lost, or that there isn't something within a person that remains unchanging,

I didn't actually write that; I was talking about the continuity of the feeling of self which stays constant, versus the nature of that feeling of self which changes.

you think that me, being in my fifties, have some wrong idea of myself from back when I was five.

The brain doesn't finish developing until you're about 25;
long-term memory stores bits and pieces of experience, but most of those aren't actual data or info regarding the nature of the human spirit;
and the current state of the human spirit is what shapes how those memories are formed.

Those are three factors that make it highly likely I'm onto something here.

Sam Martinez9 said:Peter Phillips32

One more thing.

Since every answer just seems to trigger another question, there's one specific thing I'd love to get from you:

Why do you think that?

I mean, is it because you genuinely don't feel what I'm feeling deep within your own self, or is it simply because you're drawing that conclusion from everything you've learned up to this point? In other words, is your response merely the logical byproduct of your accumulated knowledge?

Well, if my answer is the logical product of my knowledge, then it’s the correct answer.

Matthew Evans said:Look, that Jesus you ran into might have actually been Jesus, but he probably wasn't the same guy they call Christ.

Look, I’ll break this down for you since you seem lost: Jesus—even if we assume he was a real historical figure, which isn't out of the question—is nothing more than the personification of universal knowledge. For reasons entirely predictable within the framework of Christendom, they just slapped the label "Christ" on it. Personification simply means taking a concept, like universal knowledge, and giving it a face and a name so people can wrap their heads around it.

So, that version of Jesus you’re talking about couldn't possibly be the same personification of Christ—it clearly isn't the same guy. But sure, he could have been, just like any one of us who manages to elevate their own consciousness to the level of the universe's consciousness. It's all part of the same thing. Christ The whole thing about an entity manifesting within a human body... honestly, save the religious fairy tales about the birth of Jesus for someone else. It’s all noise to me. None of that stuff has anything to do with actually awakening the Self-knowledge within a person.

Everything Jesus knew, I know. Anyone who has managed to elevate their consciousness to the level of universal consciousness shares that exact same Knowledge. It’s simple: because Jesus, myself, and others like us have raised our awareness to that same frequency, we all possess the same universal Knowledge. We aren't just followers; he, I, and those of us on this path are simply the physical embodiments of that Knowledge itself. Not the man, but the truth he carried. ChristThat’s exactly why that specific attribute was grafted onto Jesus within Christendom. He ceased to be just some man named Jesus and became Jesus Christ. The living, breathing embodiment of universal knowledge.

The only thing that ever actually confused me when I personally ran into Jesus—you know, that guy from the neighborhood who preached about the self—was where did Jesus go? Because after a few months, nobody knew where he had gone.

Matthew Evans said:I present my Self-knowledge exactly how I see fit. If the way I deliver it—or what I'm actually saying—doesn't sit right with you (if it doesn't pass through whatever bias-filter you're using to process reality)... then don't read it. (The moment you see my name, just skip it, RUN). What I write isn't specifically targeted at you; obviously, it's meant for whoever needs to read it exactly as it stands. Period.

If you wrote any differently, I wouldn't even bother reading you. Thanks for that.

To be "right"—what does that even mean? Who knows; there is no need for external validation.
Expressing one's views and sharing insights is noble.
Defending those views, however, inherently implies an attack.
Feeling attacked suggests there is nothing outside of oneself.