Amanda Wood2 said:Hey everyone.
For the last few years, I’ve been dealing with this endless sadness that actually turns into physical pain and health issues.
When I finally get my head on straight, I know I *should* be happy, but this feeling just destroys me.
I grew up in a house with an aggressive father, and I definitely see the fallout from his outbursts. I moved out at 17 and worked my tail off while finishing school—cleaning toilets every morning and waitressing on weekends. I kept grinding through college just to pay my way. By 23, right after graduation, I was just chronically exhausted and totally drained. Then, things seemed to "work out"—I landed this amazing job that required moving back to my hometown. And, like, on paper everything is fine. I'm young, I'm fit, I have money, I built it all myself... but I'm sad. Just endlessly, deeply sad.
I saw a therapist who basically told me I need to figure out what I want from life and just "stop" this feeling.
I used to love pushing my body to the limit, but not anymore... I go 62 miles (literally) and there's zero rush left.
I'm just done. Done with life, people, ambition (theirs), everyone else's expectations, and this total emotional void.
I need help... what do I even do?
Look, I’m not really big on psychology myself—I tend to lean more toward psychiatrists since they feel a bit closer to actual hard science, you know?
I need help... what should I do?
Honestly? You’re feeling empty because you’re looking for fulfillment.
The stuff that used to make you feel whole just doesn't cut it anymore because you've grown up. As you get older, you start seeing the world through a much more realistic lens, and let's face it—that perspective sucks sometimes. The goal now is to work with some pros to find something new that actually resonates with who you are now.
I don't know about you, but back when I was hitting rock bottom, leaning into spirituality and religion really helped pull me through—just throwing that out there as an example. Maybe it’s traveling, maybe it’s getting a dog, I'm just rambling here, but everyone finds their own way to fill that void.